So this is pretty much part 2 of the last chapter. Also known as one of my favorite chapters besides the last one. (i have alot more written then you guys have read soo yea thast how much i love it!) Still no flashback, thats back next chapter. =] Well read and review. Thanks for all the love! you guys rock!!! =]
The next three minutes are a complete blur. The first thing I do when I see Miley and that dude kissing pull apart is get angry, I know thinking about it that I have zero right to. But I wasn't thinking properly then because I instantly punch the dude in the face, after which instantly Big rob is grabbing my arm while screaming into a cell phone. I manage to grab Miley's arm in the rushed moment as we get pulled towards the doorway. As we make our way outside and towards a waiting escalade, I see Joe and Kevin being pulled by someone who must know Big Rob to the car as well. After we are all shoved inside, Big Rob jumps up front in the passenger seat and the car rushes off, towards where I don't know. But that's where we are all are now. As we get our barring, we start to adjust our seating, this escalade has been converted to have a limo like seating arrangement including the closing door to the front of the car, which is already closed. Quickly we all realize we are on piled on the same tiny seat, Miley somehow appeared on my lap.
"Sorry, Nick let me move out of your way." She half whispers as we semi stands to move to the front seat, facing my brothers and I.
As I start to move next to her, Joe moved there first. "Hey Miles." He said casually as he placed an arm around her, acting as if there was no tension in the car.
Looking over a Kevin, the hatred was obvious as he glared at Miley then looked at Joe and I with looks of 'what the hell are you thinking?' then back to his glare at Miley.
"So, uh…what now?" I ask slowly, chances are we are trying to lose paparazzi trail before we can even get home and since the party was an hour away without a paparazzi tail or L.A. traffic. And I can't do silence, not when it's uncomfortable like this.
"Why is SHE in here with us?" Kevin spits out. The words burn me like fire, I can only imagine how Miley feels.
"Dude, chill out." Joe and I say at the same. I watch Joe tighten his grip on Miley, his arm still around her as she settles in close to him. At least she has someone to latch onto since it can't be me.
"Chill out? Are you serious? She is the reason we are in here!, why we have had to deal with so many claims we don't follow our purity pledge! Why Nick goes on strings of dates in a row, and can't be happy with a girl! SHE causes so many problems." Once again words like fire, come out of Kevin's mouth and burn into my skin.
"Kevin, please. You don't understand…about any of it…you never let me explain anything." Miley's voice is barely a whisper but the pain behind it is clear as day.
Before she says anything else, I cut in. "Kevin, if you are going to talk about her, its Miley, not she, Miley. You used to look at her like a sister, now you don't even call her by her name? She is right you never cared enough to listen to either of our stories, and I mean really listen. And I'm pretty sure that I am the reason we are in this situation, I'm the one who punched out that dude, sorry Justin. And I'm the one that grabbed Miley's arm when I was being pulled from the party. I had no right to do either of those things." Turning away from Kevin I address Miley now, "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have brought you along for this car ride, I just wasn't thinking during all the madness. Hell I shouldn't have punched that guy, I mean your boyfriend either I have no right to do it, I'm not sure why I did…"
"Cough jealousy Cough" Joe spouts out a smile spreading across his face for a second as he winks at me.
I give him the finger and lean back in my seat waiting for whatever is going to happen next after my speech.
"Nick" Both Kevin and Miley say at the same time, both stop talking and look down at the floor. Finally Miley goes first. "Please can you call him Justin, but its part my fault to. After we talked, I was in such a fit of furry that when I ran into him at the end of the hallway I just grabbed him and went at it. I guess I had to get my mind off of you and that room and all the emotions…."
She trialed off letting me finish the sentence in my head since I knew what she meant. Plus the stares coming from both my brothers made this twenty times more awkward. Sure Joe kind of understood me and Miley so it wasn't as bad as dealing with Kevin and his awful hatred.
"Sooo…" Joe tried desperately to break the silence and the conversation, he had no luck.
"So, you two were in a room alone together? Seriously Nick? Can't you stay away from her for three seconds? What the hell did you need to tell her anyways?" Kevin was facing me serious look on his face, waiting for my response.
"I just wanted to know how she was." I said as innocently as possible. But I knew that Joe and Miley knew it was false, I was hoping maybe Kevin would by it.
"And you had to do that in private?"
"Yea…." I was losing any chance at getting this over with easily.
"God Nick! She fucks up your career and you keep dating here for months afterwards. Then you breakup and the new still doesn't go away, hell even more of the photos show up! And after all of that you still HAVE to talk to her? Why?" Only Kevin wasn't looking at me he was looking at Miley as if she could say something he would believe.
"Kevin, you never understood what happened with me and Nick, why we broke-up. You stopped caring about us and how we were together after the photos, and I don't think you ever really understood it then. Besides you never wanted to know the whole deal with the photos, you just couldn't wrap your dense head around it all." Miley was gaining strength in standing up to Kevin and being comfortable in the car. Not that any of us were really comfortable in the car.
