"Foolish Hearts"
'Chapter Seventeen'
Sasuke was waking from a groggy sleep, his head felt heavy and it took him a moment to really grasp where he was or what had happened.
Ibiki...
Orochimaru...
Naruto...
Sasuke groaned, he was in bed but whose bed he didn't know right now. He ran a hand through his hair and attempted to try and rouse himself to a more stable consciousness. He felt doped up, like he had before, and then he recalled attacking Ibiki and when the needle had been stabbed into his arm.
Gods…
He groaned, rolling onto his side into a pillow that smelled like the kitsune and he knew he was home.
Home...
Sasuke hugged the pillow a little tighter than needed, looking to the closed door and then to the empty bed with glazed black eyes.
...where was Naruto?
Sasuke didn't think he had the strength to get up, or really the want to get up.
...was Naruto going to end up dead?
Was he going to really destroy the fox?
Did…he...really love him?
Sasuke sighed, closing his eyes and trying to dismiss the bad thoughts, not knowing what time it was but not really caring.
He had failed.
So what now..?
Unstable...
The council and Ibiki had declared Sasuke mentally unstable to safely live in the village.
He'd failed.
Naruto had bought them a few days, where he was suppose to try and help Sasuke's mind settle but the council had made up their mind; Sasuke was condemned to death.
"God..." Naruto murmured gently as he slowly walked back to the bed room.
Everything was out of his hands.
Sliding the door open, he felt eyes on him and stopped.
Sasuke was awake.
Naruto couldn't say anything; he just slowly walked over to the bed and sat down at the man's hip.
They'd both failed...
Sasuke didn't like the look on Naruto's face.
...he looked defeated, tired.
Sasuke had failed again, that was all he could do. Such a horrible stupid failure. He had turned his eyes from the blonde, unsure what to say. He set his chin on the pillow, looking towards the open bathroom, keeping himself from making contact with the blonde.
The fox sighed and let his head drop into his hands, his elbows resting on his knees.
They had one more chance...
If he could help, if he could get Sasuke's mind to settle, maybe, maybe the council would look at it differently...
"...we have one...slim chance left." He murmured letting his hands drop so he could look back at Sasuke. "What happened in there, that." He paused and shook his head, "It was so deliberate...and so --" He let out a long, tired sigh, "I was detained for a few hours after watching it, it made me so angry."
"What are they going to do?" His voice was even despite his tired mind, the drug had been a powerful one; better than the pills Naruto had for him.
It was hard to shake the numb feeling.
Even after sleeping he still felt fuzzy, distant, but there was a tell tale pulse in his brain that told him his sanity was numbered.
...and maybe he didn't want to think anymore.
Maybe he just wanted to forget.
Let himself forget how easy it would be to let what Ibiki said become fact..
He still wouldn't look at the blonde, "...they're going to execute me?" There wasn't a smirk in his words; arrogance just wouldn't hide his emotions right now.
Naruto's eyes closed at the bland voice.
"I don't know…" He answered his voice a soft whisper. "I don't know what they're going to do." He looked back at Sasuke, before he moved to lie down next to him. He wrapped his arms around the man and let out a long sigh. "Shikamaru and I are doing everything we can to keep you here…"
Here, as in, alive.
Everything relied on the council now.
Sasuke smirked just a little, allowing himself to be pulled into Naruto's arms but he didn't indulge in the fragile hug.
...his mind was elsewhere.
His eyes a little haunted before he closed them.
He had came this far.
This was probably the end then.
Sasuke opened his eyes, slowly wrapping his arms around Naruto and just sighing into his neck.
"I'm sorry..." The fox apologized quietly, his own eyes closed, so the tears wouldn't escape. "I'm so sorry I couldn't protect you."
Sasuke kept his face pressed in the crook of Naruto's neck, trying to keep himself calm and stable. "You shouldn't have protected a murderer to begin with." He said in a detached tone.
"I like to protect things when I'm not suppose to." The fox's forced chuckle sounded almost like a choked sob. "You know that."
Sasuke parted from the fox, lifting his hands and placing them on the scarred cheeks, just looking at his watery blue eyes and feeling the twinge in his heart. He gently wiped away the misplaced drops of water, his forehead against the kitsune's as he tried to keep his fuzzy mind stable.
