Hey you guys! I'm soooo sorry I'm so late with this chapter but to make it up too you this chapter is almost twice as long as the others! wohooo!
though I have to warn you... this is the last chapter... ;__; yes, it is sad... and I know a lot of you guys like this story, I'm so happy that so many of you have commented and made my day's many times though out these weeks when I've been posting this one! Thank you so much, all of you.
Now I'm not saying this is the end of it all, there MIGHT be another small chapter after this one but only if you tell me you want it :O and that one will not be posted in a while... :/ but if you really want it I'll try to write another one :)
so please, don't hate me for ending it like this... :( love you guys!
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Warning!: this is a BL story! so if you don't like it when boys fuck each other I sugest you don't read, or at least go get check ups on your brains since you've been reading all chapters up until now ;) hehe
Okay okay I give upp :) too many people became histile towards me, ehehhe
there will be another chapter after this one! so don't you guys worry (L) I'll post it as soon as it's done :)
have a nice time until then
"Is there any way you can contact him?" Marrue asked and Miriellia blushed a little at all the attention she was suddenly given. Ever since the connection with the shop Orion had been cut, Marrue and the others had been asking he all sorts of questions, actually making her feel a little bit like some sort of prisoner they were interrogating. Marrue was now looking as if though she was on the bridge of a nervous breakdown and Lacus had her soft hand on her friend's shoulder as if to calm her, though they had not even looked at each other once.
"Well... I do have a number that used to be his..." Miriellia half whispered and started going through her phone even though they were still watching her like hawks. "it is pretty old though and he has changed his phone a hundred times... I can try calling Deakka again too..."
"Yes, do so" Marrue sighed again and sat down in her chair once more, rubbing her temples a little. "We don't have time for this... if they are here to see whether Kira is alive or not... we cannot let the word spread..."
"I'll go and check how Cagalli-san is doing..." Lacus almost whispered and left the bridge before anyone could protest. She became like that whenever anyone mentioned Kira, they had been so close, Marrue now felt guilty. She knew people around her felt so bad about that boy, and she did too, but she was the captain of this ship and she couldn't show emotions like that... she knew what it felt like to loose the most important person in your life, she had done it more than once.... But if the word came out that Kira Yamato, the pilot of Freedom, was in a coma he would never wake up from, ZAFT would be rejoicing and the Archangel would be shot down as soon as they re-surfaced...
"I've got it here..." Miriellia said after a little while and woke Marru from her desperate thoughts. "I'll try to call them both and hope that at least one of them will answer.." she then stepped out from the bridge, leaving Marrue with all the other crew members, biting their nails.
***
"Do you feel good..?" Came Deakka's soft voice and Yzak literary thought he would burst into a million shattered peaces. How could Deakka even ask that? Wasn't it obvious that each time those slender fingers moved, every time he kissed and caressed his body, Yzak was filled with so much pleasure he would soon be sent to heaven before even dying. He could not speak however and his fingertips gripped the blond man's sweater hard at every moan.
Deakka's fingers were tightening around Yzak's hardened member, blowing his mind away with just the touching but really, Deakka was not an idiot, he saw it long ago, that Yzak was unable to answer, so when the silver haired man underneath him suddenly started tugging in his shirt, Deakka was surprised. Yzak's fingers were shaking a lot but he was determined, it was obvious in his eyes when he had eventually pulled the fabric away, letting his fingertips run down Deakka's soft chest tor his pants, tugging at them as well.
"Yzak..?" the blond man asked in surprise as those trembling didgets ripped the zipper of his pants open but Yzak was to horny and to embarrassed to answer, instead he kissed his childhood friend deeply while tugging now at both pants and boxers. Deakka could not help but moan as those slender fingers brushed against his hardness, making him go mad with longing for this man. "Oh God I want you...!"
