Chapter 21

How Could You?

She turned to face the steps of the porch, but just as she took a step, she stopped, only to notice what was right in front of her. Fear filled her as her breath caught her throat.

Oliver stared at Lilly, confused, but looked at what she was staring at and gasped.

There, Miley and Matt stood there with their eyes glued to the couple.

Lilly crossed her arms and forced a smile, just hoping they didn't see their kiss. "Hey you gu-" She started, but Miley walked forward and glared.

"How could you?" Miley's face scrunched as it turned red.

"What are you talking about?" Lilly pretended to not know of what they were talking about, but Miley rolled her eyes.

"Stop pretending dang it!" Miley snapped.

Lilly stood there about to move forward to confront Miley, but then felt Oliver move to her side. She looked up at him and saw him staring straight at Miley. She pursed her lips and stared at Matt and Miley. It felt unreal. They did not just get caught, did they? She was so careful, but today, it was just a mistake.

"Miley, don't blame Lilly." Oliver backed her up, but Miley shook in frustration.

Matt stared blankly at Lilly, slowly shaking his head. "How long?"

He sounded confused and a little hurt, and just earlier today Lilly caught him making out with her cousin. Now, Oliver and Lilly were caught kissing right in front of Oliver's house, this couldn't be worse right? But it is. Matt knew Lilly was going to leave him for Oliver, he even told her and he didn't want that to happen.

"You bitch. You just wanted him all to yourself, not sharing, bullshit. Oliver, Lilly, you both knew how I felt!" Miley snapped as tears rolled down her face.

Lilly bit back in fear, it was just all too confusing for her too, she never once was caught in a situation like this and now that she did, she didn't know what to do. Lilly sucked in air and looked down at the ground; she held her fists tightly and shook her head.

"It wasn't meant to be like this. Sorry."

"Sorry?" Miley rolled her eyes. "You have to be kidding me. I don't take those from liars. Just last night, Oliver said that he was still in love with the girl that changed him in Seattle."

"I am." Oliver softly replied, and put his hands on Lilly's shoulders.

Miley felt hysterical. She wanted to scream at Lilly, make her feel hurt like how she felt. For all Miley cared, Lilly never bothered to consider her feelings for Oliver. She stared at the two and notice Lilly's face looking pale. She glared and then realized something. His hands on her shoulder. No way.

"No. Don't tell me." Miley gasped and stared at the two in disgust. What other lies have Lilly and Oliver been hiding? "Lilly's this girl, isn't she? You told me you two didn't meet at all, Lilly, but now I find out you two are much more than friends." Miley threw her hands in the air. "Great, wow, now I feel such a fucking fool, falling for all your lies."

"It's not like that!" Lilly stammered, but just shook it off.

There was no need to explain, what Matt and Miley saw was true, and if she said more, it would cause even more trouble. Not only was she seeing Oliver behind Matt and Lilly's back, but they were sexually intimate, something that would definitely hurt them more if they found out.

Lilly avoided Miley's gaze and felt the need to defend herself until Miley suddenly turned around and walked off.

"Screw this. I hate the both of you." She said loudly and walked away from the property.

Lilly felt pain in her chest and shook her head. Losing a friend. Right before school started for their last quarter in high school. Lilly shook her head, and looked at Matt. He still stared at them in complete and utter shock.

Lilly frowned deeply and felt as if she needed to reach out to him, at least give him a proper explanation.

Lilly stepped forward, but Oliver held her back. "No."

Matt shook his head. "How could you Lilly?"

Those simple words made Lilly feel even more let down, as if she let everyone else down and it just hurt. She shrugged and watched Matt shake his head hard and turn around to walk off in the direction Miley left.

Lilly felt weak, numb even. For a day that was supposed to make everything better, trying to break up with her boyfriend in the beginning of the day, having a special time with Oliver, but then in the end, getting caught. It felt bad. Nothing could feel worse than how she felt like at the moment. It felt even worse than when she left Oliver in Seattle.

Lilly suddenly collapsed on the ground to her knees and her hands placed on her lap. She took a deep breath and blinked back a few times. Her vision slightly blurred, she lifted a hand to her cheek and felt it moist. She was crying. She didn't even know she was crying until now. This is such a mess.

"Lilly." Oliver kneeled behind her and wrapped his arms around her front. He pulled her close and kissed her forehead.

"It's done Oliver." Lilly said as she shook her head, finally letting it out. She let out a sob and bit her lip hard.

"But it will be better baby." He hugged her tightly, but Lilly shook her head.

"Nothing will be better. I hurt two people tonight. I didn't wan that. You know it." She said and put her hands over her face.

"They'll get over it, we have each other now." His soothing voice helped a little, but she felt like she just needed to get away form the place.

"No." She said and turned her head. "I shouldn't have done this. I've hurt everyone, I never wanted this to happen, but it happened." She put her hands over his and pushed them off. She got up from the ground and Oliver followed her.

