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I am Isabella Swan, or Bella. I am the single mother of two beautiful twin girls who just had their third birthday. Arin is the serious one. She never plays around with things she finds serious, like Amanda touching her Barbie Dolls. Amanda however is completely opposite. She's goofy and never takes anything serious.
Their father, Jacob skipped out on us when I was six months pregnant. It surprised me because they were planned children. I couldn't have children on my own so we had to get invitro fertilization done. We had been married for two years and we both wanted children. He decided after it was already done that he didn't want to have us to hold him down anymore. He gives child support through a check in the mail and sends them a gift on their birthday. He never sees them. I guess he feels like he is doing a good deed by being a "supportive" dad.
We went through our divorce right before the girls were born. We settled on me getting the house and him moving away. He moved to Georgia to be with his new found girlfriend to be exact. I kept my car he kept his. I got half of our bank accounts (savings and trust) and he got the other half. He also paid for the lawyers because he is the one who wanted this not me.
Two days after the divorce was final I had Arin and Amanda. They were beautiful. Of course they still are but nothing not a thing in the world amounts to seeing your newborn children for the first time. They had been living inside you for the past nine months and then all of a sudden your world is changed and there is someone who needs you for everything, loves you unconditionally and unless you screw up horribly, will always hold that love for you.
It was hard getting two babies at night and working during the day. I had paid maternity leave from my job so I stayed out a little longer than I should have. I needed the time to recuperate from my cesarean section and time to be with the girls. I needed time to think things through. They were four months old when I went back to work. My dad's girlfriend Sue watched them for me during the day with the help of her seventeen year old daughter Leah. Leah graduated early and took a year off before college so she could catch up with the other students. They helped me tremendously.
By the time Leah left for college, the girls were old enough to be watched by just one person and not be such a hassle on Sue. She loves the girls and we love her. My dad gets to see them quite a bit since he comes home before I do from work. I work as an ultrasound technician for the Woman's Clinic in Seattle. I love seeing miracles every day. The worst part is having to tell an excited mommy to be that her unborn child does not have a heartbeat or has a genetic disorder that can give them mental retardation or disfigurement.
It's not a hard job it's just something you can't do it you are not ready for some heartache. I had my share of heartache already and was more than willing to do this job. It paid my bills and kept my kids happy and healthy.
I just didn't know if I was going to ever meet someone again. I didn't want to be alone forever and I want my girls to have a dad. One who is actually there for them, one to help with teaching them to ride a bike and learn to write.
Amanda and Arin are identical twins. They look exactly alike but I can tell the difference. I'm not sure how since it seems even their teacher can't but I can. They have their sperm donors dark complexion, my chocolate brown eyes, my nose, their father's straight black hair and my build. Arin unfortunately got my clumsiness. Amanda is much more graceful than us. She says she wants to be a dancer when she is older and I fully intend on putting her in this summer's dance class at the nearest studio.
They have my attitude toward life: Nothing ventured, nothing gained. We have to take risks and do things to be able to get anywhere in life. I'm not sure how I am going to ever go anywhere to meet anyone to take a risk but one day love will find me. I was always told "love comes softly" you can't just meet someone and expect it to work out. You can't expect anyone to love you back no matter how much you love them. You sure in the hell cannot make someone love you and you never know who you will end up loving.
I just don't see how Jake would be stupid enough to miss out on these girls. They are the best kids a person could know. Sure they get annoying but what kid doesn't? I have yet to meet one who wasn't. Oh well, Jacob can miss out all he wants, more love for me. I just wonder if I will ever find a man who isn't a creep to ever want a woman with two children already. It's hard to find a good man these days, just look at Jake.
Arin is more like me in ways. Always looks at the bad side of things, always a half empty cup instead of a half full one. Amanda is like Jake. Happy go lucky, nothing ever wrong, little miss sunshine all day long. Even in the morning. Its crazy how someone can be so much like a person they don't even know.
I looked at the clock and noticed it was one in the morning. I groaned. I was going to be exhausted at work the next day. I closed my eyes and fell into a restless lonely sleep.