A/N: Hey… I'm sorry it took me this long to put up this chapter, but I have a really great excuses ever – I moved out from my mother's so I'm living on my own now, and it was a bit hard trying to find a place, I also interrupted my studies at my school for I don't know how long and had to find a job – which I'm still kind of looking for, I spent a whole week with my lover and seeing that we both have that Ares/Iolaus obsession I was writing AI RPG a little more than this, and my laptop isn't really working so that means the only net I have is on my cell and… well I can't really make update with it. So, I'm really sorry for the delay…
Oh and thank you all for your wonderful reviews. They really keep one going, you know ^^
Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade… IF I did… there would be NO Tyson in the story and there would be a real yaoi between the Blitzkriegs. ^^
Warnings: Shounen ai = boys love, OOCness, flashbacks, …
Pairing: Tala x Kai, Bryan x Kai, mentions of Spencer x Ian
**~~~** Lost past **~~~**
He didn't know how long he was sitting there staring at that pendant, and not moving at all, not disturbing the quiet peace around him… any other time it would be calming, but right now, Kai's mind was swirling with thoughts, ideas and memories he didn't about, that he didn't remember, but that felt familiar so much… And even thought he tried everything he could to stop them, those images didn't listen to them as they were appearing in his mind with bigger and bigger intensity. He clutched his eyes closed, but all those thoughts only came harder knocking on the wall, the gate of Kai's mind, trying their best to get to the surface from the lake of time, that was forming part of Kai. He could hear voices, children, laughing, crying and yelling, the mess of colors running through his vision as he growled, winced and whimpered, anything, ANYTHING to get them away from him. Anything so he could forget them – so they would be closed in that dark corner and NEVER get out…
… but they didn't hear to him as his eyes widened and he stared in front of himself, not really seeing anything just the… memory that came playing in front of his inner eye.
FLASHBACK
"Oh come on, Alexander, don't be a sissy." A red haired boy grinned, the scissor in his hand and moving as the second boy – Alexander – took a step back.
"No WAY, Tala." He growled and glared, but stepped back again as the evil scissors came closer to him. "If you want to play with anyone's hair why don't you do it with YOURS." Oh no, there was no way he was going to let anyone touch his hair no. If that stupid redhead wanted to fool around his red hair was more than great… well, maybe not seeing that Tala already DID cut his hair… and it didn't have a really good end, because it was standing up at the sides and Tala got a little…. Devious look. Not that he wouldn't have THAT before, the look in his eyes was more than just enough to be called 'devious' so there was really no change in the redhead… just… his true personality was a little bit more obvious to the world… the same world in which a small boy was currently standing, staring at the offending scissors in older's hands.
"Oh come on, Alexander, it'll be great, I promise." The redhead tried a cooing voice – one that would work on anyone… if the said one wasn't Alexander – the ice King of the Abbey.
"No way, Tala!"
The redhead send a glare… Kai glared back.
The redhead growled… Kai repeated the sound with a little more aggression.
The redhead shrugged… and smirked.
"All right… let's cut Boris' hair." An identical smirk appeared on smaller boy's face and the devilish glint appeared in his eyes as well… oh THAT was a good idea… that one.
"Yeah, and I'll have to get you out of the problems again, right?" A grumpy voice came and Alexander and Tala turned around grinning.
"You like doing that, Bry'." A scowl at 'Bry' came and the redhead chuckled before the youngest boy grinned.
"Come on, Bryan… he still has our blades."
Now there was that evil glint in older's eyes.
"I think a bald Boris would be interesting."
The three chuckled and giggled before running of making preparation for their evil plan… oh… they'll make sure Boris'll never forget the 'evil trio'.
END OF FLASBACK
Kai blinked… no, no way… the talk with those two just made him… imagine what things would look like, surely…
Yeah, but… if he was just imagining things, how did his mind come up with the 'Boris' name? Who was that man? Because Kai felt a real hatred from the boys when his name was mentioned, such a hatred one would feel only with knowing that person… knowing them really good.
"Bryan, Tala, Alexander…"
Those names… those names were there and… Kai bit his lip.
FLASHBACK
A snowball connected with two-toned hair and the owner of said hair fell head first into the white snow, he was staring at just a seconds ago.
"TALA!"