-bzzzz bzzzz bzzzzzz-
They both looked at each other in shock, then turned their eyes towards the pants which Deakka had thrown across the room. Yzak was panting hard, his fingertips had stopped moving but Deakka could still feel his fingers against him and he didn't want to stop now, not for anything in the world. He knew Yzak, and he was scared that if they did not go through with this to the end, there was a big risk Yzak would be too embarrassed to even speak about it afterwards.
"Leave it..." he almost moaned and made Yzak look back at him again. "please... I need you now..!"
"Don't worry...." Yzak panted, wrapping his arms tighter around his blond friend's shoulders, looking deeply into his eyes. "...I won't let you stop, even if someone barges in here and tries to drag us out..."
Their lips were once more joined, Yzak's hot tongue finding its way into Deakka's mouth without hesitation. It was almost as I though the phone-call just now had proven to him how much he really wanted this, and now, he really did not want to stop, what ever happened. Deakka felt it too and he groaned with half pain as the fabric of his pants became even tighter, he needed to get out of them! So with shaking fingers he let go of Yzak, who whimpered with disappointment from loosing his fingers. The pants were tugged down, earning a moan of relief from the blond man before he crawled out of them entirely, once more locking their bodies together, kissing the other man deeply.
-bzzz bzzz bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz-
Deakka looked op momentarily as his phone as well started buzzing but he couldn't care less, especially since he looked down at Yzak and found him biting his lip with the most intense longing in his eyes Deakka had ever seen. There was no doubt in his mind, no matter how many times his phone called, no matter how many times a lieutenant knocked at the door, even if the captain himself came knocking, there was no way he wouldn't ravish this man and his entire body.
"Deakka..." the silver haired one whimpered softly, his hip arching in longing and pleasure. "I've... never done it before..." Oh, those words were not really a surprise to Deakka, after all they had known each other all their lives and had had a pretty open relationship but, hearing Yzak confess it right here and now made him so cute, so desirable that the blond could have come right there on the spot.
"Okay..." he half moaned and let his soft hand travel down over Yzak's torso and abs, feeling the goosebumps on the other's pale skin. "I promise I'll be careful..." But at those words Yzak shook his head and jerked his kip against him, blue orbs burning like boiling water.
"Don't be...." he moaned. "...just..."
"Just..?"
"...let me feel you Deakka..."
***
"So, sempai..." Lunamaria blushed as she walked beside Heine through the narrow corridors of the ship. Her sempai has carrying a load for bottles and she had piles and piles of sheets and pillow covers. "Why did you come here? Really?"
Heine just laughed at this, she had asked the same question over and over and just for fun he had given her different answers every time. She was a sweet girl, but he couldn't really tell her, could he? She must have figured out already, being a smart girl, that he and Athrun had known each other for quite some time, since Athrun even let Heine touch him, but what more did she know? Heine was not really sure what to tell her and what to let out... apparently Athrun had not told her about him and Kira, right? So he sighed and kept walking with his usual smirk-like smile.
"I'm here to bake cakes for everyone..." he answered and sighed in content. 'man...' he thought and laughed inwardly at his own growling stomach. '..a cake would be so nice right now..'
"Oh I know that one is definitely not true!" she half giggled and nudged him in the side, almost making him lose his hold and drop the bottles. "I'm sorry sempai!"
"Haha it's okay..." he smiled and shook his head at her clumsiness. "And what have I told you? Heine is fine when you speak to me..."
She blushed and nodded, almost as if scared to call him sempai again, it was always so embarrassing when he had to correct her. He had been there for hours now and already he had corrected her at least ten times. He smiled at her, understanding this, but not teasing her for it at all, just starting to put the bottles into the locker they reached. Lunamaria was quiet for a while too, which was a clear sign she was thinking of how to get the answers out of him, which amused him even more. Why was she so eager to know all this? To know everything about Athrun? If she was in love with him she was really unfortunate... being in love with a guy who had had a crush on his best friend since childhood, you couldn't really top that with anything.
