The next couple of weeks following my birthday were a little hectic. My family and Edward's family were both trying to get the wedding set up, and it was taking a lot of work. The wedding was set for July 19th. Edward and I had hot, passionate sex every chance we got, and we were thinking of adopting a baby soon after we get married.
I had been thinking nonstop about the decision I made in agreeing to marry Edward. I was starting to feel a little uneasy, because getting married to the love of my life at the tender age of 18 is something I hadn't ever thought about. I needed to talk to Edward to make sure that my decision was a good one and that Edward is taking it as seriously as I am.
When I got to his house (this is one of the few days we had spent away from each other ever since my birthday) he was reading a book in his bedroom. When I knocked, he said, "Come in." I walked in, and he said, "Oh, hello baby." He pulled me into his arms and started kissing me. As much as I loved his kisses, I had to stop and pull away. I said, "Look, I really need to talk to you about this wedding thing." He said, "What's the matter?" He looked really worried. I replied, "It's just… I'm not sure if I'm ready for the commitment. I mean, we're both really young still, and I don't know… I'm just wondering if I made the right decision. I need your reassurance, and your comfort. I will marry you. I just want to make sure that we're ready before we take the plunge."
He looked into my eyes and I looked into his. I could see the burning passion that he has probably been feeling ever since he and I were last together. I could tell that all he wanted to do was take me into his arms and kiss me and make love to me, but I had to look past that and, with some effort, I did. Edward said, "I know I'm ready. I will do whatever it takes to have you until the end of my life… Are you ready? Are you willing to love me until the end of your life?" I thought about this for a minute.
Of all the people in my family, and of all my friends and the people I have met in my life, I have never shared as much with them as I have with Edward. I feel closer to him than I am with anyone else, Bella included. Bella and I had been great friends, but I always felt that I could open up more to Edward. We have had fun times together, and if I choose not to marry him now, but to wait, I would be letting him go in a way. So, with some confidence, I said, "Yes. I am ready to marry you and to make you mine for the rest of my life. I promise."
He looked into my eyes again and I said, "I love you." He said, "I love you too, baby." He pulled me into his arms and I looked into his eyes and saw the burning passion stirring. I could tell that it had taken some self-control to not make out with me while I was talking. I heaved a sigh and took his face in my hands and kissed him as hard as ever. I got really hot and horny all of a sudden, and so I asked Edward if he wanted to 69 me, and he said yes. So we took our clothes off and fucked each other on his bed for a while. It felt so amazing that I just had to moan out loud. I hope his family isn't home…