Midnight Dust
Chapter five: Midnight Dust
Bpov
We arrived at the restaurant in about twenty minutes with Edward's driving. Considering that it was an hour and fifteen minute journey I was pretty certain that I would have been screaming my head off if anyone else had been behind the wheel. Even with Edward's superhuman reflexes I felt a little uneasy. I really doubt my ability to ever get used to driving at this speed. The restaurant had definitely changed since the last time we were here, it was no longer a simple little restaurant that served pasta and pizza and marketed itself as Italian. It was a classy five star restaurant with real Italian food and ambiance. There was a jazz band, a dark wooden dance floor that was being put to use by many amorous couples while the tables had fine china with gold plated edges that shone in candle light. It was all very romantic.
Edward guided me towards the hostess. "We have dinner reservations under Cullen." His urbane voice shook me out of my daze. I noticed with dissatisfaction that although the quality of décor might have changed the staff had not. We were met with exactly the same hostess as the last time we were here. She had apparently recognized us and was, I noticed with barely repressed fury, currently ogling my fiancé.
"Oh yes!" came her sickly sweet bitchy ass voice "Right this way." As she directed us to our table I noticed her glaring back at me. I'm going to kill this bitch! I was so sick and tired of girls hitting on my Edward and how he supposedly never noticed! We finally reached our table. Just in time too. I was contemplating actions that might have gotten blood on my pretty dress. It was amazing how associating with Edward had turned me from a normally balanced and pacifistic person to a jealous mass of homicidal urges on occasion. Huh. I guess bloodlust is contagious.
"Your waiter will be here shortly if you need anything don't hesitate to let me know." I noticed her wink at Edward before she left. I folded my arms across my chest and pouted like a child. Of course my ever observant fiancée could tell something was wrong within a heartbeat. But apparently not observant enough to tell when every skank and her slutty soul mate sister come by and practically throw themselves at him willing to cater to his every fantasy regardless of whether I'm with him or not.
"What's wrong love?" He asked, concerned. I did another mental eye roll.
I glared at him and said in an acerbic tone more suited to Rosalie than myself "As if you didn't hear that girls thoughts." I noticed his lips twitch and my glare grew more pronounced. I had a sudden surge of sympathy for Rose.
Obviously Mr. Observant saw this. In his most coaxing tones he tried to tease me out of my sudden conniption fit. "Aw come on Bella! Even after I've told you that I wanted to spend eternity with you, you still doubt my love." He mimicked my pout and I couldn't help the quivery little half smile that came to my lips. I looked up at him and sighed before giving voice to my real problem.
"I'm still waiting to wake up from this dream." I admitted softly to him, staring down at the table cloth.
His marble fingers gently tugged my chin up to make me look at him but I kept my eyes stubbornly downcast. "Bella…" He sighed and my heart broke a little at the sound of his pain. "What do I have to do to prove myself to you?" his voice was desperate and pleading and the guilt that filled me then was all consuming. An angel shouldn't hurt.
I immediately rushed to reassure him but without lying. "Nothing Edward. It's just me being stupid again. It's just that sometimes I can't help but think why me? Why do you love me? I'm so flawed; I'm about as graceful as an elephant navigating an obstacle course made of fine bone china, I'm not gorgeous like Rosalie-or even that stupid bitch of a hostess…I'm just…me just normal and ordinary, nothing special." My attempts to blow this off and reassure him had backfired miserably; I could feel tears welling up as I spoke. I half expected him to see how right I was and just walk away. But of course he was Edward. He wouldn't do that. Instead he took my hands in his, startling me slightly. His other reached up to delicately wipe away the tears that had hardly even had a chance to fall.
"Isabella," his voice was soft and sweet, his sincere eyes the color of molten honey "I love you because you saved me from myself, you saved me from the pain of loneliness, and you have brought me to life. Ask anyone in our family. You are special in so many ways and if beautiful cannot be used to describe you it is only because it's the grossest understatement. You are the most magnificent, glorious, enchanting, captivating wonderful woman in the world. Please," his voice broke a little on the word "stop doubting yourself, stop doubting me. Know that I love you and that I always will. No matter what." My tears were falling in earnest and his free hand carefully wiped way my tears. I didn't know what to say, I was speechless. The only thing that came to mind, the only thing I could think was how much I loved this man.
"I love you to Edward Cullen…always"
After I ate my dinner with Edward watching my every move with his vamptastic vision and his elbows on the table, his chin propped up by his hands, he dragged me off to the dance floor.
"Edward!" I cried laughingly, "I'm going to trip, you know I hate dancing!" He ignored my protests, instead pulling my body flush against his and one hand between my shoulder blades the other dropping dangerously low on my back. I blushed at our intimate embrace.
"Relax," he soothed "just remember it's all in the leading." His voice calmed me despite the devilish look in his eyes. As the music started up he set our pace and rather than twirling around like some couples we swayed sedately to the music.
"Just relax now, Come on closer
I wanna show you
What I'd like to do
You sit back now
Just relax now
I'll take care of you"
The song was very sensual; the dancing was all very sensual. As Edwards hands roamed my back and his lips brushed my neck. My heart was racing my skin was radiating heat, the desire to be even closer was overwhelming almost unbearable.
"Rhythmic motion
Raw emotion
Infiltrating through
Sweet sensations
Hot temptations
Coming over you"
As the song ended he whispered softly into my ear. "Come Bella, I want to show you something." The world was a blur of color and distant, dimly heard conversations as he led me to the car and it seemed as if we were at our meadow in minutes. I had barely managed to get my heart under control but was lucid enough to appreciate the scene. A blanket was laid out on the ground which lowered me onto before lying down beside me. We just lay there silently in each other's arms as we stared up at the shining clusters of stars in the black sky.
