A/N: Hey people! ^^ I'd like to thank you all for your wonderful reviews. They keep me going you know. So… here's another little chapter to Lost Past. ^^
Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade nor Tala, Bryan or Kai… or anyone else for that matter T_T
Warnings: Yaoi – boy x boy, AU, possible OOC
Pairings: Tala x Kai, Bryan x Kai, Rei x Kai
~***~ Lost Past ~***~
Spencer sighed… Bryan growled… Tala whined… and Ian kicked the stupid tire of that stupid junk.
"Stop it." Spencer sighed again as he looked at Ian who kept kicking the car.
"But-*kick*-why-*kick*-did-*kick*- this-*kick*- have-*kick*-to-*kick*- happen-*kick*- to us- ouch Bryan!" Ian winced the older boy kicked him.
"Well if you'd stop that stupid kicking I wouldn't kick you!" He growled and massaged his temples… This was just great. Bryan turned to glare at Tala who seemed to shrink under that cold stare. "It's your fault."
"W-well… who would think that something would happen?" The redhead asked looking away… and sweatdropped when he heard the growling again.
"YOU were the one who decided that the 'tire-junk' wasn't needed."
Tala frowned. "How was I supposed to know that it was a spare tire?!" Bryan glared and Tala looked away…
"Hehe…" He gulped down looking around. Now… if they came to the concert too late… He blinked when a limo stopped close to them. And he blinked again when the doors opened just to gasp when he noticed WHO exactly got out.
Hearing redhead's gasp Bryan turned around and looked the same direction, Tala was looking, his eyes widening slightly. It was that boy…. Kai.
Kai bit his lip before walking towards the group, they helped him before and it wasn't Hiwatari's style to be in debt of someone… so he'll have to help them, right?
"Hey." He mumbled.
"Hmm." Bryan nodded his head, while the madman (Tala) just stared… as did the rest of the group.
Kai blinked and frowned… He really didn't like people staring at him…
"… Do you need help?" He asked slowly, his eyes running over the car.
Bryan wanted to shake his head, that no… but his eyes ran over their car as well and he sighed.
"I guess so… This piece of junk isn't working anymore… I guess you don't have another spare-tire?" He grinned.
Kai slowly shook his head. He wasn't sure, but something was telling him that his tires won't be good for this… type of car.
"But I could give you a ride…? As a thank you for that before…" His eyes slowly turned to the group… He knew Bryan… and Tala, but those two… one blond and another short boy.
Bryan blinked before turning to the coughing voice of Spencer.
"Ah… This is Kai. Kai those are Spencer and Ian. You know Tala already." He said glaring at Spencer. The blond knew Bryan hated formalities…
Kai nodded and looked to the boys. He didn't like the way the blond – Spencer was his name? – studied him. Kai felt exposed under the hard stare and squirmed uncomfortably looking back to his car. Yeah, he wanted to help them, right?
"So… what about the ride?" He nodded his head towards his car, happy for the excuse to look away from the group.
"Yes!" Tala's happy yell was followed by Ian's "Thank God!" and Kai couldn't help but smirk.
"There is no need to call me God. As Bryan already told you the name is Kai. Kai Hiwatari." He said before turning towards his car, not noticing redhead's gasp and the look he was giving Bryan. As well as he didn't see Bryan's wide eyes and Spencer's wondering look. Ian was just happily bouncing towards the limousine.
"Come on!"
Bryan blinked and moved as well along with the other two boys. When he was near Tala, the redhead whispered.
"It IS him." The smile was suddenly present on Tala's face… but Bryan shook his head.
"He can't be Alexander." He whispered as well, watching Kai's back disappear into the car. He can't be Alexander… he just can't… right?
Once they were seated inside the car he looked expectantly at the only two people he knew better than the rest.
"So? Where to?"
Bryan blinked. "…to the city hall."
… now it was Kai's time to blink.
"City hall? You're going to the concert?"
Ian grinned when he stopped looking around in the limousine.
"Of course we are. Because we're-" A hand over his mouth stopped him from telling more and Kai turned to its owner.
Tala smiled innocently.
"You're going too?"
Kai just nodded, making the redhead grin.
"So… you must like the band."
That earned him a shrug from the red eyed boy.
"Not really. I never heard of them." Two gasps could be heard and Kai frowned at Tala and Ian. It seemed like he offended those boys – they probably liked the band. Well… it's not like Kai cared, right?
Bryan had an amused smile on his face, while Ian and Tala gaped.
"Then… why are you going to the concert?" Spencer asked slowly shaking Ian out of the shock.
