I was stunned. He was gone? Jacob was gone? He couldn't be gone…He was supposed to be my mate for eternity. He can't be gone. My Uncle Emmett and Uncle Jasper went over to Jacob wiping the tears off of there face. They picked him up carefully. Then they started walking towards the house. I was infuriated. I turned around and saw Lucas. He was in complete shock.

"You killed him" I said in an angry whisper. He kept looking down. I started walking towards him but my grandfather stopped me.

"Nessie control your anger." He said. How could he say something like that Jacob was dead because of Lucas and he's stopping me from ripping his head off? My grandfather doesn't have the right.

"Get the HELL off of my property and don't come back…and if you do I'll rip your head off." My father growled.

"I'm sorry Nessie I don't know what came over me I didn't mean to hurt him I swear I ..."

"Don't talk to me Lucas…don't come near me ever again. I hate you. You're a monster!" I said choking back my tears. I ran to my house. I couldn't go to my grandfather's house. I couldn't look at Jacob's body. I ran into my room and I started crying again like I've never cried before the tears hit my face like rain and Jacob's death kept playing over and over again like a scratched cd. I felt like apart of me was gone.

******************couple days later**************

"Renesmee its time." My father said in a black suit. I got up from my bed wiping away some stray tears and followed my dad out of the room. We went downstairs and saw my family looking at me. They were all in black and had a look of sadness in there face.

"Are you going to be ok Nessie?" My mom asked

"I'm not sure." I replied and we headed for the cars. It was night time, Billy wanted Jacob's funeral during the night because he knew Jacob loved the night. Probably because they always had jokes about full moons. We went to La Push were we saw some cars and a house. We entered the home and there was a sea full of people all wearing black. They had a portrait of Jacob In the middle of the room that said

"R.I.P Jacob Black, You will be dearly missed"

This was my first funeral and everyone that I came in contact with was there. Jacob's family and his pack…even Leah was there. My Grandpa Charlie was there everyone. I could hear people sobs and cries. I tried to hold my composure even though everything in me was screaming to just run away and never come back. We walked into the main room were Jacob's casket was in the front of the room. There was a TV on the wall that was playing a slide of all of Jacob's pictures growing up. They had pictures with his dad, his friends. They had a picture with Jacob and my mom when she was human. Then there was a picture of me and Jacob, it was our first Christmas together as a couple that was the best Christmas…it was our first kiss, and he got me a locket that had his picture and my picture inside and on the back it said. "Always and forever." I felt some tears run down my face and I felt my dad rubbing my back.

"It's ok Nessie."

"I don't know if I can do this."

"You can you know Jacob would want this…" I walked in the first row followed by my mother. The rest of my family sat in the row behind us. They figured seeing that we were the closest to him that we should sit with his family. I sat next to Billy Black…who had tears streaming down his face. He hugged me so tightly and cried into my shoulder.

"He loved you so much Nessie. You know that right?"

"Yeah I know Billy."

We stopped hugging but I held his hand…I knew he needed someone to lean on. They started the service. They had Jacob's family go up one buy one and explain how much fun they had with him and how he would be missed…my mom talked for a couple minutes but then stopped because she started crying. Then they asked me if I wanted me to speak. I didn't know what to say. Was I supposed to say sure even though I would probably start crying or should I say no and even though apart of me wanted to speak. I took a deep breath and I nodded. I walked to the stand and looked at all of the people in the room. I took another deep breath and I looked at Jacob's face. I started to speak.

"Hi I'm Renesmee Cullen, and I was Jacob's girlfriend. Jacob was such a loving person…he defiantly held his heart on his selves even though he tried not to. When he loved someone he loved hard, I don't think I could ever meet anyone like him…ever. I'm so happy that he was apart of my life….he was an amazing boyfriend he's all I could ever ask for in a boyfriend. But he wasn't just my boyfriend. He was my best friend. He accepted me for who I was no matter what family I came from and the flaws I had." I said tears streaming down my face. I looked in the doorway and I saw Lucas standing there…I was stunned. How dare he come here….he didn't have the right. I felt a wave of anger come over me every bone in my body wanted to just leap from that podium and just rip his head off. But I knew it would just make things worse. I continued speaking.

"Jacob was an amazing human being. He could be so hard headed and want things to go his way but if he wasn't like that…he probably would be like any ordinary person…and he wasn't. I love you Jacob…so much. I'm going to miss you so much…and I'll never forget you. Ever." I said I didn't know what else to say. I stepped down from the podium not making any contact with Lucas even thinking about him made me sick to my self. I sat down and my mother put her arm around me.

"Could we have the family, Renesmee and Bella Cullen all come up to the casket and say there final goodbyes." The man said. Jacob's family walked up all holding each other. My mom took my hand and we walked to where everyone was standing. I looked at Jacob's life less face. He looked so pale…he looked kind off peace full. I couldn't look at him anymore. I cried in my mothers arms.

"It's ok... It's ok" she whispered. But I knew it wasn't ok…it could never be ok. My world seemed so empty with out him. They closed the casket. And there was a loud cry coming from Leah Clearwater. She fell into Sam's arms and he held her. Even Emily hugged while she cried. I was done I couldn't do this anymore.

"Mom…I need some time by myself." I said.

"You're not going to the gravesite."

"I can't. I'll just meet you back at the house….please tell Billy and Jacob's pack that I'm so sorry."

"I will sweetie." I then walked out and went outside. I just needed to get away. Then I felt someone's hand tugging on my arm. I turned and Lucas was right in front of me.

"Get the hell away from me Lucas."

"I'm so sorry Nessie."

"Sorry isn't good enough. You killed Jacob. Sorry isn't going to fix everything! Billy can't get his son, Jacob's pack wont get there leader back, my mom won't get her best friend back, and I won't get my soul mate back. And that's all because of you!"

"I can fix this!"

"How is that Lucas…how are you going to change this…you can't change the past…you know you can't."

"I can. Remember what I can do?"

"What can you do Lucas?"

"I can time travel."

"So what are you going to do…change the night you killed Jacob?"

"If that's what you want….I will."

"Of course that's what I want. I want him back."

"Ok…I can also change the night you saw me, and the day you met me."

"So you mean I'll never know you existed when you change everything?"

"Yes…it's the only way that Jacob could be 100% alive…if we never met."

"OK…do it…." I replied. He nodded at me and started to close his eyes.

"I really am sorry Renesmee."

I nodded. I didn't know what to say to him…he was still a killer in my eyes. But I was thankful that he was doing this.

"Oh and Renesmee. Tomorrow everything is going to change. Jacob will be yours and he won't know anything about me or the night we had sex. I'm not entirely sure if you'll remember me or not."

"Ok."

"You really are amazing Renesmee, and even though you hate me…I'll always love you…" He said then he disappeared. The wind wiped my face and the leaves from nearby trees fell off. I ran to my house. And went straight up stairs and into my room I changed as fast as I could into my pajamas in anticipation. I sat down on my bed. Thinking when I was going to see Jacob… I wondered whether he was going to run up the stairs and fall into my arms or if he was going to come in threw the window, I even wondered if it was even going to work…I wondered if Lucas was full off crap. I stayed up all night thinking about all of what happened over the past couple weeks. I thought about the love me and Jacob shared, our arguments, I even thought why I thought I loved Lucas, maybe it was because I was lonely, I never felt lonely before maybe I got scared. Or maybe apart of me did love him. But I realized that all I want is Jacob. I heard foot steps coming up the stairs and I figured it was my father coming to check up on me. The door opened and like he came from a different world. There he was, Jacob.