A/N: I've decided that I don't like this chapter but I'm going to upload it anyway. So… give me feedback… Yet again this is another very important chapter that helps to shift the plot on. I've realised that from now on in this story Miley will spend 50 percent of her time on her back in bed… and there's so many things that could mean… think about it ;).

xo

Chapter 20 – His Worst Mistake

"Miley!!!"

Miley squeaked as she felt the heavy weight of her best friend land on her head above the quilt. She screamed, wriggled and fought her way out as Mandy refused to budge, her heavy weight compressing her head until she could literally feel the brain cells exploding and dying inside of her brain. She emerged and brushed her long hair back out of her face half in and out of sleep as she looked up at her best friend who was glaring at her like a maniac.

Miley eyed her for a moment.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing."

Miley shook her head, "Now tell me the truth…"

"I don't know if you're going to like it…" she mumbled sheepishly.

Miley took a deep breath in and shook her head, "I really don't care right now… so whatever crappy story about me… or stupid tale about someone we know that you've got to tell me…" she let her arms fall down at her sides as she struggled to sit up in fatigue, "Just tell me the freakin' story so I can get back to what I do best…"

Mandy paused and looked at her sceptically, "Singing?"

Miley groaned, "Sleeping, Amanda… please tell me what the heck you have to tell me and maybe I'll spare you…"

Mandy's eyes rolled, "Wow… someone woke up in their grumpy pants today… Here…" she held the magazine out to Miley who took it from her quickly and flipped it open, "I thought you should get yourself prepared for when the questions start coming…"

Miley looked down at the magazine and her eyes widened. "Seventeen" magazine… the same magazine as she'd revealed all to… and he was doing just the same. She flipped through the pages, ripping a few unimportant ones on her way to the only one's that she cared about. She read through them and she finally felt the one feeling she'd been craving to feel since that stupid box had arrived. She felt her cheeks go red and her hands curl into fists as she was desperate to throw a punch at someone. She looked at Mandy, trying to tell her via brainwaves how much she really didn't want to see something like this right now, the feeling to scream becoming to unbearable as she stomped from the warmth of her bed and into the cold and welcoming freshness of her bathroom, slamming the door leaving everything unstable in her room shaking.

Nick Jonas speaks: "I should never have let Miley Go"

In his first and only solo interview since Miley Cyrus' controversial interview in the September pages of this magazine, Nick Jonas reveals to Seventeen magazine about life on the road, his apparent feud with older brother Joe, what he really thinks of Mandy Jiroux and that all important question of what really happened with Miley a year ago when they were on tour. Was Nick's version of events that contributed to the heart-wrenching break-up of these two young stars the same as those outlined by Miss Hannah Montana herself?

During a very low-key private interview and photo shoot we press these questions to the man of the hour and for once he is very talkative on the subjects that we deliver to him.

Seventeen: So Nick, you're on tour again, for the fifth time in 2 years? It must be difficult for you constantly being on the road and working.

Nick Jonas: Uh, it is hard, but its fun you know…? You're always in someplace new and always meeting all these new people. It's hard not to get caught up in the excitement and what's going on and completely forget that you've not been home in four months and you've played for hundreds of thousands of people. The times when it is draining are when you sit in silence for the first time in months and realise that there are all these people that you haven't seen in such a long time and you begin to miss them. It's also physically draining because you're always on the move and you hardly ever sleep.

17: It's got to be hard constantly being with the same people for months and months on end. Do you ever become annoyed at your parents and brothers and just wish that you could stop going on stage and just act like a normal kid?

NJ: I've never wished to not be on stage because it's a gift and if I was to throw it away I would be being stupid because I'm so lucky to have been given this opportunity to play music. But I won't lie, there are days that I get up into this bustling world that's loud and hectic and wish that I could just get away for a few hours. It's only human sometimes. People get bored of each other and they need a break.

17: Recently there have been stories of love triangles between you and your brother Joe with an unnamed girl. Is it true? Do you ever share dating issues with your brothers?

