I said I would update and I totally did! Anyhow a little meandering but I believe that's how our Casey rolls. Also this totally disregards most canon events of season four. :)
Playlist - John Legend - Ordinary People . This song sort of fits them very well. At least I thought so.
Lastly, thanks for the reviews guys, you make everything groovy. :) And no I dont own LwD.
res⋅o⋅lu⋅tion - [rez-uh-loo-shuhn] ; noun - the act of resolving or determining upon an action or course of action.
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-- in which Casey makes a resolution. alternate title can be read as; denial --
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Casey's livid. Yes, there's anger leaking out of her every pore. She's that livid. And when it boils down to it Derek fu- no - freaking Venturi is at the root of it all. She has to remember that she is a lady and will not stoop to Derek's lowly standards by using such uncouth language.
He has the gall, the termity, the unmitigated audacity - oh yeah, she knows a lot of big fancy words and she's going to use everyone of them- to meddle in her affairs of the heart and then send her date packing without so much as a by your leave. This just oversteps the boundaries of polite behavior. This veers right into, homicidal maniac gone cuckoo crazy territory. (Sometimes her area of expertise, only sometimes though)
She doesn't get why he does this every time. If he's not sabotaging her boyfriends or would be relationships, he's dyeing her clothes in cornea searing or vomit inducing colors (think fluorescent orange or poop brown), stitching up the sleeve holes of her shirts or messing up her carefully alphabetized CD collection. It's like her neatly laid out life was made just so that he could wreak havoc on it.
And usually she can over look many things, indeed she deals with him insulting her day in and day out but this Mark thing really burns a hole in her. First of all it doesn't help matters much that he hijacks the bathroom while she's in and does it while he's half naked, just so that she will lose all coherency of thought and then he actually sends a potential boyfriend packing, god knows for what reason. She has never sabotaged anyone of his relationships. She has encouraged them like any good sister would, even when she simply wanted to rip the bitch's head off. Especially Sally. Sally was the best of Derek's girlfriends and the one who had stayed with him the longest amount of time (she thinks Sally must have some superhuman endurance thing). Sally was a nice, kind girl who was intelligent not vapid, feminist but not of the bra burning kind, beautiful but not vain, in short Sally was perfect. And that's why Casey hated her all the more.
Because how was it possible to not feel to feel inadequate when standing next to this paragon of peerless virtue?
And though she feels so ashamed of it, she felt almost giddy with delight when they broke up. But that's beside the point. The point is that she never so much as lifted a finger to interfere in his matters except when she thought for sure he was going to be killed by Max's football buddy or when she thought that he was doing drugs or when…never mind. It's not her fault that Derek constantly keeps getting into trouble and she has to bail him out because she's conscientious like that and feels like it's some sort of sibling-y duty that she has to do (wants to do). Once more she's diverging. The actual point is that she never interfered with his relationships, except when he dated Emily, because she knew that was bogus for sure.
So what gives him the right to interfere in hers? Some hypocritical standards he applies.
(God, she takes a really long time to get to the point, she needs to be more succinct…more like Derek. Arghhh! Why is that everything always comes back to him at some point or the other?)
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In the morning, she steps out of her room and steps onto something soft and squishy. She screams and jumps a foot in the air bringing Nora and George racing up with panicked looks on their faces.
"What happened?" George gasps his face red from the effort of bounding all the way up the stairs. Nora takes a look at George and sighs. She makes a mental note to cut down on all the red meat, greasy food and potatoes.
"I stepped on," she looks down to see what she stepped on and discovers it's a,"flower." She's mystified. Who left a tulip outside her room?
Nora and George sigh and leave. Their older kids' being such drama queens and kings is making them age faster and also grey faster.
She picks up the slightly squished tulip and gazes at it. It's a bright yellow and there's a small note attached to it with the word, 'sorry.' She grimaces, he certainly knows how to make apologies and as much as it wrenches her heart because hello, it's Derek, he never apologizes if possible but she isn't melting. It's gone on for far too long and it's not just the chasing away boyfriends' thing but it's every little thing that he's done over the past four years. She's taking a stand even if she's not sure what's exactly happening inside her head and heart.
She knows for sure it's confusing though.
With Derek everything is always is.
