Hey you guys! it's been such a long time, I'm sorry! Really these weeks have been hectic... got a little sister about two weeks ago and we had this major film project at school *shiver* But now I am here and I am posting chapter eight! OMG!

I hope you will enjoy this one! Things are starting to reach their peaks and soon the world will either come crashing down or maybe the opposite? What do you think? ;)

Warning: This is a BL novel, boyxboy love (L) if you don't like it, you suck :D so don't read! Because this is getting serious!

Disclaimer: I hate this part but... I have to admit something to you guys... the truth is.... I DON'T OWN GS or GS Destiny!! I know T____T It's the worst!! But any way ;___;

enjoy :D

"So what kind of strings did you have to pull to be able to get here so fast?" Athrun asked as he sank down on his bed, tired in his mind from all the crying but still happy he had someone there who he could really talk to right now. Heine smiled and shrugged his shoulders, taking a seat on the opposite bed, watching Athrun with curious eyes.

"Well you know how FAITH works" he then laughed and smiled wider, making Athrun feel even more relaxed in his company. Really, why hadn't he been able to figure out it was Heine that was going to come? Was he really so stupid these days? Sure, he had a lot on his mind bur still... Heine was like a brother to him and now he felt guilty for not even thinking about him.

Heine still looked over at him, watching his every move with still curious but also worried eyes. Athrun was not the type of person who easily cried in front of anyone. Seeing him lose himself so completely in front of that girl earlier had made Heine realize just how bad his "little brother" was feeling about this whole thing... Athrun had always been able to talk about everything with him, and this was why Heine was with him now after all, because the poor boy on the other bed was so emotionally upset right now he could hardly tell what was right and what was wrong...

"Athrun..." he said after a while of silence, making the other one look up from his obvious thoughts. "Something happened with Kira..?"

It was obvious that Athrun was not used to the question, because he had not really told anyone more than Heine what was really going on in his life. Athrun was left dumbstruck, not knowing how to answer with words so instead he just nodded, biting his lip. Heine sighed at this, knowing that now had come the time for him to let his worries go, and just be the brother Athrun wanted him to be.

"I know you are hurting because of it..." he said, standing up again, making his way over to sit by Athrun's side on the bed. Those green eyes belonging to his friend were filled with desperate longing for something Heine knew only one person in the world could bring him, desperate for love. "and I know that no matter what any one says, it wont ease your pain, Athrun... but neither will painkillers" he continued, smiling even though Athrun understood how serious he was. "Even though you want comfort... please don't seek it from others, I know it must feel as if it would be better to just be with someone, but believe me, if someone finds out there will only be more trouble..."

Athrun was not in a real good mood, but when he heart those words he interrupted his sempai with a soft chuckle, leaning his head against Heine's shoulder, a soft smile spreading over his lips.

"So you came all the way down here..." he said, poking Heine's hand a little. "...to tell me not to have sex with any one for comfort? And really, can I believe that?"

Heine felt himself blush at this, surely, that was not the only reason he had gone through all that trouble but, now when Athrun put it that way he felt quite stupid. It was not as if he had wanted to scold this young man or anything, really, now he felt bad... but Athrun wasn't finished.

"No I can't really believed that..." he continued and looked up at Heine, a flicker of a smirk in his green, usually shy eyes, not shy at all now. "...because of all people, sempai, you are the one who's got the most hots for me, right?" The chuckle filling the room gave Heine visible goosebumps, even making a slight redness appear underneath his eyes. "You can't hide it, Heine, I know you want me!"

"Athrun...!" Heine complained, and the younger one laughed, obviously feeling better now. 'Thank God he is okay... I was scared he would never smile like this at me again...' he thought while letting himself smile softly.

"What are you thinking about, sempai?" Athrun laughed, buffing his side. "Something perverted?"

