Whispers in the Dark Chapter 6: The Mission, a bleach fanfic

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Hope you like this chapter!

Ok this is a kind of changing POV chapter..lol.

Btw I made up the hall – some meeting place that's really pretty lolz

:) Thank you BlackBelt and Human.Vizard! Ily both!

RUKIA'S POV

"Enter."

Nervously, I pushed open the doors and walked into the hall. I had no idea what was in store for me. My eyes widened as I saw how big the hall was. Massive was my first thought. As I was admiring the various tapestries and paintings on the walls, I suddenly realises that Yamamoto and Hitsugaya Taichou were right in front of me. I stumbled over my robes in my haste and I quickly took a step back, my face a bright pink.

"Umm Gommensai." I muttered.

I saw Yamamoto and Hitsugaya Taichou exchange amused glances and I felt my face grow hotter with embarrassment. You're such a fool Rukia. I scolded myself.

"Now lets begin." Yamamoto cleared his throat. "I am sending you both to the real world on a three day hollow mission. I know this is your first one in a long while, but just because Aizen is dead does not mean that we should relax on our shinigami duties. Understood?"

I nodded, barely able to contain my excitement. This would be my first time seeing Ichigo, Inoue, Chad and Ishida in six weeks. I was looking forward to meeting then. Of course it would mean I'd be with the grumpy 10th division captain but that was a sacrifice I would be willing to make.

Hitsugaya opened his mouth. "When are we leaving?"

Yamamato glanced at his watch. "Be ready by six this evening."

"Hai." I said obediently.

"One more thing…" Yamamoto said quietly. At his words, we stopped in our tracks.

"I am sorry for your loss." Yamamoto said softly. "However you need to move on and rebuild your lives once more. Hinamori and Renji would want you to do that."

At his words, I felt anger. Sharp, hot, white anger burning in the back of my throat. I wanted to scream at him, to shake him that I knew all of what he was telling me. I wanted to ask him how it would feel for him if the girl he loved died. I wanted him to feel my pain and agony…but I didn't. I just stood there, staring at him until the anger and tension dissipated out of my body. I chanced a glance at Hitsugaya Taichou, and he was staring at Yamamoto Taichou with emotions I couldn't even fathom. I remembered what Unohana Taichou had told me.

"He still loves her but he hides it better than you do."

"You are not the only one suffering here Rukia. Do not ever forget that."

Could it be possible? Could he still be in love with her?

"Dismissed."

Yamamoto's firm voice jolted me out of my thoughts. Wordlessly, Hitsugaya Taichou and I walked out of the main hall.

NORMAL POV

Yamamoto Taichou watched silently as Rukia and Hitsugaya walked out of the hall. He had seen the hatred in their eyes when he had told them to move on. They would never let go of the past, they would never forgive themselves. They needed to, he knew the burden they carried. He could see it in their eyes. Even Hitsugaya, who hid his emotions better than most. It was there. They had both become more withdrawn. He sighed to himself. He wished he was young again. However wishing for the impossible was pointless.

Quickly but quietly, he shunpoed back to the 1st division for some peace and quiet.

RUKIA'S POV

Finding myself next to Hitsugaya Taichou once more, I felt awkward and unwanted. I caught a glimpse of my reflection and for once, I felt Ugly. I had no idea where that vanity and insecurity came from but I felt disgusting. I looked wrong. Looking at Hitsugaya Taichou, I remembered Hinamori. Even if one hair was out of place, she still looked beautiful.

Hinamori...

I felt tears fill my eyes and trickle down my cheeks. Aizen had no right to do this. He had no right. I wanted to -

"Are you all right?" Hitsugaya looked concerned.

I nodded. What else was I supposed to say? I quickly wiped away my tears with the back of my hand.

"Hitsugaya Taichou" I said croakily "Um are you.."

Are you still love Hinamori Momo? Is your heart still with her?

"Are you..going back to the 10th division?" I said quickly.

Hitsugaya stared at me, his emerald eyes piercing into mine. "Yes." He said quietly. "What about you?"

It suddenly felt like a dark cloud was enveloping me, I couldn't breathe. Would he understand?I felt the tears roll down my cheeks again, I couldn't bear this any longer.

"I have to go." I said in a rush.

I ran off, my heart thumping, my chest heaving and the tears falling faster. I could still feel his eyes watching me. That forbidden thought still lingered in the back of my mind. No matter what Renji wanted...

I still wanted to die.

HITSUGAYA'S POV

Why? Why did Yamamoto have to say that? He could have said anything but that. He could have just dismissed us straight away.

