Chapter 21

Bella's POV

I new they'd be after me in no time, that's why I caused the distraction. But I felt so bad that I had to leave them a note. I walked over to a boy who was obviously too young to be airport security. I reached the boy at human speed and cleared my throat to get his attention. I almost died of laughter at his reactions, let alone his thoughts.

HOLY COW! She's so sexy. Damn, she must have a boyfriend. That's too bad.

''What's your name sir?'' I had to be discrete.

''Um, my name? Oh, Brennan m'am.'' M'am? I'm not that old looking.

''Miss please. And Brennan do you have a pen and a paper?'' He looked into his shirt pocket and pulled out a pen and shouted one of the ticket taking people's name and for them to give him a piece off paper.

''There you go miss.'' I nodded when he handed them to me and scribbled down my message.

''Brennan? Could I ask you a favor?'' He looked like he was going into shock but got over it quickly.

''Anything for a beautiful women.'' His thoughts were hilarious

Did I just call her a beautiful woman out loud? I'm going to die of embarrassment. Well, she deserves it.

''Don't be embarrassed. Now, there will be a young man that looks as beautiful as me with bronze hair. Could you give him the note for me?'' He nodded and I thanked him.

I disappeared into the girls washroom to teleport to Forks, Washington. I needed to find the CD that Edward had made for me with my lullaby on it. I wanted to hear it desperately and I needed to do him justice for what he did to me.

I landed right in the living room of the Cullen residence. It was as beautiful as it was when I was human, even a little more thanks to my enhanced vision. I looked quickly around the room and spotted the piano. I ran over to it and played my fingers across the keys. It hurt too much to put myself threw this but I missed him playing for me, he's probably create some other song for that other woman. Then an idea came to me, I rushed to his room and pulled the door off it's hinges. If I was in pain, so could he! His precious little CD collection could go missing when they'd really just be here all along. I pulled up many floorboards and used my telekinesis to move them quickly under them. After they were safely in a pushed the floorboards down and moved to his walls. I guess I could leave him a couple messages, it couldn't hurt could it? Nah!

I tore at his couch and curtains and put fire to some of the places on the walls just long enough so they would leave a mark. Then I heard it, a car on the highway making its way hear. Damn, they're fast. I broke the window while jumping threw it. I ran into the forest and didn't stop until I thought it was safe.

Edward's POV

We pulled up our driveway when I heard a crash. I looked to Alice who had no idea either about what it could be. Once the car was safely in front of the house, we all got out quickly but I turned to Jasper who's eyes were pitch black. He needed to hunt badly; I gave him a nod to show him that I knew where he was going. He gave a kiss to Alice and ran into the woods. I turned to Emmett who was already in the house and sniffing the air.

''It smells like fire'' He sniffed again. ''But it's been died out. Thank god or else Esme would have been mad.'' Alice walked towards me.

''I can't see anything about Bella. Edward, you check the 2nd floor. Emmett you the third and I'll check this floor.'' She walked around the living room inspecting everything while I went to the 2nd floor.

I checked through every room, I was just about to head back downstairs when I heard Emmett.

''HOLY CRAP. WHAT THE SHIT? WHAT HAPPENED HERE? EDWARD'S NOT GOING TO LIKE THIS.'' Once I heard my name, I was already up to where my room was. My jaw dropped. My sofa was torn up, my curtains in shreds, my CD collection gone. The walls with burn marks and the window broken. Alice was by my side in a second.

Oh my! This isn't good. He's going to be mad about his CD collection.

''No Alice, I'm furious! Who would do this? Who would hurt me like this?'' No sooner did I finish did Emmett speak

''Edward, you might want to come see this.'' It didn't sound good. I walked forward and wanted to die when I read the message on the wall.

You once told me I was your own personal brand of heroin. You were my cocaine. But I guess YOU got over your addiction and I guess the only way to get over mine is to be gone.

