Chapter 23

All I Ask

Lilly lay in bed, thinking hard about what happened in the day. She's forgiven by Matt, Miley's avoiding her, and overall, she's avoiding Oliver. That's not how it's supposed to be. She regretted not going to Oliver when she had the chance to. She's running away from her problems, and the worst choice she had at the moment was to run away from him completely, which is not what she wanted.

Lilly closed her eyes, feeling a huge bag of guilt over her with regret and now she no longer had Matt to worry about, she had her two best friends to think about.

She swore under her breath and pulled her sheets up to her chin. She tried hard to clear her mind, but as she did that, she finally drifted off to sleep.

She heard something tapping at her window. It annoyed her, but she didn't want to wake up. She wanted to just stay sleeping, but the tapping grew louder and she opened her eyed and lifted her head, looking at her window but nothing was there. She shook her head and lay her head back down on the bed when she heard a loud knock coming from her balcony door and she knew that was real then.

She opened her eyes and looked to the door where a persons shadow cast against the drapes. She panicked and pulled the blanket up under her chin as she sat up.

"Lilly." The voice whispered from the door as the person knocked again.

Lilly got out of her bed and went to the side of her night table to take an old bat she once used in middle school. She lifted it and let it lean against her shoulder as she walked toward the door, slowly, as the figure stood still next to the door.

"Lilly, are you awake?" The voice asked and as she grew near, the voice sounded familiar.

A knock came from the door again and she stopped to listen what he had to say then, but he said nothing. He stood there for a few more minutes and then walked away from the door. Lilly dropped the bat and instantly went to the door and opened it to see who it could've been and saw Oliver sitting on the balcony, staring straight at her.

"I thought you weren't coming out, I was going to leave." He said as he sat there.

Lilly bit her lip and crossed her arm. "Why are you here?" She asked but Oliver shook her head.

"I wanted to see you, you won't let me." He said as he stood and walked over t o Lilly.

Lilly leaned against the door frame and stared hard at Oliver as his eyes glossed over with the moon shining over his soft face. Lilly took a deep breath and held it until he reached her. He cupped her face and tilted it up until their eyes met.

"I miss you, I need you, I want you, but most of all I love you. Why are you making me wait for you?" He asked as Lilly stared up at him.

Lilly's throat tightened as she slowly breathed out. Her heart thumped hard as if there was no tomorrow. She didn't know how to answer him. She didn't know what was stopping her.

"I…" She started but bit her lip, and slowly shook her head.

"I need you in my life now; I can't let you go, not like this. You're all I need now and you make me wait." He neared her face and slowly dropped his eyelids.

"I'm sorry." Lilly said, only for her lips to be captured by Oliver's in a slow sensual kiss.

Oliver leaned closer and her head moved back until it softly hit the door frame. His hands snaked to her hips and pushed close to her until no space was left between them. Lilly's hands moved to his shoulders, feeling the need to be with him, hold him so closely as if nothing was wrong.

Lilly melted at his touch with his soft kiss smothering her lips, parting them, and kissing her so tenderly. She pulled back, for Oliver to kiss her cheeks, forehead, chin, and the tip of her nose when she felt his hands drop from her body.

She opened her eyes to look at Oliver, but he wasn't there anymore. She startled and looked around, to see nothing. She went to the balcony and looked over it, but he was no where in sight. Her heart pound hard against her chest, feeling as if something pulled away, far away, and it ached. She felt alone.

She pulled back and panicked. She looked around, utterly confused but shook her head.

"Oliver?" She called, but no response.

She wanted Oliver. She needed Oliver right now.

Lilly's eyes fluttered open, breathing hard, ears plugged hearing her heart beat. She sat up on the bed and looked around. It was still night and she wasn't on the balcony which meant that it was only a dream. She pursed her lips and lifted the back of her hand to her forehead feeling cold sweat from it. She took a deep breath and dropped her head. She looked to the clock and saw 2 AM blinking on it.

