Disclaimer: If I was Stephanie Meyer, there would have been a lot more cute scenes between Edward and Bella in BD (but I'm not, so that's not the case) Now for the wait of Midnight Sun!
In Too Deep
APOV
I was beat, but I had to go see if Bella was okay. Edward stopped me before I got out the door saying that he would do it. How cute. He could be really good for Bella. I hope they hit it off. If not then I'm gonna have to intervene.
I looked at the clock and it was early the next day. Ugh! This day was so fantastic. And to top it all off Jasper was going to sleep in the same room as me. Eek! Good thing I packed the pajama outfits Bella and I… well really I, bought the other day.
When I was done changing I was ready to go to sleep. Mike, the Eje's manager was staying in our room for whatever reason, and looked like he was already asleep, on the floor. He had a blanket and pillow, of course, it was still pretty awkward, and freaky though.
Em and Rose were in a room down the hall, I didn't even want to know what they were doing in there.
And Jasper and Edward agreed to stay in this room with Bella and I.
Edward was going to sleep on the couch, and Jasper on a recliner in the suite we had.
I jumped on the ginormous bed in my new pajamas, that were cute and comfortable. It was a plaid pair of shorts in baby pink and green, with a nice baby green camisole that had a pink flowery design coming up the left side of it. I dressed Bella in a pair of Pink brand sweats that were lime green with a pink dog on its upper left corner, and a pink T-shirt that looked athletically cute.
What can I say? I love pink and green!
As I jumped into bed Jasper was on the right of me reading a book under a lampshade.
"What's that?" I asked.
"Oh, it's just a book that was in that bookshelf over there, about the war of 1812."
"Ugh!" I said in a disgusted fashion. "1812?! Their outfits must've been hideous. And those wigs they wore! Its like they were trying to look old, I mean it's the exact opposite in these days, people would dye their hair any color as long as it isn't white!"
Jasper chuckled. "I suppose you are right. But I was always interested in being a part of the military, if I wasn't doing this. What more could I do for my country then fight for it?"
Jasper, in war? I hope that never has to happen. Thank goodness he's so good at playing the guitar!
"Well I'm glad that you decided to pursue music, instead of terrorists."
"At this moment, I am too." Then he flashed me a grin. "I just love the idea of fighting for what I love."
"Would you fight for me Jasper?" I asked. I was pretty sure of the answer, but I wanted to hear him say it.
"Without a doubt." he answered like it was so obvious.
I wanted to squeal, but I settled for a very large grin hidden behind the comforter I was clutching at.
I laid down to bed as if going to sleep, and Jasper went to the bookshelf to put the book back. When he was about to turn off the light I faked a shiver.
"Oh, its pretty chilly in here." I said, a bit flirtingly.
Jasper saw through my act, knowing exactly what my intentions were. He always seemed to know how I was feeling. "Alice Cullen, Are you trying to hit on me?" He asked accusingly.
"I'm just a little cold." I replied innocently.
"Maybe you should have put more clothes on."
"Ugh!" I said tired of this game, he needed to get in this bed already! " Are you gonna make me have to force you to come here? You know I could do it, and would do it, too!"
He chuckled one more time then turned off the lights, and snuggled up next to me.
He made me so happy, I wish I could spend every night with him. I would do anything to spend every night with him. I'd follow him across the world, just as long as we get to stop at a few shops along the way. And even if we didn't that would be fine. He would be worth it. Clothes and money, I would throw them all away to spend my time with Jasper, he was just that great.
"Jazz?" I asked a bit timidly, that must've startled him. My timidness, not my sudden question.
"Yeah??"
"When are you guys leaving?"
"We usually spend about 2 weeks in every area, our next concert isn't until about 3 weeks, I think?"
"Do you guys have to stay in Seattle?"
"We have a mini concert at a local place because a friend of ours owns it, and we promised him. That's in 2 days, but after that, we're free to go anywhere we want until the Phoenix concert." This heightened my hopes up a bit.
"Well, what do you say for spending some time in Forks?"
"Where?" He asked as if I was speaking some kind of alien language.
