Sesshomaru parked the bike in the back, Kagome took a deep breath and got off the bike, Sesshomaru saw Kagome having a hard time with seeing the house. Slowly he moved off the bike and walked onto the porch, he grabbed Kagome's wrist, she turned around,
"I'm fine Sesshomaru, I just, I cant find the damn key," Kagome growled,
"Miko, calm yourself," Sesshomaru turning the knob and unlocking the door with his strength, he snapped on the lights. Kagome leaned on the doorway,
"It is the same as it was, this is where I lived for a little while, my grandmother was the only one that really took care of me, she is the only one that made me feel loved," Kagome slowly walking in, Sesshomaru knew now that she really didn't feel loved or cared for.
"Rin was a beautiful child, she lightened up my life and I blame myself for everything, I shouldn't have left her with Jaken, why is this Sesshomaru opening up like this, this isn't me," Sesshomaru growled.
"Sesshomaru, Rin is releasing this from you, she doesn't want you to be in the stress that you are in," Kagome softly.
"She is right Sesshomaru, please don't live this way, don't blame yourself, please, there are some good times we had together, remember how I used to pick flowers for you and give Jaken such a hard time, you know I actually saw you smile once or twice, you actually have a great smile Sesshomaru, my dear Kagome, I am sorry I had to leave you, your parents loved you, they wanted the best for you, they worked so hard to give you everything," Rin explained. Kagome got pissed off,
"I never asked for anything from them, I was a baby, I never wanted a damn thing from them, just for them to love me, not to pawn me off to someone else, to let someone else raise me," Kagome turning and walking out of the house. Sesshomaru watched her leave.
"I have a request of you," Rin softly, he slowly looked at Rin's ghost, she was just as he remembered, a small loving child, the child that had weaseled her way in his life and ice cold heart.
"This Sesshomaru will do anything for his ward," Sesshomaru strongly,
"You need to let go of me, let go of this depression, let Kagome help you, in return, help her, she needs someone stable, everyone has left her, she has grown cold, just as you were once, its hard for her to trust anyone, lean on each other, care for each other, be her prince, show her that you can be trusted," Rin seriously.
"Her father is still alive, he is in hiding, and there is no way to put the guy who once so long ago took her parents away from her, this Sesshomaru can not protect her all the time, he couldn't protect you Rin, and he can only do so much," Sesshomaru explained.
"Do everything you can for her, you need to find a way to let her see her father," Rin explained as she laid a flower in his hand, then kissed his forehead,
"Goodbye Sesshomaru, I love you, daddy," Rin's voice fading away with the rest of her ghostly form. Sesshomaru smiled,
"Goodbye my daughter," Sesshomaru claimed softly as his voice started to crack, a single tear fell from his golden amber eyes. Remembering that Kagome had ran out in huff, he slowly pulled himself off the couch, carrying the flower in his clutched fist, he walked out the back, finding Kagome on the old rickety porch swing. Carefully he approached her not wanting her to run away, slowly he moved to sit next to her, for a long time there was nothing but silence, except for the swing cracking where the chains had held it up.
"Are you well?" Sesshomaru strongly,
"Of course Sesshomaru, just a little pissed at everyone for leaving me behind, you want to see some family photos?" Kagome a bit testy, she didn't leave room for him to answer she simply jumped up and walked into the house, he stoically followed her in the house.
"Make yourself comfortable," Kagome remembering where the photos were. Slowly she came and curled up on the couch with Sesshomaru,
~She is sitting far too close to this Sesshomaru.~ Sesshomaru growling.
"I'm sorry if I bother your sense of smell," Kagome moving away from him a little, he surprised himself by putting his muscular arm around her and pulling her close. Kagome lost her breath for a few minutes and Sesshomaru felt her tense up,
~There's that smell again she must be really attracted to this Sesshomaru.~ Sesshomaru smirked,
~My god Kagome, you have to stop getting turned on when your this close to him, I hope he doesn't smell my arousal.~ Kagome glancing at him, he still had the smirk on his face. Kagome's cheeks were flushed.
"I…I'm sorry," Kagome having yet to open the photo book. Sesshomaru just kept his arm around her and carefully opened the book, the first picture he came to was Rin's and a man's photo.
"That's my grandpa, he died before I ever got a chance to really know him," Kagome explained, there were pages filled with Rin and the man's pictures.