Kai shrugged. He really didn't know why he should answer them. It wasn't like they really cared.
"… don't just shrug it off." Tala frowned, turning Kai's attention on him. "Why do you go to the concert if you never heard of them?"
The boy frowned slowly… why the hell couldn't they let him be. He wanted to snap at the other, but he couldn't when he noticed that blue gaze. Redhead's eyes were watching him intently, waiting for him to answer… Kai couldn't help but gulped under those eyes. That was… familiar.
With every second Tala was surer and surer that this boy in front of him really was Alexander. He even behaved like him, a smile crossed his face for a second, when the thought of Alexander not changing, of him being still that same little boy came to his mind. It was nice having him back…
"My… 'friends' asked me to go."
… that only sentence... that only word made Tala's word shatter again. Friends. Alexander wasn't back… he didn't remember them – or he pretended not to know them and he had… friends. Friends, that wasn't Tala, Bryan, Spencer… no… he had friends in his life and there wasn't that spot for them left anymore…
"…oh." Tala mumbled and he bit his lip. What the hell… they had Alexander in their reach but... they couldn't touch him. It wasn't fair. All those days, weeks, months, years of wanting, longing, to have him back, they finally meet him again… but he is out of their reach. Fuck…. The world sucked. And BIG time.
Kai frowned at the expression on Tala's face and blinked surprised when he felt… sorry? for the boy. He felt the need to apologize and didn't even know why. But that was something that Kai Hiwatari just didn't do… so instead of that he just turned his head to look outside the window – maybe ignoring the group would be the best thing to do. Kai slowly nodded his head. Yeah… probably.
Bryan looked from Kai to Tala and sighed .He too, began to believe that Kai was after all Alexander – even though he had yet to admit it to himself and even though the thought of Kai being Alexander was hard to believe. Or… it seemed a bit ironic to the gray-haired boy. He always thought that if, WHEN they'll find Alexander it'd be after some of their concert, Alexander walking up to them with the smirk on his face, saying that the music wasn't as good as expected by the prize of the tickets but it was good to see them again… and that he missed them too. And they would go to eat somewhere and find out what he was doing all that time, they were separated. Or that Alexander would shoot them a remark or two of how stupid the idea of forming a band was and then he would give them that small smile that was only for them and everything would be back… or something like that. But… he didn't expect the boy to be like this. Not remembering them… Bryan sighed and reached to Tala slowly squeezing his hand. That made the redhead look up at him and nod; flashing Bryan a grin… But Bryan didn't miss the sad glance in Kai's direction. And Bryan sighed again. He didn't like it when any of the Demolition was sad. They were family – well… crazy family, but even so they cared for each other.
The car suddenly stopped and Kai looked up as the driver opened the door for him.
"We're here, master."
Kai nodded, looking at the others before exiting the car – the others following him. He looked around the city hall and gave a small smile. He was glad there weren't many people yet – from what he heard from Tyson, the band was pretty popular and hundreds of people were going on the concert hours sooner, just to be able to get in and stand just in front of the podium. The bluenette snorted. That was SO stupid. To wait somewhere for so long because of one concert, but if the Demolition were liked by beings like Tyson and Daichi… he could understand it. Those two should be somewhere around… that's why KAI had to come sooner too, even though it was only because of Rei… Normally he would ignore Tyson's wishes, but he knew that Rei was going to be here sooner as well and he felt a bit… guilty after not calling him and all that stuff… so he sighed and looked down at his watch – just to wince in next moment.
"Crap…"
"What's wrong?" A voice asked from behind him and Kai turned slowly looking at the redhead.
"Nothing." He mumbled frowning.
"…if it's because of the concert, you don't worry… You're here way too soon." Tala offered Kai a little smile. It was true… Alexa – KAI already had friends… But Tala wanted to be one of them too… for now.
Kai rolled his eyes. Yeah, sure… because of the concert. Hell he could care less whetever he was soon or not. So or so he won't be hearing that stupid band. He was there only to spend some time with Rei – as he promised him.
"Kai Alexander Hiwatari!"
Kai winced. … Yeah, he was there to spend some time with Rei, the same Rei that was currently yelling at him and coming closer. Kai sighed, pulling on a cold face.
"I TOLD you, not to use that name." He growled out glaring at the older boy – not noticing smiling Tala. HA! So he WAS right… Kai was Alexander. That was the last prove the redhead needed. His smiled widened and he squeezed Kai's hand.
"Well… see you later, I guess." He grinned and ran to the rest of Demolition boys, who were currently standing in front of the back entrance.
