A/N: Here it is! Here it is! The long awaited second chapter! Hooray! I plan to write the rest of the chapters from a strictly Bella and Edward POV. So enjoy! J
Disclaimer: I don't own any of these character, yadda, yadda, yadda, on to the show!
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"Alright…Let's do this." He simply stated.
It felt like her entire body burst into flames, he actually agreed to her proposal?! In what alternate universe was she living in? A wave of triumph washed over her, and with a scream of joy she practically sprang into Edward's arms wrapping her legs tightly around him, Edward laughed loudly and hugged her back tightly. They stayed like that for a while before Edward lifted his head to look into her eyes.
"Well… Soon-to-be Mrs. Edward Cullen, where do you propose we start?" Edward's voice was low and husky.. Bella felt the heat rush to her cheek as warm chocolate brown eyes met his cold lustful onyx black eyes.
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Chapter 2...Hunger
BPOV
Where to start?! A strange empty feeling settled at the bottom of my stomach, I had absolutely no idea where to start. My mind was whirring with thoughts, and my body was tingling with excitement. Edward and I pretty much had covered the basics, but what should they work on first? Obviously whatever it was, it needed to be a step up from what we've already done. I wracked my brain as Edward stared into my eyes waiting for an answer I didn't have. And then as if somebody had turned on a light, I knew what I wanted to do. I wanted to French kiss Edward Cullen.
It was the one thought I probably thought about most of all. I've had always wanted to try it with Edward, but due to his adamant disapproval for it, I was never able too. It seemed silly to even think of it now, normal couples would of already been way past that stage, but then again me and Edward weren't the "normal" couple. I've always wondered how it would feel to have Edward's ice cold tongue sweep across mine, gently tasting the dark velvety caverns of my mouth, and I to explore his. It was the best idea I could come up with, it was definitely a step up on the intimacy level and it was probably the best place to start with not having to push his boundaries too much.
I felt Edward brush his cold thumb along my cheek; and I suddenly snapped back into reality. I felt the blood instantly rushing to my fevered cheeks as he stared at me, patiently awaiting an answer. My stomach twisted into nervous knots. Why was this so hard to do? On numerous occasions I had tried to persuade Edward to kiss me in such a way, but now when it comes down to reality I couldn't even form the words to ask him to do so.
"What are you thinking?" He asked obviously frustration lining his voice. I was guessing he was having a hard time dealing with my silence. It drove him absolutely insane that he couldn't read my thoughts.. I couldn't blame him.
The words still didn't form. "Umm." I stammered not sure how to word what I wanted to say. I felt like such an imbecile. Edward placed a finger under my chin lifting me to his eye level. His cold steel black eyes piercing into mine, helping little to calm my nerves. His beautiful pitch black eyes always meant one thing, he was hungry. I couldn't help the smug feeling of satisfaction that nine times out of ten, his eyes only got that way when he was around me.
"Tell me what you want love."
If this was heaven I would gladly die. The churning in my stomach increased by a hundred times. Would he ever know how much his words affected me? God, I wanted all of him, every single delicious inch, if my treacherous body wasn't so stiffened with nerves I would've attacked him then and there, it was such a silly question for him to ask. I wanted every single fiber in his body, I wanted him heart and soul. I wanted our bodies joined together in the most intimate ways, I wanted him.
I swallowed, trying to ease some of the dryness in my mouth. The words were on the tip of my tongue begging to tell him exactly what I wanted.
"Ummm." I stammered again. Damn my coward mouth! Edward suddenly broke into a tight smile, shaking his head at my humorous loss for words. I felt Edward reached around my legs that were wrapped around his waist and unhook them. For a fraction I thought he was going to push me away and jump out the window, tired of waiting around for my idiot mind to work, but instead his arm went under my knees and he maneuvered me around so that I was cradled bridal style in his strong arms. It was a good thing Edward held me tight against him, otherwise I probably would've turned to mush the instant he put me down. I wrapped one arm around his neck for support, clinging to the strong muscles at the back of his neck. He smiled at my lovingly and walked slowly over to the bed to lay me down gently. His arm around my back moved up to the back of my head to act as a pillow, and wound the other one around my waist pulling me close against his cool body. The coolness of his body helped to ease some of the flames shooting of my skin. With a relaxed sigh I nestled myself closer to him, entwining my legs into his.
