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Conflict builds character. Crisis defines it.

(Quote by Steven V. Thulon)

You know those times where you have so much confidence no one can bring you down, but then one little thing can crush your whole world. Well here, I am sitting in Edward's room and I just learned that he was on a date. A new family moved to town. The Denali's and Edward has taken their youngest daughter on a date.

I know I have no right to be upset but I can't help it. He didn't know how I felt about him. He didn't know my heart belonged to him. I can't believe I was so stupid. I finally broke down and cried. No one came to check on me. I guess they thought I wanted to be alone and they were right. Except I wanted to be alone with Edward.

I laid down, my eyelids started to get heavy. Eventually I succumbed to the darkness. When I woke up, I heard voices I couldn't quite make out. As I got more alert, I realized it was Edward and Jasper. I didn't want to disturb their conversation so I pretended as if I was still asleep.

"Yeah she wanted to come straight here when Dad got done talking to her"

"Do you know if anything else happened?"

"No. all she said was that if it wasn't for that fire the situation would have been much worse. I hate to think what he had planned but if it's what I think it was. I'll kill him."

"You would have to stand in line. Ok well you know she is fine here tonight or however long she wants to stay. I'll try to talk to her in the morning when she is awake. Maybe she will talk to me."

"That's what I'm hoping. Dad even knows something else happened. She just isn't talking. Sorry I dragged you from your date."

It's fine. We spent the entire time talking about Tanya's boyfriend and Bella. So when I got your call she understood."

I heard Jasper chuckle. "Man if you two would only realized what you two could have."

"Shut up man. Now get out of here before you wake her."

I heard his door shut and then I heard shuffling of Edward's feet. I couldn't tell where he was going so I closed my eyes just in case. I felt the bed sink in beside me and he leaned over me.

"So were you going to speak at all or just sit there and listen to the whole conversation?"

Damn I was busted. I rolled over and looked at him. I gave him the shy smile and he smiled at me. I've never really notice but his smile was somewhat lopsided. It was sexy as hell.

"I thought I was being slick."

"Yeah well I know you better than I know myself."

He was propped up on his elbow looking at me. He moved to lay flat on his back. I moved to lay my head on his chest. He put his arm around me and started playing with my hair. I heard him sigh. I knew what was coming next.

"So are you going to tell me what happened tonight?" Yup I knew that was coming.

"Does it really matter?" I knew the answer to that. Of course, I knew the answer to that. It did matter.

"Yes it does. Cause if he tried something that you didn't want, he needs to pay for it."

"I think after tonight he will get what's coming to him." I heard him chuckle. "But it done and over with. I'm through with him."

"But Bella-"

"No. No buts about it. I don't need you or Jasper trying to go after him."

"Fine. If I promise, swear to you will you tell me."

I broke down crying for like the millionth time tonight. Edward wrapped his arms around me protectively, whispering sweet words to me.

"Can I just sleep tonight? Let me get over the shock of everything and I will talk; as long as you promise."

"On my life"

We just laid there and once I again I lost the battle with darkness. But before I finally admitted defeat, I heard Edward say, "With my life I will protect you."

When I woke up the next morning, I woke up alone. I was alarmed first but I heard the shower going so I just laid there waiting on him to get out. I really didn't feel like seeing anyone right now except him. I knew I had to tell him what happened. I knew it was right in my heart. I also knew that I needed to be honest with my feelings too.

I sat up in the bed and started to play with my fingernails when he came out of the bathroom.

"Hey sleepyhead. How are you this morning?"

"I'm ok now that you're here. Come sit with me."

"Well I was going to go get breakfast if you want to join." He motioned towards the door. I was somewhat hungry so I got up and walked with him to the kitchen.

"Where is everyone? I was sure I would have bombarded this morning."

"They all went out so we could talk."

"Oh ok well what's for breakfast?"

He smiled and said anything you want. So we made breakfast together and sat there. We talked about anything and everything. Except for what happen and my feeling that is.

"Edward, can we go for a walk?

"Yeah sure. Where do you want to walk?

"Let's go to that little stream in that meadow we found out by your house."

I got up to go take a shower and get ready for our little hike to that stream. We stumbled across that place by accident. We went walking one day and lost track of time. It's so gorgeous. He had purple and yellow flowers everywhere. And it's so green.

