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I ran into the woods. As I caught a glimpse of Edward and Jake, a pale fist made contact with a russet face with a loud crunch. I screamed, "Edward, stop!"

He hesitated for a second. I shielded him from Jake and gave him a glimpse of my thoughts. They were not the happy, kind, loving thoughts he was used to from me. My mind was so murderous and angry I really couldn't even form words to explain. Jake had become like a son to me and to Edward also, or I had thought. He looked at me, stunned. Jake was crumpled to the ground writhing in pain.

Alice rushed over to us, "Carlisle will be here in 3 minutes and 32 seconds."

I stood unsure of whom to go to. Did I go help Jake? Did I go pummel Edward? As I began to make my way in their direction - still unsure, I heard a shrill scream and long auburn hair blurred past me. She surprised me, and I lost my shield over Edward as she crossed between the two of us. He heard her thoughts and the force of them was immediately evident on his face. I pushed my shield out again as fast as I could, but the damage had been done.

The pain on his face seared through me. Edward took two long steps to Jake and watched Ness comfort him, unsure as to what action to take next. Ness watched her father with wary eyes from where she sat next to her husband on the ground trying to comfort him. Edward looked at me. "Take it away, please," he whispered. I felt my shield snap back around me. I worried that it was not the best thing for him to hear their thoughts right now, but I could not deny him.

I watched Edward crumple further. My heart ached. I saw Edward's eyes dart to Alice. "Go ahead," she whispered. "He will be fine." I knew Jake wouldn't have heard her soft words but, I knew she had spoken out loud so I could.

"I'm very sorry," I heard Edward's musical voice laced with agony.

Then, he was gone.

I followed his scent, keeping my distance. I felt ashamed. How could I do that to him? Share those awful thoughts. He would punish himself far more for it, and I hated that I had done it. Oh, how I wanted to take it back! I saw Edward out in the distance sitting on a rock, his head bowed, massaging the back of his neck with one hand. His self loathing permeated the air, and I felt crushed by it.

Once again, I longed to take the thought away. I felt a strange sensation pull at the inside of my shield and then it was gone. I looked up and found him looking at me. I closed the distance between us, my lips beginning to form an apology. Yet, before I could even get a word out Edward was standing with his hands on both of my shoulders confusion present in his eyes.

"Did you do that?" he whispered.

"Do what?"

"I don't know," he shook his head.

"Edward, what are you talking about?"

"I remember you thought something to me back there, but I can't remember what anymore. I must be losing my mind. I couldn't remember what Jake and Ness were thinking in the clearing either. Then, it all came back when he was thinking that way again and I lost it. I shouldn't have attacked him. She will never forgive me."

"Maybe we need to talk to Carlisle," I offered.

It worried me. Was it me? Was I erasing his memories? Well, it didn't seem to totally erase them just suppress. A flicker of a memory hit - oh, maybe that was it - I had been good at suppressing my own memories as a human. Could I be doing it now? Shielding him from his own memories? The thought was staggering.

"Bella, what is it?" the sound of Edward's voice broke me from my thoughts.

"We do need to talk to Carlisle, but I don't think he will be ready to talk to us for a while. Let's go home."

Edward was still berating himself for what he had done, so I worked at keeping him from Jasper. We held hands and walked the long way around to our home. I tried to comfort him, but he would not allow it.

A few birds were chirping as the cottage came into view. I began to wonder, what we could do about the Jake mess. He was perfectly justified in thinking about Renesmee in that way. In fact, part of me was glad he did. They were newlyweds for goodness sake. However, Edward couldn't be around it. We needed to give them time to cool off. A plan started forming in my mind.

We entered though the old wooden door. Edward sat and resumed his posture from out in the forest. I started a fire, not because I was cold, of course, but the sight and sound of it was comforting. I sat next to my guilt-ridden husband. I reached over and took Edward's hand. I rubbed circles into the back of his hand, gently trying to ease the tension in him. I watched the flames allowing myself to be hypnotized by the movement, sound, and color.

I wanted to tell him to stop his internal reprimand; browbeating himself wouldn't help anything. But, I knew he was already aware of that fact and my reiteration would not help the situation either.

"How could I have attacked Jake?" he moaned. "It was just so stupid."

"Edward, maybe we…" my phone buzzed. I looked at it - Alice, I should have known. I continued stroking his hand while I answered.

"Alice?"

"Bella, Jake is all healed now. It wasn't even too bad. You're right, but it going to take some talking to get him to agree. Carlisle will be there in a couple of seconds so wait until he gets there, he will agree with you and help." Click. She was gone.

I put my phone away. Edward opened his eyes to look at me and raised an eyebrow. I shrugged and Carlisle knocked.

