A/N: Hey everybody! Another chapter is here! I didn't though I'd update but… hell it's my birthday, so this is a little gift for you all ^^. Enjoy^^

Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade nor Tala, Bryan or Kai… or anyone else…

Warnings: Yaoi – boy x boy, AU, possible OOC

Pairings: Tala x Kai, Bryan x Kai, Rei x Kai

~***~ Lost Past ~***~

Kai stared at Tala. He probably heard wrong… He could right? Sure, there was that wind all around and thanks to it Kai's hair was floating all over his face. So, yeah, probably.

"What did you say?" He asked the redhead staring at him, making sure that this time he'll hear all right and if not he'd be able to read the movements of his lips, hopefully.

Tala sighed.

"I like you." He repeated and when Bryan shot him a look he shrugged. Hell, it was the truth, right? It was just shame that Kai wasn't jumping up and down from happiness… not like he expected it from the other boy, it would be way out of character for Kai, but it WOULD be nice if Tala was, for ONCE able to say what exactly was going on in Kai's mind.

"I liked you from the time I met you.. and… well." He shrugged. What could he say…. And that look on Kai's face didn't help him with thinking. Kai seemed… stunned. And not in the good way. He was looking at Tala, his pupils wide, his whole body tense – and Tala could understand that, because Kai, Alexander, was always like that. He didn't like it when people showed positive emotions… or more like he wasn't used to it. Back then they were told that Alexander's parents died in an accident, so there really wasn't much love the boy got – not like any of them did, but Kai had always problem with receiving any affectionate touch. He glared all around when Tala hugged him and growled at Bryan's pat on the back…. But eventually, he allowed the two of them to become close. It took time, a LOT of it, but they managed it back then – so Tala was not going to give up now. Not even when he noticed the tense back and red eyes glaring at him.

Maybe the redhead could still save the whole situation if he said he meant that in friendly matter, but… he wasn't sure he did. He wanted Kai, that much he was sure. He didn't like Brooklyn's eyes on THEIR Kai and he didn't like the fact that Kai had a boyfriend (And he still didn't understand how someone who didn't, who COULDN'T know Kai as well as he and Bryan did, managed to get so close to him, so the other boy would take them as boyfriend) and he felt strongly about him – that he was sure.

There wasn't friendship, there couldn't be… Tala remembered when Ian and Spencer got together – and Tala was one of best friends with those two – and at that time, he didn't feel mad like now, when he thought about Kai having a lover. When those two got together, Tala was right next to them, cheering for them and being his annoying self… but he was happy for them. It wasn't like that with Kai… with Kai, he felt the need to protect him – even though he was sure that the boy was more than capable of protecting himself – felt the need to be close to him, and not because of memories. Because this Kai… was taking his breath away the same way Alexander did back then. And he had to let go of Alexander…. He wasn't going to let go of Kai. There was nothing that would make him do that… so yeah… there was no place for friendship.

Tala looked over his shoulder at Bryan and when the boy nodded, coming to same term probably he turned back to Kai, he'll have to talk with Bryan later, but now…

"I like you…. WE like you." He took a step forward, catching Kai's hand into his own. "There is just something about you…." He couldn't tell him about their childhood could he? Would Kai believe him? He didn't know… and he wasn't sure if he wanted to test that yet. Not when Kai pulled away from him and those red eyes were glaring holes into him.

"What the hell are you talking about…?" There was that familiar growl and Tala looked around to Bryan for some help. Even though he didn't know what the other could possibly do, but… there has to be something, right?

Bryan rolled his eyes… it seemed they messed up… or better, he felt like he was walking on way too thin ice. But… they couldn't mess up even more, right? Kai was all tense, prepared to jump and run in a moment he didn't like something… maybe… they should tell him the truth… if they're going to make him run, they should make it with something that would make sure he'll return to them. And even though he wasn't a very sensitive person – okay so he wasn't sensitive at all – he had the feeling that Tala speaking about what he, THEY, felt… wasn't a right thing to say in the situation like that… they should start… at the beginning. Yeah…

"That pendant on your neck…' Bryan started and two pair of eyes turned to star at him. One blue and wide, staring at him as if asking if he was really doing what their owner thought he was doing and the second, red and suspicious, almost glaring as owner of that pair took an almost nonexistent step back and his hand moved to stay over the pendant on his chest protectively.

