The next day I woke up in a room that I wasn't familiar with… I looked beside me and Lucas was next to me shirtless. I looked under the covers and discovered that I wasn't wearing any clothes. Then I remembered what happened. The kiss at the party… and then we came to his house. Oh my God. I didn't. Did I? No no no. I wouldn't do that to Jacob…Oh my God Jacob! Tears started to stream down my face and then I felt someone's lips on my shoulder. Lucas. I pushed him off of me and I started to put on my clothes. When I was finished putting my clothes I wiped the tears away from my face and turned to see Lucas putting some sweat pants and coming towards me.

"Nessie where are you going?"
"I have to go…"
" I thought we could hang out for a while."

"I can't I told my mom I would be home no later then 1 o clock in the morning. She is going to be worried sick."

"Oh ok. Well will I see you later today?"

"No..."

"Tomorrow?"

"Lucas... I cheated on my boyfriend! I can't do this!" I said choking back tears

"So you're just going to leave me alone and pretend nothing happened?"

"Yes."

"You know you can't do that…you can't just pretend nothing happened!"

"I love Jacob... I'm not going to lose him because I made some stupid mistake!"

"Mistake! If you thought it was such a mistake why didn't you just stop?"

"I…I...I don't know!"

"Let me ask you a question. Can Jacob live forever?"
"He doesn't age until he can learn how to control his phasing." I said.

"Well one day he's going to start aging."

"Stop."

"And He's going to get older and older and older."
"Stop."

"And one day he's going to die…"

"Please stop!"

"Tell me what you are going to do when he dies. He'll be gone!!!"
I slapped him. I couldn't take it anymore. How could he just say those things to me…when he knew I was hurting. I walked out of the room and out of the house. I was surprised to find my car in the driveway. And I found my keys in my back pocket. I got in the car and drove as fast as could to my house. I drove faster and faster every time a memory from the past 3 days dashed in and out of my head. I wanted every memory to just disappear. God I'm such a skank. How could I do this to Jacob…. Should I even tell Jacob?? What would he think? Will he leave me? I couldn't bear it if he did he was my everything. I only love him…right .Right? I pulled in the driveway and got out of the car I ran to my house the thoughts still racing in my mind. I got in the house when my mother stood in front of me…here face looked like she was crying.

"Where the hell have you been?" She whispered. I could feel the rage in her voice…it scared me.

"I...I slept over Marcia's house…I forgot to call when I went over her house." I lied trying with all of my might to not fall into my mother's arms and just brake down.

"Really? That's interesting because I called Marcia's mother and I talked to Marcia herself and they both said that they hadn't seen you. Marcia said the last time she saw you were at the party and a few minutes later you were gone. And that Lucas had left to… Where the hell were you and do not lie to me."

"I…I"

"Did you have sex with him?" I looked down. When she said that it suddenly felt more real.

"Yes..." I said in a low whisper.

"Nessie…you didn't"

"I'm sorry mom."

"You…. Nessie I don't know what to say"

"Nether do I."

"When are you going to tell Jacob?"

"I'm not…I can't tell Jacob this."

"You...You can't keep this big of a secret. You can't."

"Mom please don't tell Dad ... or Jacob. Please."

"Oh I won't…but you'll have to one day." I hugged my mother but I never felt her hug me back. I ran up to my room and shut the door…all I wanted was to be alone. It's all I wished for in that moment…but my wish didn't come true because I found Jacob sitting on my bed. He looked like he was crying to. When he saw me he walked up to me and tried to hug me but I pushed him away. I sat on my bed…and he sat beside me. I couldn't even look at him without feeling disgusted with myself.

"Baby I'm so sorry… I don't want to argue with you anymore...I know you wanted me to go when you left. But I couldn't bring myself to leave until you came back."

"Jacob."

"Just let me finish. I love you and I understand were your coming from… Your right you're not my property I realize that…. But I just don't want anyone to be with you intimately ever."

You need to tell him.

"You're my life"

You need to tell him.