We stayed like that for a comfortable while, just relishing the feel of being in each others arms. This was definitely a good way to start. The hand that was wound tightly around my waist began a trail up my spin and finally to my throat. I shivered slightly as his cold skin touch my overheated flesh. My heart felt like it was going to jump out of my chest at any moment. Raw need ate away at my stomach, I could never think straight with Edwards at such a close proximity, his lips just a mere couple of inches away from mine. My mind screamed just to take what I wanted with no regrets, but I had to be good, I needed to be good, for him…For my Edward.
"You don't have to be nervous love, not with me." He crooned, blowing his sweet breath in my face. My heart flipped as he started to trail tiny cold butterfly kisses from the corner of my mouth to trail along my jaw.
Not be nervous?! That very sentence sounded so utterly ridiculous, every moment I spent so close to Edward I was nervous. The very air is sucked from my lungs when he barely touches my skin. Not be nervous!? Was he on drugs?!
I inhaled a calming breath, trying to clear the fog away from my brain. If we were going to get anywhere tonight I needed to think straight. I needed to be calm and assertive, I needed to be like Edward. I lightly cleared my parched throat.
"Well….There is something that I've always wanted to try, and it probably is the best place to start." I whispered trying to sound confident. My mind screamed with joy with the fact that I could finally formulate words.
"I'm listening." Edward mumbled against my throat trailing his lips a little lower to my collarbone.
His lips against my collarbone felt so delicious that I lost my train of thought for a moment. Ugh, not again! The feel of his cold lips against my skin had my mind reeling once again. Damn him and the effect he had on me! If the Volturi wanted to kill me they could just tell Edward to kiss me senselessly and I would be at their mercy. I cursed my weak body responding to him so, I needed confidence! I inhaled another deep breath summoning all the courage I owned.
"It's really hard to think when you're doing that you know?" I said against his ear, trying to make my voice sound as assertive as possible. Edward didn't stop, not even falter.
"Mmmm, doing what?" He teased, this time letting the cold tip of his tongue dip into the indent between my collarbone and throat.
My heart stopped. My mind derailed of any thought.
"Keep going little one." He said still sucking gently on that delicious space. I wasn't sure if he was talking to my heart or to me. Uncomfortable moisture pooled in-between my legs. Dammit! It was too much! I balled my hands into tight fist to keep myself from grabbing onto his hair and shoving his sweet lips against mine. My fingers ached from the pressure. Unfortunately I couldn't ease the unbearable ache that was building in my lower region.
I inhaled that calming breath again.
"Okay, you need to stop and listen to me, or we're not going to get anywhere." I demanded. I felt Edward's lips instantly stop their wondrous movement. I didn't know whether I wanted to cry of have a sigh of relief over the loss of contact. He lifted his head to look into my eyes, a smug expression lighting his face.
"I'm sorry, that was mean of me." He apologized, but the smug expression didn't fade. His eyes held a devilish glint. It looked like I was the one being good for the first time.
He motioned for me to continue. "You were saying?"
"I think we should start with some kissing." I mumbled, desperately hoping he would catch my drift. Edward's eyebrows shot up.
"Ummm I think we've already mastered that stage love."
I rolled my eyes. "No, I mean like…You know… French …kissing." I trailed off hiding my face from the sudden rush of heat that flamed my cheeks. Was this whole trying different stages thing ever going to get easier?!
Edward's eyebrows shot up even further as realization replaced the smug expression on his face. For a fraction of a second he broke out into an ear to ear smile, and it was gone in a flash, his face was serious, pondering. My face shot up, and I quickly took advantage of his silence, before he could object.
"I mean, we've never tried it, and naturally, it seems like the next step."
There was another moment of long silence. Edward's brows furrowed slightly as he pondered my words. He started to gently play with a strand of my hair with his thumb and index finger, not looking into my eyes. I've noticed that he did that when he was unsure of what to say.