"FOH-R-K-SS" I enunciated every syllable, like I was speaking to a hearing impaired person. "it's a small town about 4 hours away from here."
"You live in a town called Forks?" he asked sounding amused, I knew what was coming next, this happened every time anyone heard of what my hometown was called. "Is there a town-"
"No, no town named spoons, no knives, not even ladles, Forks."
"Okay, okay, I was just joking. So you want me to come to Forks?"
"Well not just you but the whole band, if they want to." And even if Edward doesn't want to go, I'm forcing him, I added to myself mentally.
"I'll talk to the band about it."
"Please tell me your persuasive?"
"I can usually get their emotions to sway my way." he replied, a bit smugly.
"Good." Now that I knew I had at least 3 more weeks left with Jasper, and Bella gets a chance with Edward, I could finally relax. And I was out in a minute.
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I woke up to slamming on the door of our hotel room. Jasper let go of me to go answer it.
"Well morning, brother!" Emmett's booming voice called out, it sounded more like he was saying morning to a stadium filled with cheering fans.
"Em keep it down a notch," Jasper replied to him sleepily.
"And I thought me and Rose stayed up late last night!"
"Too much information, what are you guys doing here so early?"
"Well Rose and I decided that since we've got no plans today, and how you two guys can't let go of your new friends, we should hang out today," Emmett said.
"Uh, huh, and where exactly?"
"Wild Waves!"
"Oh my gosh! That would be so awesome!" I squealed, Icouldn't hold my excitement in. I loved the thrill of theme parks
"Sweet," Emmett replied. "Now if only the cute little couple on the couch will agree."
"Huh?" I asked confused, Bella was suppose to be sleeping next too me, on the bed. I turned my gaze towards the left, and on the couch was the cutest thing ever! "Oh My Goodness!" I screamed again.
"What happened?" Rose asked as she walked in, Starbucks in hand. She followed my gaze. "Awe! How cute!"
"Rose we've got to take a picture! Go in my bag, in that left pocket is a camera, get it out for me, please?" Rose handed me my camera, and as I was about to go sneak a pic at the precious sight I saw, I almost tripped over Mike's extended arm. I looked down at him and that had to be the funniest thing I've seen. His shirt was ruffled up so half his chest was bare, up to his neck. The arm that wasn't extended was in his open mouth between his teeth. Emmett saw what I was looking at, and being the mature person that he was, he took out a sharpie, and drew a mustache on him that curled at each end. He then continued to draw sideburns that would've made Elvis proud, and a uni-brow.
Before I took the picture Emmett pretended to be laying on Mike's extended arm so it looked like they were curled up there together, he then proceeded to hover over Mike's exposed nipple with is index finger, and put an 'Oops!' look on his face.
I snapped the picture, and we all laughed for about 15 minutes tears streaming out of all of our faces. Well all except two of us. Which reminded me what my purpose with the camera was.
I backed away from Mike, to the couch my best friend, and her soon-to-be (they better be soon-to-be) boyfriend were cuddling. It was such a cute scene. They were completely intertwined. One of Bella's legs were engulfed between his. Bella's face was snuggled between Edward's chin and shoulder, only showing a fourth of her peaceful face. One of Edward's arms was completely circled around Bella's waist, the other extended from under her head. But that wasn't even the cutest thing. One of Bella's arms was laying against Edwards chest, and the other was curled under her neck. It was curled in a way where she was lying on her own shoulder, and her hand was flaying in the air. But it wasn't in the air alone. It was intertwined with Edward's. They looked like they were connected in everyway . I snapped 2 pictures of them, one from the top view, and one from the side. Beautiful.
"Should we let them sleep?" Jasper asked me as he circled his arms around my waist and kissed my cheek.
"Of course not! The question is, how do we wake them up?" Emmett replied. "Hmm…" he said pondering.
Bella is going to kill me for taking pictures of her sleeping, but it just proof when she tries to deny her feelings, and I know she will.
"I know!" Emmett said. The suddenly he left the room, and came back moments later with a whip cream bottle, and chocolate syrup.