"Haha, you don't wanna know, believe me" Heine answered but his mind was calmer than it had been in years. 'Athrun... you don't know how you affect people around you, do you? And still, seeing you smile like this would make anyone happy, even without you knowing it... stupid'

***

With one hard shove, Yzak parted himself from Deakka, pushing him away at least the length of an arm to stare at him in shock and confusion. What just happened? Deakka had… kissed..? And he himself had done nothing at all to resist him for several moments! And the worst of all was… that now when he had finally pushed the other one away, the only thing he wanted was for them to be close again… how weird was that?! There was no possible way in hell that he, Yzak Jule would even think of doing something like that! Or well, he had… but that was long ago! That didn't count! But… no matter how much he tried to deny it now, Deakka's lips had been too war, his taste so sweet, his touch so roughly gentle that the feel still lingered even though they were parted…

"Why do you do this to me..?" Yzak could suddenly hear his voice say before he could even stop himself to think. Deakka's violet orbs were more intense than usual, making it hard even for Yzak to meet them but he did not turn his own away, too afraid Deakka would be gone by the time he could face him again. His friend said nothing as an answer, making Yzak even more confused. Here Deakka went and kissed him..! Right? And still he has no explanation…? Nothing at all? "Why… Deakka?"

"Do what..?" his low voice sounded and Yzak felt the shivers run down his spine immediately. Didn't Deakka realize?! Was he really that thick headed..? Or was it that he himself had never really… showed him? The realization that Deakka had really, truthfully, kissed him just a moment ago hit him like a ton of bricks… Did this mean… Deakka, really felt like that… too?

"Do this!" He spat and felt his cheeks burn feverishly, to his malcontent. "You always do this! Making me so confused with your fucking behavior! One moment treating me like your best friend then the next like I'm nothing more than a jerk you would do so much better without..! Don't you get that you confuse me so much it hurts?!" He didn't even know he had been thinking that himself, but as the words leaved his mouth, Yzak realized slowly, how much agony all this time without Deakka had caused him, how much he truly just wanted to be with him again, like back when they were kids…

"Yzak…" Deakka started but Yzak was not done, far from it. He would not keep this inside any more. Why would he? He had been forced to keep quiet all this time; he needed to get it out, now, before he exploded when he was alone!

"No! Just for once in your damn life listen to what I have to say you freaking idiot!" he said, his voice shaking with adrenaline, his hand going up between them to shut Deakka up before continuing. "I don't even know what to do with myself any more when you do this! Now, I'm suddenly not your friend or your enemy?! Cause from what I know you don't go around kissing your friends on random, do you?!"

"Look, I'm sorry okay" Deakka tried, even though used to these kinds of outbursts of emotions from Yzak, this knocking him of guard. "I won't do it again I just…"

"You are not listening!" Yzak interrupted, smashing his fist into the door behind him, knowing that he was the one pushed up against it, but still wanting to do something about his situation. "I seriously don't understand any of this Deakka! Why would you kiss me like that?! Why?! Do you find it amusing to make my head spin?! To make me worry so damn much about you that I go crazy if I don't see you or know where you are?! "He took a pause to breath but as soon as Deakka looked like he was about to speak he spoke up again, not giving the blond one time to choose his words. "If it is like that… I want you out of here… "

Deakka's eyes widened at this, but Yzak did not take his words back, and he did not turn his burning blue orbs away from Deakka, he was as serious as he'd ever be.

"It's not like that…" Deakka answered, feeling like turning away right at that moment. Somehow, maybe, he had thought Yzak would react totally different and this… was worse than even getting kicked at. How could he speak and explain himself when his childhood friend reacted like this? Looking at him with those eyes…

"Then what… Deakka..?" Yzak asked while clenching his fists with nail breaking force. "Why do you do this? And if it's just out of the blue… Why do I want it so badly…?"

Deakka's eyes widened again and his eyes, that had been trying to get away from that cold blue gaze, now snapped back up to see Yzak, his dear childhood friend, standing there in front of him with the slightest red marks on his cheeks and an expression of total confusion on his sweet face. As Deakka met those blue oceans, Yzak finally turned his head away, quite shocked over his own behavior; this was not really the way he had meant for it to come out… Had he really… confessed? That his feelings were not really… the same as they had been back when they were small…

"Yzak…" Deakka started, taking a slight step closer again, causing Yzak to back up against the door again, his head still turned away stubbornly. "What… is it that you want?"