''What is this person talking about? Heroin? Cocaine! Are they crazy? Vampires can't do drugs.'' His thoughts were almost the same 'Who did this?' Alice put her and on my shoulder. I didn't need a clue to know who it was. The only person I had ever told to that they were my own personal brand of heroin was Bella. I couldn't believe she thought I didn't love her when it was the complete opposite. I needed her to live. I needed to hear her beautiful voice, her bell like laugh, to see her beautiful smile.

''It was Bella, Emmett.'' My voice shook in pain and he could tell it.

''Why would she do this Edward? What does she mean by this message.''

''She wanted to let me see how much pain she's in, she thinks I don't love her and thinks the only way she'll survive without me is to die.'' I was sobbing now. How could I be such a monster, I might as well ask for my death.

Bella's POV

It was quiet where I lay. I could hear the birds singing for once instead of them running away from me. I felt horrible for doing that to Edward; even though he broke my heart it doesn't mean that I had to ruin his room. I felt guilty and sick to my stomach, how could I do something like that. I was a monster, just like Edward said we were, we were evil and vile. Made to ruin things and I ruined and took away his almost most favorite thing. I wanted to die again. Just thinking his name was heart breaking, I felt my heart rip open for the second time in 200 years. I brought my knees up to my chest and started rocking forward and backwards. No wonder he didn't love me anymore, I was with the Volturi. Those with the Volturi were evil and corrupted. Heartless. Is that why I was so cold, because I had no heart? Was I meant to be lonely because of my actions the last 200 years? I was in hell or at least when I die for the second time I will be. A life without Edward was hell; I felt my heart tear again.

I was too consumed in my thoughts to realize something was hurdling towards me at high speeds. Next thing I knew I was up against a tree being chocked by my neck. I didn't open my eyes, I just wanted to die.

''Just kill me already.'' They gasped and dropped me but I kept my eyes shut.

''I'm so sorry Bella. I was hunting and too consumed by my thirst.'' I recognized that voice. It was Jasper.

''J-Jasper?'' I felt him sit down beside me. This made me feel even more pain. He was Edward's brother and I had hurt Edward.

''Bella, why are you here? Please stop feeling guilty. You did nothing wrong.''

''Yes, I did Jasper. I ruined Edward's room because I was in too much pain from what he did to me. '' Started sobbing loudly.

''Look I know best how much pain your in and let me tell you that Edward is very sorry.''

''Jasper, please don't lie to me. He doesn't love me, he's not sorry for his actions. I just want him to be happy even though I'm not. I'd rather die then see him in pain.''

''Bella, I know this is awkward cause we weren't that close when you were human but Edward would be in pain if you died.'' I felt my heart rip at the thought of my human memories then felt a calm be washed over me.

''How would he been in pain? TELL ME WHY HE WOULD BE IN PAIN IF HE DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ME.'' I felt a calm wash over me again. ''STOP TRYING TO CALM ME JASPER. I'D RATHER FEEL THE PAIN THEN BE HAPPY ABOUT THIS SITUATION.'' I felt him shudder at the anger rolling off of me.

''Bella!'' I turned my head away from him. '' Bella listen to me! Edward loves you.'' He was lying to me. I knew it. I pulled even further away from him. ''Don't kill yourself Bella. That would only cause a lot of people pain.''

''Don't tell me you know about pain Jasper! Do you know what it's like to have your heart rip out of your chest and torn apart by the hands of the person you only ever love. TELL ME YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE'' I was furious and sad and just wanted to get away. I thought that maybe if I went to my meadow it would help. So I got up and ignored Jasper, I would go to my human peace place.

This is the before last chapter so please don't be mad.

I will be writing a new story. but i'd like to know your opinions on them:

a) Should it be a random vampire that meets Edward and they fall in love.

b) James get's resurrected adn comes after Bella again(she's human)

c) A royal vampire comes to Forks because she is forced to leave her father's castle because of her feeding habits and meets the Cullens. ( Bella doesn'y exist.) The royal vampire is Dracula's daughter.