NJ: No, because that rumour wasn't true. I never have and never will be involved in a so-called 'love triangle' with my brother because I now respect that his love life is his love life and my own is my own. He can date whoever he wants and I will try my best to stay out of it in order to secure his happiness.

17: What do you mean when you say that you 'now respect' who Joe dates? Have you ever not respected who he dates, especially considering that now, a year after they first met he is dating Mandy Jiroux?

NJ: What I mean by that is that, a year ago when Mandy and Joe met, I caused some trouble between the pair by getting myself involved in their feelings for each other causing them to be lost in translation so to speak. There was a time when I thought that Mandy wasn't good enough for Joe, but after seeing her with Miley and getting to know her through other people I see that they are perfect for each other and they deserve each other.

17: So that is what caused the stories of your brother attacking you in a diner local to your home were about… your dislike for Joe being with Mandy a year ago?

NJ: Partly it was, but mostly it was out of Joe's pure anger to how I had been treating people at that time. After that moment when my own brother was turning against me, I think I realised that I needed to change my ways and get back what people were calling 'the old Nick'. It was all very childish at the time, but I feel that I have atoned for my mistakes and now everything has been figured out and resolved.

17: There has also been some rivalry between you, your brothers and Miley Cyrus?

NJ: Yes… there has.

17: The divide between the camps, you might say has become more complicated as the year went on. On one side of the coin, your brother Kevin was openly seen wearing a "Team Demi and Selena" T-shirt showing his side and on the other Joe was seen spending the day with Miley before jetting to a concert with her. How did you feel when all of this was happening?

NJ: Kevin and Miley, to tell the truth had never really been the best of friends. Kevin's serious and focussed on what he's doing while Miley is fun-loving and free. When we were on tour, Kevin always wanted to just get everything done to the best of our ability… I'm not saying that Miley just wanted to screw around all day but she wanted to do things in a much easier way that didn't make everyone depressed as we were soon all getting towards the end of the tour. He wore the t-shirt as a joke for Demi and Selena as they had always been great friends since they met as they shared similar ideas. But as you say, on the other side, Joe and Miley had always been like brother and sister and no one had seen it because they didn't want it blown out of proportion and to have rumours about it. From what I know, they were always calling each other when in trouble or in need of a friend. Plus, they shared on thing in common – that being their love for Mandy and dislike for me.

17: So you and Miley aren't friends as much as she is with Joe?

NJ: Not since last winter… that was probably the last time I spoke to her properly and calmly and it wasn't exactly the best of conversations we'd ever had.

17: A few months ago, Miley gave us a very interesting interview in which she stated that you and she had dated for 2 years until you amicably broke up. You yourself haven't addressed those issues in any interview since it was released. Why is that?

NJ: (Pauses) Because I was always too scared and insecure to admit to anything.

17: By that, do you mean that you were too scared to address these rumours and put them to rest?

NJ: I guess it was hard for me to sit in front of someone, after she'd put all these accusations up against me and just say to that person that 'yeah, I broke Miley's heart' and just be cool with it. It wasn't cool what I did to Miley and I regret it everyday because I've lost her as a friend.

17: So what she said was true?

NJ: Yes it was. I asked her to be my girlfriend pretty much instantly. We met when we were thirteen and it didn't seem to matter that we were with each other and not anyone else until we started driving each other crazy. Miley told you that it was amicable that we broke up because at first it was, she was trying to protect me from the hate I'd probably get from people finding out what I really did to her.

17: What did you really do to her?

NJ: We were together for a really long time, and she was always so cool with everything even when things were bad. I'm not that kind of person, if I'm angry and something bad is going on I completely seclude myself from everyone. But I didn't do that with Miley. I was angry and depressed from the amount of pressure we had on us, and I took it out on her to the point that we would argue every night after a concert and the minute we saw each other. Then one day, she came into my dressing room trying to be kind to me and I completely dismissed her really. I guess it was the last straw for Miley and she said that she thought it was best that we stay away from each other until we'd figured if we were sure of where this was going…

17: And that's how you broke up?

