Chapter 2- Depressed

At the park after the departure of Tsukimori…

"Wow, I can't believe this…." Hino whispered. She sat down on the bench where Hino and Tsukimori usually sit during their dates. "Distance really doesn't matter, right Len. I just can't believe on the fact that you're so far away by now." She buried her face on her hands and she started to cry silently. "I can't believe in the fact that Len is not here. I can't believe I can't see him anymore. I'm so stupid. I was the one who told him to go. It's my decision, because I know it will be better for his future."

"Hino-san?"

She stopped crying. She lifted her head and looked at the person who is calling her. "Kaji-kun? I thought you went home." She said as she wipes her tears on her cheeks. Kaji handed his handkerchief. "Hino-san, take it. Don't use your hands in wiping your face." A small curve was drawn on Hino's face. "Thanks, Kaji-kun…" she took the handkerchief and hesitated to use it. "What's the matter, Hino-san?" "Huh? No, nothing's wrong." Kaji looked really worried. "Come on, I'll treat you." Kaji said. "Are you sure? You don't need to do that to me." Hino objected. "No worries, I promise." Hino, who doesn't have any choice (so that no would know that she is super affected by the departure of Len), slowly stretched her hand towards Kaji. In return, Kaji took her hand and help her stand up. Happily, Kaji walked with her until they will find what Hino wants.

4:30 pm…

"Arigatou ne Kaji-kun!!! You made me happy." Hino chirped. Kaji smiled. "It's really nothing, Hino-san. Take care. Sayonara. See you in school!" Kaji waved goodbye as he walk home. "The day is almost done? I still don't want to go home." So she didn't go home at that point. She went back to the park and sat on the same bench. She looked at the sky. Dark grayish clouds filled up the whole sky. "Where's the blue sky?" she said. But still, knowing that it will rain any moment, she stayed there. Wind came rushing to her, but still, Hino remained motionless. "Am I that depressed?" she asked herself. "I know you wouldn't come back that easily. But I will wait for you forever, Len. No matter how long." The more she thinks about Tsukimori, the more her heart breaks into pieces. "It's so painful…" She hugged the gift Tsukimori gave her before leaving. Droplets of water came rushing to her from the sky. Then more droplets fall unto her and moments later, it was raining heavily. People in the park were running so as not to get wet, but Hino didn't move a muscle. "It's better to cry in the rain," she whispered. "At least no one knows you're crying." She wrapped the gift Tsukimori gave her in her jacket. "At least my jacket would protect the gift." She hardly moves a muscle. "I don't want to go home…"

"I wonder if Hino-san is at home." Kaji thought. "I guess I better call her." Of course, Kaji did call her, but no one answered her phone. Hino accidentally left her phone in her room. But she didn't mind. "Hino-san is not answering. I have a bad feeling about this." He thought.

At the park…

She stayed there for at least more than an hour. She remained motionless. She sat there, looking at the gift Tsukimori left her. "I'm so pathetic." She whispered. Since the rain is so heavy, no one bothered to stay in the park. Yunoki's car passed the park. Yunoki saw a familiar red head figure. "Kahoko?" he whispered. "Stop the car." Yunoki ordered. Obviously, the car was stopped by the driver. He went down the car without any protection from the rain. "Azuma-sama, I insist you use an umbrella." His chaperone requested. But Yunoki ignored it. He rushed down the stairs going directly to the park. He immediately approached Hino in the bench. "Kahoko…" he called out. Hino looked at him, her eyes so red and puffy. Her body was shivering in the coldness of the rain that was pouring on her and the wind that came rushing to her. "What are you doing here?" he asked. "How long have you stayed here, Kahoko?" "Nothing…" she replied. Yunoki became annoyed. "What do you mean "nothing"?" Hino didn't answer this time. "Come, I'll take you home." He said. His voice was like saying a command instead of a request. Hino wanted to stay there but she hesitantly stood up and walked with Yunoki.

"Yes, I am pathetic. If Len would know that I stayed in the rain, he will probably lecture me again. He will be very angry." Hino remained quiet with Yunoki in the car. "Hino-san, what on earth are you doing there?" Yunoki asked as he removes his wet jacket. "Nothing, really…" Hino replied quickly. Yunoki's eyes narrowed. "I'm going to punish Kahoko if she wouldn't tell it." He threatened. But Hino never spoke, even the threats that the dark Yunoki would give. "Anyway, don't bother telling me. I'm just wasting my time on you." He annoyingly looked at the window. "Just say it, Kahoko."

They arrived at last in front of Hino's house. "Uhmm, arigatou, Yunoki-senpai." She said as she steps out of the car. As soon as Hino was able to enter the house, the car moved to its way.