"I shouldn't ask should I?" I asked eyeing the contents skeptically as to why he would have that in his room.
Jasper shook his head
"Not if you want to get through breakfast."
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BPOV
I was in someplace I've never been before. I sat down right in front of a green-eyed god, and smiled sheepishly. He smiled back. I didn't know what we were doing, or even why. I just knew that we were in that moment, enjoying each other's presence, and that I didn't really care about anything else. Details weren't important.
Then, all of a sudden I felt something on my leg, it was probably an ant. I smacked at it, and I felt something splat, gross! So I started rubbing at it, but it just kept smearing. I tried to rub my leg on something else to get the gunk off but whatever I was rubbing against wasn't sharp enough to scrape. Ugh!
I felt another ant on my face, but I learned my lesson, so I lift my arm up to wipe my face with my arm. In the process I hit something with my hand.
Then I heard giggling. I opened my eyes and saw a flash. When my eyes focused again I saw Alice holding a camera and four bodies shaking angrily with laughter. 2 of them, Emmett, and now Alice were on the floor, while Rosalie and Jasper were leaning on the bed.
What was so amusing to them?
I groaned then plunk myself right back on my arm. When I opened my eyes to glare at my four friends, I saw the reason for all their guffaws. In front of me Edward was staring at me with an amused expression.
I'm sure I had an amused face myself. He was covered in whip ream and chocolate syrup for goodness sake's.
I couldn't take it, I started cracking up.
He was so cute, and covered in chocolaty goodness. I pulled my hand up to my face to muffle my laughter when I felt that gushiness again. I looked in my hand and was shocked to find my whole hand was covered in chocolate. And now my face, and my legs too. I must be the reason Edward had chocolate on him, but he was clearly the reason I had whip cream on me. He was red, well, white I guess, handed.
I stared at him in shock for a second, ready to say my sorrys but then he started laughing big barking laughs. I had to laugh with him. I'm sure we were a very funny sight to see.
I wanted to check if my other hand held any substance I should be worried about, but as I tried to pull it, it wouldn't budge. I was holding onto something and I didn't know what.
I sat up on my elbow and saw that my hand, and Edward's were locked together. Edward was still laughing so he didn't notice my assessment.
I was shocked again, and pulled away from his grasp quickly. This startled him a bit and he looked at me with curious eyes.
I wonder if he knew we were holding hands while we slept together.
Oh my. We slept together. Of course we didn't do it in a provocative manner, but we were still sleeping in each other's arms. Suddenly, the room was getting hot, I needed to take a scold shower, something to get away from this sudden heat wave.
I hopped from my place on the couch, but it was a little hard, I didn't realize Edward had his arm around my waist. And it held me to him pretty securely.
I practically ran to the bathroom and sat down on a counter where the sink was in. I just needed a minute to collect my thoughts. What happened last night?
"Edward?" I whispered to him, a part of me wishing he was awake, and the other part, wishing he wasn't.
"Yes Bella?"
"Oh." I said a bit shocked, I guess more of me was hoping he hadn't heard me. "You're awake?"
"Yes, is there something you need?"
Might as well pull through with this…
"Uhm, well kinda, well actually no, never mind" I couldn't.
"Please Bella, you can tell me." Did he have to plead? Why were cute guys so stupidly, cute?!
"I know. But it'd be such a burden, never mind. I can't believe I was actually gonna ask."
"You should ask, now please what is it?" he asked anxiously.
"Just give me a minute?" Just ask Bella, I pleaded with myself, if not your going to be an insomniac for the rest of your life.
"Of course."
"Ugh! Fine I'll ask." I said, speaking to myself aloud. . Here goes nothing. "Edward? I can't sleep."
"Oh, Do you want some milk or something?" he was clearly taken aback by my statement. Milk, hah, I could only wish that was the reason why vampires had a better chance of sleeping than I at the moment.
Come on Bella, follow through with this. Confidence is key.
"No , I'm scared." I finally said, hoping he'd get the hint.
I swear it was probably only 2 minutes or so that passed, but it seemed like eternity. My cheeks were burning from embarrassment, I was getting ready for rejection.