"Okay well we have time, explain. Since it is obviously so difficult for my dense head to understand without an explanation." He rolled his eyes, and sat back to get comfortable looking back and forth between Miley and I, waiting for one of us to speak.
"Those pictures were part of a dare at first. Miley's friends dared her to, but before she did she sent me a text message asking if I was okay with it. I thought it over and realized it was okay it wasn't sex it was just looking. But then we realized that we liked them, I wanted to send Miley something as great as what she sent me so I did. We both sent dozens of pictures to one another it was our way of staying faithful to our vows. And we did." I tried to stay calm and just state everything simply and without any emotion.
"Because not having sex is really that hard?" Kevin questioned, with a sour sound to his voice. "I've managed to do it."
I continued before he went onto a whole speech. "But Kev, it's different, Miley and I are, sorry, were different than anything you know. We were one whole, it was like without the other we couldn't function, we had conversations without a single word. We knew we were supposed to be together, since the beginning. The way everything felt when we were together was just so strong and intense..." I realize some emotion had snuck into my voice so I trailed off for a second before able to continue. "But then after a while the tabloids started to attack us. Which we knew to expect after and we did and we handled it, but then there were the pictures which the public thought I leaked after Miley and I broke up, but we were still together. So that made it harder, then after that even our own families started to be against us, Kev I don't mean just you, but you were the most open and hateful. And you are the only one to have not cared enough to ask why, and to forgive and realize it's not that horrible. Anyway, eventually we just knew that no matter how much we loved, cared for one another we couldn't do it." I was staring down at the floor, waiting.
"Nick, that's nice and all but I'm sure what you are saying about how you and Miley were, is how she feels about Justin. I mean I've felt like that, okay well kind of."
The car had been dead silent since I had started and until then I had forgotten that Miley was right here. Kev and I looked over to find Joe comforting her as tears ran down her face.
"Miles what's wrong?" I questioned softly.
"It's nothing, I'm being silly it's just that well Kevin is wrong, I don't feel that way about Justin one bit. I've never felt that way well besides, you." She mumbles the very end part. But I hear it clearly, and my heart skips a beat.
"Bullshit Miley." Kevin spits across the SUV.
"Kevin you still don't understand how strong and real it was do you?" Miley looked over to him. "I guess its mine turn to try."
I sat up a bit in my seat, but I kept Joe's arm around me, the comfort was necessary. I was about to talk about something I had tried to pretend wasn't there for over a year now. It wasn't going to be an easy task, I just hope my tears can keep themselves from falling and my voice can stay steady. "Kevin, me and Nick, its…its well it's like nothing you could ever explain properly. No words can really explain how it feels when just walking into the room where that person is makes your stomach flip. When holding hands is this connection that makes sparks fly, or when all they have to do is start the sentence and even if the stopped you know exactly how they were going to end it. When they get upset about something just looking at them explains it all, they don't have to say a word. I want to sit here and try and explain something so incredible that after two years the thrill of knowing he was my boyfriend never went away, my butterflies never faded, the spark never disappeared but I can't because you never experienced something like that. Something so real that you know that you will end up with that person in the end." When I finished I realize tears were falling down my face, and all three boys stared at me in awe of how sincerely honest and raw I had just been.
"But you two broke up, so obviously it wasn't as amazing as you say." Kevin said, unable to not be wrong.
"We broke up not because we didn't love each other, but because we couldn't be together when everyone didn't want it anymore. When we couldn't even be certain we had support from family and friends, it was too hard to love him with all the hate that came with it….it was a break up yes but…" I trailed off, locking eyes as we both finished the sentence in our head, 'it was never really the end'.
"But what?" Kevin asked.
He was unable to understand what Nick and I could, Joe might have even understood it by the way he squeezed my arm harder when I finished that sentence and stared at Nick I think he had.
"Okay Miley I heard both the stories but I still am not happy about anything going on here or in the past. I don't know if I ever will be able to forgive. But I guess it was good to hear, not that I understand." He shook his head and shifted uncomfortable in his seat.
Finally after a lifetime of uncomfortable silence in the long car ride home, we reached my house. As the car pulled in my driveway I began to unbuckle and went to gather my things before remembering that I didn't have any. As the car came to a stop, I looked at the three boys in the car around me, I next to me at Joe and gave him a huge smile. Leaning in to hug him a tight thank you / goodbye hug I whispered in his ear "You saved me during this car ride. You are still my brother in my mind, I love you. We will talk soon." Then I kissed him on the cheek after which he nodded in agreement t my words. Then I reached for the door and gave a awkward goodbye hug to the other brothers in the car, I wasn't sure what to do there so I just closed the door behind me and walked up the front path into the house. Opening the door to find my parents sitting in the kitchen in pajamas drinking coffee they looked up at the sound of the door.
"Well glad to see you finally are home." My dad said, it was obvious for tonight's inappropriate behavior with Justin.
"Dad, I'm really too exhausted from my awkward car ride home with Kevin, Joe and Nick to deal with all of your yelling about how I fucked up tonight. I'm going to go shower and then sleep for eternity. I know already that I'm grounded." With that I turned to walk up the stairs and hopefully shower away all of tonight's events.