Yzak could feel how his cheeks turned the color of bright red, and under normal circumstances he would have tried to hide it but now he only got pissed about it. Why did Deakka have to make him spell it out to him?! Deakka must know perfectly well by now! How in hell could Yzak ever say something like that straight out..? It was like making Kira join ZAFT… impossible! So embarrassing…

"You have such a thick brain Deakka!" he tried to yell but it came out more like a weak complain. Damn… why did he become like such a sissy in front of this guy..? "I just..! You know what I meant! I…" As he had thought, there was defiantly no way of saying it like that, no matter how hard he tried, there were no words describing the feelings he felt right now… 'Damn, damn, damn… '

"Then show me…"

Yzak felt his eyes grow to twice their size in a flash, his cheeks not even having time to change from red to deep purple before Deakka moved closer again, looking straight into his eyes. Too close, so close Yzak could feel his breath against his skin again, so close he was sure Deakka must hear his pounding heart. The cold ice in his blue orbs melting quickly against his will.

'Too close…' he thought, desperately trying to collect his thoughts as the seconds passed, leaving him breathless or intoxicated, he didn't know… 'Please… not closer than this… I'll break…' Deakka softly lifted his hand, as if to touch Yzak's cheek but he never did, only waited for Yzak to move. 'Why do you put this weight on me..? I can't do this on my own… no matter how girlish that makes me sound...' "Why can't you just… understand what I want without me telling you…" his voice suddenly spoke up without his own permission as well, damn his body did not listen to him at all, for once he did not regret speaking through.

"Because I want to be sure… that I'm not hurting you anymore"

"You're hurting me…" Yzak said even though he was already out of breath somehow, unable to breath when standing so close, or maybe he just forgot to breath when standing like that, just wishing for those fingertips to reach out to him again. "…when you don't understand a word of what I'm saying to you De-…"

Before Yzak could finish his sentence, Deakka's fingers had curled themselves around his neck, pulled him back close with one movement and their lips burned together once again, earning a surprised, or maybe relived sound from the silver haired one, his body relaxing completely, no more stamina to fight inside his body.

'Finally.'

Deakka had thought long and hard about what to say, what to do to get Yzak to understand this was what he wanted. All the plans he had in his mind were swept away with that soft sound leaving Yzak's slightly parted lips, filling him with warmth he thought he would never again be able to feel. He had tried so many times to figure out what to say and still, this way, he did not even have to say one word…. Slowly, right in that moment, he started to understand really what was happening to them. So, forgetting about everything, Kira, the Archangel, Athrun, Miriellia… everyone disappearing, he let his thoughts rest on the only person left… Yzak. There was no need for others, no need to regret this moment.

***

"Marrue-san, what's going on?" Lacus asked confused as she followed her friend and Captain through the corridor towards the bridge. Marrue had been acting weird from the moment they had found Kira in the docking aria but, today her mood had been even more of, and Lacus, who tried to care for her friends instead of crying in her room, was no worried something really bad was going on.

"I told you I'll tell you when we reach the bridge" the older woman sighed and kept walking quickly through the corridor, closely followed by the pretty girl. "It is something the others should not have to worry about, yet…"

"Is it… something about Kira?" Lacus managed to ask, even though her voice was shaking a little now that she thought about the sweet, cold boy lying down in the infirmary.

"Not really, no" Marrue answered, still walking just as quickly as before and before Lacus had time to catch up to her, the captain reached the bridge and held the door opened to her. "Lacus-san" she then said, her voice filled with worry and seriousness. "Since about half an hour ago we have been picking up a signal…"

"I signal..?" Lacus asked softly like always. "From another ship?"

"Yes, most likely" The woman sighed again, her lines of sorrow and confusion making her seem older, but not less beautiful. "We cannot trace it, however, and I fear it is a battle ship, Nazca class…"

"Eh? That can't be…" Lacus breathed out since her need for air became too much for het to handle. A Battle ship? Here? And why now of all times..? There was no way they could defend themselves in a time like this. They had no pilots ready to pilot neither the Gundams nor their other weapons. Most of the crew were still mentally unstable from all that had happened these past few days, not to mention the people they had lost… at this rate, if they were discovered by a Nazca class battle ship, they would be sunk to the bottom of the pacific ocean.

