Twisted Love Chapter 8

I looked over at Jacob… speechless. What was I supposed to say? Did I want to become a vampire and leave Jacob behind? But he said he could deal with it… but could he really? Was he going to make that promise to me? Was he going to keep it? My mind was in a jumble… I didn't know what to think. I didn't even know what to do. If I said yes… was that going to be the end of us? Us being together? But if I said no… was that the end of my friendship with Rosalie… Edward… even Alice? I couldn't imagine not seeing them everyday… not hugging Alice and feeling their cold skin. But on the other hand… I would probably lose Jacob… and I loved him so much… what was I supposed to do? I couldn't think straight. I just started at his dark brown eyes… not saying a word. I saw it in his eyes that he was worried… frightened… of losing me. Did he think that I would go back to Edward? Not after everything… I couldn't go back to Edward. I opened my mouth but nothing came out. I think he was holding his breath because his face started to turn purple. I touched his arm. "Breathe Jacob! Breathe!"

He let out a big gulp of air and his face turned back to the darker color that I loved. He looked away from my face… he didn't know what to say. He just had to sit there and wait for my answer… but what was the right answer? Was it yes… or no? I couldn't decide!

He grabbed my chin and looked me straight in the eye. "Bella… you have to give me your answer before I die!"

I laughed. His jokes were always funny… that's one thing that I liked about him… he could always make me laugh. I took a deep breath… I knew my answer. He looked at me anxiously… waiting… just waiting. "Jacob…" I started. I think he stopped breathing again. "I've wanted to be a vampire for so long… but now… I just want to be me… nothing else. I wanna stay human."

He grabbed me and hugged me really tight. "I'm so happy Bella! I knew you wouldn't do that to me!"

I smiled… knowing that I had made the right decision. I was over heating a little… so I tried to pull away. "Jacob… I'm getting to hot!"

He let go and smiled. "Sorry Bells… I forgot!"

I smiled. What else could I do?

*The next day at school*

Jacob gave me a ride on his motorcycle to school. I didn't feel like driving… I was lazy. We pulled in and I could see Rosalie and Alice talking to each other… well… yelling actually. We got off Jake's motorcycle, "Jake… did you tell Rosalie and Alice my decision yet?" I hoped that he didn't… I began to feel woozy.

"No… but Edward could've read my mind… but I promise you Bella I said nothing to anyone!"

Edward probably did read his mind… knowing Edward. He probably told Rosalie… and now Rosalie is really mad at me… again. I sighed as Jacob and I started to walk toward them. "Hey Alice! Rosalie! What's up?"

They all looked over at me… Rosalie had hate in her eyes… again. I knew she was mad at me… but why? She didn't want me to be a vampire in the first place… and now she does? And Edward too? What was going on in the world? Why did they want me to now? Alice didn't look mad… not one bit. She was smiling at me… like always. I loved Alice… she could never be mad at anyone… and I really loved that about her. Edward wouldn't even look at me… that told me right away that he had read Jacob's mind. "What's wrong guys?"

"You know pretty well what is wrong Bella! How could you do this to me? How?" Rosalie screamed at me.

I was surprised that Rosalie raised her voice at me… but why? She was the one that had caused me all this pain… was she going to start it again? No… I couldn't handle it… I just couldn't. "Rosalie… let me explain."

"Why?!?! Why should I even talk to you?" Rosalie said.

"Rose… don't get mad at Bella… it was her choice. She has the right to stay human if she wants." Jacob said… I'm glad someone was sticking up for me.

"Don't even talk you mutt! You pressured her into saying the answer you wanted!" Rosalie screamed. Everyone started staring at us at this point… I became embarrassed.

"Calm down Rosalie! It's not Jacob's fault… I saw her answer… it was completely her! She decided for herself… which I think is good." Alice commented… trying to take attention from Jacob.

Rosalie shot her glance at Alice. "How can you say that? It's for her own good! She needs to become a vampire… weather you like it or not Alice!"

Alice hissed… I don't know if Rosalie heard it… but I could hear everything at this point. Why were they fighting about it? Why did it matter? How was it for my own good?

"Rosalie… can I explain please?" I said… hoping that she would say yes.

Rosalie didn't look at me… but Edward nodded at me so I decided to tell my side of the story. "Rosalie… I decided that I didn't want to become a vampire… not Jacob. He had nothing to do with my answer… well he did… but he didn't persuade me into any answer. I argued both sides in my head while Jacob sat there waiting. I love you guys… more than you can ever imagine… but you Rosalie… and even you Edward didn't want me to become one… and that's why I changed my mind. And now you want me to? How is that fair? Why is it more my own good anyway?"

Rosalie looked at me… her eyes softer than before. I think she was speechless… but I wasn't sure. "I didn't want you to become a vampire because I didn't want you to throw your life away… but I can see that you seriously don't want to be one now."

I looked at Rosalie… she seemed upset. I know she would've cried… but she can't. "Rosalie… I love you… but I don't want to become a vampire. I'm sorry."

She looked at me for a while. It was like a stare down... and I couldn't look away. Eventually, she looked away, grabbed Edward's arm, and walked away. I just stood there and watched… what else was I supposed to do?