Twisted Love Chapter 16

I couldn't speak. My mouth was too dry. How would my answer affect everyone? Would they hate me? Would they forgive me? I wasn't sure… and I wasn't sure if I wanted to find out. I got loose of Jacob's grasp and started to run… run as fast as I could. I never wanted to stop. I wanted to run away from everything. From my life… from liver cancer… from everything! I just couldn't take it anymore! What was I going to do? I started crying and my tears blurred my vision. I heard my name being screamed behind me, but I just kept running. I never wanted to stop. My life was so terrible right now… everything was terrible. I felt something grab my arms and spin me around. It was Edward… he had caught up to me. Well… what can you expect? He's a vampire. I kept crying… and crying. Was this just a nightmare? Was I going to wake up from it? No… this nightmare was reality. This nightmare was my life.

"Bella… Bella please calm down." Edward said. He pulled me into a hug, but I pulled out. I didn't want a hug from anyone right now. No one. "You're going to be fine. We're going to take care of you."

"How can you say that Edward?! I'm never going to be ok. I HAVE LIVER CANCER!!" I replied.

Edward flinched. He hated when I was in pain… and so much of it. My life was ruined. "I can't say that you will 100% ok, but as long as you're around my family… you'll be ok."

"Nothing will ever be ok. I'm going to die Edward… die! This is something that you can't cure! You don't have much time to take care of me… time if the only thing that I have left."

He looked at me not knowing what to say. What could he say? I was going to live through this? He couldn't, because it wasn't true. I wasn't going to be ok. I never was… no matter what happened to me. "I wish this had never happened… this is like a bad dream."

"Edward… I know this is hard for you. It is for everyone… but how can it be a bad dream to you? You don't have liver cancer… you're never going to die. You get to live forever with the one you love. You get to be there… in this world for all eternity. You get to see things that other people can't imagine. You could even go to space and not die, but I'm going to die someday Edward. I'm not a vampire… nor will I ever be. I want to live my life… forever, but that's not going to happen for me. It never will. I only have time left… and not much time either. I never dreamed that this would happen to me… I've been healthy all my life and none of this seemed possible for me. But it's here… it's in my body and affecting me. It's not going away… and it never will. This is a bad dream for me, because I'm the one living it. I'm the one with liver cancer, and I'm the one that is going to die someday. I never wanted this to happen… but it just did."

He stared at me in amazement. He was speechless… not knowing what to say. "Rosalie will never love me as much as she loves Emmett and I know that. I never dreamed that I would end up with her, but I did. We changed our minds… but I never thought my mind would settle on Rosalie. I love her to death… but I never thought she would be able to get over Emmett… and I don't think she ever will. That's what hurts me inside… but not the most. What hurts the most is that you're dying… and that you refuse to become a vampire and live forever. I knew you wouldn't but I just can't take it. I can't imagine living in a world without you… no one can. Alice, Jasper, Rose, Esme, Carlisle, and Jacob. You can't just leave us like this Bella. We love you way too much. You can't just leave us like this. If you did become a vampire, you can still date Jacob. You can be together for so much longer. Please Bella… don't do this to us."

This time I stared at him in disbelief. I didn't want to die… no one wanted me to leave. I didn't know what to do. I had my mind made up but now I just don't know. If I became a vampire, it would change everything. What would Charlie and Jacob think? I couldn't be around them for months and I couldn't stand that. Everything would change and I want everything to stay exactly the same. I broke free from Edward and started to run again.

"Bella! Stop please!"

I turned my head back and looked at Edward. He wasn't coming after me and I was glad. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I just wanted to be alone.

"NO! BELLA!" Edward screamed as loud as he could.

I looked forward just as a car started to honk and slam on their breaks.