"Maybe it is just my own fright" Marrue continued but Lacus could see there was more to it than that. "It is just… I know that Miriellia-san called her ex boyfriend, do you remember, Deakka Elsman? She called him about Kira but the line was cut before she could tell him any details… however, that boy is still a part of the ZAFT military forces, isn't he? There is quite a large risk that he informed someone of this… the fact that the pilot of Freedom is…"

"Now come on, Marrue-san" Lacus smiled, not wanting to hear her say those words again, even though she knew just how true they were. "I remember Deakka-san, he was so sweet back when Miri-san was together with him… he would never do such a thing as betraying their trust. And besides, he knows both Kira and Athrun-san right? He wouldn't…"

"How do you know?" Marrue sighed and sank down in her chair, watching the empty seats where the crew was usually seated. "I know he helped us all, and I know that he is a good young man but… we don't know anything about who his superior is? What if it is someone like Raw La Cruse? We don't know what they have made him tell…"

"Marrue-san, listen to me…" Lacus's calm voice rang as she took her friend's hand. "No matter what he has told them or what he has done, I am sure that boy did what he knew was right... after all, that was what Kira taught him back then. Please have faith in him, in all of us. If there really is a Nazca class ship out there, then we will deal with them when the time comes, we have all our comrades here that will help out…"

"But…"

"No "But" Marrue-san. You are this ship's captain, and even though this is hard on you, you can't hang your head facing the ground... because if you do, all other will follow you" The pink haired woman smiled and gently pressed her hand in her own. "Keep your head up, I'll be right beside you, so don't you worry… we will make it, for everyone's sake"

As the rest of the working crew came to take their positions on the bridge, Marrue asked Lacus to stay for a while, in need of her comforting words, also knowing that if she asked her younger friend to leave, the girl would only have to go back to her room, crying herself to sleep… They did not mention their earlier conversation to the others, but most of them must have figured because even though they were all scared and upset, they kept on joking and talking as if to keep the mood up. Both Marrue and Lacus were so thankful for that…

"Captain, the unidentified ship is approaching above us"

"It is okay, as long as we stay on the bottom of the ocean they cannot reach us" Marue responded, sitting straight in her chair, letting the rest of the bridge know to be on the alert even without words. "They shouldn't know our position so don't do anything rash…"

The door behind them slid open and Miriellia walked in with soft steps, filling one of the empty seats where she used to sit. Lacus saw clearly the girl had not been sleeping well and her eyes were red from crying, but she did not complain. She was strong, stronger than many women in that age that Lacus knew. She would get far, as long as she did not give up.

"Captain" the girl said while putting her headset on. "What have I missed?"

"Miriellia-san…" Marrue begun as If to argue but Miriellia just met her eyes with a soft smile.

"Captain, please, we need to focus on this, for everyone's sake, right?" she smiled and then returned her gaze to the screen. "Besides… I can't focus when I walk around the corridors; at least here I have something I can concentrate on doing."

Some of the other crewmembers agreed, making both Marrue and Lacus moved. They were all so sad and upset; still they would give it all until the very end. Not because they were fighting for their own country or the "human race"… but because they were fighting with all they had, to protect all they had left… and because staying together like this made them feel safe.

"Captain! There is a radio signal; they are trying to contact us!"

"What?" Marrue spat, almost standing up in her chair. "They are not supposed to know we are here! How..?"

"It's Deakka…" Miriellia suddenly said in a half whisper, staring at her screen which showed nothing more than a blur of colors. "Remember, he knew about this hideout three years ago, when I called him he must have come to the conclusion that we were here, he must have been so desperate…"

"Marrue-san" Lacus voice came from one of the seats and they all looked at her. "Please talk to them…"

"But Lacus-san, what if it's not…"

"If it is not Deakka-san, we will deal with it" she continued, now standing up, meeting first Marrue's eyes, then Miriellia's. "But since they know we are here, and since Miriellia-san has faith in Deakka-san, I will have faith in him too"

"But…" the man from earlier tried once more but this time it was Marrue who spoke up.