"Lilly, you never hurt everyone; they were eventually going to find out." Oliver put his hand on her shoulder and Lilly shrugged it off.

She shook her head. "No, I think right now, it's best if we just stop talking." Lilly regretfully said and crossed her arms over her.

"Don't say that." Oliver said, but Lilly shrugged and started walking.

"I need to be alone right now." She said back to him and walked off.

Oliver stood there, in utter shock, and felt pain in his chest. Was Lilly being serious? So what if Miley or Matt found out, they were aiming to tell them anyway. If anything, it was his entire fault. He was the one who pushed Lilly to go out with him. He did everything he could just to get Lilly and now it's going to fall apart just like that? He knew Lilly. She would never drop something that easily, even if it's something close to her heart.

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Lilly stood at her locker, quickly getting something from it. She felt sick to her stomach; it almost made her want to throw up. After all the drama that happened during the weekend, she just wanted school to be over, get out of California, and go to college in Nevada. She never thought such drama could make her feel like crap. When it finally hit her, that she might've lost one of her closest friend, she cried which is why she wore sunglasses, to hide her swollen eyes.

As she closed her locker, she turned to get to her first class, but then saw Miley walking her way toward her locker. Lilly bit her lip and stood there, but as Miley neared, she kept her eyes away from Lilly and shook her head.

"Miley, listen." Lilly started and reached forward, but Miley shook her head.

"Don't talk to me. Ever." Miley said as she reached her locker.

"But I ne-"

Miley snapped her head to Lilly, with her face stiff and so serious, looking completely angered at Lilly. Lilly's heart throbbed hard against her chest. It felt like all she could feel is her heartbeat. It made her nervous for Miley to even look at her like this. She never saw Miley so angry before.

"I don't even know why you're my best friend when all you do is care about yourself. Honestly, the new you is the worst thing about you. You're not the Lilly I knew since 7th grade." Miley said in a dead tone. "That Lilly wouldn't have done this."

"I'm still the same Lilly." Lilly quietly replied.

"No, you're not. You're bitchier, you ignore me, and you lied to me. You're different."

Lilly shook her head as her eyes narrowed. She turned and walked off. She was looking at her feet as tears started to well. Why is it that everyone is making remarks about her 'new' self? She didn't change much; in fact she didn't change at all. The thing that changed her was Oliver, his disappearance made everything worse. Since when was this considered her 'new' self? It's been two freaking years since she turned this way, what more does Miley want?

She shook her head and raised the back of her hand to her cheek to wipe a few tears that managed to escape. As she did that, she accidentally bumped into someone.

"Sorry." She quickly said with her head still down and walked passed the person.

Suddenly she felt a hand grip on her arm, pulling her back and she looked back, about to snap, when she realized it was Oliver who she bumped into.

"Lilly, are you okay?" He asked with the softest voice. He looked so caring, so worried, but Lilly shook it off.

"I'm fine Oliver." She pulled her arm back and walked off.

She just couldn't see him at the moment. Not like this.

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School was a complete let down then. She left school early because she felt too depressed. It was just too much for her so for her free period, she just left campus to go home. From a rough time Miley was giving her to Oliver trying to talk to her. At the moment, all she wanted was to escape the real world and be alone.

She walked up from her car to the front of the door and once she reached there, she put her hand against the door handle, but paused.

What if she left a note for Miley explaining what happened? Would that help at all? Goodness, she had to stop thinking about others and think of herself. She's breaking down, hurt and confused; afraid of the one she truly cares for, running away.

Why does everything happen because of Oliver? She was heart broken when Oliver left and turned into this fake robot, when she went to Seattle, she Oliver and was hurt then because of Trisha and leaving him in Seattle that one day. She was hurt when Oliver stopped talking to her, and now she hurt others because she and Oliver were together.

Lilly sighed loudly and twisted the door knob until she heard someone say her name behind her. It annoyed her. Everyone's saying her name today and it pissed her off a little. She just wanted some quietness.

She turned around and stepped back when she realized who it was. She nearly covered her mouth, but just stood there, not knowing where to go.

"What are you doing here?" Lilly asked, with her shades still covering her eyes.

"Lilly, I really need to talk to you."

A/N Who do you think it is? Whoo double cliffhanger huh? Sorry about that :P and sorry if this sounded confusing, I wasn't mad and I usually try to get mad when writing scenes like this XD.

ANYWAY, I started school on July 31st, meaning its going to take longer for me to update which I really am sorry for!

Oh and as for the uncut chapter, who wants it again? It's not as detailed as my previous uncut chapter, the one in Forbidden Desires. I had to rewrite it because my laptop crashed and it was in there. So yeah, that's why the set back.

OH! And who is reading Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer? I totally stopped reading that to update this :P, just for a bit though.

That's it for my LONG Authors note. Curious with how you all felt with the chapter, I myself feel like I screwed up big time.