As we started our walk, we started talking once again. The clouds looked like rain, which was not a surprise. Look at where we live. I kept on tripping so Edward grabbed my hand and held onto it. I saw silently cheering and telling myself that it was only because I am the world's clumsiest person. The whole walk we were silent. When we finally came to the stream that when I started to talk.

"He wanted to be my first. He said that all the kissing and stuff was fun and all but he was ready to take it to the next level." By this point, I was staring out into the stream and had already dropped his hand. He tried to put his hands on my shoulder for support but I walked away from him. I knew if he did that, I wouldn't be able to concentrate.

"He had candles everywhere which was nice but I knew he wasn't the person I wanted to lose my virginity to. I cared for him but not like that. I had went there to break up with him that night. He was so angry when he found out. He thought it was all about you and partly it was."

By this point, silent tears were streaming down my face. "He threw me on the bed and starting touching me everywhere. I was feeling so sick. Then people were cheering from the closet. He thought he would have audience for our first time. When he came back to me, he started taking of my clothes. After that all I know is someone yelled fire and everyone ran. James left quicker than everyone did. He was going to leave me there. He didn't care if I lived or died."

Bella was all he said and then he pulled me in his arms. After a few minutes of letting me to collect myself, he started talking again. "If something would have happened to you I would have to kill him. He doesn't deserve to live. He needs to be ripped to shreds."

"Edward it's over. I'm over it. I know some girls take time to get over but I know what I want know. I don't have him clouding my mind with things." I sat down still staring at the stream trying to collect my thoughts so I can really be honest with him.

"So when you say you went there to break up with him partly because of me, why do I have anything to do with it?"

"I've been an idiot for the past few months. Taking his side and not yours but he blindsided me. All he should me was the sweet and caring James and not this side of him. Then you slipped away completely. You didn't talk to me unless we were in biology. No one talked to me. He started to get me go to these parties and drink. I know I should have listened but would you have listened or found out for yourself?"
" We are both the most stubborn people in world so I would have tried to find out for myself." He looked at me and smiled that lopsided smile again. When he done that I couldn't help what happened next, I leaned over and kissed him. It was just a peck on the lips but I've never done that before. He looked surprised.

"What was that for?"

"For being my best friend even when I don't deserve it."

"That's what best friends are for. But there's something I want to tell you. This might be the wrong time to tell you this and I understand that you will need time."

"Ok what is it?" This time he looked like he was trying to get his thoughts together.

"Well the reason I got mad about you dating James wasn't just because of who he is. It's because he got you first."

Ok I was confused. I must have looked confused because he laughed at me.

"See in middle school, James and I was friends. Shocking? I know. Well you remember Tanya the one I went on a "date" with last night. She is like family to me. But before she became like that we were boyfriend and girlfriend. James didn't like that. He couldn't stand that I had her first."

"Like me?"

"Yeah like you. We got in this big fight about it. The sad thing is if he would have just told he liked her I would have backed off. Anyways, I'm sure this is how it went. He saw we were hanging out thinking something was going on and he thought he would swoop in and steal you away from me."

"We didn't have anything going on. Everyone knew we didn't."

"Not everyone. All this is besides the point I'm trying to get at. The thing is Bella I wanted to have you first. I wanted to be the one to hold you and kiss you. I had for a while. I hated myself because I felt like I let you slipped on by and I promised myself that if I ever got the chance to tell you how I felt I would. I know this was crappy time."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. He had felt about me the way I did him. I wonder if he felt the same now. He had to if he was telling me this.

"Do you feel the same way now?"

"Bella, I just want everything between us to be perfect. Which I know it can't be because lets face nothing in this life is perfect. I just wished it could have been under better circumstances that I was telling you all of this…"

I couldn't take this anymore. He just kept on rambling on and on.

"Edward" I said a little sternly. "Just answer the question." He looked like he was scared to answer me.

"What was the question?"

"Do you feel the same way now?" I shifted myself to where I was staring into his deep green eyes, only inches away from his face.

EPOV

"Yes" I breathed out. The next thing I know I felt her arm arch around neck and I felt this force pulling me down to her. The thing is I went willingly; she didn't have to pull me. I felt her lips touch mine it was like heaven. Hers lips where so soft. I knew I would never kiss another person as long as she was around. She pulled away too soon. She had this shy innocent look on her. My heart just flutters when I see her like this. I just want to scream at the top of the tallest building that I just kissed the love of my life.