Naruto rested his own hands on top of Sasuke's, just savoring the warmth he felt there. He gazed into the murky wine, black eyes. He prayed that the next few days wouldn't be the last he'd see them. As he gazed at Sasuke, he felt lighter for the briefest of moments; if Sasuke were executed, which would probably be the case, he'd be free of all the pain he'd been suffering from.
Sasuke's spirit could finally know peace.
"Make the most of the time we have left?" The fox asked not hinting to anything.
He just wanted time with Sasuke…
This would be his last few days, hm..?
Sasuke closed his eyes for a moment, just savoring the feel of the kitsune near him before he nodded slightly. He opened his murky eyes, taking in the detail of Naruto's bright blue eyes, "No crying." He said, though despite the comment his tone wasn't humorous.
Naruto let out a choked laugh as one more tear escaped him. "Such high demands." He could only smile. "No more crying.." He admitted as he gazed back up at the man, despite the fact his eyes were still watering.
Sasuke tenderly kept wiping the tears away with his thumbs, leaning in and pressing his lips to the kitsune's -- tasting salt on his warm lips. The kiss wasn't demanding, just soft, almost sensual when the Uchiha ran his tongue along his bottom lip but didn't demand entrance.
Savoring.
All his touches were soft, almost as if he was burning everything to memory to replace the pain in his head.
...he just didn't want to think.
Naruto almost melted at the touches.
Everything Sasuke was doing was different than there usual play.
The fox let out a small sigh at the soft touches, before he slowly ran his hand up Sasuke's sides, slowly tracing the skin over his ribs and around to his back, where his fingers moved over each vertebrae and shoulder blades, tracing the outlines.
If he only had few days, he'd ingrain this into his memory.
All he wanted was Sasuke.
Sasuke felt the warm digits along his skin, all over his body and he tried not to react to them. He slowly pushed Naruto onto his back -- perched over the blonde briefly, placing a kiss on his forehead before he parted from the fox.
He stepped onto the wood floor shakily, feeling the itch behind his eyes and knowing the drugs would wear off soon.
...he didn't want to become Orochimaru.
He…
He didn't know what he wanted…
Naruto.
He wanted Naruto safe and happy.
A future without him would be a good one for Naruto.
Sasuke made his way to the door ignoring his own want to create one of the last memories with his Hokage-sama, he ended up opening the door, "I'm going to get a drink." He said with a strained tone before he walked down the hall towards the kitchen.
Naruto laid in the bed, just staring at the empty door way.
Just like that, he'd left...
And he would be gone soon; forever.
No...
No, he'd be with Sasuke, he knew the man's mind was a bit over loaded, but Naruto knew that Sasuke needed this just as much as he did. Slowly pushing himself up, the fox followed the Uchiha. He had a life time of staring at empty hallways and lying in cold beds before him, he wanted them filled now. Wrapping his arms around Sasuke's lower waist, he drew the man to his chest. "I know you're upset with yourself..." He murmured gently, his chin resting on Sasuke's shoulder, "But don't leave me yet..."
Sasuke felt Naruto behind him, holding him and he didn't try and get away.
His heart hurt…
His mind hurt…
He stared at the expanse of hallway, just looking out into the home and how he wished this could always be his home.
How he wished he could have erased his want for revenge.
Wished he could have let Naruto take him back all those years before, erased all the pain he was feeling now. His brow furrowed and he forced his eyes shut, feeling emotions tugging him in so many directions and he didn't know how to act.
He wanted Naruto…
He needed him...
But...
Sasuke didn't know what to do about everything.
"Naruto..." He said in a quiet tone, lifting his hands and placing them on Naruto's arms -- he wanted to push the blonde away but he didn't have the strength to do that.
The fox tightened his arms around Sasuke, moving one hand up the pale body, his hand resting over Sasuke's strong heart beat. "I belong to you right?" He started, trying to find a way to keep Sasuke with him, at that single moment. "So..." He sniffed, trying not to let the tears fall. "Stay with me..." He murmured, his forehead replacing his chin, "Because we belong together."
Sasuke turned in Naruto's arms in a fluid movement, gently pushing the blonde back against the wall and nearly crushing their lips together.
He didn't want to think…
He let his lips speak for him, gently caressing the blonde's mouth as his tongue dipped forth to taste what was his.
Naruto.
Sasuke's hands rested on the blonde's hips, his body pressed against him yet not in a needing manner just yet. Like he was a ghost touching life for the first time; the Uchiha was merely indulging in the blonde.
This might be the end...
But he would show the kitsune he meant more than anything.