"I told you." He grinned at Bryan. "I told you, it was him."
Bryan frowned but shrugged.
"It could be only a coincidence, you know."
The redhead shook his head. "Not in thousand years." Tala noticed amused, that he somehow couldn't get that grin off of his face.
"It is him. And I'm going to get him back."
Bryan looked back at Kai and the boy standing next to him. "Get him back?" He seemed to be thinking for a while before motioning towards Alexander – Kai.
"Look, those two… seems close to each other… So even if that WAS Alexander, how are you going to make him spent his time with us and not that boy? He is his lover, probably." Bryan smirked when Tala's face fell…. Just to frown when redhead's face was lit up by a smile.
"Well... that's not a problem, is it?"
The gray-haired boy rolled his eyes. "What? You're going to become his lover or what?"
The grin on Tala's face just widened.
"Exactly."
Bryan blinked…. And once again, before growling.
"You weren't listening, were you? Kai already HAS a lover. And it's not you."
The redhead just shrugged before getting in the building.
"That never stopped me before, did it?"
***
Kai frowned as a boy ran up to him and inwardly sighed. He knew he should be happy about seeing his lover again, but… something prevented him from feeling that 'happiness'. When Rei stood up next to him, Kai looked up.
"Rei…" He mumbled but stopped when he noticed the forced smile on the other's face.
"Hey Kai." Rei grinned, putting his arm around Kai's waist; looking towards Tala and others.
"Who was that?"
"No one." Kai growled out before looking from the back doors to Rei. He didn't like that forced smile… it was when Rei was mad but tried his best not to be… or at least not to show it.
"I'm sorry…"
Kai mumbled. He knew that the boy would understand what he meant – that was that good thing about their relationship, Rei understood him. Well… most of the time. There was always time when Rei wanted to talk about Kai's past – he always seemed to want to know everything about the other boy… not that Kai minded – well, actually he did a bit, but that wasn't the problem. The problem was that Rei kept asking about something, Kai himself didn't understand… didn't know.
Kai couldn't really remember much from his past… the only things being memories with his grandfather, but… nothing about his parents, or anything before. Kai always wondered what were his parents like, and what was his life like, when he still lived with them – Voltaire, his granddad- told him that both, Kai's mum and dad, died in a car accident, but Kai was never allowed to go to their graves… He didn't know why… and then later, he didn't even care anymore. Or better said – it was the last thing on his mind. Living with Voltaire Hiwatari… wasn't exactly easy. Kai had to hold up an image of the Hiwatari family – something he hated from the bottom of his heart. He always had to understand, he wasn't allowed to ask anything, only allowed to speak, when he was questioned and had to be always the best in everything… if not… there were those punishments… something Kai really didn't want to think about.
Kai sighed quietly when he felt a hand on his cheek… yeah, Rei used to do that… it was some sort of comforting gesture to the two, something that Rei always did, when Kai seemed tired, or stressed or uncomfortable. Not that the bluenette showed it. And he normally didn't allow those gestures, well at least not in the public or in front of his team; Hiwatari couldn't allow himself to show any kind of weakness. Not in front of anyone… just Rei. Maybe it had something to do with the fact that Rei helped him from getting away from Voltaire… maybe because Rei was there that time, when Mr. Dickenson helped with putting Voltaire into jail… and… actually… Rei's presence that time… Rei's comfort then… was one of the reasons why Kai agreed with their 'relationship'. When Rei told him he liked him… Kai couldn't say 'no'. He could never stay in someone's debt… and the relationship was a way of paying the debt off. He couldn't do anything else for Rei…
His thoughts were disturbed when the other smiled warmly – Kai felt kind of glad that the fake smile was gone, and squeezed his hand.
"It's okay."
Kai looked away from the boy and bit his lip.
"But I was supposed to be there… yesterday." He took a deep breath before continuing.
"It was my mistake that I wasn't there… I always take care for my mistakes."
Rei just shook his head, hugging the boy suddenly.
"No… I told you, it's okay… I don't mind." He gave another little smile before giving Kai a little peck on his mouth. "Yesterday wasn't important anyway. What counts is that you're here now… I wouldn't like to be alone on our date." The nekojin grinned, making Kai blink.
"Our… date?"
"Yop." The boy nodded smiling. "I got the others to leave us alone, so we could have some… 'our' time." He grinned sheepishly before frowning. "Well… if it's okay with you, that is…"
Kai bit his lip, thinking for a moment before slowly nodding. He was supposed to be there with Rei yesterday, but he wasn't… and as he already told the older boy – Kai always took care for his mistakes… Always. And this…'date' is one way of making up for his screwing yesterday.
