Chapter 22

Edward's POV

As soon as I explained to Emmett what it meant, I fell to my knees. I had hurt her so much; I had pushed her so far that she wanted to die. I was truly a monster. I heard Jasper coming from the stairs and he was shouting his thoughts up at me.

Edward! EDWARD! Get your ass down here. I need to tell you something. Got I can still feel her pain from here. That must kill her. Shit.

He stopped after that and started singing the Chinese national anthem, he knew that that annoyed me and it was working. I wiggled out of Alice's grasp and ran downstairs and collided with Jasper by accident.

''I'm sorry Jasper. Now what do you need to tell me?'' He took in a breath; this wasn't going to be good. Was I too late?

''Well I ran into Bella while I was huntin

g and had a conversation with her. She's in a lot of pain Edward and she feels guilty and bad for whatever she did to you.'' Leave it to Bella to feel guilty about not even hurting me.

''What did she say? JASPER TELL ME!''

''Well she said that she felt like the only person that she ever loves ripped her heart out of her chest and tore it apart.'' I dropped his shoulders quickly. Had I hurt her that much?

''Show me her pain Jasper, please. I feel like I should be the one to go through that not her.''

''NO EDWARD. You're just as bad as she is!'' He pinched the bridge off his nose and continued. ''She asked me too kill her Edward.'' I felt my heart tear at this.

''Jasper, where is she?'' He was hesitant. ''Jasper please tell me you didn't actually kill her?'' His eyes almost popped out of his head.

''NO! You know I wouldn't do that to her, to you. When we spoke I was on the south-east side of the mountains.'' I knew where she was. Our meadow wasn't that far away from there.

''Thank you Jasper.'' With that I left the house and headed to our meadow. I prayed that I could see her, that I could talk to her. I was just a couple meters away when I heard her sobs and smelt her freesia sent.

I stayed back a meter from the opening of the meadow. I watched as she rocked forward and backwards in pain, just seeing and angel crying was agony. I wanted to run to her and comfort her but that's the worst thing I could do right now. All I would do is hurt her more.

I started to move backwards a little bit when I saw what she was going to do. She pulled a dagger out of her boot that looked like the one that Ursula had. She brought it up to her chest and pushed it out in front of her so she could thrust it into her cold heart. I rushed to her as fast as I could and held onto the dagger when it was only a couple millimeters from her heart.

''Bella don't do this. Please Bella, don't kill yourself.'' She started sobbing even louder and was using all her strength to pull the dagger towards her self even more.

''I'm dead aren't I. Oh god, I'm dead and I'm dreaming.''

''No Bella, you're not dead. Let go of the dagger, please.'' Her whole body was shaking.

''I'm dead. I'm dreaming.''

''Bella let go of the dagger. You're not dreaming love.'' I wish I could take that back as I watched her freeze and drop her hold on the dagger.

''Edward, why are you doing this to me.'' I wanted to comfort her.

''Bella, I want to apologize. I'm sorry for doing that to you. But understand that I wasn't at all attracted to her. She attacked me and I'm so sorry.'' She still sat frozen. ''I only have eyes for you Bella. I only will ever love you. I love you.'' I sensed her muscles untensed and she looked up at me with her beautiful topaz eyes.

''I love you Edward. But I don't know if I could trust you. You hurt me. And I felt like I was dying slowly.'' I wanted to give her the world; I wanted to prove to her that I felt guilty for that.

''I know and I will work for eternity for your trust. I will do anything to have you in my arms again.'' She leaned into me and spoke softly.

''All you have to do is take me, even though you probably don't want to after what I did to your room.'' I chuckle slightly and confusion washed over her face.

''I could careless about my room right now.''

''But don't you care about your CD collection?''

''Yes I will miss it but you're way more important than anything or one else.'' She laughed and this time I was confused.

''Well you see they aren't really gone.'' I raised my eyebrow and was just about to open my mouth. ''They're underneath your floorboards.'' She looked down with guilt and I knew that if she were human she would be blushing.

''Love, I don't care about them. Please look up at me.'' She didn't so I picked her up bridal style and started swinging her around when she clung onto my shirt and looked up at me.

''Don't do that to me! It scared me and I get dizzy.'' I couldn't help but laugh.

''You know I wouldn't let go of you and since when do vampires get dizzy?'' She looked down again and I lifted her chin up to see her beautiful eyes.

''Well I did never tell you that I'm the only clumsy vampires.'' She closed her eyes as if she was pained to think that I wouldn't want her because of that.

''Love, please stop looking away from me. Are you afraid of me?'' My tone was sad.

''No, I'm afraid that you don't want me.'' My heart nearly broke. How could she think that I didn't want an angel like her!

''Bella I want every single part of you.'' She looked up into my eyes.

''Prove it, Edward.'' I set her on her feet and took her left and bent down on one knee. I heard her gasp and I smiled.

''Isabella Marie Swan, I've loved since the moment I met you. You're angel and lifesaver to me and I want you for eternity. You make me the happiest man alive and take my hand in marriage for ever?'' I was nervous. You she says no and run away? Would she say yes? Would she say wait? I could see she was hesitating.

''Edward, I don't know what to say. I'm stunned.'' I looked up to her and smiled.

''Is that a yes?'' I was praying with every fiber of my existence that she would say yes.

''Edward Anthony Mason Cullen, yes.'' I was rejoicing inside. I picked her up and crashed my waiting lips to hers. I felt the electricity rise inside of me and her touch and I wanted her. She was mine forever.

''I love you Mrs. Soon-to-be Cullen.'' I felt her smile against my lips.

''I love you too Mr. Cullen'' I felt her bite her lip and I asked her the simplest question alive.

''Forever?'' She crashed her lips to mine and answered.

''Forever.''

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