"What with it?" Kai growled, clutching his hand in his shirt.

"It's a wolf, isn't it?" Kai's eyes narrowed at that and when the boy opened his mouth, Bryan continued. "I know, I've seen it before… actually… Tala here gave it to you." He motioned towards the redhead who was staring from Kai at Bryan, still not really decided if Bryan was doing the right thing. Not that the gray haired boy himself knew whether he was doing the right thing… he just felt the need to show Kai, the even if he'd decide to run from them now… he couldn't run from what they had already. … or something like that. And Bryan was glad when he heard Tala sighing as the redhead nodded.

"Yeah… you've got it from me. It was the time you were leaving our orphanage and-"

"Lies." A voice interrupted the redhead and the two older boys looked at Kai.

"Those are lies," that cold voice continued, "I was never in an orphanage."

Tala frowned.

"You were… and you were adopted… We can prove it.'

Kai's eyes narrowed…. That… couldn't be truth… he was never in an orphanage… he was growing up at Voltaire's before he ran away from him and then he became a leader of Baldesharks… there was no orphanage as far as he could remember or as far as Voltaire told him. The old man was always yelling because of the 'inability of his stupid son and his fucking whore to take care of their bastard because of their fucking death' and he made sure to make it clear for Kai that he was a bother from the time he was born. So he had to grow up by his 'grandfather'. Yeah… so these two are pulling just some prank probably…

'Then prove it." He challenged, keeping fair distance between the two and himself, somehow he was beginning to feel threatened by their presence.

"…Spencer remembers you as well, you can ask him-" Tala started, but once again he was interrupted by Kai's cold voice – that cold tone he didn't hear for… VERY long time. Not from the time they became friends. And he found out that he didn't like it.

"Not good enough, he's your friend; he could be on this… prank or whatever it is, too."

"Spencer is not the type for pranks and-" Tala growled… damn, it didn't have any effect on Kai… they had to come up with something else. Sure, they could mention the orphanage's records, but he doubted that Boris had some that weren't false… there were too many kids mysteriously disappearing, so Tala really doubted that the man bothered with records at the time they were put there… and getting those records would take way too much time, they needed something that would convince Kai NOW.

"I bet your right arm is hurting like hell, when you're launching your blade." Bryan's voice came and Kai's eyes moved to him, pupils widening before he settled down back to glaring again.

"Why would it?" The smaller boy asked, unconsciously moving his arm closer to himself protectively. Kai's eyes narrowed… no one knew about that… NO ONE. And there was no way that those two knew about that… it must have been just a lucky shot…

"Because you had your arm broken twice in one week. It was at the time after Tala pulled that 'pink hair' prank on Boris – that's when you got your arm broken first time, the second was when you decided that pink finger nails would go nicely with the hair. And Boris policy was that calling a doctor to look at two time's broken arm is a waste of money. Your arm never healed right. And you didn't even tell us, we had to find out on our own."

Kai could feel how his heart raced under Bryan's hard stare… could that be right? It was true that his arm hurt like hell, every time he launched Dranzer, but he always thought it was some beating from Voltaire that caused that. But.. could it be like Bryan said? There was no one who noticed that his launches weren't perfect or that he was hurting, so how could those two notice…? But… if they were telling the truth… No… they COULDN'T be. They just couldn't… so Kai decided to ignore that little nagging voice in the back of his mind as he glared at Bryan.

"Not good enough." He said once again his eyes narrowing to little red slits. They couldn't be right… He won't let them be right.

Tala groaned in frustration – how could Kai be so ignorant?! Well, it wasn't like younger boy to just believe whatever people said him, but that were them! He could believe them… but… that not remembering thing was making it all a lot harder than it would be back then. He sighed, running his hand over his face before focusing on Kai.

"You love phoenixes." He said, hoping that maybe that little piece of information would help them.

And it probably didn't because the only answer he got was Kai lifting his eyebrow mockingly.

"Dranzer is phoenix."