"Come in," I said pleasantly. I was pleased I was getting better at controlling my voice and expressions.

Carlisle opened the door and stepped in. I wanted to block Edward but I knew better. Carlisle sat across from us, but I couldn't look at him so I just stared at the floor. "Jacob is just fine. Renesmee is really mad but Jake is more upset she is so distressed and not because you attacked him. He figures he deserved it, kind of." He shook his head and took a deep unnecessary breath. "What can I do to help you? Alice said you needed to talk to me. I'm always here for my children." His eyes filled with concern," You two look absolutely miserable."

I looked up at Carlisle then glanced toward Edward. He still hadn't moved. I decided now was the time. "I guess there are a couple of things. First of all, I think I can block memories. It is not really erasing them just more like suppressing them. I've done it to Edward twice now, both times without really realizing it."

"It was you?" Edward mumbled.

"I didn't realize it until after the second time. I'm still not totally sure."

Carlisle nodded. "OK, we should probably do some testing to see how that works. Do you want to do that soon?"

"Well, I don't know when we should do it exactly." I held my breath and glanced briefly at Edward. I swallowed, "I think Edward and I need to leave for a while."

Edward looked disbelieving, "Leave? What are you talking about?"

Carlisle nodded again. In a hushed tone he confided, "Esme and I were talking about moving the family the other night. We have been here a very long time. Now that Renesmee and Jake are settled, it is really time for us to move on."

Edward looked at Carlisle for the first time, "We will be staying here with our daughter."

"We would catch up with you later; we just need an extended vacation, maybe as long as a year. We will keep in touch, of course.

"Why are you ignoring me?" Edward roared.

"Edward, please listen to me." I pleaded with my eyes and I opened my mind to him so he could see all of the sincerity I had. "Renesmee and Jake need some time to get to know each other…without us. I know you will hate to hear this, but he needs to be able to think about his wife without getting beaten to a bloody pulp.

"Our honeymoon was interrupted, so let's take an extra long one. Let's go see the world. We will keep in touch with our families. These kids need some space and so do we. Then, we can go back to being with Carlisle and Esme. We can't stay in Forks forever! And, in a few decades or so, Jake and Renesmee will be ready to move on and then they will come join us. Hopefully, by then, the parental feelings will have died down a little."

"Well, that is just ridiculous," Edward mumbled, but I could tell the logic was starting to break his resolve.

"While you both will be greatly missed, I really think that is a prudent idea." Carlisle said. "Everybody needs a little space sometimes." He looked at me, "Where do you think you will go?"

"I was thinking about backpacking around the world, going a lot of the way on foot, trying out some new wildlife, and really seeing the world. I think there is a lot Edward can show me and I want to see it with him," I smiled. This idea was getting better all the time.

Edward looked resigned and questioned, "Are you really sure that is what you want to do?"

"Yeah, I'm sure," I nodded enthusiastically. "Let's go see the world!"

"I'll leave you two alone to talk about this. Of course, you won't leave without saying good bye to everyone?" Carlisle got up to leave. "If you want to work on that new power before you leave, let me know. Otherwise, I'm sure we can work on it when you get back." With that, he left.

Edward skeptically looked at me. "You're really sure this is what you want to do? I didn't think you would want to leave your baby so soon. "

"She is a grown woman now, with a husband and we will take a satellite phone, right? Let's give them some space. Their honeymoon got interrupted, too. I'm sure you would have wanted Charlie away if he could have read your thoughts the last several years." I could see it in his eyes. I had convinced him.

"Where do you want to go?" he nearly chuckled.

"Show me the world, Mr. Cullen. You are my tour guide," I smiled. He jumped up and grabbed an atlas. He looked contemplative. "If we start out in the northern hemisphere we will be able to do more because it's cloudier during winter. Then, we can spend winter in the south also."

"When do you want to leave?"

"Is a week too soon?"

I nodded and smiled, "That will work, I think."

The sun had gone down and we retreated to the well used, though never slept in, bedroom for some much needed couple time. Cuddling in bed, we talked of possibilities for our trip as the sun rose. After talking, it seemed like Edward was even more excited to go.

I pulled on my jeans and started figuring out what would need to be done. A week would give me plenty of time to finish cleaning out the house, and then I could leave the rest of it to Esme and Alice. It sounded like they would be leaving not to long after they were finished fixing up the house. So, we should really pack up whatever we were taking with us so Esme would have to do it. I watched Edward study the Atlas for a few minutes and then decided if we were going to leave in a week, I better get moving.

"I'm going to go get Alice and keep working on getting the house cleaned out."

