Renesmee

The warm wind felt so lovely through my hair. My auburn curls fanned out behind me and I wondered, briefly, how long it would take to brush out all of the tangles I was accumulating. I knew Dad had been teaching Jake how to sail so we could make it out to Isle Esme but I had no idea how good he was. It was exciting to watch him use his new expertise to get us set on our course.

I turned from watching Jacob so I could see the stars and watch the waves pass us. Well, that's what I told myself. The truth was the flock of ridiculous butterflies that had inhabited my stomach when we landed in Rio had quadrupled in the last ten minutes. Looking away from Jake calmed them a little. It just seemed absolutely absurd. I had no reason to be nervous but I was just a little bit.

I heard Jake walk up behind me, the butterflies took off again. He snaked his arms around my waist and pulled me to him. The stupid butterflies got a lot stronger. "Nessie, why are you so nervous?" Jake whispered in my ear.

"I'm not," I lied. It wasn't really a lie, was it? I didn't want to be nervous. Jake had never made me feel nervous, ever.

I felt Jake's laughter. "Ness, you know you can't lie to me. It just doesn't work. Please, tell me why you're nervous."

"I really don't know why. I'm excited. I guess it is just new bride nerves. I didn't expect it at all."

He trailed his fingers up and down my arms, kissed my neck and whispered "I love you, Ness."

"I love you too." I took a deep breath, "How much longer?"

"About 20 minutes or so. I think we should see it soon."

I kept taking deep breaths, trying to will my butterflies away. If it was helping, it wasn't by much. Then I saw the dock coming up and the butterflies completely disappeared and left a sinking feeling in their wake. That was not helpful.

Jake got the boat taken care of and we walked hand in hand to the house. The breeze was warm, it felt so good. I wasn't surprised I enjoyed the warmth….Jake was warm. The thought was comforting. I smiled to myself and Jake put his arm around my shoulder. "I'm glad you're feeling better," he whispered.

I wondered if that would ever get annoying. The imprinting made it so Jake knew what I needed all the time. I remembered a time about 18 months ago – When I was closer to 13. Emmett made a stupid comment about me having a crush on Jake. Jake had just walked in the room and I was sure he had heard. My teenage hormones would only allow me to be utterly mortified. I raced back home and locked myself in my room – I was mad at Emmett and embarrassed. I blocked my dad and just curled up on my bed ready to die from the horror of it. Jake was at my door just minutes later knocking quietly and started to talk me into coming out. Eventually, he convinced me and we went for a long walk.

Remembering our conversation during that walk still made my heart soar. "Ness," he said,"don't worry about what Emmett says. He is just a dork sometimes. You know that already." Then, he looked in my eyes and said,"I am absolutely flattered that you have a crush on me because I've had a crush on you for a long time." Then he kissed my hand and we walked back home holding hands.

He always knew what I needed even before that. However, it became especially obvious to me then. I smiled to myself again.

We had just gotten to the threshold. Jake scooped me up and walked on through. Then he started kissing me, we didn't break our kiss until he laid me on the bed. Jake looked at me and a smile lit up his whole face; desire was deep in his eyes. I smiled shyly hoping against hope that the butterflies were gone for good. However, they chose that moment to hit with full force.

"Don't move," Jake whispered.

I laid there staring at the ceiling taking deep breaths. I felt like such a fool. About two minutes later, Jake came back. He had a chair in one hand and a brush in the other. He helped me get off the bed and settled into the chair. Then ever so gently, he began to comb all of the tangles out of my hair. I immediately relaxed. Every once in a while, Jake would kiss my neck or whisper in my ear. By the time he was done, the butterflies were extinct and my hair was completely snarl free. I reached up to braid it out of my way when Jake caught my hands.

"No. Please." He smiled.

"OK."

He helped me stand up and rubbed my arms up and down. He took my face in his hands and kissed me so gently. I felt that kiss from the top of my head clear to my toes. The emotion of it was so strong I had to blink the tears away. He smiled.

"Oh, Nessie, I'm so glad we are alone now. I love you so much." The passion of his words filled the air. All night we loved each other with gentleness, until I could no longer hold back the tears of my emotions. He kissed my tears away. He was so careful. He made sure I was ready. He held me tight as I worked through the pain of the first time.

"Nessie, I'm sorry, so sorry," he whispered when he saw the hurt in my eyes.

I took a deep breath and it started to dissipate. I tried to smile at him. "It's OK, Jake. Everything is OK."

He kissed me with so much zeal it drowned out the rest of the discomfort and only the ecstasy remained.

We, finally, collapsed exhausted in each other's arms and slept until late morning. When I opened my eyes I was surprised by the bright light and by the fact that I was alone. Where was Jake? I put a robe on and went to investigate.

It didn't take long for me to find him. The banging around in the kitchen gave him away. I snuck around the corner and watched him cook for a while. He moved around the kitchen easily and whistled a happy tune. It looked like he was cooking to feed a small army. He must be extra hungry today. I chuckled.

Jake turned with a start. His smiled doubled the brightness of the morning. "Hi-ya Mrs. Black, why don't you go hop in the shower and I'll have breakfast already for you when you're done."

