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Chapter 4: The Vision
I stood there, without a single word leaving my mouth. Edward had finally returned to my life, and gone on to say he had always loved me. A minute or so went by, and he took another cautious step forward, and looked as if he wanted to reach out to me. It was then that my voice managed to croak out of my mouth. "Then-then why did you leave?" I questioned, as if accusing him of some terrible crime. Edward's face crumpled with despair, as he ran his fingers through his bronze hair. "Bella" He started slowly "I thought I was protecting you by leaving, doing something to keep you safe. But I am a selfish creature, and I have found it more than difficult to live without you. If you let me back into your life, I swear to you I will never leave you again." As he spoke I could tell he meant every word of what he said.
I could feel my heart waging a war inside of me, two sides fighting one another with extreme fervor. One side was starting to win though, and I kept that in mind as I began my shaky reply to Edward's outpouring. "Edward" God how just saying his name again felt good. "Edward, I'm sorry but, I can't." I could feel my own frown begging to turn into a sob, screaming to let the tears run freely down my face. This was the most difficult moment of my entire life, definitely worse than James' teeth sinking into me. I knew for a fact, that if Edward had never left, I would still be lost in love with him. I would still want to be a vampire and live my forever with him. But the fact was he had left, and his absence had changed my life. Jacob was the bright, burning center of my universe now. Jacob Black was my everything. "I'm with Jacob now. You left, and things got hard but…. then Jake was there to pick up the pieces."
Edward nodded silently, his face had turn to a cool emotionless state. It reminded me of when I had first seen him, staring across the cafeteria at me. I knew that expression was a mask, hiding anything he was really feeling. It hurt to know I had caused him to resort to that look again, but there was nothing more I could give to him. His voice broke the thick silence between us "I understand, I am sorry for interrupting your life again. I am happy for you, however twisted that may seem. Whatever makes you happy is what I want for you. Just remember, if you ever need anything…." Edward headed for the window, and was crouched on the sill was he looked over his shoulder to whisper his last words. "I will always be around". With that, I watched him leap gracefully into the darkest night.
When I woke up for school the next morning my head was pounding." Just great, a headache to make my already stressful state even better". I muttered under my breath, making my way to the bathroom to clean up and get dressed. Last night seemed like somewhat of a dream, but my churning stomach told me otherwise. Charlie had already left, so I skipped breakfast and walked to the Chevy. No way was I feeling hungry today.
School was rather uneventful as usual, although I had started to wonder if all of the Cullens were going to pop up again at Forks High School. They did not however, and to my surprise this relaxed me. I could not imagine seeing Edward everyday, with that pained look in his eyes that I knew I was the cause of. However I did miss Alice, I wondered if she was in the area as well….
"Bella? Bella?" Angela's voice broke through my reverie as we walked down the hall together for our last and final class. I looked over, seeing her concerned expression under her black -framed glasses. "Sorry, I'm in a weird place today." I said quietly, and she nodded in response, seeming to think about what to say next. "You want to talk about it?" She offered, a sincere look of sympathy spilled across her features. I knew I could trust Angela, unlike Jessica, with my strange boy troubles. I sighed, and began to tell her what I could about my recent boy issues. "Well, I didn't tell you yet because it's still new…. But I'm dating Jacob Black now." Angela's jaw dropped merely at that, her chin would be on the floor when I finished this story. "And things have been good… actually great between us. But last night, Edward showed up at my house." I left out the jumping through my second story window, some details could not be told to even Angela. The girl tucked some of her curly hair behind her ear, her face clearly showing shock. "Edward Cullen? Your Edward?" She asked, not seeming to believe it much like myself. I just nodded. "Wow, he just shows up after all this time? What happened?" Angela asked, curious but still caring. "He said he still loved me and wanted me back, but I told him I was with Jake now." Silence. Neither of us seemed to be able to grasp that I had really turned away Edward Cullen. "So, your over him now, completely? I mean that's good it's just… are you sure?" Angela asked carefully, not wanting to be too pushy. "Yes" I said, with more confidence now than I had felt all morning. "I have a great thing going with Jake, and after Edward left…. He just hurt me too much for me to see us ever patching things up again." I said softly, Angela nodded.