Edward nodded and I was off to find Alice. Of course, my phone buzzed and I read Alice's text.

B

Meet me in the garage.

A

I minute later I climbed into the Porsche where Alice was impatiently waiting. She gunned the engine the second the door shut. "What took you so long?" She grumbled.

"What's wrong, Alice?" She so very seldom grumbled at me.

"I didn't think you would be leaving us so soon and for so long. I know it's for the best and Edward needs a break, but I'm going to really miss you," she whined. Then, she brightened, "But you are going to have so much fun."

We had just pulled up to Charlie's house. I got out of the car and was surprised to see the Uhaul and dumpster already there. Rosalie was sitting on the back of the Uhaul visiting with Renesmee. I started towards them, but Alice grabbed my arm and pulled me into the house.

"Give them a few minutes," she whispered. "Rosalie can help this situation."

Alice and I started taking loads out to the dumpster. Every once in a while I would find a trinket or picture I wanted and put it in Alice's car. I also set aside a few things I thought Renesmee would like. I was almost ready to start on Charlie's room, when Rosalie and Ness came in from outside. We all started taking anything that could be donated out to the Uhaul.

There were only a few things I had wanted to keep. Ness wanted a few others and the rest was easily pinned as able-to-be-donated or ready-for -the-landfill. Before long, the house was nearly empty. Only Charlie's room had not been cleared, well, it hadn't even been started. Alice and Rose left with the Uhaul and I was left with Renesmee to work on Charlie's bedroom. We had not really spoken since before the Edward and Jake incident. We sat on the front steps for a moment.

"I just don't understand why Dad gets so worked up about everything," Renesmee said quietly.

"He has spent a hundred years listening to people's thoughts. Even listening to his brothers' thoughts about their wives is disturbing to him. So, it's that much worse for him to hear Jake think about you, or to hear you think about Jake. Right now you both don't filter your thoughts very well because it is so new and exciting. It is not wrong for you to feel that way about each other, in fact, it would be very disturbing if you did not. I wouldn't want it any other way," I carefully explained.

"I know, but can't he just ignore it?"

"No, that is not his way and you know it," I smiled. "Ness, Dad and I are leaving. We are going to take a trip around the world. The rest of the family is moving as well, and we will move with them."

Tears welled up in Renessmee's eyes, "I'm sorry I didn't mean to make it so you had to leave. Don't go… we can do better."

I put my arms around my daughter, "You have Jake now and he needs to be here with the packs for a while longer. We will keep in touch with phone calls and when Jake is ready you two can join the rest of us. You did not push us away. Please, don't think it is your fault." If tears were possible they would have been flowing freely now. I didn't think this would be so difficult. I pulled my daughter closer as she continued to sob.

"You need to spend some time really getting to know Jake as a husband and don't forget, we have forever. This is just a short time in the course of forever."

I just held on while she cried it out. She pulled away from me and wiped the tears away. "You're right. This will all be OK." She took a deep breath, "Should we tackle Charlie's room?"

I shrugged, "I guess so."

Honestly, I had not even opened his door yet. I hadn't been in Charlie's room for over seven years; the last time had been to wash his bedding the week before the wedding. I reached my hand towards the door knob and dread filled me. I didn't want to do this. The door opened and Charlie's scent hit me like a brick wall. The pain and sadness came rushing back. I took a few minutes to stabilize myself and then Ness and I walked in.

The bed was a tangle of blankets and sheets. Dirty clothes were strewn all around. It was much messier than I expected it to be. Charlie wasn't a neat freak, or anything, but he usually kept things picked up better than this.

Ness opened a garbage sack and we filled it with dirty clothes and his dirty sheets. She ran those down stairs and started a load of laundry so all of that could be donated. I carried the bed down the stairs to the now empty front room and carried a few boxes back up with me. I started on his dresser. Mostly, it was clothes. In one drawer, I found a few expired fishing licenses and some paperwork from a very old case under the clothing. I set the paperwork aside so we could take it to the station. I finished the dresser and carried it down the stairs and left in near the bed. Renesmee had just finished picking up the floor when I got back up.

There was one more place to clean and we faced it with a sense of dread. Charlie's closet was closed; it always had been. I had never felt the need to snoop and, now, I had to. I took a deep breath and opened the door. His shirts and his old suit hung neatly, a baseball bat was propped against one side and several old fishing poles against another. A pair of shoes was also near the baseball bat. The top shelf held several old boxes. I wondered what we would find in them. But, the thing that made me step back was the smell. It was an old smell but it was new to me and very odd.

I closed the door quickly and dialed my cell, "Edward, I need you to come to my dad's, right now. Bring Carlisle if you can."

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