A heavy silence came between us, I could almost hear the gears in his mind working. It was so frustrating not being able to read his mind just like he couldn't read mine.
"Well?" I questioned impatiently, finally grasping a hold on my confidence. He didn't answer, instead his eyebrows crinkled even more, and his lips pursed together.
"It's probably a good place to start." He finally said looking into my eyes.
Every inch of my body lit up in flames. My mind was screaming success, and my body was craving for satisfaction.
"But.." He began.. The flames were suddenly doused. I hated "Buts"
"It has to be more on my part…Venom does settle in my mouth sometimes, and I we have to be extra cautious of you not ingesting it."
I considered what he said for a moment.
"Also…" He started again before I could respond. " I have razor sharp teeth, one wrong move and it could be the end."
I considered his words carefully. I was pleasantly surprised that he aired his views, but with no objection to the idea, he was willing to try even though there were many apparent dangers. I also considered that "more on his part" probably meant that he needed to be the one tasting me, rather me tasting him. The thought of Edward's tongue exploring mine caused a sharp stabbing pain in my lower abdomen again. As much as I wanted to be the one exploring his, I would have to let it slide. He was already being so good to agree with all my silly ideas, that I could at least obey some of his requests. I was definitely getting used to this whole compromise thing.
I considered his words for a moment more and then gave a little nod and a smile. "Okay."
Edward's ear to ear grin came back. "Okay." He repeated.
We stared seriously at each other for a while, not sure how to go about it first. My body screamed with joy, it was actually going to happen. Edward and I were about to take a giant step in our relationship, and I couldn't be more ready.
I saw Edward's atom's apple bob up and down as I'm guessing he was swallowing a large amount of venom. I saw him lick his lips slowly, making his lips look dewy and a delicious pinkish color. I felt his cold hand start to trace up to the base of my skull, entwining a handful of hair.
"Ready?" He whispered. I felt his cold breath on my lips, I nodded quickly, wetting my lips as well. I tried to slow my wildly beating heart, I needed to make sure to let Edward take it at his pace, letting him be the one in control.
"Be very still."
My stomach coiled intensely from the anticipation. Our breath mingled together as he moved closer to my lips. Ice danced with fire, creating a delicious scent between us. I desperately fought the urge to move towards him… He needed to do this, I needed to give him that.
Edward moved even slower towards my lips and my eyes fluttered shut waiting for the moment his sweet icy lips touched mine. I never wanted to feel something more in my entire life. I could feel his cool breath on my lips begging for connection. My mind screamed and my heart throbbed for the taste of his lips, I needed him and I needed him now.. I felt my grasp on control start to slip, but I had to be good. I MUST be good.
For a fraction of a second I felt the tip of Edward's lips grace mine and then…
"I need to hunt."
"Wha-a? what?" I asked in a breathy daze. My eyes fluttered open and was graced with the sight of that same smug expression covering his beautiful face. His wonderful full lips had pulled away a mere inch, and unbearable inch. He said what now?
"I'm sorry what did you say?" I must've been mistaken. I started to panic as I felt Edward's fingers start to untangle from my hair.
"I need to hunt first." He stated simply, as if he was answering a simple question. My mind shut down completely, unable to comprehend what he was actually saying, but there was no mistake, he needed go hunting?!
"What? Why?!" I demanded, a little too loud than I probably should've been. Edward held a finger to my lips, and then paused to hear if I woke up Charlie or not. I glared at him. After a second he took his finger away and continued.
"You know perfectly well why. Just like anything else I need to be prepared." He said clearly assured of himself. I wanted to scream, the angry words were on the tip of my tongue ready to lash out at any moment. How dare he! We were finally getting somewhere and he decides he needs to hunt at this exact moment?! He knew exactly what he was doing! This was punishment.
"No, absolutely not! You stay here and finish what we agreed to start!" I yelled tightly gripping his shirt in my hand, it was pointless to try and hold him back, but I still needed to give it a shot. Edward let out a irresistible husky laugh.
"Love, I haven't hunted in days, it was even dangerous to come here tonight. If we're going to get into something serious, then I need to prepare first." He said simply, starting to unclench my fingers from his shirt.
