Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight - SM does *growls*

JPOV

Me and Edward were heading back home, our hands intertwined. Walking was all we needed to do. So much time. The fabulous thing about being a vampire is that we have so much spare time. More time to make out…

"Man, I feel so turned on after that story. It makes me want to kiss you with so much passion." I had to say something to fill the silence. Edward seemed a little distant.

"It certainly was our best first night together. But it does make me wonder…" Edward trailed off. I had no idea where this was going.

"What?" I asked. I was so confused.

"Huh? Oh - nothing." Edward replied looking in to space.

I wish I could read minds. Being an empath does have its advantages, but this is not fair. What I would do to get inside his head. Yeah I know your reading my thoughts Edward. Please tell me what you're thinking off. Guilt and passion were the dominant emotions radiating from him. What on earth was he thinking about?

"Come on darlin'. You know there are no secrets between us. So what are you thinking about?" I was worried now.

"Well… I was kind of being nostalgic , thinking about that day we told Alice about us." He replied. His expression showed so much pain. And I thought I was the only one that was supposed to look pained.

"Oh." Was my only answer

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have brought it up."

"It's ok man. She shouldn't have found out like that but who would have thought we managed to stop her looking into the future about our relationship. I know it was wrong for us to keep it a secret, nonetheless I love you her, but I am in love with you. I always will." I had to tell him how I feel.

"So are you going to tell me what you were thinking of earlier. Don't worry we have all the time in the world so don't give the whole 'it's a long story' crap." I had to know what he was thinking.

"You see. I wish there was another way we could have told her. I didn't want to hurt her. I need to tell you how I feel."

EPOV

Me and you were staring lovingly into each other's eyes, our bodies contorted around each other. My bare skin against yours was the only touch I needed at that moment in time. Nothing else mattered. Claire De Lune was softly playing in the background of my bedroom. No one else was home. I kept on thinking that this wasn't real. You weren't here, lying naked on my bed. It was an illusion that I could see before my eyes. I didn't want anyone or anything to take you away from me. That's when I remembered. Alice. That little pixie was so happy with you and I took you away from her. And the worst part was that she didn't even know.

"Correction. We asked her not to look into the future as I wanted to tell her how I felt about you my own time." Jasper interrupted without a thought.

"I know but I still feel terrible"

Jasper stopped in his tracks and turned to face Edward. He gently placed his lips upon Edward's and give him a reassuring kiss. It was all Edward needed to give his reply:

"Let me finish the story please…"

I never took my eyes of you and then you had to ruin the romantic moment by saying " I want you.".

"you were deep in thought. I had to do something. I reckon it was well worth it…." Jasper trailed off into another memory.

"JASPER!!!! Im being serious here"

"Sorry."

Those three words made me hard.

"I shall leave that for another time. I need to tell you how I felt about what happened"

Once the passion had died down slightly. I shifted on top of you and kiss your lips. The only thoughts running through my head were the ones declaring my love for you. I love you. That was all I could feel. It was all I wanted to feel. Then I heard the footsteps approaching my room. It happened so quick. Alice had came back from her shopping trip with Rosalie so much earlier than expected. She barged into my room and stared at me and you laying on the bed. Her eyes were wide like she was a deer in front of car headlights. Her thoughts were jumbled. What….loved me…liar….I should have seen this…crap….no… I jumped up from you and pulled my boxers up. You went towards her "Alice. Alice say something. Anything please" there was silence for another five minutes before she screamed in my head Get out now! I need to speak to both of you's separately. I hate you.

I hate you. I hate you. That phrase was all I could replay in my mind over and over again. I ran so far away - away from your voices. I was a coward. I couldn't listen to what you both were saying.

Ruined.

My life ruined. Alice's life ruined. Your life ruined. Heck even the full family's life ruined. I came between you and Alice. Soon as I had started feeling something towards you I should have ran. I didn't want to come between you and her. You were so happy. I was full of guilt. I stared out into the ocean thinking how it seemed to reflect my life. It was calm. Calm before the storm. How could I have been so stupid - I should have told Alice from the start. She deserved better. The pixie was my sister - the sister I never had in my human life. That was just a pile of dirt now. The sea before me started to get rougher, the blue waves crashing against the side of the rocks. The sun was no where to be seen as the grey and darken clouds caved in around me. My phone started to vibrate. I ignored it. I couldn't speak to anyone right now - my emotions were in turmoil. The night came and went. So did the day. I sat here for what seemed like forever.

"Hey" came an all to familiar voice behind me. It rang like bells. So high and serene. Alice.

"Look Jasper told me the whole story. Come home please. Esme misses you. We all do. And yes before you get cocky and arrogant - that does include me"

I turned to face her. Her eyes were pitch black with darker circles around more than usual. If I hadn't known better I would have thought that she hadn't slept and spent all her time crying. I removed my eyes from her gaze and let them wander to the calmness around me. "How long have I been gone?" I asked her.

"About three weeks. Emmett and Carlisle followed your trail and get an eye on you." she replied truthfully.

Three weeks - that long. Jasper probably is beating himself up.

"Alice. Im sor-" I began to say before she interrupted me.

"Save the sorry speech for someone else. I only came here to tell you that we want you home. I hate the way I found out. I cant believe you both lied to me. I used to hate you but now I don't. all I feel is betrayed. You are my brother. And he was my husband. I need to tell you that I haven't forgiven you both for what you did to me but I know you feel a lot more for Jasper than I ever could. You both deserve to be happy. And from my recent visions I know I will fall in love with someone else. Some one who can make me happy just like Jasper did - maybe even more.". After her speech I was dumbstruck. Not once did she go to attack me, swear at me or anything.

She went to turn away but I grabbed hold her shoulders and replied "Alice - I need to know that you aren't leaving us. I don't want this to ruin us both. Or the whole family. All I'm asking for is your acceptance. I want you to still be that over-hyped little annoying pixie that everyone adores." I had to say something. I had to make sure I wasn't secretly hurting her.

"Don't worry Eddie I am not leaving. How could you even suggest that. Yes you hurt me but something good has come out of it. You have a lover waiting at home for you. don't worry about me I have to wait a while before I get mine but you are my family. You are all I have left." I pulled her into a hug and ruffled her black spikey hair. "Come on lets get home." I started to drag her back towards the direction of our family when she pulled me to a stop.

"Can we hunt first please. We both haven't fed for a long time" she giggled. Finally the Alice I loved is back.

I know deep down she says she will forgive me but I truly did rip her heart out.

"There. All my emotions. How I felt and what I did whilst I was gone." I told Jasper. I felt so much better I had that off my chest.

"You know she has forgiven you. She has her love now. That was in the past and if there was another way of telling her then I would gladly go back and do it that way, but things do happen for a reason. That reason is I found you and Alice found Bella."

"As if you went to kill her though…. Come on she smelt so delicious for me but I resisted." I carefully shifted the topic.

"Shut it. Not my fault I'm still finding it difficult to resist human blood." Jasper growled at me.

"Come on lets get home. Since we got sidetracked" I gave him a loving kiss, and ran my fingers through his golden hair. I raced off leaving a dazzled Jasper behind me. Not long after, I felt him pull me to a stop.

"It's your fault we got sidetracked. I need to tell you something too."