She kicked off her blanket and pulled the top of her shirt forward. She felt hot, she was sweating. She climbed out of bed and shook her arms. She sat down on her bed and put her hands on her bare thighs.

She closed her eyes and thought of her dream. She needed to confront Oliver now, or at least soon. It wasn't fair that she was shutting him out and she did care for him.

She sighed.

She needed to get out of there, she felt so uncomfortable.

She got up and went into her closet and took a pair of shoes and slipped them on. She then headed for her balcony, opened the door with hot wind hitting her face. For such a quiet night, it felt so hot. A sign that summer was coming.

She closed the door and went to the edge of the balcony. She sucked in air and looked down. She knew what path to climb down from but the fact that her dream was placed here with Oliver.

Lilly shook her head and climbed down the balcony and to the lawn. When she hit ground, she walked across the lawn and went on the sidewalk, dropping her hands to her sides and walked. She stared down at the pavement and thought of nothing except her dream while walking. So many memories with Oliver, so many feelings with him and now she's just avoiding him. That wasn't right. She needed to know when she could talk to him, or if she was even ready to find him.

She stopped in her tracks and looked up at the night sky. She breathed in the warm air and glanced at the moon. She dropped her head and looked forward, staring at the neighborhood park.

She walked toward it and went on the property, looking around for anything suspicious before going completely in. she followed the pavement, staring at her feet walk forward as she was lost in a thought.

She and Matt are okay, she and Oliver aren't, Miley hates her, but hopefully Matt's telling her things… if that's possible. It felt weird. To think everyone hated her now. She was always likable right?

She shook her head. She felt stupid. She had to stop putting herself down. She lifted her head and walked toward a tree she'd always sit by as a child, which wasn't too far. She continued to walk, crossed her arms on the way, and as the tree came to view, the street light face it, showing a boy sitting under the tree.

She stopped in her tracks and decided to go home it was no use coming here now, someone took her spot.

She was about to turn around to go home when she heard someone call for her.

"Lilly?"

Lilly turned back around and the person sitting under the tree slowly got up. Lilly squinted her eyes until she could finally see who it was.

Lilly's mouth went dry as she stood there, watching him walk toward her. She didn't have the need to run away, but she felt a little far from him. At the moment, she didn't know how to react.

"Will you talk to me now?" Oliver inquired as he stopped in his tracks.

Lilly sucked in air and forced her legs to moved forward to walk toward Oliver. She clenched her fists and swallowed hard until she met him. She forced herself to gaze at his face, study his brown eyes, hair, lips, face, everything, and had the sudden urge to hug him.

Oliver lifted his hand from his side, tempting to touch her, but pulled back and shook his head. He turned around and headed back for the tree, where he was sitting down and leaned against the bark.

Lilly was stunned that Oliver didn't touch her or talk to her. He wanted to talk to her since the afternoon, but now, he's walking back after asking her if she would talk to him, it was confusing. Was he afraid of her?

"Aren't you going to say something?" Lilly asked as she walked toward him at his spot.

Oliver sighed. "Now you decide to talk to me?"

Lilly felt a pang of guilt in her chest. Why was he being so difficult?

"If you want me to leave, I-"

"No." Oliver shook his head. "I'm being stupid, sorry. Why did you come here so late at night?"

"I just came to calm down. I had a strange dream." Lilly frowned, only for Oliver to drop his head.

"Sorry. What was your dream about?" Oliver asked.

Lilly walked closer to Oliver until she stood just a foot before him. He stared at her and Lilly's eyes glossed over as she reached forward and took his hand.

"It was about you." She lightly squeezed it.

Oliver nodded and bit his lip. He suddenly pulled her close and hugged her tightly. His hand to the back of her head as his arm wrapped around her waist. He pressed his face into the side of her head, holding her ever so closely.

Lilly slowly brought her hands up to Oliver's back and hugged him. She closed her eyes and pursed her lips. She tightened her grip, making sure he wouldn't let go, and suddenly felt tears streaming down her face. She felt better, being here with Oliver, but the burden of being with him, it scared her. She was never in a serious relationship until she and Oliver dated. Now that everything's clean, does she want to still be in this relationship?

