I woke up in the morning to the annoying buzzing of my alarm clock. I stopped it and sat up. I got dressed in my normal attire, jeans and a t-shirt, and slid on my flip-flops. I walked out of my room I heard Alice and

Rosalie in their room's, I walked into the kitchen when it hit me.

"Crap I forgot to go shopping yesterday"

I sat down heavily at the table. Alice came around the corner and saw me at the table.

"Are you ok?" she asked with a concerned voice.

"Ya i'm fine, i'm so stupid though I forgot to go shopping yesterday" I said.

"Oh well don't worry about it me and Rose have enough food for all of us" she said.

"Why would they buy food??? Oh right the human charade they have to put on"

"Oh well thanks I'll go to the store after school. That way I don't eat all your guy's food" I said.

"Don't worry about it. Me and Rose have a tendency to over shop all the time, so we have enough food for ten" she said.

"Ok thanks" I said.

I got up from the table and walked over to the cabinet's. I opened one and my jaw almost dropped open. It was filled with almost fifteen different cereals, and the shelf above was filled with every pop-tart flavor. There

were box's of krispy kreme donut's. There was box's for pancake mix's. I ran over to look in the fridge and there were cinnamon roll packages, eggs, bacon, sausage, milk, and orange juice. I turned around to look at

Alice.

"What?" she asked.

I laughed.

"Nothing, my mom would hurt me if she saw all of this. She strongly believe's in healthy eating for me and Ej" I said.

"Oh well your mom doesn't have to know" Alice said with a mischevious smile.

I looked at her and I felt a pang in my heart.

"She would be a perfect aunt, and she doens't even know i'm her neice"

Suddenly I found myself wishing that they were there when I was growing up. I wished that they were there to spoil me when my mom was out. I wanted them to congraulate me when I started talking. But mostly I

wanted them to love me.

"Thanks Alice" I said quietly with a small smile.

I walked over to the cabinet and started combing through the pop-tart boxes until I found the one I wanted. I pulled out the toaster and put my strawberry pop-tarts in the toaster. I turned around and saw Alice watching

me. I smiled smally at her.

"Is there something wrong?" Alice asked me.

"No, I'm okay" I said. Once I said those words I wiped away any sad emotion I was feeling, I replaced it with excitement for my coming clases. I did that alot when I was younger when ever I was scared of dying, when

I would see my mom coming I would replace it with one of joy for my mom, and normally the scared feeling would go away. But this time I felt the depression settle into the back of my mind to haunt me later. My

things popped and I got up and put them on a plate before sitting back down. I quickly ate my breakfast before getting up to grab my bag from my room. I walked out of my dorm and started for my first class. As my

classe's progressed nothing exciting happened, I knew everything that my teacher's were teaching me. I could teach it better than the teacher could. I had one class with Ej and that was in my history class. Alice and

Edward were in my writing class. And Jasper was in my math class. I had homework that I was going to be able to finish in thirty minutes. When my last class got out I started to walk home.

"Hey" Ej said from behind me.

I turned around.

"Hey how was your first day?" I asked him.

"Boring and yours?"

"Same the only thing I am actually looking forward to is writing class" I said.

"Ya well your lucky I don't find any of these classes interesting'

"Oh well I'm sure something will spark your interest soon" I smiled mischievously "Or someone" I said.

He laughed and gave me a playful shove.

"I doubt that" he said.

I laughed.

"Anyway I was going to run to the store after I dropped my bags off at my dorm I have to go get some groceries. Do you want to come with me or do you want me to get you anything?" he asked.

"No i'm okay, Alice and Rosalie bought a whole bunch of groceries, and Alice told me not to buy anymore that I could just eat theirs" I said.

"Ness you can't just eat off of them" he said.

"I told her I could buy my own but she insisted that I didn't"

"Well Ness just give her money. We can't be caught oweing them any favor's" he said.

"Ok" I said.

"Well I might stop by later but I dont know. Call me if you need anything"

"Oh stop playing the big brother role I know how to take care of myself, go out make some friends".

"I am the big brother, and I have to watch over you. You don't know the thought's going around some of these guy's heads today, I had to stop myself more than once from punching them"

"I'm much stronger than any of these guys here, I can protect myself" I said,

"Whatever i'm still the big brother and i'm going to keep you safe" he said.

"Ok well do what you want waste your time at college I don't care, but i'm going back to my dorm"

"Alright bye" he said with a small wave. He turned around and started for his dorm.

I turned and started for my dorm.