A snicker came and Alexander turned around, glaring at the chuckling redhead in whose hands another snowball was forming.
"Yes, Sáša?" The redhead battled his eyelashes innocently as Alexander's eyebrow twitched and the younger boy threw full hand of snow at Tala but, unfortunately, he didn't bother with making a ball – which meant the snow fell apart before it could make some serious damage to the other.
"You know, I HATE that name!" An accusing yell came and Tala grinned.
'It's the Russian equivalent for your name – you HAVE to hate it." He chuckled again when the other just sat there in the snow, his arms in front of his chest, glaring so hotly that Tala was afraid that the snow around them will melt anytime soon. Well… better enjoy it while it lasted, right? He grinned evilly and lifted his hand with a snowball, imagining how it would hit Kai back down in the snow – and feeling more than seeing, something cold colliding with the back of his head seconds before he could throw his snowball. He blinked, the ball falling down from his hands as he forced to take a step or two forward to evade falling down, and he swirled around with the sole intention of glaring and yelling at anyone who would dare to throw a ball at TALA, at one from their trio…
…and blinked when his eyes met with the face of certain member of their trio.
"BRYAN?! What the hell are-" Another snowball hit his face and this time he fell backwards in the snow, next to Kai and he was spitting the snow out of his mouth while the other sat next to him chuckling.
"Now, now Tala… it's not nice talking with your mouth full." The boy grinned and winked at Alexander, who let a small smile grace his lips as he looked at the oldest one… before turning and dumping a hand full of snow in Tala's shirt.
A yell of 'I'll fucking KILL you, Alexander Hiwatari!' came but at that time, said boy was too busy laughing and rolling around in the snow, to really pay attention to any threats…
Bryan smirked as he unnoticed bent down, forming another two balls in his hands… well, they didn't know how much time they had left – didn't know when Boris will be able to find them and punish them… so he should make this worth it.
The snowballs left his hands and in next moment, Bryan chuckled as two wide pairs of eyes were staring at him and the twin yell of 'not fair' came, before his two friends grinned at each other and a snowball fight erupted.
Yeah… better enjoy while they could.
END OF FlASHBACK
…'Alexander Hiwatari'. 'Alexander Hiwatari.' 'Alexander Hiwatari.' That was his name… his name so long ago. Or at least it seemed that long to Kai, that long ago when he ran away from his Grandfather, became the leader of Bladesharks and gave up the name 'Alexander', the name his father gave him, to make Voltaire happy. And Kai… Kai hated the name. Hated the man that it brought with it, hated the memories that it brought with it… well at least until now. Now, he got new memories with that name and Kai didn't really understand that.
How come he was remembering now? How come he didn't remember them sooner? Okay, so he knew before that he didn't remember part of his past, but all the time he thought that it was the past with his family, his mother and dad before the accident that happened to him – before Voltaire get him to his care by .. .law.
Could it be… WAS it possible that Bryan and Tala were telling the truth? With the images in his head, Kai believed them, he knew he did before he admitted to himself. He believed them, he knew there was something about them, something he knew… something that made him natural with them. And… happy.
He sighed, letting his back touch the ground as he gripped Dranzer firmer in his hand, why now…when he thought he had his life figured out, when he knew how to go on…
Now… not only there was the problem with Demolition Boys but also… the thing with Rei.
He sighed, looking around – he didn't know he was there for THAT long. When he came there it was still a day, but now, now there was darkness all around him and the only light provided was by the streetlamp over the dish and stars that were visible here and there through the clouds. Kai shivered lightly as the cold wind blew – he didn't realize that before either – and well, lying on the cold ground wasn't the best idea probably as well. So he sighed, standing up, the pendant back on his neck and Dranzer safely resting in his pocket as he frowned and glared at the dish.
Okay so he decided to go… the only question was … where? He didn't want to go back to the hotel where his team was staying – any other time he wouldn't mind the accusing glares Rei would sent him and those stupid annoying question of the rest of his team along with Kenny's stupid laptop, but right now… he had too many things on his mind to be able to ignore THEM and those thoughts as well. No… he couldn't go back there…
… so… maybe…
Kai sighed, knowing that he shouldn't be doing it… but… what could happen? Nothing worse. So he closed his eyes, taking a deep breath, before walking down the path where he knew, the hotel of the Demolition boys was. His grandfather was probably right all along – when he told Kai that he was damned… because right now… it surely seemed so.