Naruto moved back against the wall and immediately let his hands wander across Sasuke's back, one lightly gripping the threads of midnight black hair, letting it mix with his tan fingers the other ran down the man's spine his fingers lightly playing with the top of the pants Sasuke was wearing. Their tongues just seemed to be petting each other, occasionally tracing the inside of the others mouth, but now…
Now, everything was about feel and memorization.
Sasuke fed off Naruto's moans, parting from his lips and trailing down his chin across his neck. He inhaled the scent of his fox, letting his tongue trace down the arch. "Will you always be mine?" Sasuke said in a quiet tone against his shoulder, his fingers ghosting up his sides. Sasuke was referring to the time he would be gone, as horrible as it was to think about it, it was probably true the Uchiha would be gone in just a few days…
...and Naruto would be alone.
Would he move on?
Would he forget?
Despite it all Sasuke wanted to be selfish, he wanted to be remembered and not because he was a demon.
But…he wanted to be remembered as he was right now, by Naruto; he wanted the fox to know he had been loved by Uchiha Sasuke.
Naruto's hands moved up to Sasuke's cheeks, gently gripping them. He let his head fall back slightly, exposing more of his neck. "I've always been yours..." He turned his bright eyes down to Sasuke's and drew the man back up to his lips, "And I always will be." He promised, his lips brushing Sasuke's before he leaned forward to catch them once more.
His wine colored eyes shut once more, allowing his lips to be taken by the fox, gently moving the kitsune along the wall and back to their room. He carefully moved them towards the bed, leaning over the blonde as he guided him down to the mattress.
Memories…
They only had a short time to create memories.
Sasuke broke the kiss when he pulled Naruto's shirt over his head before he pressed their lips together again in a lingering kiss.
Naruto's fingers snaked under Sasuke's pants and started to shimmy them down his waist. He'd spend all the days they had left, naked and in bed with the Uchiha.
That was what he wanted.
Naruto moved his hands back up to Sasuke's body, tracing his sides, lightly touching the skin.
Sasuke kicked his pants to the floor, moving to toss his own shirt aside before he moved then to tug down the kitsune's pants. He laid back over the blonde then, skin touching skin and making the Uchiha delve into that pleasant feeling.
...the drug was wearing off.
He nipped at the skin of the blonde's neck, becoming just a little more demanding as the black bled red, his eyes nearly cat-like as they surveyed the blonde's profile.
Naruto caught sight of the look in Sasuke's eyes and licked his lips slowly. He had never cared about the demon before, but he wanted Sasuke. "Not yet..." He whispered almost pleadingly. Reaching out, he gently ran his fingers across the pale cheek and through the dark hair.
"Don't worry Hokage-sama." Sasuke said in that smooth tone, not yet containing the rich undertone, his eyes not as sharp and bright. His fingers trailed down Naruto's sides; lifting his head he placed a reassuring kiss on the blonde's lips before he pulled away just the hint of a smirk present.
One hand passed over Naruto's hardening self, his knees gently forcing the blonde open but the Uchiha didn't descend on him as usual, his movements not as forceful, not as deliberate.
Naruto gasped, his eyes fluttering shut at the feel of Sasuke's hand against him.
"Naruto..." The kitsune murmured back. "I'm not your Hokage." He started, "Not tonight..." He breathed out, "Just Sasuke and Naruto."
Sasuke's lips traced the shell of the blonde's ear, "Naruto then..." Sasuke gripped Naruto a bit more firmly, angling his hips up as his knees slid under them, trailing wet kisses down his neck and against his collar. "My Naruto." He growled passively against the kit's jugular.
Naruto let out a soft moan and wrapped his arms around Sasuke's shoulders once more. His legs spread ever so slightly, giving the man more room. "My Sasuke." Naruto purred out, his head tilted back.
Sasuke ran his hands down his hips, over his thighs, his lips finding home on a perked nipple gently kneading the sensitive flesh as he started to push himself against the blonde. He was careful in his movements, moving his hips forward at a slow pace -- gently pressing himself into the kitsune savoring the feel of his lover. Sasuke moaned softly against his chest, flicking his blood colored eyes up to the Hokage.
Naruto moaned in a low voice, there was no pain, just the feeling of being full once more. He had arched his chest up into Sasuke's hot mouth. His fingers trailed up Sasuke's back, and tangled into the dark hair, waiting for his lover to move.
