Chapter 1
It had been 3 months since Peyton had found out she was pregnant, and being 4 months pregnant was not that easy to hide. Sooner or later she was going to have to deal with this, but she just couldn't face it, she didn't want to.
She didn't agree with abortion so she knew she was definitely going to have to have a baby but she didn't want to think about it so she didn't. She was beginning to struggle to keep this from Brooke. They had been best friends all their lives and it was obvious that Brooke knew something was going on.
'P. Sawyer talk to me! You've been strutting around school all day with a face like a smacked arse! No wait, let me rephrase that, you've been like this for months. You just don't talk anymore, tell me what's wrong please' Brooke begged her best friend to talk to her.
Peyton hadn't been herself ever since the summer and Brooke knew it.
'Please Peyton, what's going on? You quit cheerleading, you won't spend time with me or the others, you never have a smile on your face, you look like death half the time and for god's sake have you seen what you're wearing!'
Peyton looked down at her scruffy old jeans and her oversized jumper then looked back up at Brooke with fire in her eyes
'How dare you! You know Brooke, not all of us have a easy life like you. You're supposed to be my best friend and yet you know nothing about what I'm going through, i wish you could understand but you don't! Just don't talk to me from now on Brooke, I've had enough of you and your perfect life'
Peyton stormed off down the hall with a gobsmacked Brooke staring after her.
On the drive home, Peyton was thinking about her earlier conversation with Brooke. She hadn't meant to get so mad but it just kind of came out.
It wasn't even Brooke's fault, she so badly wanted to tell her what was going on but how could she? It was her boyfriend's baby she was carrying.
Hormones, Peyton thought to herself, dam hormones making me all crazy.
She walked through her front door and threw all her school stuff on the floor, her Dad was away as usual so what did it matter? She went straight up to her room and crashed down onto her bed. Before she knew it, the tears were pouring down her face.
3 months worth of emotion came screaming out of her. She just couldn't keep it in any longer. She was such a mess and she was so alone, all she had was this baby.
The baby, she thought to herself. For the first time, Peyton was actually thinking about the thing inside of her as a baby, a living thing, a tiny little person, a part of her, a part of Lucas.
And in that instant she realized just how much she wanted this baby.