Chapter 9: Hurt
Edward's POV
I was hurt badly, when I heard that she didn't want to even think about me I almost wanted to cry. I knew I was prying but I wanted to find out a lot more about her. What shocked me the most was when she had her legs wrapped around his waist, I wanted her to be in my arms so badly. When she had kissed his neck and play fighted with him, I wanted so badly that it was me she was fooling around with. She moved on, didn't she? I can't blame her, every single male vampire would want to have her and I had my chance and lost.
Damn that was hot; I can't wait to get her in bed one day. I wonder how good she is. Did lover boy ever get the chance to?
Why was he thinking of my Bella like that? He was wondering if I had ever slept with her, of course I didn't. When I was with her she was fragile and breakable,
I couldn't take that chance of killing her.
Soon or later I'll get her and when I do, it will be a heck of a party.
I heard a growl erupt from my throat. I hated having him think of my Bella.
''What? You jealous lover boy?'' I pounced at him.
''Don't ever think of my Bella that way!'' He looked at me and kicked me off of him.
''Hold up! Your Bella? YOUR BELLA? She isn't even yours jerk. You screwed up and left her! No wonder she doesn't like you, you left her and broke her heart. Because of you she stopped eating, almost stopped breathing and CUT HERSELF!'' He spat out the last part and I felt my heartbreak.
''Sh-she wanted to kill herself?'' My heart was torn apart on those words. I made Bella want to kill herself, I had ruined her life. I left her so that she could have a normal human life.
''YES, because of you she had cut herself many times.'' He took in a breath and relaxed. ''We got to her when it was the worst, there was blood everywhere and it kept gashing out of her wrists. I picked her up and changed her so she wouldn't die.'' I started to dry sob.
''I-I nev-never meant to hurt her, I left so she could have a normal human life.''
''Too bad you ruined her life! We all hate you, you'd be lucky if she even considered thinking of you again.'' She had promised me that she would be safe, that she would take care of herself.
''B-but she had promi-sed that sh-she was going to be safe. She broke her promise!'' He gave me a severe look.
''All she told me was that you broke your promise.'' He whispered whatever that was. '' So she broke hers.'' I was stupid. How could I let this happen? Marcus walked out of the gym and left me there to sob.
My family was right; I was stupid for leaving her. They all loved her and I left her hoping that she would be all right; I can't believe I fell for that. I was hard for me to lie to her but she lied as well. I can't blame her, she wanted to die because of me, and she had stopped eating. She was going to die, I'm just thankful that she was saved. I don't care by whom; I just want my Bella to be okay. But fact was, she wasn't the Bella I knew anymore. She had grown cold and heartless and powerful, I guess the Volturi got to her. I would expect it since she's one of them now, but it still pained me to see her so malevolence. I had made her that way; all the anger and hate for me caused her to be evil. I let her go and suffered, I knew I screwed up and I heard it everyday from Emmett and Alice. I would stay in my room and sulk around all the time. I don't think I will ever forgive myself for leaving her.
Alice discovered me a couple hours later; at least someone cared enough to notice I was missing. She stepped in and looked at the dismembered gym in front of her.
Edward did this? Wow, I didn't think he was this strong. He must have been fighting with someone.
''Don't worry Alice, this wasn't me. It was Bella and Marcus training.'' My sobbing came to an end. Her eyes widened in horror.
'' She did this? Did she hurt you? Are you okay?''
''I'm fine, she beat Marcus. But I think they're mates.'' My sobbing was starting again but Alice stopped me.
''Their not mates Edward. Trust me.'' She gave me a comforting hug and sat down beside me. ''Now please tell me why you're crying?'' I took in a breath.
''Did you know that Bella stopped eating and cut herself because I left her?'' She gasped and was as surprised as I was.
''She wanted to kill herself because we left her?'' She stopped breathing. ''I feel so guilty for doing that to her.''
''Please don't tell Rose, she'll just scream at me again about leaving her.''
''I won't, if she finds out though. I will shut her up.'' I laughed which was a first in a long time. She laughed with me until she pulled me up. We headed up to our rooms to go tell Carlisle we were going hunting when we ran into Felix and Heidi. They walked down the stairs hand in hand, they looked towards me.
I wonder how he feels about her. I can tell that he still loves her, I wonder if she still has a little bit of feelings for him? (Heidi)
Are Bells and Marcus going to hook-up? It sure looked like they were close to. But I guess we'll all find out soon. (Felix)
He had a smug look on his face, which confused me a lot. They passed us and headed out the front door. I kept thinking about what that was concerning but soon gave up. We told the family that we were going hunting and left the castle into the woods near by. I wondered if it was because of Bella that the Volturi became ''vegetarians''.