"So..." she finally said when she was done stacking the sheets and now lifted the empty laundry basket. "...you and Athrun... are you like... you know...?"
"No I don't know?" he chuckled and offered to carry the basket but she didn't seem to notice as her cheeks flushed even redder and she turned to walk up the stairs.
"I mean..." she continued and he half smirked as he walked after her. "..are you like... lovers?"
He could not help but almost laugh at this which of course made her turn to look at him in alight irritation. Apparently she had worked up a lot of courage to be able to ask that question, getting laughed at was not her first choice of his reaction.
"Well sorry for wanting to know!" she blushed and then kept walking up the stair, clenching her grip around the basket. "But you know he is gay right?" She then quickly shut her mouth, realizing she had told the deepest secret Athrun might have ever had. She obviously regretted it deeply because it looked as if though she was going to cry and Heine smiled softly, putting his warm hand on her shoulder.
"Don't worry Lunamaria.." he smiled as she met his green eyes. "I've known Athrun since we were both small, he used to tell me everything, he is still like a little brother to me..." When she looked as if though she didn't fully understood he sighed and took the basket from her with soft movements, winding his arm softly around her shoulders to show support. "I already knew he is in love with a man... don't worry."
Her face broke into a soft smile but then she almost immediately bit her lip. "But if you know, can't you please tell me who it is that he loves?" she wined and tried to flesh her long lashes at him to charm him. "I just want to be able to help him you know... he doesn't speak to anyone here... That's why you came right? So that he would be able to speak with someone before we go back up into space...?"
"You're a smart girl..." Heine smiled and as they reached the corridor once more he sighed. "...I can't tell you who it is, I'm sorry, I could never break his trust like that... but yes, that is why I'm here..." She nodded as though she understood but kept walking slowly as if though she was giving him time to speak. "...the chairman mentioned to me that Athrun had been acting off lately, according to the staff on board this ship that is, I had to go here, it always hurts me to see him sad or even hear the mentioning of him being sad..."
"So... you're in love with him then?"
The question was straight forward as the snap of a whip but she didn't really seem to understand what she question could have caused him if he didn't have more self control. He understood that she only asked him because it was like that that she felt, she didn't want Athrun to be sad or suffer, because she was in love with him, if he was sad, it was so hard to watch it actually hurt her too. Athrun had always been like his little brother, but he knew his own feelings were deeper than that, even though they would never be returned the way he so desperately had wished...
"To be able to comfort him when he is sad, to be able to hold him when he is crying..." he began, half avoiding her question but also giving her the answer to her own desperate feelings. "...to know that he will soon smile again, to be able to see his smile at all, that is enough for me... as long as he is happy, I know I'll be okay with just being his friend... right?"
She only nodded at this, half leaning her head against his shoulder as they kept walking down the corridor, not caring at all if they looked like a couple. She bit her lip hard at the thought though. She had told her self not to fall for anyone on this ship, but as soon as Athrun had entered that door, she had not at all been able to hold her emotions back. He was her type after all.
"So... I'm here to make sure he smiles again" Heine then smiled and looked down at her, met bu her slightly smiling lips and eyes as well. "I would cross the sky to do that for him..."
"Heine, you already did that" She half giggled and he nodded as he realized she was right.
"Yeah, I guess"
"So let's make him smile then" she said while trying to get the basket back from his hands. "bake him some cupcakes!" He laughed and did not let the basket go even though she pulled it pretty hard for being a little girl of her size.
"Only if you help me" he chuckled and pulled the basket hard, making her bump into his chest, the girl blushing furiously to his delight. She was really innocent this one and he chuckled at the thought but then she pulled away and opened the door to one of the bedrooms where they were to collect laundry.
"Maybe I will He-..." she started but then turned away from him and looked into the room, dumbstruck.
There were clothes all over, pants hanging on a chair, a shirt thrown over the lamp, a uniform covering the computer on the desk. Both Heine and Lunamaria now stared and Heine knew all to well what a sight like this almost always meant.