Sasuke pushed himself all the way into the blonde, his hands now braced on either side of the blonde's head his heated gaze taking in Naruto's flushed face. His hair hung in his eyes, his breathing a tad uneven as he tried to control himself -- curbing the need to take; forcing himself to just fall to the feeling of his lover. He moved himself out of the blonde in a quick graceful movement before he pushed back in -- starting a slow stable rhythm; growling in his throat from the intense feeling but he tried to ignore the strange feral need to just possess.
The fox's arms left Sasuke's back the moment he pushed himself up, and let them fall gracefully above his head, tangling into the sheets. He looked up to Sasuke's eyes and smiled gently. He knew he was testing Sasuke's bounds, but this was what they both needed, and not what they wanted.
Sasuke's intense eyes slipped shut as he filled Naruto over and over, moving slow at first but the pace was picking up. His muscles were tense, sweat beading on his skin, and the feel of the tight blonde wrapped around him was something he hadn't known he had been craving so badly.
He moaned loudly, letting himself be lost in the moment as he forced the blonde up further at an odd angle -- but the correct one; one Sasuke already knew would achieve what he wanted. He felt himself come in contact with that bundle of nerves, his lips twitching into a smirk as a pleasant purr vibrated his throat.
"Ahh!!" Naruto's body jerked at the feel of the pleasant shock running through his body. "Nnn...Sa- Mmnn...Sasu..." He bit his lower lip and moaned loudly, his voice mixing with Sasuke's. He moved back against his lover, as their speed increased.
Sasuke lowered his head into the crook of the blonde's neck, kissing up the arch of it -- running his teeth back down the flesh but aware not to break the skin.
Pain…he didn't want to cause the kitsune pain..
He was fighting himself over it.
He wanted Naruto to feel everything, to savor this memory; he didn't want to hear the quiver of upset in his voice.
He was enjoying his pure sounds of pleasure.
Sasuke's back arched as he plunged deeper and deeper, hitting Naruto's sensitive spot with every thrust.
The fox's hands all but slammed onto Sasuke's shoulders, his fingers curling, but not digging into the skin.
"Ah! Ah! Ah!" His head fell the opposite way of Sasuke's lips, exposing more of the skin. He bit his bottom lips, his eyes screwed shut. He could feel a bead of sweat trickle down his chest, his skin felt damp, and almost humid.
God Sasuke felt so good!
"Gods..." Sasuke moaned into his neck, trailing his lips over his shoulder as he felt his muscles begin to tense, felt himself start to spasm. "Nn..." Sasuke couldn't help it, he bit at the skin of his shoulder, not enough to draw blood -- the pressure relieving the pent up need inside of him that was begging to come out.
"Naruto!" Sasuke just couldn't hold himself back anymore -- his thrusts became erratic, working towards a single goal as he felt all the pressure leave him in his final thrust -- pushing himself deep into the blonde and coming right against that sensitive batch of nerves.
Naruto's body jerked in ecstasy as Sasuke hit his prostate one final time. A loud yell escaped him, and his body arched into Sasuke's chest as he felt himself tighten with his own release. He couldn't breathe for a moment, all his muscles tensing up with the force of the orgasm. The second went on and on before he finally fell back against the bed, breathing heavily. His hands dropped from Sasuke's shoulders a loopy grin on his face.
He'd miss this...
Sasuke collapsed next to the blonde, pulling out in a fluid movement as he spooned against the kitsune's side.
Mm.
He enjoyed this feeling.
His muscles completely slack, his mind free of thought, his one and only focus was Naruto and Naruto only. He scooped the slightly larger man in his arms, holding him as he buried his head into the crook of his neck, nuzzling up the side of it before he kissed his ear. "I love you." He said in a silken purr, the words said in a final manner, wanting the kitsune to understand that.
Naruto moved his arms back around Sasuke, just holding the man to him. "I love you too." He answered softly. He let his eyes close, once more trying to keep the tears out.
He didn't want to sleep.
He didn't want to get up.
He just wanted to stay there, in bed, with Sasuke, forever.
"So much..." Naruto breathed into the Uchiha's hair.
Sasuke ran his hand along the blonde's back, just holding him, feeling him. Sasuke smirked into the blonde's neck..
He was so weak.
So useless.
But Naruto loved him anyway.
His power meant nothing to the fox; he was fine just being Uchiha Sasuke.
And…
It made his heart feel a little lighter.
Naruto let out a long sigh, the days ahead would be slow but fast.