We had gone through our last class without mentioning the subject again. I was glad to get it off my chest, and Angela seemed to agree with my choice as well which was comforting. I said goodbye to her, and waved to Mike and Ben was I walked through the parking lot to my truck. My heart jumped out of my chest as I noticed dark hair and a pale face standing by the driver's door, patiently waiting for me.
"Alice!" I practically squealed, and cringed inwardly at my own girly behavior. But seriously, it was Alice! I had missed her so much, even if she made me shop for useless things with her, she had been my best friend when I was with Edward. She turned towards me and smiled, her perfect teeth shimmering even though the sun was hidden by grey clouds. "Hello Bella, its great to see you again. I've missed you." When I made it over to my truck she gave me a quick hug. "Same here, how have you been? And… what are you doing here?" I asked, not really getting why the spiky haired vampire was at a school she no longer attended. "I came to see you of course. I know things did not work out with Edward but… I still want to be your friend Bella, if you don't mind." She said, almost seeming a little nervous about it. Alice could see the future, but maybe I had been so mixed up today she could not tell if I would want to bother with her anymore? I smiled though, and told her to get in the truck. Alice quickly obeyed and gracefully danced to the passenger's side.
On the ride home we talked about a million different things. She asked what I had been doing, and I asked about her. Alice told me she and Jasper had taken a little vacation across the globe, visiting numerous battlegrounds and historical war museums. I was surprised at first I knew Jasper was never proud of his history. But Alice said even if he did not like his vampire history, even as a human he had always been fascinated by military strategy and such. I nodded and accepted it, I still knew little about the two blonde 'children' of the Cullen family. Rosalie and Jasper had always been the most distant. Rosalie by choice and pure dislike, Jasper did it more for safety reasons.
By the time we got to Charlie's it seemed like only a minute had passed. I convinced Alice to at least come hang out in my room until Charlie got home, and it was not hard to convince her either. I sat at my computer, mindlessly responding to some e-mails my mother sent, and one from a friend back in Arizona. Alice was searching through my closet, and telling me which shirts and pants went together best, and also looking for any accessories she could scrounge up to match them. I kept typing, and hit send for the last message. I stood up to go and stop Alice from organizing my entire closet, but noticed she was standing still, looking straight ahead. I knew that look, she must be getting a vision, and a strong one. "Bella… I have to tell you something" She said suddenly, slowly turning to face me. I nodded, feeling my face growing pale. Whatever this was, it was serious. "You might want to sit down for this." She said, it was almost hard for her musical voice to sound grave, but it did. I listened, and perched myself on the edge of my bed. "What's going on Alice?" I asked eyeing her cautiously. She took a deep breath, locking her golden eyes on me as she spoke "Bella, I don't know why, but I still see you becoming one of us…. A vampire."
I froze, what did this mean? I was sure I was solid on my choice to stay with Jacob, how could this be? The idea of becoming a vampire never repulsed me, but now I could only think of what it meant for my relationship with a werewolf. "How? Why?" I asked, my voice shaking. Alice shrugged her petite shoulders. "I'm sorry Bella I don't know. I just saw you like I have before as a newborn, but this time you were not with Edward, you were just standing by yourself near a river or something." I wanted to ask more, but Alice headed for the window. "What?" I asked, not wanting her to leave so suddenly, before I could get a better explanation. "Charlie… I'm sure you don't want him starting up with questions about my family." She said , a small frown on her perfect face. I simply nodded, and waved my farewell to Alice. She was right, no need to get Charlie involved. I knew I would see her again, we already agreed to make sure we saw one another at least once a week.
I made dinner mindlessly and barely spoke to Charlie. He noticed my strange mood and kept to himself more than usual. I could not have been more grateful for that. All I could think about was how it would be impossible for Jake to love a vampire. Werewolves and vampires ripped each other's throats out, they did not kiss and hug. Alice did not say how long I had, but I knew it could not be too far off. She said I looked the same as previous visions just , alone now. That meant I still looked pretty young. God… pretty soon my boyfriend would be disgusted simply by my scent! With these depressing, and gloomy thoughts I went to my room and did not succeed in getting any sleep.