Oh yeah… Tala winced. Everyone knew that probably… He'll have to come up with something… more personal probably. The question was just, WHAT more personal would that be… it had to be something from their childhood and something that Kai would remember – and there wasn't much of that… actually it seemed like there was nothing like that and the redhead bit his lip in frustration. HOW were they supposed to convince Kai to trust them, when they couldn't find a way?

He growled and looked at Bryan who seemed to be lost in his thoughts the same way Tala was, before looking over at Kai who was glaring at them suspiciously and keeping some safe distance. And he had to grin – how come the boy felt the need to distance himself from them NOW and not when they met? He trusted him then…

"Look, Kai… there was something familiar about us, right? That's why you didn't mind our company. You liked it." He tried once again, but the glare didn't lessen.

But that didn't mean that the blue haired boy didn't think about that. Yeah… he gave Tala a point for mentioning that, because he did wonder what it was that made those guys feel so… familiar. As if he knew them before, but… this whole story seemed so unbelievable…

Bryan watched as Tala tried to persuade Kai with something else again… damn, and he wasn't doing a really good job. Actually it seemed like the boy didn't want to be convinced…. He sighed and his eyes fell on Kai's chest – and the outlines of the pendant they mentioned before. His eyes suddenly widened and the gray haired boy couldn't stop the grin that threatened to appear on his face.

"That pendant… there is a 'BTA' engraved in it." He said almost triumphal and his grin widened when Kai's eyes jumped to him.

"… you could just see that, when I was with you…" Kai answered, but the two boys noticed how his voice wavered for a second. And they knew that even he didn't believe it – the work on the pendant was so gentle that you almost didn't see the letters if you didn't know what to look for on it.

Bryan nodded.

"That can be… but there is not written what those letters mean, is there?"

Kai's eyes fell down on the pendant before looking back at Bryan, silently willing him to continue. He, himself, didn't know what they meant and now… the possibility of finding out at least a little from that mystery was too taunting to ignore and dismiss the two boys again.

The grin on Bryan's face was exchanged by a smile as he looked over at Tala and the boy grinned… they had finally stirred Kai enough, so he was paying attention to them. They finally stirred him enough so he thought about that possibility. And that was enough.

"Those are the initials of our names. Bryan, Tala, Alexander."

Kai stared at the two boys. No… there was no way… But, it all seemed all to real for them to make all that up…

"I would never put that name on anything." He growled out, the reason being last of his walls that kept him from believing that stupid story.

"But you did." This time it was Tala who explained. "You did… we didn't have our secret names at that time, yet." He grinned and motioned towards Bryan. "Right, Boris?"

Bryan glared at his friend playfully.

"Yeah… it's just a shame that some of us didn't get the chance to choose their own, right Y-"

"Yuriy…" Kai whispered and his eyes widened, when the two boys looked at him surprised but, the redhead grinned and explained victoriously.

"See?! You DO know we're telling the truth!" His voice was cheerful and that made Kai's heart race even more than when this whole charade started.

"I… don't know what you're talking about." The bluenette growled out before turning and swiftly running – NO, not running, WALKING away. He could hear the redhead yelling after him, but he did not stop, he just kept on getting away from them. That couldn't be true… no way. He was sure about that – surely Voltaire would mention the fact that Kai was in orphanage before, he wouldn't let a chance to make Kai feel even worse slip through his fingers just like that. No way.

But the name he whispered… Yuriy… it seemed that the two other recognized it and even Kai did. Even though he didn't want to admit it, there was something in his mind telling him, whispering softly the name over and over and he didn't know why he said that. He didn't even know how he knew it… And when he wanted to find out, when he wanted to grasp that name and see what else was in the secret chamber from that one name came from… it felt as if he was trying to grasp the thin air. He couldn't remember… nothing. His mind was clear, the only thing that was echoing through it was that one stupid name. Yuriy, Yuriy, Yuriy….

***

Tala watched in shock when Kai turned and ran away from them, and a cry of Kai's name fell from his lips as he himself wanted to run after the boy. But a hand on his arm stopped him and when he turned towards the owner of said hand he frowned. Almost the same frown Bryan had on his face.