Anticipated but dreaded.
He needed to stay positive.
Naruto shifted slightly, pulling back so he could look down at Sasuke, "What do you think Sakura would do if she saw us?" He asked a small smile to his lips.
"Sakura?" Sasuke looked to Naruto's contented blue eyes, "Who cares?" He said in a purring drawl, pressing his lips tenderly to the kitsune's -- smirking into the playful kiss.
Naruto chuckled slightly against the kiss. "Ahh but just think about it." He teased slightly. "She had the biggest crush on you, and for her to find out you're with me?" He couldn't help but laugh. "You know it's amusing to think about."
"Mm."
Naruto was such a kid.
He enjoyed the fact the blonde hadn't changed; not like he had.
Though last time he saw Sakura he had scared her shitless, so he doubted there would be much concern for whom the Uchiha was with now. She couldn't possibly still have a crush on him; or well, maybe she did.
But, Sasuke didn't really give a damn about Sakura's feelings.
He kept his touches light, his fingers smoothing down his spine as he closed his eyes and tilted his head back against the pillow.
He would savor these little moments…
Naruto let out another chuckle, this time for Sasuke. He lay quietly on the bed for a moment, just enjoying the warmth between the two of them. He stared at Sasuke, his eyes just tracing the man's features; before his hand came up and repeated it, starting to brush the healing eyebrow, down to his almond shaped eyes, his high cheek bones, his smooth lips, and finally curving along his jaw.
Sasuke could feel Naruto's eyes on him, his body limp against the bed, his hold loose on the kitsune as he laid there. "Go to sleep." He murmured, opening one crimson eye, that same little smirk on his lips.
Naruto smiled gently, "I don't want to sleep." He knew he would eventually, but it would take time away from Sasuke.
Sasuke let his eyes slide shut again, letting himself just lay next to the blonde, relaxed and content. "Do what you want then." He said softly, "...but I'm sleeping."
Naruto smiled gently and let his fingers move through Sasuke's hair one more time. "You sleep..." He leaned forward and gently nuzzled Sasuke's cheek. "I'll watch over you…"
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A/N:
Just had to post another chapter since you guys were crying so much. This one was still sad, but more in a bittersweet way in my opinion so I think it's okay. However, the next few chapters are going to be worse tear-jerkers so prepare yourself! Even me and Kareian cried when we wrote the coming chapters.
Also, Kareian has something to say, so here she is:
Hello fabulous readers and reviews!
This is Kariean, the co-author ^_^
I've been hanging back and hiding in the shadows, some of you noticed that this was a roleplay converted to a story, but many haven't. I don't really mind those that haven't noticed me, what matters is the story and how well the story does -- which with all your guys' love and reviews it's doing amazing, and those reviews inspire us to keep on working. But every once in a while, Foxy and I run across some reviews that ruffle our feathers, obviously in the beginning with the outrageous demand for the story to BE a SasuNaru -- when it was -- was rather irritating. But today I'm addressing a different issue.
I UNDERSTAND that reviews are suppose to be a form of constructive criticism and opinions, but I feel that a line has been crossed.
I play Naruto in this story, and I've played Naruto -- with Fox -- for about 6 years now. This character -- my Naruto-- has gone through many, many changes to be this older, more mature, grounded and some days, level headed character; instead of the dumb blonde that Emo Fox and myself typically read in other stories. So, when someone reviews and says that the Naruto character is holding the WHOLE story back from being an amazing story, well frankly it hurts and it pissed me off. It's just RUDE! Like I mentioned earlier, this is a role play. Individual people play individual characters, so when you single out THAT character, you're singling out THAT author --Way to go, ya pissed us both off.
I also want to point out Emo Fox and I never do something in a story without a reason. We typically don't plan what's going to happen, we have like minds and have role played together long enough that we have a real good idea of what the other is going to do, but what small amount of planning we DO do we have specific reasons behind them. So please don't tell us that our reasoning for having certain things happen is wrong, or it didn't work out the way you wanted. Forgive me for being blunt about this, but you frankly have no idea what's going to happen next, maybe you should stick around and wait for the next post and THEN by the end of the story if it hasn't been resolved, let us know!
I don't want to discourage anyone by my possibly over dramatic and angry letter, 99.8% of the reivews leaves us squeeling with delight. So please, please, continue to review our story and we'll get the new chapters up for you.
See ya guys!
Kareian =^_^=