I was the first one back to the dorm, so I decided to use the time to do my homework. But first I have to get myself something to drink. I looked in the fridge and saw soda's, I grabbed one and then went into my room

to do my home-work. The home-work was simple and boring. I saved my writing assignment for last because I wanted to enjoy writing it. We were supposed to write something with feeling to it so I decided to write a

poem. I wrote a couple of drafts before I was happy with the poem. After I finished, I walked out into the living room and flipped the tv on. When I checked the clock next I noticed it was five. I walked over to the kitchen

I didn't feel like making anything so I decided to go with a sandwich. I walked back over to the living room once I finished eating and sat down in the living room watching a simpson's rerun. The next thing I knew the

front door was being opened I sat up straight startled. Alice chuckled at me and Rosalie just walked straight past me to her room. I saw that they both had shopping bags.

"Hey sorry for waking you" Alice said.

"No it's ok I didn't mean to fall asleep out here what time is it?" I asked.

"Nine"

"Alright well i'm going to bed" I said.

"Ok goodnight" she said.

I fell asleep as soon as I hit the bed.

When I woke up in the morning I could hear Rosalie in her room and Alice in the bathroom, I threw on clothes and stepped out into the hall. I wasn't hungry and I knew why I counted back in my head it had been a

week since I went hunting. I grabbed my bag from the edge of the couch and walked off to class with a bye thrown behind my shoulder.

My first two classes passed without incident I told Ej we were going hunting tomorrow night. In writing class asked for someone to come up and read their work when no one volunteered he called on me. I

sighed quietly before stepping up to the front of the class. Ej is going to kill me for reading this outloud with Edward and Alice in the room. I adjusted my paper and started reading.

"You left me there with only a mother to tear

Am I so unworthy?

You couldn't hold me dear

When I said my first word you should have been there

but you weren't I only had mom to care

I don't know why you left

mom's not so bad

I don't know why you left her alone and hurt

all I know is that I wish I could call you dad"

With the last line I made the mistake of looking at Edward. I was hoping no one would notice but of course Alice did and she gave me a questioning look.

"Good job Renesmee" mr. Stewart said.

I walked quickly back to my seat. When the bell finally rang I was quickly out of my seat before anyone could talk to me.

When the day ended I walked quickly back to the room. When I arrived Alice was already there so was Jasper.

"Hey" I said to them.

"Hi" Alice said brightly.

I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a coke before sitting down in a chair in the living room with them.

"Thanks again for sharing the food" I said.

"Like I said before it's no problem and no one has to know" she said.

"Just like a perfect aunt would" I thought bitterly.
"So your poem today in class was great" Alice said cheerfully.

"Thanks" I mumbled.

"If it's not to personal do you mind me asking if it was based on a real event?"

"I wrote it about my dad" I said looking forward at the t.v.

"Oh" she said. She didn't push it anymore but I could see out of the corner of my eye that she was dying of curoristy. I sighed internally.

"My dad left before he even knew my mom was pregant" I said.

"Oh i'm sorry" she said symphateically.

"It's ok my mom did a good job even though she was only eighteen"

"Your mom was only eighteen when she had you?" Alice asked.

"Ya but I'm fine with it I understand her judgement's" I said.

"Oh" Alice said.

We started watching the t.v. and I saw a big family having dinner together and laughing.

I started imaging what it would have been like with them there. Edward and my mom would have embraced Ej and I when we started walking. Edward would have been glowing with pride and joy when he found out

that Ej had inherited his gift. I would have gone over to Alice's house for a sleep-over and we would have gone shopping and stayed up late watching chick flicks, while I ate a bunch of junk food. We would have talked

about guys, and played games.

I was pulled out of my internal depression when I heard a groan from across the room. I looked over to see Jasper his face was twisted in pain.

"Jasper? Are you ok?" Alice asked him.

"Yes just a feeling" he said while looking at me curiously. Recoginition flashed through Alice's eye's and she looked over at me with a curious and worried expression. I stood up.

"I'm going to go to bed now" I said while turning to go into my room.

"Goodnight" I heard Alice say.

When I was lying in my bed I could hear them whispering in the other room.

"I don't know what happened her emotions were calm and then all of a sudden it was this major pain and depression. It was almost as bad as Edward's pain" I heard Jasper say.

"Wow" Alice said.

"It's like someone is hurting her and everyday it's just getting worse but I don't know what why she feel's this way I can only read her emotion's" he said in a frustrated tone.

I fell asleep to their whispering. I didn't want to hear anymore.

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Alright guys another chapter done. Please review, it helps me write faster. And yes Bella will make an appearence. And eventually they will find out about Renesmee and Ej. Exciting things are

going to happen for them in the very near future, but i'm not going to give anything away yet. Keep reading! Please review!!!

-Alena