"What is it?! We should go after him!" He yelled and felt anger seeping through every inch of his body when Bryan shook his head slowly. What? Why shouldn't they?! Why didn't Bryan understand that they shouldn't leave Kai alone anymore, not when they found him?! Why didn't he understand that Tala COULDN'T and didn't WANT to leave him anymore? That he didn't want to let the boy get away from them again?!

But it seemed that the other boy did understand something, because the hand on Tala's arm tightened around him in firm grip as Bryan once again shook his head.

"No, Tala. He needs time. We gave him something to think about and he needs to figure out whether he wants to believe it or not. Whether he WILL trust us or not."

And even though the redhead knew that Bryan was right… he couldn't just let Kai go. So he turned away and tried to pull his arm out of Bryan's firm grasp.

"Let go of me, Bryan! It's stupid, we'll go after him and MAKE him believe us!"

But the grip on his arm only got stronger, almost painful and Tala turned back to glare at Bryan and tell him to piss off, but something in his friends' eyes stopped him from doing so.

"What's his animal, Tala?" Bryan asked slowly as his eyes moved to stare at the path Kai disappeared into.

Tala frowned.

"What the fuck, Bryan, you lost your mind?! We should go after Kai and not-"

"WHAT'S his animal?" Bryan asked again, his voice strangely calm and Tala frowned, before answering.

"Phoenix." He didn't get what was the other trying to say… couldn't he just say it, so Tala didn't need to think about stupid things and could try to find a way how to make Kai believe in them? Believe them?

"That's right." Bryan nodded and let go of the redhead. "You can't force a cage over him."

Tala looked at the other boy and frowned… he was right. he didn't want to accept that, but Bryan was right… so he sighed and looked after Kai.

"Will he be back?" He asked softly in a tone that was reserved for their little phoenix, no one else.

Bryan shrugged, before turning away.

"If he wants, he knows where to find us." He grumbled before walking down the road to their apartment. He'll have to inform Spencer that it seemed that they were going to stay in this town a little longer than their expected at first – not that he thought that the other didn't figure that out already. And he figured out that they messed up as well, probably. Spencer was better at those social things than Bryan and Tala. So maybe he'll even have some advice…

He looked to his right, when Tala caught up with him and chuckled when the redhead grinned.

"He'll be back." Tala proclaimed confidently and Bryan nodded.

"I'm sure of it."

***

Kai walked down the road to the hotel he and other from the BBA Revolution were staying. Normally he wouldn't want to be with them as they were making too much noise, but now… he'd actually welcome it. All that noise, so his mind couldn't concentrate and he WOULDN'T think about what those two told him. Which was currently really hard, because his mind kept returning to the talk he had with the two Russians. And what was worse was that his mind kept finding little openings in his memories, places that could be filled with the orphanage, with Bryan, Tala and Spencer. And that couldn't be truth… he didn't want that. So he slowly walked over to the elevator, and punched the button for the higher floor, hoping that Tyson was giving Rei and Kenny a hard time… and that Max was on his sugar high, Dizzy yelling at them manners how to calm them down or something.

But no such luck… when the elevator doors opened there was silence and Kai slowly walked in the living room looking around. Nothing, not even the television playing some stupid movie, no games, no his teammates. He slowly walked to his bedroom and opened the door, frowning when he noticed the light coming out of the room. And his face light up when he noticed Rei, sitting in the chair next to window. Rei... he could help him. Surely he could… they could kiss or something and Kai's mind would be off of Tala and Bryan… hopefully. So he walked over to the boy, putting his hand on his shoulder.

"Rei…" He said quietly and frowned when Rei shook his hand off of his shoulder and turned to Kai, his eyes hard.

"Hello Kai." His voice was colder than usually and Kai's own eyes hardened as an unconscious response.

"Where are the others?" he asked slowly

"They went outside." The nekojin shrugged, to the question, his voice getting to his normal tone… but there was still something in his eyes that made Kai feel uncomfortable. And he was going to ask more about that, but Rei beat him.

"Where were you?"

Kai's eyes narrowed. Rei didn't ask about Kai's business normally as the nekojin knew that Kai didn't like it… and he didn't understand why was he doing it now.

