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CHAPTER 17

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A L I C E

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Everything was silent for a moment, Emily was lying extremely still on the floor beside Edward, Bella hunched over her.

Everything happened so fast as Carlisle ran over towards Emily, observing her lifeless form.

"Is she dead?" Bella whispered, her eyes closed. Carlisle looked up, I couldn't understand his expression.

"Yes,"

I sighed, letting go of the breath I hadn't realized I was holding. And for the first time that felt like forever, my legs began to move in front of me, unsteadily carrying me to Bella's side.

"Bella!" I cried as I fell into her, wrapping my tiny arms around her solid shoulders.

She was hesitant for a moment until she slowly regained her posture and wrapped her arms around me too.

"Alice," She breathed, and I smiled a bit as Jasper let go of Emmett, who also came forward.

"Some show Bells," Emmett laughed nervously. Bella gently let go of me and smiled up at her brother.

"Thanks," She mouthed, but her eyes were infinitely sad and I regained my memory and remembered my brother lying on the floor at our feet.

"Edward." I murmured and fell to my knees beside Carlisle. Bella followed.

I grabbed his long pale fingers in my hand and held them as tight as I could, a tearless sob escaping my chest.

"Edward you have to wake up." I cried silently. When he didn't move I began to scream, the sobs now racking inside my chest.

"Edward, please! Wake up! Please! Don't do this,"

I felt Jaspers long arms wrap around me and pick me up as if I were an infant crying over a broken toy.

"Shhh," He whispered in my hair and I buried my face in his chest.

Everything was silent for a moment as we grieved, me sobbing into Jaspers chest, Carlisle searching for any kind of hope in his son and Emmett who was pretending to be fine.

"Edward?" It was Bella's soft words, as gentle as a lullaby and so full of sadness.

"I did it Edward," She whispered, and I peeked one eye out from Jaspers chest to watch her as she soothingly played with Edward's hair.

"She's gone Edward, she's gone and she's not coming back… I tried," She tried to laugh, but failed as it was a chocked laugh, a forced laugh.

"I tried to stop her, I tried to save you." She was now sobbing;

I could almost see the invisible tears pouring from her eyes. "If I was only faster, if I was only stronger…. I could have saved you Edward."

Carlisle patted her back. "Isabella, You couldn't have, Emily had it all planned out. You didn't know, it wasn't your fault…" Carlisle tried to sooth her but Bella's sobs were now audible.

"No! I could have! I should have!" She screamed, not looking at anybody. "I should have."

And the determination and regret was so clear in her words that it made my stone heart shatter.

And she laid down beside the boy on the floor, with her head resting on his shoulder looking up to his closed eyes, which could never look back at her.

And she just stayed like that, silent as the world went on around them.

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I S A B E L L A

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He took my hand, moving it from his lips, but holding it to his face.

"I love you." He said "It's a poor excuse for what I'm doing, but it's still true."

It was the first time he said he loved me- in so many words. He might not realize it, but I certainly did.

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"Forever" he vowed, still a little staggered.

"That's all I'm asking for" I said and I stretched up on my toes so that I could press my lips to his.

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the memories came, hitting me each time with as much force as the next, shaking my body and making the sobs come louder as I laid beside him looking into his unopened eyes.

"By the way," he said in a casual tone "I'm not leaving you."

Another sob came which sounded like a scream as it left my lips, almost as if I was being tortured.

"I'm not going anywhere. Not without you."

"Edward, please!" I cried, somewhere in the distance someone else was crying tearlessly too.

I could hear a tiny sound at the back of my brain, calling my name.

Maybe I was going crazy now; maybe the venom had gone to my head. But the world was still spinning around me and I was still crying, and nothing had changed.

"Bella." The voice called, and suddenly I dived into another memory.

I was standing on a cliff, looking down the endless fall to the black waters below.

Yes? I didn't speak; it was only my thoughts answering the unspoken question.

"Don't do this."

And suddenly I could recall the memory, because it was his voice. His angelic and perfect voice inside my head, maybe my mind was running amuck.

I was reliving the memory from all those years ago as I stood on the edge of the cliff, just to hear his voice.

Some more words were exchanged and his voice sounded once more, he was begging me not to. "Please, For me."

But you won't stay with me any other way.

And I felt my toes poking over the edge and I sucked in a breath, knowing what was coming next. The inevitable.

When my feet left the rock, and the wind hit my face I had that strange sense of freedom.

Why had I jumped all those years ago? Oh yes, it was because he was gone.

He had left, but he did come back.

Maybe the reason I enjoyed this freedom of the fall so much more then I had was because I knew the truth this time.

This time he wasn't coming back.

And as I fell I savoured the moment, his voice echoing in the back of my head, the rain soaking my clothes, and the wind that made me feel alive.

But as I waited to hit the water, it never came.

Because now I was lying beside Edward, still sobbing and clutching his hand.

And I remembered something.

Something that didn't come to me as a memory to be relived, but just a thought.

I remembered a dream I had, only a short time ago.

A dream, which meant I had it when I was reliving the past.

A dream about Edward, Emily and Me.

Edwards life was in jeopardy as he stood at the edge of a cliff.

A cliff.

In some distant part of my mind I realized that I had stopped crying and stopping moving, using all of my power to put this puzzle together.

Why had my dream been about Edward jumping off a cliff?

But he wasn't jumping, Emily had pushed him.

I remember his green eyes full of fear.

He was still human.

You wanted me to be human, well watch me.

"Save him Bella." Emily had said,

But how?

When I had jumped off the cliff I was saved by Jacob,

Who would save Edward?

Were my predictions even possible?

And I sat up, all the puzzle pieces finally clicking together in my head.

Alice looked at me, "Bella what's wrong?"

"I'm going to save him," I said determination strong in my voice.

"Bella Dear, that's impossible." Carlisle doubted gently, I looked at him, my gaze firm and steady as I answered my question from before.

"Anything is possible."

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