I smiled back and blushed. "Would you like to join me, Mr. Black?"

"Oh yes, I would, Ness, but if I don't eat soon I'm going to pass out."

"Well, we could shower after breakfast." I suggested and felt my blush deepen.

He walked over to me. "You always have the best ideas." His tone was low. He leaned down and kissed me until I tingled from head to toe.

I slipped back to the bedroom and grabbed my hair brush. I brushed out my hair while I watched him work. My hair was so tangled from sleeping it took a while to comb out. As a general rule, I slept with it braided. It was easier that way. My curly hair hung down to the bottom of my back pockets when I wore jeans. It took a fair amount of work to keep it looking as good as it did and I always had to be conscious of it. Jake loved it and it made me feel beautiful so all the work was worth it.

Just as I finished brushing, Jake started putting food on the table. I helped him set the table for breakfast and we sat down to eat. Jake was a good cook, and it was a good thing. I still didn't like human food enough to work at it. However, I could appreciate good cooking and Jake's food was very good. There were scrambled eggs, bacon, sausage, toast, and hash browns. We ate in comfortable silence.

I had been finished for about ten minutes and was just enjoying watching him when Jake smiled at me. I winked back, blushing again. "I think I'm full, how about you?" He asked.

I smirked, "Yep, It was delicious."

Jake leaned across the table, a mischievous glint in his eye. "Last one in the shower's a rotten egg."

I smiled and ran to the bathroom. "Hey, wait, I didn't say go yet," Jake complained.

"You're just sore because you lost," I giggled. I had thrown my robe off the moment I had gotten to the bathroom and was turning on the water by the time Jake got there.

He stopped short as he entered the bathroom. "Mmmm, no, I think I'm the winner." He eyed me appreciatively.

I blushed, again. I really wish mom hadn't passed on so many of those blushing genes. I leaned in to feel the water, still ice cold, so I cupped my hands to fill them and splashed Jake. I giggled at the surprised look on his face. The water was warm now. I stepped in and Jake followed.

Under the hot water he pulled me close to him. The feeling of our skin to skin contact took my breath away. Then, he brushed his lips against mine. He washed me from head to toe, starting with my hair. He spent extra time on his favorite parts. By the time he was done, I could barely stand. I regained my composure and took my turn. I washed him carefully, enjoying the definition of his muscles and the feel of his skin. I smiled when he had to hold on to the wall to keep his balance.

We dried off and dressed. I had the cutest sun dresses and bathing suits for this trip. Alice and I had a great time on our many shopping trips. The sun dress I chose for today was yellow with white poke-a-dots, it tied halter style behind my neck. Jake was wearing board shorts with a blue and white print and a white tee shirt.

We spent several days exploring the island and walking the beaches. Everything was perfect, so beautiful and peaceful. I enjoyed lying out on the beach soaking up as much sun as possible. It was a nice change from the craziness of wedding planning and the drama of pack issues

The Pack had been a difficult thing lately. There were so many wolves. The Volturi problem we had when I was little caused many of the young men to change and a few of the young women, as well. The drama of it all escalated until Jake couldn't ignore it any more. He and Sam decided it was time for re-organization. They met and cultivated the idea. Now, Jake was the Alpha wolf and chief of the tribe with Embry and Quill as his flank men. The rest of the wolves were divided into 3 smaller packs, each with its own Alpha. Sam, Jared, and Leah were each Alphas of a small pack. Leah's pack was all female and the smallest; it had four wolves while the others had five.

Jacob really hadn't wanted to be chief. He fought the idea for a long time, yet somehow Sam talked him into it. After all, the leadership of the tribe was his birthright. It was remarkable to see him become the leader that was needed. It was incredible to watch him in action, leading the tribe and packs. Getting everything set up took most of Jake's time and attention over the last few months. Now, everything was set and running smoothly. Jake knew just how to take care of all the issues.

The only reason we could go so far away from the pack was his incredible leadership. He took care of everything that would be needed while we were away. I was glad he could have a break from all of his responsibilities. I worried about all the time and stress of the last few weeks. A care free couple of months out here would be so good for him. Embry and Quill could take care of the stuff at home for a while.

A sound interrupted my thoughts. My heart sank and my head screamed "NO!" It was our cell. There had been strict orders not to call except for absolute emergencies. Unless the whole reservation was on fire, I was going to kill Quill. He was the only one there with the new number. Of course, it could always be my family. I took a deep breath. If it was Emmet or somebody trying to be funny…. Then, I heard Jake. He was using his tribal leader voice.

"OK, calm down," I heard Jake say. "Just take a deep breath and start over slowly so I can understand you."

There was a long pause while he listened. "OK, let me talk to Ness, I'll call you back. Calm down, there's no need to panic."

My whole being cringed, I didn't want to cut our honey moon short. I stood up. I wanted to tell him that we were staying here but in my heart I knew I wouldn't. I took a deep breath and turned to face Jake.

His expression was somber, tears in his eyes. I forgot my irritation and went to my husband. At that moment, my only thought was to comfort him.

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