"Fine by me."
"That's good." The boy smiled pulling away from Kai but not letting go of his hand. "Come now, we're here already, we can go stand in front of the entrance." Rei took a step forward, but stopped when he noticed Kai seemed troubled…
"Or… we don't have to go really…" He mumbled, feeling glad when the other one looked up hopefully. "I mean, it'll be too loud there anyway. You don't like loud places, hm?"
Instead of answering Kai looked away, but it was enough for the other one.
"Hmm… I wasn't really happy about going either… I don't personally like the band." He grinned and looked around.
"There was a nice little café around here, let's go there." Rei said and once again took a few steps into the desired direction – and was rewarded when he felt Kai walking with him… It was sometimes hard to understand Kai, but… Rei was willing to do anything for the boy. He loved him after all… Even though he knew Kai didn't like Rei like that, he knew Kai only felt some sort of 'debt' towards him and that was the reason he was going out with him, but that was fine with Rei… as long as he could be with Kai. After all… he'll win Kai's heart eventually.
***
Bryan watched as Tala 'hmmed' happily some melody and was playing with his hair in front of a mirror. He seemed really excited to have Alexander on their concert – not that Bryan really thought that Kai was Alexander… Of course there were many hints and many things that the two boys had similar, but… Bryan just couldn't believe that. There was no way that life could be like a fairy tale… That after a long search the boy they were looking for would just fall from heaven – metaphorically speaking. He just couldn't believe that Kai REALLY was… Alexander. He couldn't believe, because he wasn't sure if he, if they all, could take another hit from life. If they could take another lost hope… in case the boy wasn't Alexander after all.
Bryan sighed and looked away from the redhead glaring at the ground as if he could melt it. And he was doing a great job too, till he didn't feel a hand on his shoulder. Looking up he frowned when he noticed Spencer.
"What?" He spat out, clearly annoyed. And when the other boy lifted and eyebrow Bryan bit his lip…
"Did something happen?" The blonde asked slowly, looking into Bryan's eyes.
Bryan looked away. He hated it when the older one looked at him that way… it felt as if Spencer was able to see into Bryan's head and actually see everything there, even things Bryan, himself, didn't.
"Nothing… Sorry." He mumbled before looking at Spencer again. "Did you want anything?"
Spencer watched the boy for some time before slowly answering.
"I just wanted to ask about that boy." The older boy noticed how Bryan's eyes widened for a second before settling down to their original shape.
"What about him?" Bryan asked almost coldly, suddenly finding the wall really interesting – what nice white color it had. Hmmm at it was sooo big….
Spencer lifted an eyebrow but continued in that calm voice of his. "Nothing really, just… his name seemed interesting. I mean… It resembled someone, don't you think so?" He was still studying the gray-haired teen, who looked from the wall to Tala, who was STILL looking into that damned mirror.
"No, I don't."
Spencer ignored the cold voice. "Well… Kai Alexander Hiwatari. The name isn't THAT common. Not mentioning his hair… or his eyes. There are not many people with that color of eyes."
Bryan growled as his eyes snapped to the other's face.
"You know what Spencer?! You're same as Tala. Hinting that it IS him, but there is no real prove, goddamn it! Hair, eyes, what the fuck?! You know such thing as contact lenses? And for the name… in Japan it could be pretty common!" Bryan ignored the stares they got from younger two members of their band. "I hate to break the news to you but if it was really Alexander, don't you think he would acknowledge us?! Did THAT actually occur to you?" To this time he was glaring holes to the other male, but Spencer didn't seem to mind one bit.
"So that's what's been on your mind?" The blond asked slowly before shaking his head and sighing. "Bryan, it is Alexander. I know you know it too… are you going to let him go, without even trying to bring him back?" He asked slowly before leaving the room – the smallest of the group running after him.
Bryan looked down and frowned. .hell. Even Spencer thought that Kai was… Bryan sighed as he closed his eyes himself. Spencer was right…. Bryan too, knew that the boy was Alexander… But… it was kind of… unfair, that Alexander didn't give him one glance, that would say that he remembered them… that he wanted to be reunited with them. He sighed again and blinked when he noticed someone standing close to him. Looking up he came face to face with grinning Tala.
"I told you it is him."
Bryan sighed again before nodding slowly. "Yeah… I know… But, why… didn't he recognize us?"
The redhead shrugged casually.
