Realize

By: Sweetzer

[[I own nothing, all belongs to Stephanie Meyer.]]

{Tonight's thanks go to The White Tie Affair. Great music for fighting writing.}

Chapter 2: All animals can be stupid.

JPOV

I hadn't been human in a while. It was pointless now, besides when Bella needed me to go hurt for her. I was just walking in the woods about a mile away from the Cullen's house. It was drizzling, no surprise there. All I had on was a pair of Emmett Cullen's sweat pants that had some designer tag that made me scratch my lower back like crazy. How could he wear these? I didn't care; soon I wouldn't need clothes ever. Soon, I would be more wolf then man.

My thoughts wondered to the messy meals that I'd be having for the rest of my life as a deer sped through the thick trees. Stupid deer, I thought. Don't let the Cullen's see you. It was odd, because this deer was running as if it was being hunted but I couldn't smell any of the leeches nearby. To explain the deer's weird behavior I saw the gray wolf, Leah Clearwater, trailing behind me. She was so dumb sometimes; I mean the Cullen food wasn't really that bad.

"Oi!" I called to Leah. She needed to get some real food in her. Leah wasn't really in to the whole raw food thing. She halted as soon as she heard my booming voice, but did not turn. Her ears twitched, she must've still been mad from me blowing off whatever she wanted to talk to me about a few hours ago. I sighed out loud, she was so stubborn. It really got under my skin some times.

"Leah, get over here and get some human food," I said. I wasn't going to site there and listen to her complain when I shifted back.

Leah started walking off behind a tree slowly. I heard an odd ripping noise, then the next thing I knew Leah was standing twenty feet in front of me in a skimpy tank top and some mud-covered shorts. She really needed to get some new clothes; she didn't need to suffer because of me.

It took me by even more surprise as Leah walked closer to me, so close that there was only about three feet in between us. Though she was tall, she was no match to my six feet, seven inches. I looked down at her while she glared back up at me. I hated how she was always so hostile. Couldn't she give a guy a break ever?

"What, Jacob?" Leah snapped at me. I grunted. There was that snippy Leah, always a crowd pleaser with her attitude. I lifted up my chin up a little higher to show that I was going to go Alpha on her in a few seconds. I hated being like that, but honestly… Leah deserved it. I was in no mood for her rudeness. My life already sucked with out her, I really didn't need anymore.

"Chill," I growled. "I just wanted to tell you that you should get some clothes from the bloodsuckers. The blonde unwillingly lended you some clothes, so do me a favor and piss her off for me? Wear 'em, then get them really dirty and flaunt them around." I smiled softly, trying to show Leah that I wasn't going to start a fight right now.

"Why, Jake?" Leah began angrily. "'Whatever I say won't affect you.' Why would what I do effect you, huh?" And with that she bursted in to her wolf body then stalked off. I got a few glimpses as her clothes blew off, and I felt heat coming to my cheeks but I wasn't worried about it. I didn't like Leah like that. She just had a nice body.

As I watched Leah run off to where ever, I couldn't help but wonder if I did like her like that. I wasn't going to think about it, though. Nothing was ever going to happen between Leah and me.

LPOV

I swear to God, Seth… If you tell him I will rip you apart limb from limb. My secret was out now. It was going to be hard to keep things from Jake, which sucked since I was almost at the point of forgiving him for being an ass hole.

Calm down, Leah, Seth snorted. I'm not going to let Jacob hear me if I think about this. It's gonna be to fun to watch his thoughts when you tell him.

I about stopped hunting the deer that I was after and tracked down Seth so that I could bite his ears off. It had been awkward when Seth found out about what was going on in my head with Jacob. He had shifted while I was right in the middle of telling my speech to Jacob. It led to me explaining it to Seth and embarrassment. Though I had to admit it was nice to have someone know what I was thinking. When you're used to a bunch of people sharing your thoughts it feels weird when you've got something locked up inside you.

I thanked Seth, and then began my endless thoughts of Jacob. I sure was mad at him, but when I forgave him I was going to explain why his words had hurt me so much. I was going to tell him that we should try it… Just try dating like normal people, and I just recently decided that we should give up the lives of being werewolves. Jake and I basically needed some normality in our lives. Maybe then I could actually have children. That would make me happy and maybe even Jacob happy. I sighed mentally, just thinking about it. I couldn't believe how flustered up I was getting about him already.

Like some weird trick of fate I heard Jacob call out. I stopped chasing after the deer I was following mindlessly. Was he seriously in human form right where I was? I couldn't help but sense a magnetic attraction between us. Jesus, this was like some crush I would have in middle school. It was weird having this crush at all, but it was also unstoppable at this point in the game.

My ear flicked back; I was shocked and a bit excited. What was I supposed to do? He was yelling something about getting human food as I made up my mind. I walked behind a large tree then shifted to a human. My worn clothes hung around my ankle, tied by my hair scrunchi. I quickly threw them on, deciding it was time to talk to Jacob one. I would come in as my normal self, then ease in. This could be it. I felt my heart rate speeding up.

"What, Jacob?" I barked. It was an act though. I didn't want him to be scared of my sudden politeness.

"Chill," Jacob growled. "I just wanted to tell you that you should get some clothes from the bloodsuckers. The blonde unwillingly lended you some clothes, so do me a favor and piss her off for me? Wear 'em, then get them really dirty and flaunt them around." He gave me a small grin when he was done.

To my own surprise I really was angry. I was sick of playing his little jokes. This was the one time I wanted to have a serious conversation and he was telling me that he wanted to piss a vampire off. I loved how he actually cared about what I did now, but what I was going to say to him yesterday didn't matter to him at all. He had such mood swings, it drove me up the wall. I was no longer going to forgive him; he was going to have to wait a few more days now.

"Why, Jake?" I shouted. "'Whatever I say won't affect you.' Why would what I do effect you, huh?" Then I shifted right in front of him, not worried if he got a quick glimpse of my body. I was done with his crap for today, so I ran back off to find some meat. It was clear that I wasn't going to be able to shift for a while; seeing that I had no more clothes and I couldn't go home and get any…