Here was a rare sight for the small town of Forks; I could see clusters of stars glittering in contrast to the blackened sky. I found that I could sit here forever despite the crisp cool night air as long as he stayed here with me, simply stargazing.
"They're beautiful." Was my offhand remark.
"They are." he agreed before pausing and moving closer towards me so that his face was only an inch away, so close I could feel his cool breath on my face.
"I like to call them Midnight Dust. You see how they're spread across the sky, lighting up the night like burning dust. Glorious. However, compared to you they are nothing." His voice was like honey, so smooth. His golden eyes were bottomless pools of love. I felt selfish, I wanted him. Body and soul I wanted him. And not only did I want him, I needed him. Like food or oxygen, he was essential to my very existence.
"How did you know the stars would be out tonight?" I asked after a short delay.
His crooked smile came to life "A little pixie told me."
I snorted in amusement "I should have known." Darling little Alice. Darling little Alice who kidnapped you and tortured you today… "Hey that reminds me!" I exclaimed, "Do you know what hell she put me through while you were gone?" I glared at him while he laughed at me.
"Edward Anthony Masen Cullen! Don't you dare laugh at me! The first thing she did was to drag me shopping then she made me cut my hair and then-"I didn't get to finish my tempestuous account of Alice's crimes because I was interrupted by Edward's lips crashing down on mine.
"You," kiss "are so" kiss "cute" kiss "when you're" kiss "angry." kiss.
The first kisses were sweet meetings of the lips as Edward made his point but last kiss was far longer. It started out soft and passionate as our tongues engaged in a dance for what felt like hours, my hands tangled in his soft silken hair and I could feel his hand slide down my back as he unzipped my dress. It felt like my senses had become heightened from prolonged contact with him and as we separated for air I noticed two things; one my dress was completely off, and I was only in my skimpy bra and panties, and the second was that Edward's eyes appeared to be growing ruby, the topaz was fading before my eyes. I didn't have time to think before we engaged in a rougher kiss that set my senses ablaze.
My mind was hazy as I tried to think through my own desire but failed miserably as I noticed my hands starting to unbutton his white shirt. What was my desire in the face of his overwhelming passion? A flickering candle to the blazing glory of the sun. I needed him with all the force of my human senses. He needed me with all the force of a vampire. He was a hundred thousand times stronger than me, faster than me. Doesn't it logically follow that his needs and desires would be on that sort of scale too?
His shirt and pants now off he unclasped my bra and began to run his tongue over my nipples he flicked them with his teeth, making me moan. I could feel heat slowly rising into my lower abdomen. I could feel him smirk against me and realized he could probably smell the reactions going on in my body. This would have at any other time embarrassed me but I couldn't concentrate because he had directed his attention to trailing kisses down my stomach was going lower and lower with each kiss, god he was teasing me I realized in a sudden burst of lucidity. My saturated underwear was abruptly torn from me making me gasp in shock before moaning as he slowly pushed his finger into me, all the way in. I didn't have time to marvel at the situation before he slowly eased in a second and started stretching me and twisting them and thrusting in and out. The heat was reaching fever pitch despite the rapidly fading chill of his talented fingers. I moaned in pure need and desire.
"E-Edward." That one word broke me. In another second a torrent of words escaped me I was panting, I was pleading. I wanted him now and I couldn't wait any longer, I didn't care that it wasn't our wedding night, didn't think about him losing his control. He listened intently and as he removed his fingers from me my flood of words came to a halt and I waited with bated breath to see what he would do next. As he licked fingers all the while staring into my eyes I let out my breath in a whoosh of expelled air he smirked in amusement before his lips crashed on mine with a ferocity he's never used with me before.
It was terrific. It inspired terror but in such a way... My hands traveled almost involuntarily downwards and slowly removed his boxers, making him moan as I brushed against his throbbing shaft. Something inside him snapped and without warning me he quickly penetrated through my walls, causing me to scream with agony and…pleasure? I was sick, sick and twisted if I got such pleasure from pain. But no, I realized, it's because he's inside me. Everything I ever wanted. He didn't seem to notice my pain as he began to thrust faster and harder, it hurt so badly but the knowledge that Edward was moving inside me, at one with me gave me an intense pleasure that, although not physical, was amazingly potent. I couldn't find my voice to say something even though I knew I should, but even If I did I knew he would end up leaving and tell me he knew it was a mistake and besides wasn't your first time supposed to hurt? I knew it wasn't supposed to hurt this much but right then I couldn't care less.
That is, until I felt the blood trickle down my leg, amazing since I was so consumed with him and it seemed so unimportant, such an insignificant little detail. It must have been that corner of my mind that was constantly on the alert for something that would set off one of my vampires. Oh no! Speak Bella! You have to speak up! He was obviously out of control as he thrust even harder into my overheated core, while his mouth and the glistening teeth came ever closer to my prone neck…
"Edward." I breathed out. No, that wouldn't do. I marshaled all that remained of my willpower into one single word; "Stop." It was a weak sound, my heart wasn't in it and it came out hoarse and breathy. But it did the job. He pulled away in confusion but then a dawning horror grew on his face and he jumped up and left in an instant without a word or even a glance at me.
Part of me knew that he was disgusted with himself. That he was going to be back. That he loved me always and forever.
That part of me was buried very deep. Pushed down by fear and pain.
The numbness and fear came back and I fell into the void I thought had healed on Edward's return.
I began to sob, alone, naked and heartbroken in the middle of the forest.
Disclaimer: I own nothing not the characters nor the books the credit goes to Stephanie Meyer. I just created this FICTION!
Beta and re-worded by: Phantom-writer3739 [Awesome-est Beta ever]
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