I woke up the next morning, grateful it was Friday. The school day dragged on, and I did not take a single note in my classes. In fact I don't think I spoke to a single person today, not even Angela. I had plans with Jacob too, we were supposed to go to the movies. I was already driving to Billy's, but my stomach was in knots. I had to tell him, I had to tell him everything and I knew he would not like any of it. The old Chevy chugged along the dirt road that lead deeper into the reservation, and straight to Billy Black's tiny red house. I pulled into the drive, and saw Jacob striding up from his homemade garage. A huge grin was plastered across his face, lighting up his dark eyes. His ebon hair was a little longer now, falling just past the tops of his ears and a little over his forehead. He was dressed surprisingly nice as well. He wore a white polo shirt that looked like he had put some effort into ironing, and a pair of khaki shorts with brand new white sneakers. I jumped out of my truck and walked over to him. Without a word he wrapped his warm arms around me, and I forgot my troubles for a second or two… feeling completely safe in his arms. I stepped back, looking him over once more. "So what calls for the outfit, and you do look quite handsome as well, but why are you so dressed up?" For most people this might be a regular outfit, but for Jacob it was dressed up. He normally walked around shirtless with cutoff sweatpants on. Jacob ran a hand over his hair, seeming a little embarrassed. "Well…" he muttered "I figured it was our first real date and all, so I wanted to make it special." He continued to fidget with his oversized hands until I grabbed him and kissed him.
"Aw Jake, you didn't have to do that, I wish I put a little more effort into my outfit now. " I said, stepping back and frowning at my plain jeans and long sleeved green shirt. "Don't worry Bells, you look perfect as usual. Shall we get going?" He asked, offering his hand which I accepted immediately. Except we turned away from my truck "Jake where are we going?" I asked, he just smirked "You'll see" He said, bringing me behind his house. I smiled as I spotted his shiny black motorcycle awaiting us, with a black helmet resting on the back seat. "So am I driving?" I asked, strapping my helmet on. Jacob laughed, his entire frame shaking. "Um, no, I want us to get there in one piece." He said and punched him the back as I climbed onto the back of the bike. Jacob revved up the engine and we were off. I rested my head comfortably on his shoulder as we sped over the pavement. The wind rushing past my face was thrilling, in a way I had not noticed before when I was only searching for Edward's voice.
We arrived at the theater early, and remained in the parking lot talking. I was leaning against the bike, with Jacob standing no more than an inch in front of me. I looked up at him with anxious brown eyes. He noticed the change from our light hearted conversation, and paused with what he had been saying. "Jake… I have to tell you something, well some things." I said breaking away from his gaze, feeling my nerves and my cheeks growing red. "What is it? You know you can tell me anything." He said quietly, placing his finger beneath my chin so I had to look him in the eyes again. All I could see in them was love, which seemed unconditional… at the moment. I took a deep breath and went for it. "I saw Edward the other night, he came back for me, but I turned him away." Jacob's hand dropped, but I continued, knowing I would lose my nerve if I did not. "And then I saw Alice, we're still going to be friends and all…. But she had a vision." I stumbled on through the story, my words jumbling together faster as I went. "In her vision I-I… I am still going to become a vampire." I could feel hot tears burning the back of my eyes, but fought to keep them away, and barely managed to succeed. Jacob looked like he had been slammed by a brick wall. Somehow, he seemed small right now, his face distorted with confusion, anger, and sadness.
"What? That leech came back?! Who the hell does he think he is!" I should have known he would have focused on the Edward part of this story. "Jake that's not important, did you hear what I said?" I asked, demanding him to focus. Jacob seemed to suppress his jealously by my request and listened. "I am becoming a vampire one way or another, and soon…" I whispered, my voice cracking and revealing my inner breakdown. Jacob pulled me closer, and I finally let my tears run free as I buried my face in his chest. "Shhh… it's ok Bells, we'll get through this." Jacob kissed the top of my head, continuing to whisper reassurances in my ear. "How?" I asked, still sniffling from my tears, and my voice muffled by his shirt. "I don't know, if anything we can make sure we appreciate the time we do have together. I love you Bella, no matter what." I felt him squeeze his arms around me just a little tighter. "I love you too Jake."
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