"Do as she says, open communication!"

Even though the crew had total trust in their captain, there were some of them who really did not seem to think this was such a good idea, still, as soon as Marrue said the words, the button was pushed down and a raspy voice was heard.

"Archangel? This is the captain of Orion, a ZAFT military battle ship. Please respond and we will do you no harm. Archangel? This is the capt-…"

"Orion…" Marrue said, her voice shaking even though her words were calm. Maybe this was it, they might die from doing this, but she could not believe that, she would not. She had to believe it would all be okay, that they would all pull through, and she needed to show them her courage. "This is the captain of the Archangel, Marrue Ramias, please state your purpose in coming here!"

Everyone held their breaths; it was so obvious you could have heard someone drop a needle on the floor. Even Lacus felt a tug at her stomach when she realized what a tight spot they were in. She even wanted to pray, pray that she was right, pray that Miriellia was right and that Deakka was truly on this ship Orion. Still, she was unable to move, too caught up in the moment to even try to.

"My name is Ryuichi Muramase" the low voice said after what seemed like hours, though only seconds passed. "I am here at the command of the Jule squad, Commander Jule ordered out our directions, apparently we are here to see someone…" the voice broke off and Marrue sighed, even more worried now than before.

"And commander Jule is not there?" she asked, her voice a bit more ironic than she had imagined it, but she did not back down. They had not come this far just to be shot down by some lame ass ZAFT ship, just because of a moment of weakness.

"No" the man named Ryuichi answered, sounding somewhat displeased. "He has been absent for about half an hour now… I do apologize for this"

"Right… Ryuichi-san, tell your commander that, unless he tries to contact me on his own, we will not surface, nor will we give up out exact coordinates. Until then, please take into count that we have injured people on board…"

"Yes, most certainly, Captain!"

As the line was cut, they all turned to Miriellia, all with the same questioning eyes and the girl sighed. She was the only one feeling relived at the moment.

"Commander Jule..?" she said as to confirm their asking faces. "Yzak Jule, do you remember him? The pilot of X102 Duel , three years ago… He and Deakka are childhood friends; if he is here it means Deakka is on that ship too…"

***

Deakka's lips were burning hot against his own, his fingertips leaving trails of goosebumps as they traveled down his torso, unbuttoning his uniform button after button. Yzak did not fight it, not even his urge to be even closer to his childhood friend could make this moment even more embarrassing but he really couldn't care less. This was just what he wanted; he had never been so sure in his entire life! Deakka's softly moving fingers, his intoxicating smell… his feverishly warm kisses, who ever knew kisses could taste so sweet? Even kissing a guy… didn't matter…

With a sense of disappointment Yzak suddenly felt Deakka's lips pull away from his own but before even being able to complain about it, not that he even know what to say in the first place, he felt Deakka's hot breath against the left side of his neck, so close to his ear the shivers immediately ran down his spine, his body jerking towards the blond man in ecstasy.

"Nh… ah…" Yzak suddenly let out, his eyes widening with surprise over his own sensitive body and his innocent reactions. But there was no time for him to either regret it, nor try to play cool about it. Deakka's breath was so hot against his skin, his fingers so gentle as they made their way down Yzak's slender waist, tracing his spine gently with the tips of his fingertips underneath his swatter that Yzak couldn't resist it. His face only turning even redder as he bit his lip not to let his pleasure filled whimpers out into the air. This feeling, the feeling of being wanted, was the most intense feeling Yzak had ever felt in his entire life. The feeling of total longing surged through his body as Deakka showered kisses over his neck and his collarbone, exposing his pale abdomen to the naked eye, making his knees weaker and weaker by the second until Yzak could hardly stand it any longer.

In a moment, Deakka's fingers had unbuttoned his pants, his fingers already… already..!

