ok, for starters, I just want to apologize to everyone for taking so long to update. Life's been crazy lately, and I just kept forgetting to update. This chapter's really bad, but I wanted to get something out...

I'll write the next chapter today, and post it later this week. Again, I'm so sorry.

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the familiar characters. They belong to the wonderful Stephenie Meyers . . . . . . . .

EPOV

I felt my entire body go numb. Change her? Now? No. No, I couldn't do it. It was too soon! I needed time to prepare! I wasn't ready! She wasn't ready!

"No!" I whispered, utterly horrified. "I….I can't" I stared down at my sweet Bella's slashed face. "There must be another way!" I looked up at Carlisle. He shook his head slowly and frowned.

"Edward… she's dying". My still heart sunk.

"no… no, she can't be! She's gonna make it! She… she…" I couldn't speak. My life was crumbling before my eyes, and all I could do was stand there and watch.

"Edward, it's your decision. You can let her escape from this world peacefully, as she was meant to, or you can transform her. It's up to you."

"How much time…" I mumbled, paralyzed from trepidation and astonishment.

"Not much, I'm afraid…." Carlisle whispered softly. I stared down at my love. Though she was broken and cut up, she was still the most beautiful creature I had ever seen. Inside, I knew I could not condemn her to this life of darkness which I was so familiar with. Yet, could I let her go, knowing that I would never again be able to truly look upon the one whom I loved more than life itself? She was my reason for living, the cause of every minuscule bit of pleasure in my life. If I let nature take its course, she would exist only in my mind, in my memory. Could I watch her die while standing idly by her side, doing nothing at all?

I let out a small sob and buried my face in my hands. I knew I should leave her be. But being the selfish creature I am, I couldn't possibly lose her. I had to change her. There wasn't another option. I took a deep breath and removed my head from my hands.

"I'll do it" I whispered hoarsely. "I'll change her." Carlisle's face lit up, and he patted my shoulder.

"I think that's the best choice" he muttered. "Now, we need a plan. I originally thought we could just seize her and run, but I'm not sure she can make it without the machines. They're keeping her alive right now, and I don't want to take a chance. It's too risky." I was terrified, but extremely relieved. She would make it. Not in the way I'd hoped, but she would be in my life again.

"Could I bite her here?" I asked.

"I think that's the only option we have. But how can we get her out of here? My colleagues will know something is up if I disappear with the body…"

"Maybe Alice can come…" I muttered, lost in thought. "She could lie down in the bed and you can lay a blanket over her. She can be Bella."

"Well, that's quite risky, but as long as they don't look under the blanket…" He considered the idea.

"It could work…" I said eagerly. "And for the funeral, you can just bury the empty casket. Say she arranged to have her organs donated, so it has to be a closed casket ceremony…." I smiled slightly.
"This is bizarre Edward. Really quite sick."

"Yeah, but we can pull it off. Come on Carlisle! Her time's running out, and There's nothing else left to do." I pleaded urgently. He nodded slowly.

"Ok, can you call Alice? I'm going to prepare her." I nodded, and leaned down to press my lips to Bella's pale forehead.

"Hang in there love," I whispered into her ear. "You're going to make it." I kissed her again, softly, and stood up.

"Here," Carlisle said, handing me his blackberry. I smiled lightly, and dialed her number. It rang twice before she finally picked up.

"Carlisle?" she said panicly.

"Edward, actually," I said quickly. "I…"

"Edward!" she interrupted. "Edward, I'm so sorry. How is sh…"

"Alice!" I snatched. She grew silent. "How soon can you get to the hospital?"

"I'm here" she said. "I'll be there in a minute." I breathed a sigh of relief.

"Thanks so much Alice" I muttered.

"Of course…" the voice came from the doorway. I turned around to face her solemn face. She quickly danced to my side and pulled me into a hug. "Don't worry, she'll be fine" I smiled softly.

"Thank you, Alice" Carlisle muttered, while wrapping one of the hospital blankets around Bella's fragile body. Alice turned around to reply, when she saw Bella. She gasped sharply. I patted her quickly on the back, and ran over to Bella's side. It pained me more than I can possibly describe to see her so helpless and broken.

"What can I do?" I asked Carlisle, grabbing Bella's hand.

"Just prepare yourself," he uttered. "You need to bite her soon." I nodded, running a finger over Bella's matted hair, and listening to her heartbeat. I would never again here that wonderful sound. It would be still; silent. Like mine. I brushed my stone lips over hers one last time and hesitantly stood up again.

"I'm ready" I said strongly, determination flowing through my veins. Carlisle nodded and stepped back from her. I stifled a cry, and leaned forward again. Her weak pulse was getting even weaker, and her heart was certainly beating slower now. I took one of her cold hands into my own, and kissed it softly. "I love you," I whispered into her ear. "I always have and always will…" I took another deep breath, and lowered my mouth so that my teeth were grazing the skin. I kissed it slowly, and then sunk my venom-coated fangs into her veins, breaking the thin layer of silky skin. I didn't move for several minutes, letting my poison release into her bloodstream. I barely noticed the taste of the blood which I had longed for for so long. I only cared about her safety.

Finally, I removed my teeth, and sat up, still in a compete state of shock.

"You did it!" Carlisle said, his voice filled with pride. Alice hugged me tightly. A tiny smile slowly crept onto my face. I did it. Bella was going to make it. Bella! I quickly looked down at her, sighing contently as I realized that the pain had not yet sunk in. She was still asleep. Still pain free.

Suddenly, her eyes flew open…

Sorry to leave you all hanging, and sorry that it is so short. I willupdate it reallyREALLY soon. Thanks for taking the time to read it, and if you could please review, I would really appreciate it. I want feedback, good or bad. I want tips on how to improve my writing and better myself. Also, I'd like to know if you guys think this is worth continuing or not. Let me know. Thanks so much!

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