"Maybe we should... ditch?" he suggested but it was already to late for making it out of there without being noticed or notice anything they did not want to see. Before Lunamaria could even open her mouth fully, the bathroom door opened and two boys, wearing nothing but towels around their hips, tumbled out from the steaming room, lips locked together deeply, the taller, blond one pushing Shinn up against the wall hard, earing a groan from the dark haired boy.
At this, Lunamaria's mouth had fallen completely open and Heine could not believe his eyes. Not that he knew really who these boys were, but apparently not even Lunamaria had known about the two of them and that was what shocked him. The boys didn't seem to notice the two of them at all, hands touching everywhere until Lunamaria eventually got her throat working again.
"Rey?! Shinn?!"
The boys looked up in shook, looking scared shitless as Lunamaria stared at them, Heine half sinking into the background, knowing this must be embarrassing as hell for both those boys. But Heine could not help smirking slightly as he realized who there two were. Shinn Asuka, this years ace, he was parsed for being one of the most promising pilots in years but his temper was not to play with lightly. And then there must be Rey Za Burrel? They had actually met when they were younger... He was one of the smartest and most strategic fighters of his age... and these two..? it was hilarious!
***
The feeling of being this close to Yzak, moving against him, on top of him, inside him, was so hot he could not even breath any more. Deakka had even forgotten what had happened before, about their fight and even how they ended up in bed together. Looking down at the blushing, moaning boy underneath him made him go crazy with a kind of pleasure he had never felt before in his entire life. Hearing his sweetest voice moan out his name, feeling Yzak's sharp nails break his skin in pleasure as he grabbed his back hard, feeling the blue-eyed one's burning skin and lips under his own body drove him so close to the breaking point that he thought he would be driven mad if he didn't have release soon!
He knew though, somewhere in the back of his mind that his phone had been calling quite a few times but he still couldn't care less as Yzak moaned in pleasure from his movements. How could he ever have tried to tell himself that this was never going to happen? How could he have tried to tell himself that this was not what he wanted? Feeling Yzak arch his back underneath him, feeling him tens up was the most wonderful feeling in the world, his mind went blank with pleasure as he came, unable to stop it any longer.
Panting and relaxing, both boys fell back against the madras, Deakka trying not to crush Yzak but not really wanting to roll of him either, Yzak's arms closing around his back, not wanting to let him go either. There was a long moment, when the only thing heard was the sound of their mixed breaths and the slight buzzing sound the ship it self was making. Then suddenly one of their phones started ringing again and both of them burst into slight laughter, Deakka carrying his weight on his elbows while looking down to meet Yzak's blue orbs.
"You okay..?" He asked while smiling and Yzak nodded, looking totally different from the normal frown he usually wore, his slender fingertips reaching up to gently stroke Deakka's cheek.
"Yeah.." he then answered as he once more pulled his childhood friend down to kiss him. "More than okay..."
Yzak had never been this gentle before, but Deakka did certainly not complain. They lye there for more than ten minutes before Deakka even could look away after the kiss ended. He felt like blushing even though he knew he'd be teased for eternity if he did so, his fingers gently traced Yzak's cheekbone instead, wanting him like this forever, before...
-bzzzzzzzzzzz bzzzzzzzzzzzzzz bzzzzzzzzzzzzz-
"Oh damn it..!" Yzak half moaned and started to push Deakka of the bed. "just answer your damn phone before I destroy it!"
Deakka laughed and stood up by the bed, walking over, still naked, towards his uniform that lay thrown over the lamp. He could feel Yzak watch his back and while still having his back turned to him he took the chance to blush wildly. Trying to gather his thoughts together he looked down at his phone, realizing he had missed about fifteen calls from Miriellia and getting panic, pressing the green button to call her up.
"Deakka?!" came her scared voice almost immediately and Deakka felt as if though he would die inside, Miri had always been important to him, even though they had broken up months ago, and even though the spark between them had kind of faded long before that, she was still special to him and hearing her scared like this was heartbreaking.