NJ: I guess, but then… well… I became really insecure and turned into a complete idiot without her.

17: What do you mean by that?

NJ: Miley was making a lot of friends without me on the tour… loads of them were guys and I thought that she was… with them I guess. The fact that I got really jealous to the point of stupidity and sooner or later the news got to her that I'd been… seeing some girls I knew from back home while we were apart and wasn't even thinking of Miley probably put the end to our relationship. I completely forgot about her and decided that I could do better…

17: And that's the reasons for your break-up? These are the reasons you no longer talk anymore?

NJ: It was also about the same time that we all started hanging out with Selena as her show became more successful. Miley thought that Selena and I were dating about the minute that we had officially broke-up. She was kinda right, because we'd been on a couple of dates and that was how all those stories about kissing on the first date came around. I was just trying to find a replacement for what I'd lost because I was too busy to go and chase after it. I suppose the reason we no longer talk anymore is because at first Miley couldn't handle talking to me, but then I ignored her when some of my friends convinced me there was no need to talk to her anymore.

17: So what happened with you and Selena?

NJ: We dated for a week or so when we first met and it was cool because I thought I'd be able to get over how I treated Miley. But then I realised that maybe doing that would cause us to become ruined like me and Miley and I realised how much of a friend Selena was and I couldn't do it. But as we got to know each other, I changed my mind and thought that maybe we could have something after getting to know each other.

17: So what do you feel now? Are you over Miley? You of course broke up with Selena shortly after the concert for Hope.

NJ: Yeah, mine and Selena's break-up was amicable. We're still great friends and she's doing great. I didn't want her to be tied down to someone as busy as I was so we thought it was for the best that we broke up. Of course, she now has Justin which is good for her I guess… I haven't really spoken to her properly since they got together.

But…I guess, what Miley and I had in anyway shape or form… is over. She said in an interview that breaking up had completely ruined us as friends and it did. I missed her for a long time after we broke up and I couldn't handle what I'd done to her. Losing Miley was the worst moment of my life, beyond finding out I had diabetes or anything like that because it was something that I could have stopped. I regret every bad action towards Miley that I ever took because now I've lost her completely and I don't blame her for it. I wouldn't talk to me either.

17: You talk very passionately about this. Were you in love with Miley?

NJ: (Pauses) Yeah, I was in love with Miley… but I am in no way good enough for her. She has so much love to give a person, I was scared by it. What we had was mature and it was grown up towards the end and I could not handle the fact that we had become like we were. I was with in love with this beautiful girl and I threw her away because I was too insecure to realise that within a few months I'd have been matured enough to know that she was exactly what I needed to be "the real Nick". Not stopping her leaving was a mistake. I should have stopped her.

17: What about for the future? What are your hopes for it in all aspects of your life?

NJ: I guess it's just to keep on loving my family and caring for them… I of course want to carry on making music and doing what I'm doing and keeping everything nice and in check. I don't want to become too busy and turn out like a lot of people in the industry do nowadays. I want to keep it real and healthy.

17: You haven't mentioned your love life. What do you want for the future?

NJ: I don't know… I guess I just want to find a girl who wants all the same things I do. I want the perfect girl who I can fall in love with and make music with. I want someone who I'm not afraid to love.

Nick Jonas wears his own Levi jeans, black Chuck Taylor converse and red plaid shirt. His bracelet is also his own. He is currently on his fifty date Burning up Reloaded Tour which ends a week after the American Music Awards on November 30.

Mandy carefully pushed the door open twenty minutes later to see Miley sitting and leaning against the cold marble floors and walls of her bathroom. Her arms were wrapped around her knees as she hugged them uncomfortably to her chest. Her cheeks were stained with the tracks of tears that were no longer present. She was expressionless all apart from the slight appearance of sadness that as of late had constantly beheld her no matter how much anyone tried to cheer her up and make her better.