"But..b-but!" I desperately began. He cupped my face with both hands and stared into my face seriously.
"No, love, no arguing, this is something I need to do for the both of us. Besides, you need to sleep, it's 3:00 a.m."
My head snapped back, it was? I shot a quick glance to the alarm clock on my nightstand. 3:00 a.m. glared back at me bright red numbers. Crap! Time flew by really fast, but I wasn't even a fraction of a bit tired, I was wide awake, and craving..
"We can continue this tomorrow night… Well tonight actually." He ended with a smile. I didn't laugh at his attempt at humor. Was he actually considering leaving right now?! It was absurd to even think of it.
Somehow my hands ended up in his against his chest, no longer desperately clinging in his shirt. Dammit! I mentally shouted, there was no use. I could never win against him, if he needed to leave, there was no way in stopping him. I started to feel a burning ache in my heart, I needed him to stay! I desperately tried to think of some sort of plan to make him stay. There was only one thing I could think of, it pained me to even try it but it was worth a shot…I started to whine.
"But Edward…" I whined, dramatically pushing out my bottom lip. This was obviously a pathetic display, but it was worth a try. "I want you to stay." I gave him my best puppy dog eyes.
Edward laughed, clearly not having any affect on him. "You're a dreadful actress." He teased, placing feather light kisses on the back of my hands. I gave up the act.
"Come on! You can hunt tomorrow night! I promise I would stop if it gets too heavy! I want to start tonight! I need you!" I pleaded pulling my hands out of his and wrapping my arms around his neck and started to pull him closer. Edward immediately tensed up and held his ground.
"So so so tempting my love, but not tonight. This is for your own good." His cold steel black hungry eyes peered into mine emphasizing his point. My shoulders slumped defeatily, my arms falling limply around his neck. CRAP! I mentally shouted. Edward placed a sweet fleeting kiss against my lips, and started to pull away. My arms immediately wrapped regained strength and held him in place.
"No just a little bit more please." I pleaded desperately needed to feel his lips against mine, just once tonight at least. I didn't wait for his reply as I tightly shut my eyes and kissed him hard. His lips didn't respond. "Please Edward, I need you." I cried against his lips, placing sweet fleeting kisses against his lips, nose, cheeks, anywhere that was him. I just needed him.
"Bella." He said in a stern voice. It was a clear warning, but I didn't listen, I didn't want to listen. I kissed his lips once more, putting all my force and love into it. To my surprise he responded. His lips slowly moved against mine, testing. I moaned against his lips loudly, and white hot flames shot through my nerves.
His sweet cold lips moved harder against mine and without a thought I wrapped my leg around his waist drawing him impossibly closer to my body. Edward's normal reaction to one of my moves would be too freeze up and pull away, but to my delightful surprise he didn't. Instead of pulling away, Edward's hand shot to my thigh and pulled it tighter against his waist. I felt pure joy seep through my every vein, the sweet taste of rare victory was delicious, but not as nearly delicious as the feel of his cold hard body pressed tightly against mine. I could stay like this forever and be perfectly content, and to my knowledge I probably could.
I know I probably should've done it, but I couldn't help myself. I shyly thrusted my hips up against his, causing and unbearable sweet friction. A loud hiss escaped Edward's lips, and with a loud animalistic growl, his body was instantly above mine, pinning me against the mattress. The hand that was at my thigh found its way to the back of my skull, angling my head so his lips could mold better to mine. The new angle had my mind whirling, his lips were cold and urgent against mine, a desperation that I never felt before. It was heavenly.
His other hand slowly trailed down my waist to the back of my other knee, and in an instant he hitched it over his waist so that he was wonderfully nestled in between my legs. It was suddenly too hard to breath, all the air was sucked out of my lungs. Pure hot desire shot through me. His hard body pressed against my lower half was more than I could handle. A fire was starting in my abdomen, and that all too familiar moisture was beginning to pool. Needing to ease some of the fire, I thrusted my hips upwards rubbing against his highly sensitive area. I hips felt something hard… Before I could blink a loud scary feral growl pierced through my dark room, and I couldn't feel Edward's body against mine anymore.