"Yes, take it easy Miri... I'm here" he said calmly, hearing how Yzak shifted back on the bed, as if though he could not stop himself from being jealous still, even after what they had just done. "What is it..? What's happened..?"
"I... -ip.. you have to g-..." came her voice, the line almost braking down again, scaring him even more.
"Hey the line is bad... Miri?" he tried sighed deeply.
"-an you hear me now?"
"Yeah... now you're good" he smiled but before he could ask her again hat it was that she wanted, he felt warm hands close themselves around his ways, Yzak pressing his torso against Deakka's back, making him shiver once more.
"You have to tell Yzak to come to the bridge..." she said, her voice still trembling in his ear, bringing him back to reality.
"Yzak..?" He said in surprise, feeling the other man sink his teeth into his neck, fighting a moan that desperately wanted to escape his lips.
"Yes, aren't you with him?" She asked and he suddenly got the feeling she had somehow seen what they just done together, even though he knew that couldn't be true. "On his ship I mean... since the captain knew out coordinates..."
"Oh yeah.... yeah we'll be on the bridge right away..." he said but even before he could continue with asking about Kira the line went quiet, then beeped loudly and the call was cut. "Damn..." he half groaned and turned, pushing Yzak against the door hard. "You distracted me again..."
Yzak didn't blush this time, he only smirked, catching Deakka's lips deeply, their naked bodies gently nudging against each other. Both of them were smiling, the realization of what they had not really sunk in yet, but only minutes later, when they had gotten themselves dressed and were about to leave the room, Yzak spoke up, his voice uncertain and quite weak.
"I..." he started, correcting his uniform even though it was as corrected as it could be. "I'm not gay..."
"I know..." Deakka answered even though he wasn't sure what this was himself. "Me neither..."
-
Not wanting to reveal to any one in the crew about what their real objective was to come after the Archangel, Yzak spoke to Marrue only for a short while as they reached the bridge, the both of them deciding on when and where both Yzak and Deakka would be picked up and brought on board the angel. After that, both Deakka and Yzak went to change clothes, not really speaking that much to others or each other, the silence was quite stressing but there was no time to either argue or kiss furiously.
As they reached the meeting place, Yzak sat down, for the first time in hours, sighing deeply as he realized his ass hurt more than he had expected. Deakka stood some meters away on the rock, looking out over the ocean with that look in his eyes again. Yzak felt shivers down his spine as he saw those eyes, Deakka had looked at him like that too now, just hours ago he had looked at him with those intense eyes. The thought made him shiver with feelings he had never before allowed himself to feel. Deakka was the one, the only one he had ever wanted like this...
"Yzak?" Deakka's voice suddenly sliced the silence and Yzak looked up in slight confusion, only making a slight sound as if though saying yes. "Did you... want me before... you know, before everything started...?"
"Yeah..." Yzak said even though he could feel himself blush like a tomato, and it didn't make anything better when Deakka actually turned to look at him. "..I did... for a long time"
"Me too..."
There was a long silence, when they just looked at each other, not really knowing what to say or do... should they jump each other, kiss each other deeply, act like the cutest couple in history..? Somehow, Yzak doubted Deakka would appreciate that at all, especially since the Archangel was on her way towards them at this very moment. Still, he couldn't just still quiet and still after a sweet confession like that, totally ignoring the fact that he was the one who had confessed first.
"I'm happy you finally told me..." he said and stood up, biting his lip slightly as his rare-end stung like crazy. Deakka still looked at him with those deep eyes, without words as Yzak walked closer, smiling slightly. "...I'm really happy Deakka..."
"Me too..." Deakka smiled back as he reached his hand out for him, Yzak taking it in his own, feeling the warmth of Deakka's fingers spread through his entire body. "Would it be okay for me to kiss you..?"