"Kahoko, you're soaking wet!" Her mother commented. "I forgot my umbrella. Gomen ne, okaa-sama. I'm not eating later." Hino replied sharply. She climbs the stairs and went directly to her room, closing her door noisily. She slid down on her door until she reached the floor and sit on it. Then she started to sob again. Harder then ever. She unpacked the gift Len gave her. Upon opening it, Hino cried louder and heavier. It was Len's jacket and shirt and some of their pictures when they were dating.

FLASHBACK:

It's one of the dates they have 2 months ago…

"Len?" Hino said, sounding very astound. Tsukimori was handing her flowers. "Take it…" he said. Hino laughed. "Arigatou, Len…it's very nice of you." Hino took the flowers. "Honestly Len, you really make me happy every time."

"Hey Len" Hino said as she point at the photo booth. "Can we take a pic? Please!!!" she pleaded. "What?" he said. Hino pouted. "Onegai!!!!!!!!!" Tsukimori doesn't have a choice. "O-okay…" he said hesitantly.

After some picture taking later…

"Wah!! Kawaii!!!!" Hino chirped. There's a picture of Tsukimori that he looks like pouting. The other hugging Hino and kissing her cheek and many others. "Thanks Len…!!! I love you so much! Aishteru!"

END OF FLASHBACK

"When will those days be revived, Len? When are you going back? You can call me an idiot by now but I really can't help it…" she murmured in her breath. Then her phone vibrated. She stood up from her position and approached the table beside her bed. "Konnichiwa," she said. "Hino-san? I called you a lot of times, but you weren't answering. What happened?" "Kaji-kun? Ah, gomen ne, I forgot my phone at home." "Are you okay?" Hino froze. "Y-yes. I'm fine. Uh… Sayonara, Kaji-kun! Okaa-sama and onee-chan are calling me." Then Hino pressed the end call button on her phone. She looked at her phone once again. There were 32 messages mostly came from Kaji and the others came from Hihara and the others. She didn't mind reading it since she is not in the mood so she erased all of her messages in her inbox, except the message sent by Tsukimori in the past. There were also missed calls. Two were from Kaji and one from her onee-chan. She erased it, except the missed calls of Tsukimori.

"His voice keeps ringing in my ear. His music is ringing in my ear. My mind is filled with images of him. He is the only one in my heart. All I think about now is you. Can you even hear it? Can you even feel my pain? Len, come back!!!!!!!!!!!!" she shouted in her mind.

TOK! TOK! TOK!

"Kahoko, have you changed your clothes?" her mother asked. "Hai, okaa-sama!!" "Okay…" her mother replied. She felt her mother went away from her room. "I can't believe I'm lying now, even to my okaa-sama… I'm so stupid. People have the right to call me idiot now." She threw her phone on her bed. She stepped in the bathroom and started to remove her soaking clothes. Moments later, she took a bath.

10 minutes later…

She stepped out of the bathroom, dressed with her house attire. She lies down on her bed and grabbed her phone. Still, no sign of messages from Tsukimori. "Len, come on…" she stood up and checked her computer. Still, no signs of emails from Tsukimori. "I'm tired…"

She gazed around her room. She picked up the jacket of Tsukimori on her desk and placed the pictures in the drawer. She hugged the jacket of Tsukimori tightly. "I'm never gonna let go of this. I promise…" She lies down on her bed and without noticing, she dozed off.

10:20 am…Sunday morning…

"Kahoko! You have a fever!" her mother exclaimed. Her mother checked on Hino yesterday night. To find out she already has a fever. "Okaa-sama! Can you keep it down?!" she replied as she rolls on her bed. "Sorry, still, you're not allowed to go out today." Hino's mother commanded. "Your sister and I will be going out. Take care of yourself. Just call if you need something. See you later Kahoko." Her mother closed the door gently.

She stood up from her bed. She looked at the window. It's raining again. "The sky is crying… just like me…"

"Oh shocks!" Hino shouted. She placed her hand on her forehead roughly. "I forgot about it! I promise Mio and Nao that I will go out with them and eat with them in the cake shop they found yesterday!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway…"

She rested her body again on her bed. She cried. "When will I stop crying?" She placed her hand on her eyes. "Stop crying, Hino Kahoko! You're a strong girl right?" she said. She looked at the red case that settled on her desk. It wasn't touched for days. "Len, if I stop playing my violin, would you get angry?" Suddenly, her phone vibrated. She picked it up. "Hello?" she said. Crying sounds can be heard in the other line.

"Honestly, Kahoko. I can't believe you're still crying."

-_to be cOntinuEd_-

Author's note: I'm really really sorry for the late update. Oh yeah! Sorry also. I don't know the name of Hino's mother… :)