"However you need to move on and rebuild your lives once more. Hinamori and Renji would want you to do that."

I just wanted to forget about the past. I was sick of people asking me about Hinamori. I was sick of life in general. If it wasn't for my promise to Hinamori, I would have left Soul Society long ago.

Kuchiki Rukia...

That girl from the Kuchiki clan. She was hard to understand. Although she acted formally enough, she was strange. She started crying the moment I was walking with her. I wasn't sure what to make of her. Did she hate me or did she pity me? I wasn't sure which. All I asked her where she was going yet it was like I had brought up the subject of Renji. I could tell she still loved him. I wracked my brains to try and remember what I knew of her. She had always been friends with Renji. However, I had no idea that they were in love. I still remembered a conversation I had with Ukitake after Rukia had been executed.

FLASHBACK

"Ukitake, why don't you have a lieutenant?" I asked him

He laughed. "What do you mean? Kiyone and Sentaro are perfectly capable."

I raised an eyebrow. "You know they're not. Did you have a lieutenant?"

Ukitake looked more serious. "Yes, a man called Shiba Kaien. He's dead now."

"Dead?" I frowned.

Ukitake sighed. "Yes, although I have never said anything. I do suspect that Rukia was in love with him."

END FLASHBACK

As I walked back to my division, my shoulders hunched I felt my eyes water. I angrily wiped my tears away. I could not cry about her now. Not now, not ever. That was the sole reason I had never gone to see Hinamori's grave. She would be ashamed of the way I was acting.

"Hinamori," I wondered aloud "Is it possible to be in love more than once?"

RUKIA'S POV

Here I was. Standing in front of Kaien dono's grave. I felt a tiny bitter smile grace my lips. I had loved him once. I had wished he had loved me. Yet now, he's become a dear friend. Nothing more, nothing less.

"Kaien Dono," I whispered. "How have you been? I managed to avenge your death at long last. I'm going on a mission with the 10th division captain. A hollow mission."

I paused, trying to think of what to say next.

"I loved you once." I suddenly blurted out.

There was only silence, the rustling of the leaves, the soft sigh of the wind. I felt tears run down my cheeks, my face hot, a guilty secret that I had hidden from everyone. I could almost see him grinning from ear to ear. Now that's a revelation I never expected to hear Kuchiki!

"I wish you were still with me." I said softly.

I stood there for a moment longer, staring at his grave. Then I walked further on, through the mass of graves. However, there was one more special person still in my heart. I looked at the grave, no longer smiling.

Here lies Abarai Renji

A heroic man, loved by all

May He Rest In Peace

There was no date, at the time he was born. We were never quite sure. Renji and I were born in the lowest district of Rukongai. The tears spilled over almost at once.

"Renji," I whispered. "I'm going on a three day hollow mission to the real world with Hitsugaya Taichou."

I cleared my throat. "I know you would love to come with me, to see Ichigo, Inoue, Ishida and Chad."

The tears were coming faster now. "Renji, I wish you were with me still. I-"

I swallowed hard. "I love you so much." My voice shook with the effort.

I kneeled down in front of his grave. "I'm such a fool Renji. " I sobbed. "I miss you so much."

How long I kneeled there, I just don't know. I laid a single red rose in front of his grave. A sign of true love. As I wiped away my tears, I remembered one special moment I shared with Ichigo and Renji.

FLASHBACK

"What music do you guys like?" Ichigo asked.

Renji and I stared at him blankly.

"Oh man." Ichigo groaned. "Listen to this! Blink 182."

We stared at him. "What are you talking about idiot?" I said annoyed.

"Shut up!" Ichigo retorted. "Just listen to the damn song."

END FLASHBACK

As the words floated into my head, I found myself singing along softly to the words.

(I miss you...)
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you...)
(I miss you...)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you...)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you...)

Don't waste your time on me you're already

The voice inside my head (I miss you...)

Don't waste your time on me you're already

The voice inside my head (I miss you…)

(I miss you...)

I smiled softly, letting go of a little of the pain. I sighed to myself knowing there was paperwork to do and I would have to get ready for the hollow mission soon.

"Arigato Renji." I whispered.

Then I walked away from the mass of graves. Into a new light, a new day, a new beginning.

Uhm yeahhh loll I was rly motivated this wk! OMG 2,000 WORDS! new record lolz! :)

Did you like it? Yeah no? I just rly love that song by Blink 182 :D

I really felt like I was Rukia when I wrote her POV. Although listening to Within Temptation always helps! :P

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