"Do you…" he trailed off, which made me more nervous. "Do you want to sleep over here?" He finally asked.
I exhaled a big gust of air. Silently thanked the heavens above, and crawled in next to him before I could change my mind.
Again he was comforting me. I truly didn't deserve such a great person like this. I started to tear up again, whether I was scared, sad, or just relieved, I wasn't so sure. I knew I liked being in his arms though.
After I apologized for my tears, he said a few more soothing words to me and I fell asleep instantly.
end of flashback
I was so comfortable with him. And he was holding on to me too.
But this felt so wrong. If I truly liked him like I think I did, wouldn't I be able to give him up? For his own sake? Of course, I would give anything to him, or take anything back for him. It was the least I could do.
A knock on the door interrupted my thoughts.
"Bella, I'm so sorry! We couldn't help ourselves." Alice came in with an apologetic look on her face, but still had little muffles of laughter escaping her lips. "Forgive me?" She asked with her specialty Alice puppy dog eyes and a pout to match.
"Yeah, whatever." I told her, I was still lost in my thoughts, what they did to us this morning seemed like nothing. But Edward covered in chocolate was a nice sight. Ugh!!
"Oh come on Bella!" she pleaded.
"I told you I'd forgive you."
"No, you gave me a half-ass 'yeah, whatever' that means nothing. It just shows how quickly you want to get rid of me, now, Forgive me darling sister?" She asked again.
"Yes Alice, I forgive you okay?" I told her clearly showing how much she was annoying me in my voice. She looked sad when I glanced at her again. Great, guilt trip! "Look Alice, I'm sorry, I truly do forgive you, I just have a lot on my mind…and on my body" I realized. " I have to take a shower."
"Yes you most certainly do need a shower, but first we need to talk," she said as she scooted next to me, her legs dangling. "What is on your mind?"
"You know, you saw." I told her.
"Yes, I saw two gorgeous people lying together on a couch, and the sight was something you see on those 'Classic love songs' CDs. You two were precious." I was about to interject but she beat me. "But! I have no idea how you two got there. So ready to start a relationship are we Miss Swan?"
"No Alice I'm not! And Shush! These doors aren't exactly sound proof."
"Oh don't worry, no ones out there, they went back to their tour bus." Her words and my reaction surprised me. I was disappointed. They already left? Edward must think I'm some tramp. "No worries though, Grumpy. We'll see them later today, we're all hanging out."
"We are? Where are we going?"
"It's a surprise. And! Our agreement still stands, you are to have fun, okay?"
"I can't guarantee you anything."
"Oh Bella. Please!"
I realized that she half asked this for me, and for herself.
"You really like him don't you, Allie-kins?" I asked her in a softer tone. Love and relationships were not a thing we discussed often. Mostly because neither of us were in any. Also because we knew relationships could cause cracks in our friendship. That wasn't something we wanted to talk about. We'd always be friends, it would just be that we wouldn't need each other as much. Well, she won't need me as much as I need her anymore.
"I really do Bell-a-Bear." I couldn't help but smile at that. At the nicknames, and at my best friend's happiness.
We used those nicknames when we were kids. We have so many, we always messed around. Allie-kins was usually the general one I used for her.
Bell-a-bear came from when we both visited a Build-A-Bear for the first time. I made one for her, and she made one for me. When we were both done I gave her the bear I made and said 'Here you go! Your first Bella-Bear!' she was going to hand me mine, but decided against it and ran away from me and went back in the store.
I followed her in confused, then she tapped me on the shoulder and shoved my bear, that she made into my arms. "Your Bell-a-Bear!" she said. The bear had a necklace on with a bell on it that matched the one on the bear I gave her. She thought I meant Bell-a-Bear, and that act consisted of pulling a bell somewhere on a bear, apparently. I laughed, and she smiled. Its been a tradition that anytime we give each other a bear, there always has to be a bell on it.
I loved our little traditions, and nicknames. Even though I wanted nothing more than Alice to be happy, and know that she would be loved unconditionally, I was still sad that our friendship wouldn't be as strong as it always was.