"Maybe he forgot us… it was long time already. But that doesn't matter. As I told you before I'm going to bring him back."
Bryan couldn't help but grinned.
"Yeah sure… And while you're at it, you'll get yourself a piece of his ass; of course, just for purpose of bringing him back, right?"
Tala's grin widened even more.
"Damn right." He chuckled when Bryan shook his head. The redhead was making jokes like that, even though he knew that if – when Kai's Alexander, it wasn't about his ass anymore…
The door suddenly opened and Ian grinned at them.
"Spencer says that the two of you should at least see the podium before concert." He turned to leave, but stopped a step away from the door.
"So Tala won't fall down like the last time." He yelled and ran after the eldest boy when the redhead gritted his teeth, growled and ran after him yelling something about little annoying pricks.
Bryan chuckled, shook his head and followed them. After all there had to be someone, who'll save Spencer's sanity, he owed him at least that much.
***
Kai was sitting near the window, looking out while absently playing with his mug. Rei was currently talking with Kenny, holding the cell phone to his ear. Chief called some time ago, asking about where they were because 'the concert would start really soon' and from the sound of it, there were many people gathering – the band must have really been popular. Not that Kai cared or anything; it was just a little deduction, he couldn't stop. Kai heard as Rei told the boy that they weren't coming so they shouldn't really count with them and that they'll meet after the concert, with that Rei hung up and smiled at Kai.
"What's the matter? You don't like the chocolate?" He asked as Kai's eyes returned to his cup, noticing it was still full of the white, more or less liquor.
He slowly shook his head.
"It's fine." Kai mumbled and frowned. It wasn't that he didn't like the chocolate, it was just… those people couldn't just get off of his mind. Tala, Bryan, Spencer… they all seemed kind of familiar, and Kai just couldn't figure out how… and it was pissing him off. He sighed irritated and glared at the cup.
"Then what is it?" Rei asked slowly, seeing that there was something wrong with his boyfriend. "Come on Kai, you know you can tell me."
Kai slowly shook his head as he sipped from his hot drink.
"It's nothing…"
Rei frowned. He could see there was something with the younger boy, but why couldn't Kai tell him?
"But Kai, I can see that-"
"I told you it's nothing!" Kai growled out, glaring holes into the other boy. At least he was 'till Rei didn't turn to look away, but not before Kai noticed that hurt in other's eyes. Kai bit his lip, before sighing. Damn… he was going out with Rei… he shouldn't hurt him, like he just did. Damn.
"I-I'm sorry. It's just… I don't feel like myself…today." He mumbled, not really looking at Rei, in case he still had that hurt expression on.
"I know that you're not." A quiet mumbled voice reached Kai's ears and he looked up. "That's why I'm worried." Rei added and caught Kai's hand that was clutching the cup.
Kai sighed as he felt all of his anger fleeting away at the look of Rei's sad expression.
"You don't have to be…"
Rei shrugged and smiled. "Well, I want to. You're important to me." He smiled again and Kai nodded. He knew that. Rei told him that often enough, even though Kai never said anything to that.
Rei smiled again and squeezed Kai's hand before letting it go. The smiled didn't vanish from his face as he sipped from his coffee and moved closer to Kai putting his hand around Kai's waist. He slowly put down the cup and turned to face Kai fully and cupped his cheek. The younger one looked up into Rei's eyes as Rei's face moved closer to his own. He could feel Rei's breathe on his lips and he gulped down. It wasn't their first kiss, but Kai felt always kind of nervous. Rei's face drew even closer, when suddenly he pulled away, when he heard a yelling and squealing of some girls.
They both looked up at the TV from where the screams were coming and Kai blinked stupidly when familiar faces appeared on the screen. Four boys were standing at the podium and a redhead with blue eyes grinned to the camera.
"T-Tala…" Kai whispered blinking again, not noticing Rei's wondering gaze on him.
Redhead's grin widened as he looked down on the crowd. "Hello everybody! I'm glad to see you all on the Demolition boy's concert!" Another wave of screams interrupted the redhead and he grinned at Bryan who rolled his eyes, before turning to his fans again.
"All right people. I know it's not something we usually do… but I'd like to dedicate this concert to one special person to me, us. He should be here somewhere so… just to let him know. Kai Alexander Hiwatari, this concert is mainly for you." Tala's smile widened as Bryan began to play his guitar and Spencer joined him with drums in next moment…
Rei blinked at the screen before slowly looking back to Kai. Who was staring at the TV with wide eyes, his mouth partly opened.
"…Tala…."
***
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