***
"I'm sorry, sir." The man at the reception desk said, shaking his head. "We can't let you in, it's late and they're asleep surely and as one of our most precious guests-"
"Look, I don't care, call him tell him I'm here, whatever… just let me get up, there." Kai growled, glaring and smirking in his mind, when the man took a step back.
"I'm… sorry, Mr. Hiwatari, but we were said not to disturb them after this hour."
The smirk disappeared and Kai really wanted to punch the man, really hard, because that idiot looked as he didn't pay attention last fifteen minutes, Kai tried to explain himself – or more like he demanded that he was let up in Demolition boys' apartment, and that idiotic man didn't get a little bit of it. So really, no wonder that he wanted to punch him… and he was lifting his fist to do just that when a voice stopped him.
"Is something happening here?" A calm voice asked and Kai swirled around looking at the blonde.
"Kai?" Ian, who was standing next to the bulk figure of Spencer, asked, blinking.
"Spencer!" He turned walking towards the two boys – as did the receptionist.
"I'm sorry sirs, I'll have him led out in a second-"
"Are you CRAZY?!" Ian yelled glaring at the man – he wasn't that stupid, he knew much about Alexander – Tala and Bryan sharing some memories with him, as well as his lover, and… well, Ian could be an ass, but he was not letting some receptionist shoo away the boy his friends were looking for all those years. "Why don't you do something clever instead? Like getting out of our way?"
The receptionist blinked and sputtered an apology, quickly disappearing behind the counter as Spencer chuckled.
"Ian…" The blonde sighed and shook his head, before his eyes settled on Kai – who, even though he probably didn't want to show it – looked pretty miserable. And Spencer was sure it had something to do with the way those two stupid idiots revealed their secret to Kai. That they were friends, that they knew each other… it must've been… hard on Kai – becoming best friend from… practically strangers, he could understand him… but well… he could also understand Tala and Bryan. Damn… they were all so fucked up thanks to Boris, maybe if they were growing up in different orphanage they would know more about people and… stuff.
So he tried a little smile.
"Should we show you to Tala's and Bryan's room, Kai?" He asked, already walking towards the elevator with Ian right behind him. He could feel Kai hesitating, but also walking after him.
"I… I didn't come to see the two of them." A quiet voice came when the elevator doors closed and Spencer pressed the highest button. He blinked and turned to look at Kai, and blinked again when he was met with fierce red eyes. "I came to see you."
Spencer blinked… and nodded. He didn't say anything and neither did Kai as they waited for the elevator to stop. Spencer could feel the questioning glance of his lover on him and he smiled, squeezing Ian's hand when the elevator's door opened and the three of them stepped out, before looking at him.
"Ian… will you please stay with Tala and Bryan tonight?" Spencer sighed and looked at Kai before adding. "And… don't mention our guest, please?"
Ian blinked at Kai and nodded pouting.
Spencer chuckled, leaning down and pressing a soft kiss against Ian's lips, before smirking.
"Make it a real hell for them."
Ian grinned before running off with that very same intention…
Spencer chuckled and turned to Kai, before motioning to his right and running his card through the machine next to the door, nodding contently when the green light flashed and he opened the doors.
"Come in." He said as he stepped into the apartment.
Kai nodded, walking in behind Spencer and closing the door. He was sure by the reaction that Spencer was a little surprised that Kai came to him and not Bryan or Tala, and… truthfully Kai himself was surprised at that. He didn't remember much about Spencer – okay so he remembered nothing about Spencer, he didn't remember much of the other two, but… there was that feeling that urged him to meet Spencer, not them. And Kai, never one to ignore his instincts did.
And that was why he was there, standing in Spencer's and Ian's apartment, looking down until a voice startled him.
"Hey, come here, sit down. I'll be right there with you."
Kai looked up and seeing the face of smiling blonde he 'hmpfh'ed and got out of his shoes, before stepping further into the apartment and sitting down on the sofa, a bit more stiffly than he wanted to, but… that wasn't his biggest problem right then.