Before the sadness coul dshow on my face, I got back to the conversation.
"I truly am happy for you Al."
"I'm happy for you too Bell,"
"Why?" I asked confused.
"Well, you and Edward of course, right?"
"Oh, no! No way! I was just shook up, I needed some comforting, but there's nothing between the two of us!" I said as if what she said was the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard.
"Bella, hon, don't deny it. Your just going to hurt Edward and yourself. I saw you two. People that don't care for each other don't hold hands in their sleep. The only two people I've seen do that, not counting you two, were Allie and Noah from the Notebook." Alice replied back
"No Alice! We're not, I'm not, he's not! Ugh! Its nothing. We're barely friends."
"Yeah, barely even friends, then somebody bends, unexpectedly... Beauty and the Beast." She finished the lyric in a very high voice. "Very cute love story, I mean Hey! You already got Bell working for you, and for all you know the Beasts real name could've been Edward! But I'd say you two would just be Beauty and Beauty, "
"Alice! Stop, we're not! That's not what I was trying to get at, we've known each other less than a day."
"Who are you trying to convince, Bella? I saw you two, nothing your saying can deny the truth of your eyes."
"We can't Alice," I replied back miserably, I wouldn't let Alice's words seep in, I couldn't, she doesn't understand!
"But Bella, you can. You can let such a beautiful thing happen if you'd just let it. I know what you real problem is Bell. You've let cancer eat at you for too long now. You can't let it take away the chance of you falling in love Bella! That's too great an opportunity."
"I wouldn't, I didn't. I already fell." I admitted, to her and myself. It felt more right saying it out loud.
"Oh Bella," Alice said as she held me in a hug. "It's such a great feeling isn't it?"
I shrugged.
"Edward loves you too, you know?" Alice saw how my face didn't change, how it was still filled with the sorrow she saw when she first entered. "Your not going to let this happen are you?"
"How could I Alice?" I practically screamed at her. Tears were beginning to escape. "How could I do that to him? If he felt half the same way I did, I couldn't put him through that hurt! What? I love him for 6 months, and 5 of those months long distance, we both get in too deep, then I'm gone forever, and he's left devastated?" I sniffled.
"So you do know he loves you."
"No! I don't think he is. He can't! I know what love does to people, Alice! Charlie almost killed himself when Renee moved away! I'm barely in love and I'm already freaking out! Edward can't feel the same way I do for him! Not when I can only offer 6 months, then promise heartbreak at the end of it!"
"So what? Your just going to pretend you two didn't sleep together? Your gonna forget that he comforted you better than anyone else can? Your going to take away a piece of his heart before you even give it to him?" Alice retorted back. She hated it when cancer interfered with my life. She only wants what's best for me, I understand. But I need what's best for Edward. Whatever the cost. "Your both in too deep Bella, where you two are at, there's no more fish in the sea! Its just you two! That's all you two can see, are you going to make both of you travel those waters alone?"
"He'll resurface eventually, get back to where all the other fish are."
"No, your going to leave him in the dark-"
"Exactly! I'm going to leave him in the dark If we both get in even deeper! And instead of dragging him in deeper, I'm letting him go now, I can face the darkness on my own!"
"Bella!"
"Alice!" I retorted back. I could barely see through my tears. I hated arguing with Alice. I needed her. She was my shoulder.
"I love you Bella, but your so damn stubborn. This is going to work out no matter how long you resist. Your only one part of the equation."
"Edward doesn't feel the same way as I do."
"You don't know that."
"You don't know that I'm wrong."
"No, but Jasper does. He said he's never seen Edward so happy, so interested in one person so much as he is with you. Jazz says he gets bored with people easily, but you capture Edwards attention so easily."
"So I'm a freak show, so what?"
"No! You're a stubborn girl that can't see a good relationship if she was happily in one! Now go take a shower, we meet the guys at ten. Wear this." She held up a pair of khaki shorts and a printed white and royal blue tank top. The sleeves weren't spaghetti straps, they seemed like soft rope, and were braided. The top part of the shirt was fitted in the chest area then hung loosely.