"I miss you. I'm sorry, I'm being such an ass and this is our first meeting since the fight but I don't know what to do." His voice cracked as he held her even closer. "I gave you my all, I never wanted this relationship with Miley, but I can't stand being away from you. You're the person I see myself in the future with; I don't want to let you go… just stay with me." He rambled, but Lilly could hear how hurt he felt.

She never realized how emotional Oliver was, or the fact that he even had emotion. He's showing the sides of him made her feel even worse. He is a man after all; she didn't know he'd react like this.

Lilly's heart dropped as she rubbed his back. "I'm sorry."

Tears fell and nothing could stop them now. Lilly regretted leaving him just like that the night Miley and Matt found out and with the dream, all made sense. She wanted to be with Oliver.

"You don't need to be sorry. I pushed you to going out with me, I tried so hard to get you to kiss me, admit you still love me, and in the end, you get hut. I can't forgive myself, I'm a horrible boyfriend." Oliver's arms slipped from Lilly's to his sides and sighed.

"No, you're not horrible!" Lilly held on to him tighter as her face dropped to his shoulder.

"I am and I'm making you cry now." Oliver sighed.

"Gosh! Will you just stop?" Lilly said as she pulled back. "You're not horrible, you're nice, sweet, probably the best thing that has happened in my life. I can't stop thinking about you for one second and now you're saying you're horrible to me. Think about how I feel? Stop putting yourself down and just listen!" Lilly snapped as tears continued to streak her face.

Oliver stayed quiet and reached for Lilly. "Sorry, it's just, I'm being jealous. You got to talk to Matt, you never talked to me, and it made me feel like you wanted to be with Matt. I don't want to lose you like that… after I just started seeing you again."

Lilly gazed up at Oliver's face as Oliver reached to cup her cheek. He wiped a tear away as Lilly shook her head. Still, she wanted something more. A part of her wanted to know how exactly he felt, what he'd do to be with her because right now, as much as she wanted to be with him, it felt different.

"I would do anything just to talk to you again, to hold you, to kiss you, I've had so much to hold in, and I'm not fair." Oliver shook his head.

Lilly pursed her lips and reached for the front of his shirt. "I want you to show me why I should be with you. I love you, I really do, and I just don't think I can face so much drama, especially since Miley hates me."

Oliver shook his head. "If you really cared about our relationship, you wouldn't let Miley into it. If you want to be fully committed now, you'd forget Miley and just be with me."

Lilly frowned and dropped her gaze. "If only it was that easy. Before Miley came, you were there for me obviously, but she was a girl, my first best friend that's a girl. She was there when you left…" Lilly let out a deep sigh.

"I'm sorry." Oliver said and took Lilly's hand, pulling it back toward the tree.

Lilly followed and watched as Oliver sat on the ground. Lilly sat next to him and put her hand on his thigh as he wrapped a protective arm around her shoulders. Lilly shut her eyes and leaned against him.

"Are we friends now?" Oliver asked and she nodded.

"I'm having mood swings." She furrowed her brows.

"Are you-" Oliver started and Lilly shook her head.

"I take pills Oliver." She said as if she read Oliver's mind. "Plus it would be too early. Maybe it's almost that time of the month."

Oliver smirked and kissed the top of her head. He took in her scent, almost drunken by it, and shut his eyes. It should be like this, it should always feel this right, but Miley. It had to be Miley who liked him. Why couldn't she just stay with Jake?

"Don't worry about me Oliver. I feel like it got even more complicated." Lilly lifted her head and looked him in the eyes.

"Words can not describe how much you mean to me." Oliver started. "In my eyes, you're the perfect girl. I couldn't even think, knowing that you and Matt were together. I'm jealous, I pretend that I didn't care, but I did care. I want your heart to be with me and me only. I've liked you for so long and I'm sorry if I'm such a pain in the ass, but you're different. You're not like the girls I dated. You're perfect in every way and you don't need to change. I would take you, even if you were that same tomboy I used to know, I wouldn't care. I know what's in your heart; I fell for your personality. I love you and only you." Oliver recited as he held that gaze with Lilly.