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At school when she finds Mark waiting for at the locker, she's thrilled to bits. He looks a little pale and wan but the important thing is that he's happy to see her. Clearly Derek's antics haven't scared him away and even if they did, he's very brave to come back and he must have done it because he saw something in the future for both of them. So she'll just go with the brave thing, okay? Okay.
It makes her so happy, that she flings her arms around Mark and hugs him tight. He lifts her up and swings her around and at that very moment, Derek walks past. Derek's smiling and she thinks maybe, she could forgive him but instead he walks right past her and it turns out that he's waving at Tinker who looks just as surprised as she is.
Can you say huh?
He does everything and then he just ignores her? Isn't he supposed to be groveling for mercy, begging to her find some compassion in her kind heart and bestow it upon him? Instead here he is, all jauntily walking towards Tinker and ignoring her.
She's a little annoyed with herself because Derek ignoring her seems to bother her more than him apologizing to her. There's something very wrong there. Derek may have never apologized to her but he always noticed her even if was only to make crass remarks about her lack of co-ordination or criticize her sometimes preppy dress sense or simply make fun of her keener like tendencies. The last one she doesn't get. Is it so wrong to want good grades? She thinks not.
Anyhow the point is with Derek ignoring her, she feels a little lost. She doesn't know how to define herself without Derek. With a great amount of horror she realizes she's suffering from an identity crisis which could prove detrimental later on in life because there's an identity struggle scale and right now she's at the top end of it which means she's floating and drifting which is not good because it means for sure that she wont know which course to take in college and then she'll jump from job to job and be perennially unsatisfied with her lot and end up being a failure and a disappointment to her parents. It would be a disaster for sure. And what will make it burn even more is the fact that somewhere or the other Derek will be rolling in riches, have a hot trophy wife hanging on his arm and will be laughing cruelly at her distress. She's convinced that this will be the alternate universe of her life. Which is why she needs to fix this identity thing, like right now.
She wrenches herself away from Mark's wonderful arms and tells him, she needs to go somewhere. She races off down the corridor, leaving behind a bewildered Mark, a smug Derek who knows that sometimes, ignorance is really the best thing.
Paul Greebie doesn't know what's coming to hit him. But after having dealt with Casey for the past four years, he has a fair idea of what to expect. It's always something to do with Derek. And he's never been wrong on that count.
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Casey bursts into Paul's office without preamble.
"My life is ruined." Paul is not sure how but he asks her to sit down and offers her a drink. Casey sits down and chugs down the glass of water(running down the hallways and simultaneously dodging the many obstacles in her way like the hall monitors, the teachers carrying books, the audio geeks with their audio equipment, it can all be quite exhausting.)
"So what exactly did happen?"
Out tumbles the story of bathroom hijacks, boyfriends sabotage, attempted assassination of poetry notebook, ruination of her life, conspiracy against her with family members, crushed tulips with notes left outside of her room and the worst crime of all, ignorance.
"So Derek did this all?" Paul asks, trying to wrap his head around this long spiel. Casey gives him the 'duh' look. Of course, who else but Derek.
"So what is the problem?" Paul asks confused. Casey gives him another 'duh' look. Counselors are not what they used to be nowadays.
"I want him to stop."
"Only you can tell him that. Have you considered that maybe this is all just a plea for attention since it seems to be the only way to get you to notice him?"
Her mouth forms and o. She never did think of that.
"Thanks Paul. Problem solved."
Just like that? Paul Greebie is feeling a little winded. Maybe it's time for him to retire and go live somewhere deep inside the woods like a hermit with only a dog for company and a proper outhouse because otherwise, ewww. This counseling thing is making him feel like he's an old man who's way in over his head.
Casey is definitely going to forgive Derek. But only after she gives him some special attention. Oh God, that sounded very dirty and delightful in her head but she totally doesn't mean it that way. She just wants to pay him back, in a way that he understands. And Derek understands...crap.
What's all with the innuendo suddenly?
Fine, she's going to prank him and then she'll forgive him.
Much better.
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Just a small fun fact - Casey's identity crisis freak out actually has basis. The more identity less you feel as a teen, the more chances there are of you not being able to make decisions about careers or sticking to one job later on in life . Actually there are four stages in this identity crisis thing which determine how you will do later on. Just thought you'll might want to know. You are always welcome to ask about it though or completely disregard this.