"Out. I told you."

Rei shrugged.

"With whom?" There was that cold edge to it again…

"Why?" Kai asked, his eyes not leaving the others frame. This wasn't normal. There was never before that … forced calmness in Rei's features as it was now. And when the boy shrugged once again, Kai's mind was even more confused than when it was when Tala and Bryan started to explained.

"I don't know… maybe it has something with that picture of you and Tala Ivanov HUGGING on net… oh yeah and he's kissing your cheek too." Rei grinned and continued. "Oh yeah… and there was in nice big letters something about you having a new sexiest boyfriend."

So that was it…? But… HOW? Kai's eyes widened the tiniest bit suddenly as he remembered those girl in park. It was true – Tala did hug him at that time and those stupid girls took a picture of them, but… damn, how could he NOT expect that that picture would be on net? Tala was a famous singer as he was a famous beyblader… he should be lucky that nothing about it was in newspapers… yet. And hopefully there won't be anything in them in the morning as well. He'll have to make sure… later. Now he had different problems at hand as Rei reminded him once again.

"Aren't you going to explain, Kai? I think I deserve at least that… an explanation. How long were you meeting him?"

At that Kai looked up, glaring at Rei. No.. he didn't have the nerves to deal with that now. He was way too aware of Rei's cold tone and the mistrust in his voice… and he shook his head.

"You don't know what you're talking about." He growled out before turning. No… he didn't want to fight with Rei and if he stayed there, there would be a fight. His nerves were just itching for something where he could calm down, some yelling… and he knew that Rei wasn't far from yelling himself. And he also knew that they would both regret it tomorrow, when they'll calm down. So he turned and walked back towards the elevator, pulling his arm away when he felt Rei catching it and he walked faster, the elevator door closing behind him, just in time for him to hear Rei demanding and explanation once again.

He leaned against the mirror wall and closed his eyes… the frustration that he was feeling was running through his veins, he could feel it in every cell of his body and he didn't know how long he could go without exploding. Sure… he wasn't one to do that, but he just had to get it out of his system… and the only other way he knew how to do it, was blading. So when the elevator doors opened once again, he didn't think about where to go. His body turned towards the beyblade arena in the park, a bit further from the hotel in case Rei decided to run after him and his feet carried him towards it on their own. He tried not to think on his way as his hand moved into his pocket, clutching on his blade tightly and he could swear that Dranzer was emitting warm calming energy from her chip, for what Kai was thankful.

It didn't take long and Kai was standing over the bladedish, Dranzer in her launcher, and Kai's hand positioned over the ripcord, his mind counting down…. 'Three… two… one…'

"LET IT RIP!"

As Dranzer flew to the dish, quickly spinning, Kai watched it, and rubbed his arm… yeah… still hurt…

"I bet your right arm is hurting like hell, when you're launching your blade."

Kai's eyes widened and he ripped his hand away. NO, it didn't hurt. It DIDN'T. He tried to concentrate on the way Dranzer was spinning in the dish, but couldn't. The talk he had today came back to his mind…

"That pendant… there is a 'BTA' engraved in it."

Kai frowned… he didn't want to remember that…

"Those are the initials of our names. Bryan, Tala, Alexander."

So what that the letters were the beginnings from their names? It didn't mean that that was what it came from… The 'BTA' could mean ANYTHING.

"See?! You DO know we're telling the truth!"

No…. he didn't! They weren't! It was just a stupid coincidence. It meant nothing… NOTHING.

"Yuriy…"

NO!

His blade suddenly flew from the dish and fell on the ground, stopping its movements. Kai started at it, before falling down next to it on his knees, his hands moving to his hair, clutching in it…

It really couldn't be truth, could it? Surely not… Kai would remember… he would… The pendant on his chest felt as if it was burning and Kai reached for it, pulling it out from his shirt, staring at it… and the little 'BTA' was staring back at him as Kai ran his fingers over the old engraving.

"…Bryan, Tala, Alexander…"

***

All right, that's all for now… I personally didn't like it… ; There was just something that… well, I can't exactly put my finger on it, but… I'm not really happy with this chapter.

What about you? Liked it? Not? Please let me know.

Gemi