"I think Rin loved her life, though I think she was trying to hold on till she could see you one last time, she was happy as a child when she told me the adventures she had with you," Kagome's voice cracking. Sesshomaru's arm held her tighter, it was his silent way of trying to comfort her, he flipped another page,
"That's my mom, my, well, Rin's daughter," Kagome smirked to keep from crying. Sesshomaru looked through the rest of the pictures of her mother growing up, then when they finished that book they moved to the next,
"This is mom on her wedding day, she looks so beautiful," Kagome whispered, Sesshomaru flipped through the book.
"That's me and mom, my father delivered me because they were afraid to have me in the hospital because of how I am," Kagome explained, he flipped the next page and it was empty.
~No more photos of her and her parents, that's really sad.~ Sesshomaru growled,
"Its alright Sesshomaru, I have accepted the fact I am a halfbreed, there wasn't enough time for pictures and a happy life for me," Kagome explained, she got up off the couch, but Sesshomaru pulled her back down. Kagome sat there staring at him,
"This Sesshomaru does not know what it feels like to not have any family but you belong to this family now, this Sesshomaru knows you're strong, and also knows that you are a very smart miko, but do you realize your mother held something inside her and passed it on to you?" Sesshomaru asked.
"What would that be, the jewel that used to exist in your time, yeah grandma told the stories of it, she told me I carried it inside of me, but I don't want no part of it," Kagome harshly,
"Kagome, calm yourself, please," Sesshomaru strongly,
"Why should I, I have all the right in the world to be pissed, to be coldhearted, to shut myself away from people, I never had parents that cared about me like you have always had, no photos of me growing up, and the only one that did care is gone, 6 ft. underground," Kagome screaming.
"Then take it out on this Sesshomaru, come on throw all your anger out on me," Sesshomaru wanting her to falter, wanted to see her cry, to mourn the loss in her life that she never had the chance to.
"No, I wont," Kagome harshly, she turned to walk away,
"Miko, don't you walk away," Sesshomaru harshly,
"I have all the right in the world to walk away," Kagome's tone deathly icy, Sesshomaru grabbed her and pulled her down on the couch, he hovered over her,
"Rin loved you, that has to count for something, get your ass up," Sesshomaru pulling her up and making her leave the house, he turned the lights all off and locked the door behind him. When he turned around Kagome was nowhere to be seen,
~Damn miko, she has so much anger inside.~ Sesshomaru growled,
~Can you blame her, her parents only saw her when they wanted to, they never loved her.~ his demon beast fighting on Kagome's side. Sesshomaru smelt her running through the woods, he flew through the woods and ignored his beast side, he landed in front of Kagome, she wasn't watching where she was running and hit Sesshomaru dead on,
"Kagome, you listen to me, right now, you can not run away from us, you can not run away from the past, you will be killed, do you want to die, like the rest of your family, that will happen, heed this warning, do not trust anyone," Sesshomaru grabbing both of her wrists and shaking her,
"I don't trust anyone already," Kagome screaming, Sesshomaru licked his lips.
"This Sesshomaru has earned your trust Kagome, he has saved your life, give everyone else in this family the chance to be trusted, we will not let this guy touch you, if that happens, if he lays a finger on you, you do not want to know how he will die," Sesshomaru coldly. Kagome saw the tensed look in his eyes, he was having a hard time keeping his beast at bay,
~Why does he care, is he protecting me because I was, am apart of Rin?~ Kagome staring back into his eyes,
~She holds so much pain and hurt, wait a minute, I feel it now, she is dying, there's only a matter of time to save her, I cant give up on her, she will not become just a empty shell.~ Sesshomaru thought. Sesshomaru embraced her in a hug,
"Don't you dare give up miko," Sesshomaru whispered strongly.
"You know who killed my parents, don't you," Kagome having her eyes closed tightly.
"This Sesshomaru has a good idea of who it may be, but I am not a 100% sure yet," Sesshomaru coldly.
"Train me, teach me how to kill," Kagome feeling his body tense up after she practically told him what to do. Kagome pulled away, she stared Sesshomaru in the eye, she opened her mouth to talk,
"So be it, you train from me, the way I say to, you will be pushed to the extremes, I will not train you lightly, in a two week period, you will be ten times stronger than what you are now," Sesshomaru sternly. Kagome nodded, Sesshomaru let go of her and led the way back to the bike, slowly Kagome followed him and slipped on behind him, Sesshomaru felt something when she wrapped her arms around him,
~This Sesshomaru can not feel for this miko, this beast is crazy!~ Sesshomaru taking off. It wasn't long till Sesshomaru pulled over, Kagome sat still, Sesshomaru got off the bike and helped her off, she knew not to ask questions, Sesshomaru knocked on the door and the restaurant owner opened the door. Sesshomaru put his hands together and bowed his head, Kagome did the same, she followed him inside the door, they were seated.