"DAMMIT BELLA!" Edward yelled. I jumped and felt my heart almost give out. Edward had never raised his voice like that before… ever, and I instantly knew it wasn't good. Edward's back was to me at the foot of the bed, his head hanging in his hands covering his face. His shoulders were taut with stress. My first though was to go to him, try to ease some of his pain, try and make it better. I started to move.
"Edward. I'm…" I started.
"NO DON'T!" He yelled through a strained voice. My heart sunk, I instantly stilled any movement, too scared to come any closer. With a loud sigh he stood up and began pacing my room, running a hand through his already disshelved hair. He looked in pain, his beautiful face was strewn and disfigured, his jaw was taut, his sharp teeth clenched. I felt like crying, I can't believe I let myself get carried away again. Against his better judgment he gave in to my agreement, and I promised him that I would be good.
After a long silence I heard Edward growl and stop at the foot of my bed again, his face full with rage. My eyes started to water. "I'm sorry.." I whispered miserably hanging my head low and let the tears flow. I knew the agreement was definitely over, there was no going back after this,
"Bella…." Edward began. He didn't finish the sentence though. There was a long silence, I sniffed a couple of times, watching the tears fall on the blanket below me. I was so embarrassed, my cheeks were flushed, I couldn't meet his eyes. Edward didn't need to say anything more, I knew the speech that was coming. He just needed to leave out the window and leave me alone to my pathetic self.
"I'm not going to break the agreement…"
Okay, I wasn't expecting that. My head shot up. "What?" I croaked, furiously brushing away the stray tears. Edward took a deep calming breath.
"Okay that got out of hand, but I think the faults are on both parts. We're both going to have to improve on some self restraint tomorrow."
I blanched. Was he serious? Was he actually not going to break the agreement? "A- are you sure?" I asked in disbelief wiping away a few more stray tears. Edward smiled lightly and came to sit on the side of the cupping my face and wiping away tears with his thumb.
"Of course I'm sure you silly girl." He let out a sigh. "Let's just make sure we're in more control tomorrow, we can't let that happen again, we need to take this slow, one step at a time." He finished and placed a sweet cold kiss against my puffy swollen lips. I held back the urge to lean more into his kiss, he was right, if we were going to get anywhere we would have to learn to control. If Edward could learn to control not killing me, then surely I cold learn not to attack him. It was going to be one hell of a night.
Edward smiled his famous crooked smile and brushed a strand of hair away from my face tucking it behind my ear. "Okay?" He asked. How could I ever refuse such a sweet request. I nodded lightly, letting a little smile spread across my face. He kissed me lightly again.
"Okay, now get some sleep, you have a big day with Alice tomorrow." He said while standing up and shifting the covers out from under me so he could tuck me in. I groaned loudly as I got under the covers. I had completely forgot that I had the wedding dress fitting tomorrow, not to mention guest list, cake options, so much. All I wanted to do was just to spend the day with Edward, but I'm guess I should be thankful for having him all to myself tomorrow night, and thanking my lucky stars that he didn't break off the agreement.
"Ugh, a whole day of wedding stuff, I can't wait for this to be all over." I groaned. Edward placed his cold lips on my overheated forehead.
"Soon enough my love, soon enough." He whispered , placing another kiss. He finished tucking me in and turned to leave.
"Wait!" I yelled frantically. He turned around. "You're not staying until I fall asleep?!"
This was out of the normal for Edward, he always stayed until I fell asleep, he never refused my request. Edward sauntered back over to me, a wide wicked grin on his face… Something was up. He placed both arms on either side of my body bending toward so his lips were merely an inch apart from mine. I felt his sweet intoxicating breath wash over my lips. I closed my eyes, and parted my lips waiting patiently for them to touch mine.
"This…My love, is your punishment." He whispered against my lips. I blinked.
"Wha?" I uttered, and before I could blink I heard the leaves on the trees rustle outside and Edward was gone.
"DAMN YOU EDWARD CULLEN!" I yelled. I heard his teasing musical laughter from the darkness outside. I angrily turned over on my side and threw the covers over my head, desperately waiting for sleep to come.