Lilly's chest filled with warmness as she took his words in. He cared for her, a whole lot, and she cared for him too. She saw him in the future, she'd love to have his kids one day, married, happy, loving, everything.

"You were always in my spotlight. So many times have I felt a connection with you so strong that nothing could break it. You're the only girl in my eyes Lilly.

Lilly felt tears escape as she blushed deep. She wished Oliver would just shut up. It made her feel embarrassed to know that he was talking to her like this. Saying such great things, things she never once considered herself to be.

They stared at each other and Lilly softly smiled. Oliver pressed his forehead against hers. She shut her eyes and felt Oliver's warm breath on her lips. She thought of the dream and soon felt pressure on her lips.

The dream dropped and reality kicked in. this time, it wasn't a dream, it was for real. She can feel it, feel him. She lifted her hand to his chest and felt his heart beat fast from the thin shirt. She was surprised it was beating so fast. Maybe he was nervous.

Oliver and Lilly parted and she smiled warmly.

"Everything better?" Oliver asked.

"Little. Just hope Matt talk to Miley or something-"

"-And forgive you?"

Something of random said. The two looked in the direction the voice came from and saw Miley's figure walk toward them. Lilly felt a little nervous as Oliver's arm dropped.

"Look-" Lilly started as she started to get up.

"Sit." Miley said as she drew closer.

Lilly sat still, uncomfortable, as Miley took a seat next to her. Lilly bit her lip and looked at Oliver who stared straight ahead.

"Don't make it like I'm a stranger." Miley ordered.

Lilly shrugged. "I honestly don't know what to say except sorry times a million and I should die for being such a bitch." Lilly pulled her legs to her chest and hugged them.

Miley shook her head. "I missed you two too much to hate you and Matt told me everything. Miley replied.

Lilly nodded. "I see. So what are we going to do now? It's been a few days, you should hate me."

Miley scoffed. "I don't think hating you would be the best thing right now. Why didn't you tell me you and Oliver was dating? Even in Seattle? You know how that makes me feel? The fact that I found out that way?"

Lilly was shocked to see how blunt Miley was being, but she needed to be truthful. Matt really did something to calm Miley down, she thought Miley would kill her with a gun right now, but she didn't. It's better to come out now.

"I never knew he would come here. I didn't want to start something that I'd regret in the end. I thought that Seattle was going to be the last place I saw Oliver, that's why we broke up then." Lilly frowned.

"Well, I honestly don't know what to do, but I can't ignore you forever." Miley resolved as she put a hand on Lilly's shoulder.

"How about me?" Oliver asked.

Miley softly chuckled. "I'll learn to forgive you two. First, what we need to do is trust each other, start off clean."

"Okay." Lilly put her chin on her knees. "How?"

"Well, first I'd like to say I don't mind you and Oliver dating, it will take some getting used to, but I realized that I might like someone else." Miley bit her lip.

Lilly smirked and knew exactly who she was talking about. She might've gotten Oliver, but Matt probably said he loved her or something. Hmm, Miley does swing from one guy to another quickly.

"Anyone want to go to Sally's?" Oliver suggested, finally.

"I don't thing it will be opened now, it's pretty late." Miley replied.

"Well, even if I have this huge guilt hung over me, let's just head home. Start off clean tomorrow." Lilly suggested and got up from her seat.

The rest nodded and said their goodbyes as they headed home. Something new to experience, something different; hopefully everything will be better in the end.

A/N It seems like I changed a lot of your views about Matt in the last chapter. Ah. No sequel after this, but there will be one final Loliver I'll write after this and my Camp Rock fan fiction. I don't know if the next chapter is the final, or the second to the final. I have to think it over. I'm sorry for the lateness and such, I've been busy. Seriously, I'm so sorry! Anyway, hope you liked this chapter and hope it didn't confuse you.