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Warning: Not much yet, a bit vulgarity maybe, other than that. it's pretty safe.
Chapter 4:
I Think the Sky is Broken.
Dear Diary,
How could I have been so blind?
No, I cannot say that. That'd be a lie.
My eyes were fully functioning during every second in time.
I saw it all.
... At least, all I needed to.
I saw how he looked at her.
And, pardon me, but that smile was nowhere near fictitious, either.
Inuyasha loves Kikyo.
End of story.
So please, do me a favor and...
Close the book now, it's not going to get any better from this point on.
Or perhaps,
you're one of those angst kids..
that's simply yearning for blood, gore, and human pain,
then well,
you've come to the right place.
After all, my heart seems to be on fire...
and it's only a little after 1:00.
I guess you could say, I have a head start on the day.
Who would have known, right?
I woke up glowing with every emotion I felt.
I would see Inuyasha, and the summer would repeat itself like it had for the past 3 years.
I'd laugh.
He'd smirk.
We'd kiss under the beautiful clouds.
I'd play with his fingers.
He'd nibble on my throat.
Secret be told - my sinning mattered nothing at all.
No regrets, no sorrow...
until now,
when she came and crashed down every illusion I had.
I had seen her earlier, at the local K-Mart.
She was with her mother, the two look so alike..
so, gorgeous and flawless, it made my insides want to gag.
Perhaps, I sound a bit rude,
and trust me
I never meant to be...
but, how can I not after what I knew would soon unfold?
I knew once he set eyes on her my world would crash.
She was perfection,
I was flawed.
There was no denying I would be the one to lose.
I have no hidden talents.
My voice cracks into a hideous sound when I cry,
and I wasn't the one that was with him the day his father died.
Measure up?
Darling, pull out the yard stick...
it's just another game she can beat me at.
So, yeah...
I knew she had come back.
My heartbeat soon started ticking down the time I would collapse.
Then I saw him,
roaming the street like it was any other day.
So I pushed it aside and did my best to forget her existence.
It was as if she wasn't there;
we held hands and kissed under those beautiful clouds.
Still, I couldn't make it last forever...
no excuse could make him stay by my side for a lifetime.
And so,
our hands let go...
and he walked away.
It wasn't even ten minutes later that I went back up to his home;
I wanted to share one last meaningful kiss,
before I had to say goodbye to him forever...
but that didn't happen.
Shewas there before I was.
As if she had picked up his scent, the moment she stepped foot in this town.
Click, Clock...
the spell was broken;
the moments we spent frozen in time these past three summers was surely behind us.
Surely, he'd take her back like she had never left his side.
And so the moment came...
he's eyes were full of guilt, like I had just caught him robbing a bank.
Handcuffs?
Time in prison?
No sir, I was not going to take vengeance.
Truth be told, I am not one of those girls you see on T.V.
Sorry, I'm not a Degrassi character salvaging for dirt and drama.
What did I do?
I fucking lost it.
My eyes leaked like a broken rooftop,
damaging all my insides and what was left of my composer.
Again, she had the upper hand, nonetheless.
After all, why would he want the girl he faced now,
the one with the runny nose and make-up, colored eyes?
The Inuyasha I had shared every thought with,
would soon find a secret of mine he just may not like.
I felt ridiculous.
Why did I feel like a monster had just bitten my heart?
I mean, deep down, I knew it was going to happen the moment I laid eyes on her,
so why did it phase me so much?
I felt my throat go dry and then it began.
I
Started
Running.
More than I had ever in any high school gym course.
I could have very well aced the class at the rate I was going.
Still, something quite astonishing happened that made me hesitate and fall.
I turned to look back,
and he had chased me down to my very home.
"Inuyasha?"
"Hey, Doll."
"Maybe I sound idiotic, but I don't understand at all."
"That makes two of us."
I didn't know what to think of his response.
Did he love me, or did he love her?
And so, we just sat there on the concrete sidewalk not speaking for moments at a time.
Maybe he didn't have an answer.
Perhaps, silence was all he could give either of us in return.
So we sat.
We didn't kiss under the beautiful clouds.
I think, for the first time since its existence...
the sky was broken.