"And I never ever want you mad at me…it killed me that we were arguing with each other."

You need to tell him.

"JACOB" I screamed. I couldn't take it anymore I was going to break. Jacob looked up at me.

"Jacob… just let me get this out."

"OK baby."

"I…I don't know how to say it."

"Just say it." Jacob said and he put his hand on my back rubbing it back and forth. I counted down the seconds

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"I... I had sex with Lucas." I said trying not to pass out. Lucas stopped rubbing my back and his hands turned to fists. I looked at his face and his face turned from comfort to pure rage…I looked back down I couldn't bring myself to look at him again.

"Was it last night?" he asked in an angered whisper.

"Yes."

"And that's why you didn't come home last night?"

"Yes."

"HOW COULD YOU!!!!"

"I'm sorry…"

"Sorry isn't good enough. YOU SAID YOU WERE GOING TO WAIT AND THEN YOU GO AND GIVE IT UP TO A GUY YOU MEET TO DAYS AGO!!!"

"Please. I'm so sorry"

"DON'T SAY THAT!! YOU'RE NOT SORRY!"

"Yes I am"

"BULLSHIT!!"

"Jacob please please don't yell at me!!"
"I can't believe you..."

"Jacob all I want is you please…I'm so sorry…I am all I want is you. I made a mistake."\

"Damn right you did."

"But I don't love him." I tried to grab his hand but he pulled away. He got up and faced me.

"Renesmee I love you…so much I do but right now I think we should take a break."

"No."

"Please… I just need sometime to process this." He walked out of the room and out off the house. I broke down. I started shaking and crying uncontrollable. All I ever wanted was Jacob….and I lost him because of my stupid mistake. I lay down on the bed and cried into the pillow when I heard yells from down stairs.

"GET OUT OF MY DAMN HOUSE!"

"I JUST NEED TO TALK TO NESSIE"

"NOT IN MY HOUSE"
"PLEASE!!!" Then I heard footsteps coming towards my door and I saw Lucas standing in my doorway… I ran at him and started punching him then I felt hands on top of me and picking me up. It was my father… I tried to wiggle my way out of his grasp but I couldn't. Emmett came into the room and punched Lucas across the face.

"How dare you take her virginity!" Then my mom came into the room followed by my aunts, Uncle Jasper, and my grandparents. How the hell did everyone find out? My dad most have been reading my mind because he answered my question

"I could here his thoughts from mile away. This mongrel was thinking about the whole time"

"And I had a physician that he was coming over here and Emmett saying something about taking your virginity." Hissed my aunt Alice. I started crying again.

"I never want to see you again Lucas!" I cried…he ruined my life…I hated him.

"Renesmee don't say that…please… I love you." He said. Emmett grip tightened on Lucas.

"I hate you!!" I cried. I saw Lucas's face turn from sadness to anger. I turned to my father and started to cry into his chest.

"Everyone please just get out! And I don't want to see that bastard ever again." I heard them all leave the room and my dad held me closer. I kept crying and crying it felt like all of my problems and all of my emotion that I was holding in was just cried out in my dad's shoulder. He cried with me. I've never seen my dad cry be for. When I finally let go and looked at my father and he wiped my tears away.

"I'm so sorry dad…"

"Shhh…. Its ok it's ok…"

"I'm such a whore!"

"Don't you dare say that. What you did was wrong yes…but Lucas took advantage of you…"

"I still am! Jacob wants us to take a brake…I'm afraid I'm going to lose him dad!!"

"I know that I haven't been supportive of your relationship between you and Jacob. The reason why I felt that way is because you're just growing up so fast…and I just wasn't used to the older you. But to be perfectly honest Jacob is a great guy and a wonderful boyfriend to you…and I'm not going to deny it you messed up."

"Thanks dad."

"But that doesn't mean you can't fix it." I looked at him he smiled at me like the way he used to.

"How can I fix it?"

"That's something that you need to figure out for yourself. But remember one thing!"

"What's that?"

"I will always love you."