Mandy paused in the doorway not knowing what to do. Was she angry or was she sad? When she was angry no one should be near Miley. When she was sad… she needed someone to tell her that it was okay. As usual Mandy was left going with the flow of the events of her life, riding the wave that she wasn't sure would ebb slowly away or crash like a tidal wave destroying everything.

"He's wearing my bracelet…" she whispered coughing as her voice cracked, "I gave that to him the night I told him we should take a break… the last time we were actually happy…"

She shook her head and looked straight ahead through the glass of her shower and to the continuous marble that ran through her bathroom. She let out a melancholy sigh and shook her head, "I hate him…" she muttered quietly, "I hate him for keeping doing all this…" she shook her head searching for something she couldn't find, "…Why won't he just leave me alone?"

At her words, Mandy failed to feel supportive. She felt like she had to dish and handful of harsh reality like a slam in the gut to the little girl she loved so much. Miley had done it to her once. Why couldn't she do it back? Why couldn't she make Miley feel as ashamed as she done a month ago when she was realising that the one person she thought she would never love again was actually the one person she couldn't stop loving. Miley had to realise the exact same thing. Miley had to learn what was wrong with the way she had double standards for her own beliefs. She thought things were so different in her world to everyone else's when in actual fact they were all the same. She was still a fool like the rest of them… punishing a person for something they've endlessly apologised for.

But Mandy's dose of harsh reality came across a little too angry for either of their liking.

"Because he hates what he's done…" She shook her head ashamed as Miley looked up at her feeling a lot smaller than she usually did, "What happened to forgiving someone when they break your heart, Miley?"" she scoffed before she turned and left the room, slamming Miley's bedroom door behind her.

Miley watched the space that she left and the brand new magazine that lay in her spot. Mandy didn't understand what had happened that night… she didn't understand what he did to her… the night when it really ended… no one except the pair of them had ever known what had happened. They kept it secret because it was so embarrassing and shameful for either of them to tell anyone. He may have been "seeing" other girls… but she could have gotten over that. It was what had happened after that which had made it all too easy to pretend that there was no 'real reason'. Their respectful different stories hadn't failed them in the last ten months and they wouldn't fail them now. It worked and that was just how she liked it.

But Miley didn't know what was happening anymore. She had Joe and she had Mandy and she knew that they would be okay once Mandy called her tomorrow. They would cry and blame their selves for being stupid. Joe would laugh at them as they cried on each other's shoulders and promised never to be mad at each other again.

But the men in her life were a different story. She had her best friends, she loved her brothers no matter how annoying they were… and she was more than sure she didn't need a boyfriend… There was only one man that she truly needed…

Miley needed her father to help her sort this out and make her feel okay again. She needed her daddy to reassure her that no one was going to judge her for this… judge her for saying all those things about Nick in her own interview that was still blowing around in the wind being used by the press. She needed to know that there was still a man she could trust in the world… The only man a girl could trust was meant to be her daddy… Miley doubted the entire species and she needed to know that her daddy was still the man she could run to when she needed to. If she couldn't run to him when she was afraid… who could she run to?

The familiar ringing tone filled her ear as she pressed her phone to her ear and for a moment she thought she'd finally got through to him…

"Hello, this is Billy Ray… please leave a message after the tone and I'll get back to you."

She covered her mouth for a moment, trying not to break down and waited as the tone sounded in her ear. She was desperate to talk to him, to leave him a message telling him she loved him. But there was something about the way that she hadn't spoke to him in two months… and the way that he hadn't said a word to her either that made it uncomfortable and unwanted. She was afraid… she was scared… of her own father…

Her body lurched. She hung up the phone.

She missed them.

A/N: So I didn't like that… but I hope you got some pleasure out of reading it.

There's a lot your meant to wonder about this chapter… and in about 2 chapters time you can find out. But only if I get 15 reviews… that way I know you wanna know ;)

Here's a little taster of the next chapter…

Miley… champagne… music awards… Nicholas… Billy… Mandy… and a whole lotta 'tude and stupidity ;)

Beth xo

PS. Someone save me... I keep listening to Burnin' Up.