"What's the occasion?" I asked. This outfit was way too plain for Alice's taste, for one, Alice never has an outfit without accessories., and two I liked it.
"We're going to a theme park, wear comfy shoes, and put this bathing suit on!" Before I could shriek my 'What?!' she flitted out the door.
I looked at the bathing suit hesitantly. It was a bikini. Naturally. Damn Alice! They were navy blue with white and navy blue striped straps. On the bottoms was a chained linked chain across the front of it, with a white anchor hanging off it.. It was cute I had to admit, but, I couldn't pull it off. I didn't even wanna try. Maybe I could accidentally forget to put it on? I'm sure Alice would guess my plan and bring an even skimpier pair for me to wear.
Whatever. I'll deal with this when I have to. I needed to jump in the shower.
I let the warm water run over my skin. I didn't need the cool water anymore because that mini fit me and Alice made me forget about Edward covered in chocolate, and whip cream, holding my hand and… okay maybe cold water could be nice.
I didn't know what to do anymore. I didn't want to hurt Edward, but I can't seem to stay away from him. The next 2 weeks I know I will be seeing a lot of him, since Alice will be seeing a lot of Jasper. Could I manage to just be his friend? If I'm lucky maybe he'd be disgusted with me after what happened this morning, he didn't seem to be but, maybe?
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When both Alice and I were ready, after she put pointless makeup on me, we headed out to the limo.
I expected about an hour or so until we got to Wild Waves.
"Oh Bella I forgot to tell you!" she said excitedly.
"Tell me what?"
"The boys are going to be coming to Forks! Won't that be great?" she said cheerfully.
I glared at her.
"Oh come one! I know you want them to come."
"I truly don't Alice."
"Well too bad! I invited them!"
"Then I guess I'll see you in two weeks."
"Nope. If your deciding to avoid me the whole time they are there your going to have to be without me for three weeks, babe." she said matter-of-factly.
"What? Edward told me 2!" three weeks, 7 more days than I expected. Greaaaat.
"It usually is 2 but they have three weeks until their next stop this time! And they have a show tomorrow we're invited to!"
"Fantastic" I replied sarcastically.
"Lighten up! Its going to be so much fun."
"Whatever, I'm stuck with you until we get back to Forks. Just wake me up at our next stop." I decided not to argue. I made this wish for Alice anyway, might as well let her make the most of it.
I closed my eyes then was tapped in the shoulder a moment later?
"Whaaat?" I whined.
"We're here!"
"Huh? Its been like 15 minutes" I said as I stepped out of the limo. We were at Red Robin.
"Yeah I know," Alice finally answered. "We decided to all eat out first."
We entered into the restaurant and were greeted by Jasper. He was sitting on a waiting bench. Alice instantly jumped at him, and they shared a kiss. I didn't know they were that into their relation yet. That was pretty fast.
"Hey Bella." he greeted me.
"Hey" I answered back.
"Sorry by the way" he said then he walked away leading us to the table.
I guessed he was apologizing for the incident this morning with certain dessert condiments, but I couldn't help but sense a double meaning.
We walked up to a circular booth, and then I had a feeling why Jasper said sorry with such meaning.
The table was packed. Emmett was on the end, next to him, Rosalie, and next to her Edward. Next to him, clutching to his arm, was a very pretty girl with strawberry blonde hair and a gorgeous smile.
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Author's note: Yay! This was a very Alice packed chapter. I know Bella is a very selfless girl its just a part of who she is! I'm sorry!! Maybe she'll eventually turn around… unless she cares too much. Who knows.. Oh wait…. I do! But im not telling! :D Oh I finished BD, I thought it was good, but I think its my least favorite of the series. Im just happy that Jacob has a chance to be happy too, even though I'm Team Edward All The Way! Haha! And… I kinda wish Bella had a bit more to her gift ya know? The end was my favorite part, like the last two pages, just cause I love ExB being together. Anyway! Again, I don't know when I can get around to posting the next chap, but reviews equal motivation! But seriously, I need inspiration, BD kinda bummed me out. I'm not ready for it to end! I digress! I hope you enjoyed reading this!! Review Please!
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