"S-stop it!" Yzak almost whined, unable to even look at him, his face so warm and flushed he must have looked like a tomato. Deakka stopped abruptly in his movements, making Yzak really wonder if was really okay for him to tell him to stop in the middle of… IT.

"So you honestly… don't feel that way then..?" Deakka's voice almost whispered, Yzak hearing clearly he was disappointed.

"Shut up and let me finish!" Yzak blushed, pushing his childhood friend away with the length of his arms. "I can't keep… standing if you'll… we'll go any… further…"

Saying those words was the hardest Yzak had ever done in his eighteen year old life, far more challenging than piloting a mobile suit or fighting a war. Just to get the words out he had to control every little muscle in his body and since there was at least one member who did not respond to any of his desperate commands he could not possibly say it without his voice shaking. He knew, from the moment his words hit Deakka's sensitive eardrum, that there was no going back now. Because with one hard shove from those tanned hands, Yzak was transferred from the door to one of the beds in the matter of seconds.

"D-eakka…" he almost moaned in surprise but there was no time for any other words before their lips were once more locked together into a deep kiss, earning yet another moan with relief from Yzak as he buried his fingers in those blond locks belonging to this man…

Yzak didn't know how, or when, but at the time his lips parted, Deakka's soft tongue was there to great his, as if he had known he would deepen the kiss right there. Or maybe Deakka had been the one opening his mouth? Yzak had no clue any more what was going on with his body or which order his body reacted… Yzak, being quite inexperienced, felt himself being swept away by Deakka's sweet smell and his soft tongue, his warm hands slowly making their way up under his shirt again and his fingertips as they found the delicate skin of his nipple, gently taking it between his fingertips, sending Yzak into whimpering once again with unfulfilled pleasure.

Deakka's soft fingers once again found their way downwards, lower than before until they reached the most sensitive spot Yzak must have ever been touched at. As those slender fingertips gently pressed against his hardened member through the fabric of his boxers, Yzak's entire body jerked closer to him, his fingers digging into those curly locks and his pleasure slipping out as a desperate moan before he could even realize what was happening.

He had never been this close to anyone before, never even once let anyone else touch him like this. His body was driving him mad, Deakka's mare fingers making a mess out of him as they slowly started to pull both pants and boxers down, exposing Yzak's aching limb to the chilly air of the room. What should he do? His cheeks were so warm he could be having a fever and no one would be able to tell the difference, his breath so quick he could hardly even use the oxygen he breathed. With every touch of the slithering fabric, with every heartbeat, Yzak's body stopped protesting more and more, his movements became more loose… his moans all the more willingly heard.

"No matter if you tell me too… I won't stop" Deakka said as the pants were thrown across the room and Yzak blushed even more as he realized he was now lying almost completely stripped on the bed, underneath his childhood friend, while the other one still had all his clothes on. "…so if you don't want this… tell me now before I really start…"

There was not even a glimpse of hesitation as Yzak looked up and met Deakka's burning purple eyes with his own fiery oceans. His body was pounding so hard with pleasure filled pain that he could not think but he was certain, if he did not have Deakka now, he would never get to feel this feeling again.

"Just shut up and kiss me…" he tried to insult but his voice was already moaning as Deakka's slender fingers had wrapped themselves around the warmth of his length. "Ah…Nn..."

Deakka did not disobey orders however, his soft lips immediately locking themselves to Yzak's as soon as he said it, catching and suffocating his moan with his battling tongue, ravishing his mouth with intense movements. 'Oh God...' Yzak though before the control of his mind started to slip. 'I'm such a idiot...'

oh my...

so Heine.. is intersested in Athrun? Or is that just what the poor boy says to get himself in a better mood? :O

And really, even though Yzak and Deakka finally (!) got "into" each other 8D what will happen to their ship and teh Archangel if Yzak doesn't return to the bridge?! :O come on! yes, sex is important but please.... WHAT ABOUT KIRA!?

haha

any way... I know I'm mean about all this with Kira... but I hope you'll forgive me! and that you'll review and tell me what you think about all this :D I'll sooooon write next chapi! so please don't leave me until then ne?

love you guys :'D (ahh to much yaoi makes me sentimental ._.')