He let me go and I transported to the green house office floor as I try to calm my beating heart but it only went back to normal about an hour later and by then I could think rationally. Had I been that blind to everyone around me? Was I selfish and self absorbed? I don't understand how I had hurt the people I cared about so easily.

"Hinata-chan?" My head snaps as I turn my head to the direction of the voice.

"Sakura-chan in here." I sense her enter the office as she takes a seat across from me and the desk.
"What's wrong Sakura-chan?"

"I need to ask you a question and I want you to answer it truthfully."

"If I can I will."
"Do have feelings for Naruto?" I sit back in surprise and I think about the blonde boy and everything we've been through. I get a warm feeling when I think of him but it's the same when I think of shino or any of my other friends except one person, Neji.
"My feelings for Naruto is what I feel for all of my dear friends. I once loved him but I knew he belonged to another so I let him go and I grew into someone who can only be friends with him."

I can sense her chakra relief she let out I sigh.
"If you don't mind me asking what this was about?"

"Naruto is in love with you and I want to now if I should back off and let you two be together but now that I know your in love with someone else I will win Naruto back!"

"I'm in love with-"

"Neji. Hinata it doesn't take a genius to figure out that you two are in love with each other. I mean anyone who pays close attention to you can see that unless their holding out for themselves like Kiba, Naruto and-"

"Since when is Neji in love with me?"

"As long as I can remember and it's about time you two stopped getting shit on and be happy."

"I see, Sakura can you do me two favors please?"

"Hai."

I fall asleep in my chair and as I hear the evening birds and I feel as though I'd gone to hell and back.

I redress myself in midnight robe and I pop into the office but as soon as I do the chakra residue from the last visitor made my blood boil. I ignored the voices that called me back as I followed the trail to a bar where I stormed in and zeroed in on my target.

"Excuse me but Kyou and I need to talk." The woman he's with wraps her self around him and sneers at me like it will make me jealous.

"He's with me."

"Yeah he was with me a couple months ago and now I'm having his kid." That did it she bolted from him and the bar.
"That wasn't very nice Hinata-chan and unless you intend to take me up on my offer-"

'You and I are going to talk, now and if you try disappearing so help my I'll make your penis never stand up again understand?"

He nods as he leads by the arm out of the bar and into the unused anbu training dojo.

"What's wrong that you would track me here in Kohona."

"Better yet why are you here when you work for Cloud and Iwa."

"I work for Kohona as a spy."

"No you're playing double aren't you?"

"Hinata I'm loyal to my country."

"Kyou I like you but the only thing stopping me from killing you is I need to know why."

"Hinata why do-"
"Chakra never lies but you do. How long?"

"Three years."
"You told cloud about me and Neji's mission two years ago so they could set up an ambush didn't you?" He was silent and I took that as a yes.

"I didn't know you then, I would never want to cause you harm, I care-"
"Stop it. Do know what you did to me? What those cloud Nin did to me and the others? That mission we were ambushed and the cloud hates hyuuga's so they thought it would great if they broke me first."

"I don't want to hear thi-"
"No, you will listen. They tied me to a chair and they forced me to listen to the screams and watch my team be cut into tiny pieces. They told me if I didn't watch they would rape the woman then kill them so I watched it all. That night has haunted my every dream but it's replaced with a new one. You also told them about the hyuuga's weakness and gave cloud a way to attack us ne?"

"I didn't know." He whispered it like he was going to cry as he wrapped himself around me to give himself comfort but I stood still like marble.

"What's going on here?" I don't look up to naruto and neither does Kyou.

"Why?"

He holds me tighter and I almost lose my breathing capacity.
"I love you-"

"Why Kyou?"

"Kohona needs to fall, it needs to be destroyed, you of people should know that because they took your life away didn't they? They left you with no choice but to leave because you didn't trust them to handle the truth."

"Shut up, I'm done with you Kyou, you are a spy and the reason why widows and orphans mourn their precious people and so I can not forgive you.'

"No I won't let you go."

He says the words moments before he's ripped apart from and I stand their like stone as Shino and Shikamaru arrest him. I walk past naruto who reaches out to comfort me but I push him aside as I walk from Kyou's begging me to forgive him. I ignore everyone and walk past them in a blank face and then past the hyuuga's as I go to my father's office.

I put my head in my arms as I let out my feeling in the quiet of my being very alone. Till this moment I hadn't imagined I could have feelings for him but the pain I feel is evident. He was my friend and he betrayed me as it felt like he ran a katana into my heart. No one bothered me as my family knew I was not in the mood to see anyone but one. He came in put fresh tea and dinner on the desk and left just as quietly as he came. In those minutes he was near me the pain dulled into a low ache.

In reason my mind found that as an acceptable excuse to go find Neji and body easily agreed. When I found him I found him sitting on the outdoor walkway looking out into the gardens. I don't know if he noticed my approach or not but there was no way not to as I dropped to my knees behind him. I encircled his shoulders with my arms and rest my head between his shoulder blades as the pain became irrelevant.

"Why do I always hurt the people I love?" I thought about Kyou and everyone else as the pain resurfaced.

"You're not a bad person Hinata-sama, you do things for the good of others without a second thought."

"Then why does those who love me get hurt?"
"By nature people are selfish but when it comes to you its impossible to love you and not want your full attention. I see now that you can belong to a person who can not understand that to keep you they have to set you free. I learned my lesson, so I wish you all the happiness with him.'

"Him? You saw me and Kyou?"

"Hai, I should be going Hinata-sama, please let go."

"I don't want to, I never want to and I don't think I ever will." He sucked in a breath as he tried to control himself but it seems I was the one who lost control.

"I'm tired of doing the right thing when it hurts. I sent Kyou to his death because it was the right thing to do but it still hurts."

"death?"

Kyou was a good friend of mine, he loved me and I set him up where he confessed to being a spy for cloud and Iwa."

"That makes you Hinata. You know how many more people would die and you sacrificed your personal feeling for your honor."

"It still hurts."

"You have a big heart and feel more then others."

"I'm sorry for running away like that, you startled me-"

"It is me who should apologize as I lost control which will never happen again. I'm content to be serve you as your protector till you find a subtle husband-"

"Neji you baka don't you know I only love you?" I say the words in light scolding tone as we both stiffen in shock at my words.
"I should go, gomen ne." I let go and get up as I'm already walking back down the strangely deserted walkway but I don't get far. He catches my arm and pulls me into his hard chest so I can hear his racing heart.

"Gomen ne I shouldn't have-"

"Too late Hinata, you said them and I won't let you take them back. I've already decided that I will fight for you and your full attention. Fuck the war, I'll stay with you. You'll let me right? Stay beside you forever?" I smile as I wrap my arms around him and nod into him.

"Good so the first thing really to do is make sure every male in Kohona and every country knows you belong to me. Sounds good to me because I really like that plan." I laugh into him as reach up to bring him down for a kiss.