His eyes slowly moved, looking around the apartment – it was like any other apartment in the town – maybe a little more fancy, though, but really nothing extraordinary. His eyes then settled on single photo in the room – there was Spencer standing with his hand on Ian's shoulder who was grinning madly into the camera, a scowling Bryan who was glaring at Tala, who tried to pull out his most innocent look probably – Tala probably tried something stupid once again and Bryan decided that he will be nice and won't kill him at the picture… just few seconds after it was taken, oh he must've been mad… Kai chuckled.
"You know, Bryan tried to tear that picture to shreds a few time already." Spencer's voice came and Kai blinked, looking up at the teen that was currently holding two steaming cups in his hands.
"Here." Spencer handed one of the cups to Kai who shook his head.
"I drink only-"
"White chocolate, I know." Spencer grinned as he pushed the cup to Kai and his grin widened when Kai blinked at him. "Who do you think took care of you when you were ill back then? Surely not those two idiots."
Kai looked at Spencer, before looking down at the cup of hot WHITE chocolate in his hands and the familiar feeling he had with the Demolition boys before returned and he couldn't stop the little smile from appearing on his lips as he sipped from the chocolate. Spencer chuckled himself, sipping from his coffee – as far as Kai could tell from the smell – and sighed, before putting the cup on the table.
Spencer didn't say anything as he stared at the cup, he wanted Kai to start the conversation, even though the boy didn't seem too eager to do so, but… he knew it will be better if he started it… he'd feel calmer. So he sat there, looking at his cup and waited – and Kai did start.
"Are you guys, really-" Kai shook his head. No… that was a bad start, because he already knew answer to that. Because Tala and Bryan told him, he remembered few things and even Spencer said 'back then'. So he knew the answer to that question. But no other came to his mind and so he settled to pretending he didn't say anything and he sipped form his cup again. The chocolate was great, nice and sweet – just like he liked it. Not many people knew about Kai's sweet tooth and few hours before he would be surprised that Spencer knew about it…. But… now. Well, it wasn't surprise really. It felt just like… a distant shock or something. Kai didn't expect him to know, but then the cold logic came to him – the fact that Spencer KNEW him and that's why he knew how Kai liked his chocolate – white and maybe too sweet and the thought that even though Spencer knew him, he didn't know a fucking thing about the other came back and he bit his lip. He didn't like that – he felt like he was standing there naked in front of Demolition boys, like his soul was bare to them, something he DIDN'T like, something he didn't want, something he feared for the longest time. He didn't know whether he wanted to snap at them and tell them to never bother them again or if he wanted to ask them, to beg them to stay just for a moment longer, to show him more of that familiar warmth that he didn't feel even when he was with Rei.
A hand on his shoulder startled him and he looked up, his eyes automatically narrowing as he stared at the blonde.
"I'm glad they told you, they should've been more… sensible about it, but... well those two probably don't even know the meaning of that word, so." He shrugged and chuckled. And he was rewarded when he heard Kai chuckling as well.
"yeah… they are idiots." Kai whispered and stared at his cup… this felt good. Not really talking about important things… not yet. And he wasn't sure if he wanted to talk about them. "…can I… stay here tonight?" He wasn't used to asking, but… right now he didn't really thought about it. Because if he did think, Rei and those two would come to his mind again and he didn't want that. He wanted a second of peace. At least a little while.
Spencer smiled.
"Another cup of chocolate?"
***
Tala sighed as he turned on his bed. Again.
"Bryan, do you think-"
"I DON'T know." Bryan growled, lying on his own bed with closed eyes.
"But, do you think-"
"I don't know." A growl again.
"But he should-"
"I don't know." Bryan repeated once again, and the redhead pouted.
"You sound like a broken disc."
Bryan opened one eye and glared at Tala:
"You do too."
Tala sat up.
"I do NOT."
The other eye opened and the glare intensified.
"I'm NOT going to fall for this. Not after you tried it three times in last half an hour."
The redhead fell back to the bed pouting.
"You're no fun, Bry'."
'Bry' didn't dignify that with an answer as his eyes closed once again. He knew why Tala was pulling that stupid game, he didn't want to think about… the mess they did. He didn't want to think about the fact that maybe, Kai won't come back to them. Even though they were so sure, he will before.