"Edward, I feel the same way. Since that day we first met in biology, I have never been able to get you off my mind. I have always felt that I was just too plain for you. Rosalie is gorgeous and could be a model if she wanted to. And Alice has the quirkiness about her. Everyone loves her. Then there is me, what do I have to offer? I'm clumsy, medium height and not everyone can get along with me."

"You have the most beautiful, mysterious brown eyes that can tell us a story. I could just stare into your eyes for eternity. The softest hair I could just sit down anywhere and run my hands through. And it smells unbelievably good. It drives me nuts. You have the best laugh I have ever heard. Why do you think I try to make you laugh everytime I'm around? I can have the most interesting conversations with you. Do I need to go on? I can."

She just stood there smiling and shook her head no.

"Bella it killed me not talking to you but it killed me more to see him making you happy."

"Can I be honest? He never made me happy. Everytime I was smiling I was thinking of you and our friends. Yeah I had fun with him but I never had feelings for him."

The day was perfect we had no interruptions and we just ended up sitting there talking about anything and everything like we use to. Except this time, she was in my arms. I was holding her. I noticed the clouds were getting darker by the minute. That only meant one thing. Rain.

"I think we need to get out of here before the clouds break."

"Before we do, can you promise me one thing?"

"Anything"

"Don't say anything about what James did. I'll tell Jasper when I'm ready."

"Bella, something needs to be done about what he did."

"I know but honestly that fire is his payback. If you really think about it, it is. So just, let it be.

"Ok for you I will. He better thank his lucky stars I am too."

BPOV

As we were walking back, I felt like I was on cloud nine. I finally had the man of my dreams. He was mine and no one else's. By the time, we got to the back yard it had been lightly raining. The rain started to come down a little harder when I stopped. I've always wanted to kiss in the rain. Why not let it be him?

"Bella what's wrong? Why are you stopping? We need to get inside before we both catch a cold."

"I just want to do one thing. Hold still."

He just smiled and nodded. I stood on the top of my toes leaned up and pressed me lips to him. I felt his arms cradle around me. The next thing I know I was being picked up, it startled me for a moment. I wrapped my legs around him. He just held me there kissing me and smiling. Our little moment was ruined when we heard cheers and clapping come from the house. They were also screaming it's about time. He put me down and we walked inside.

(Present Day)

Just thinking about those days brought a smile to me face. Edward was really my everything. Speaking of Edward, he still hasn't come back. I wonder where he is. I stared to look for him.

"Bella" I heard Alice saying my name. "You aren't going to find him."

"That means you know where he is. Where is he?"

"I promised him I wouldn't tell so. Just sit back and finish listening to this last performer. You will find out soon enough."

"I don't like this Alice Whitlock. Not one bit."

Everyone laughed at that. However, I did as I what I was told. I know there was no arguing with her. This last performer was really good. She was cute too. Looked to be a little young. She was almost done with her song. Bucky was next. I hope Edward was back before he sung his song.

Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission

But I'm ready to fly

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know

I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on

I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world.

As she finished the crowd cheered and the house lights came on. The announcer said in like five minutes we will see who we came here to see. Edward is going to miss this. I sat there listening to my friends talk about their lives. Finally, after seeming like an hour the lights went dark. The crowd cheered and Bucky appeared on stage. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw my pixie sister-in-law jump up and down in her seat. It's a good thing she is already married because I would think she would come onto him.

Bucky sung a couple of his songs I only recognized one of them. Bucky brought out a stool and then brought out another one.

"Well I have a special treat for you tonight. I have a new c.d coming out soon. I have this one song on there that is going to be the first single. I would like to introduce you to the guy who wrote it and will be singing it tonight for you."

No way. He can't be talking about Edward. I looked over at Alice and she looked at me and winked. Oh, it is him. I can't believe he was going to sing and not tell me.

"Ladies and Gentlemen please welcome Edward Cullen."

Of course, our whole table went nuts. Then two spotlights were brought onto stage. Edward sat down, looked straight dead at me, and smiled.

"Hello I'm Edward Cullen. This song I came up with one night. Reliving things I've been through. I wrote this for my beautiful, brave wife." When he said the word wife, you heard some girls up front groan in disappointment. "This song goes out to my wife, Bella."

We were 18, it was prom night

We had our first big fight.

She said, Pull this car over

I did and then I told her, I don't know what you are crying for

I grabbed her by the hand as she reached for the door.

She said I'll walk

Let go of my hand

Right now I'm hurt, and you don't understand.

So just be quiet

Just leave, don't worry

I'll walk.

As he sung, the song tears started streaming down my eyes.