"Bryan, but do you think-"
Bryan's eyebrow twitched and he was going to yell or better strangle the redhead when the door opened and the fourth member of their band walked in, sitting down on the couch pouting. And Bryan rolled his eyes and felt almost sorry for Ian when he saw the devilish glint in Tala's eyes. Well ALMOST sorry – with Ian around the redhead had found other distraction than bothering Bryan. Poor Ian…
Tala grinned evilly, sitting up on his bed once again, and moving closer to the end of the bed, his eyes glittering.
"What's wrong, Ian?" Bryan had to stop himself before he could chuckle – because the redhead sounded as if he cared – even though he tried to get as much information as he could before the real teasing started.
Ian sighed.
"Nothing."
"Then why aren't you with your lover?" Tala asked innocently, that caring voice still in full use and Bryan shook his head – no one would fall for that.
"He asked me to stay with you guy tonight." Ian said in whiny tone and Bryan rolled his eyes. Did he just think that no one would fall for Tala's 'I-really-care-so-please-tell-me-and-I-really-won't-use-it-against-you' trick? Ian must be a lot dumber than he thought… and by the smirk on Tala's face, he was going to realize his mistake in no time.
"So he kicked you out." Tala chuckled evilly and his smirk widened when Ian glared at him. "What? Spencer found someone else? You weren't enough to satisfy him shrimp?"
"No!" Ian's glare grew on strength. "It's not like that."
'Oh yeah, that idiot doesn't even realize that he is playing along with Tala.'Bryan's mind muttered and he leaned up on his elbows for better view. This was getting interesting – and he was curious how far the redhead would get before the youngest member of their band will realize it was whole a trap.
"Really? So how is it then?"
Ian mouth opened… and in next second closed again as he looked sideways… He couldn't tell them…
Tala smirked.
"So it IS like that… Tell me did you see that guy?" Oh it was so much fun to tease the youngest of them… Ian didn't realize when he stepped into Tala's trap and surely didn't know how to get out of it… and this was so much fun… the redhead looked at Bryan and winked and his smirk widened when Bryan shook his head, but the very similar devilish glint to his appeared in Bryan's eyes.
"Don't tease him, Tala." The other boy growled and when Ian shot him a thankful look, he continued. "He can't do anything about his size. It's not his fault."
The smallest boy gaped and Tala chuckled. Oh this was great – it wasn't very often that he got Bryan participating in torturing Ian like this and he was going to enjoy every fucking second of it…
"Well, Bryan." He started innocently. "The size isn't really important with him, Spencer is the one doing the whole job," he smirked when he felt Ian's glare at him, "so he must be lacking in… other areas."
A twitch of an eyebrow… oooh, Ian was cracking.
"Or Spencer finally found out that he could get others than Ian." Bryan suggested and smirked as Ian's other eyebrow twitched… oh we was cracking a BIG time.
"Oh yeah, and maybe someone higher… someone with whom he doesn't have to break his back, when he tries to kiss them."
A twitch of both eyebrows, before the long expected yelling came.
"It's NOT like that! Spencer likes me well! Just because the two of you are … sick when it comes to things like… relationship doesn't mean he can't! Actually right now, he is taking care of the mess you did with KAI!" Ian huffed, glaring at the two and noting with satisfaction that they were staring at him wide-eyed and speechless. Oh he was great… his comebacks were great…
"Kai is HERE?!" Tala yelled and jumped up as well as Bryan and the two made his way towards the door as Ian' eyes widened. Uh-oh… he wasn't supposed to mention Kai, right…? Damn.
He ran to the door, blocking the way to Tala and Bryan and glared.
"He is, but you're not supposed to know that!" He growled as he pressed his back against the doors. He was not letting them out… his lover will be mad enough when he'll find out that he slipped like that.
"Ian…" Tala growled as Bryan glared. "Get away from the door."
"No!"
Now, it was Bryan's time to growl.
"Ian… get away form there."
"No, you're NOT supposed to know he's here! He didn't come to see you, he came to see Spencer!"
The two blinked as they looked at each other.
"What?"
***
A/N: Well… end of another chapter. Nothing really important written down, I know, but… well I had to start their next situation somehow ^^;
Liked it? Not? Reviews are welcomed as well as the flames (ones talking about the story not how bad it's for two guys to be together).
Gemi