"Yeah..." Yzak said and felt his smile grow without his permission. Really, Deakka was not good at all, he just made his mind dizzy with pink clouds and pleasure. Not at all good (in denial). As he softly placed his hands on Deakka's strong chest he felt shivers down his spine. He had been such and idiot not noticing this earlier, really, they had been best friends for ages and still he hadn't understood, that these hot lips now locked to his own had wanted him for so long...
"They are here..." Deakka suddenly sighed and stroke Yzak's soft cheek as he realized his childhood friend was frowning cutely. "come one Yzak... we need to do this, remember?"
"yeah I know" Yzak sighed and nodded. "For Athrun..."
"For Athrun..."
Yzak felt weird even seeing those Orb uniforms and the people coming to meet them. He had been fighting the Archangel for the longest time and it was believed that she had somehow been destroyed after the war, now seeing her crew coming to pick them up made him shiver. He had a feeling that even though they were friendly and treated Deakka as if though he was a part of their crew, they sent Yzak death-glares... and he knew they really didn't like the idea of taking him on-board.
"Deakka!" came a call as soon as they entered through the first door and even though Yzak was busy to look around on how this ship looked on the inside, he could not help but notice as he was half pushed into the wall by the crying girl. "I never thought you'd answer that damn phone, asshole!!"
"I'm sorry Miri..." Deakka said softly, gently winding his arms around her shaking back. "It's okay now, I'm here and so is Yzak..."
The girl looked up at him and then turned to look back at Yzak who was trying his best not to let his jealousy show to much in his eyes. She even said "hi" too and asked him to forgive her for bumping into him so abruptly. Not that it made him any less angry, but since he had to put up an act, he smiled and said it was no big deal, making both Miri and Deakka stare at him, Yzak realizing that his normal reply to a thing like that would not have been a smile like this. But he didn't really care enough to change his behavior, instead he sighed and looked around.
"So..." he said and then turned back to Miriellia and his childhood friend, who was STILL holding the girl by the way! "...we're here cause you called Deakka before, about Kira..."
"Yeah..." she answered and immediately got a glimpse of empty sadness in her eyes. "...I'll take you to him right away..."
Walking behind Deakka and the girl through these corridors made Yzak shiver from unwanted cold feelings. She and Deakka had been here together before, maybe even stood here making out? No wait, they had still been fighting when being here but since Yzak had never really dared or wanted to know details, he didn't actually know when their fighting had gone from fisting each others faces to kissing everywhere... And it frightened him to see her like this, so pretty and beautifully sad, what if Deakka fell right back into his old feelings for her? What would Yzak do if that happened? There was no way he could compete against someone like her... right?
When they reached a longer, wider corridor however, Deakka softly turned his head back and gave Yzak a little smile, almost as if knowing how he was feeling and it calmed him. Of course he had a chance over this girl. Wasn't he the one person who knew Deakka the best? They had known each other for almost their entire lives, she had only tried to stab him with a knife.
"Isn't this the way to the infirmary...?" Deakka suddenly said and the silence was broken, bringing Yzak back to reality with a snap, making Miriellia look up for the first time since they started walking. She started nodding though and Deakka looked back at his friend, a frightened expression in his face. "What on earth..?" he then continued but he didn't end the sentence, because once again Miriellia started picking up speed.
***
"Who's phone is this black one?" Heine asked, almost as if trying to ease the mood in the cafeteria where he, Lunamaria, Shinn and Rey were now seated. Shinn had been blushing furiously ever since he and Rey had walked into the room, Luna as well. Rey just sat there, drinking his tea, looking completely calm and comfortable in the middle of the awkward silence. Heine had found a phone on the table just now and since he wasn't good at being quiet, he tried to get a conversation going by using this new discovery, but none of the others seemed to want to talk about lost phones, it was only Rey who's lips twitched into a smirk when he saw the phone.
The silence fell once more, even deeper and more cold now than before and Heine already regretted speaking up. Seriously these guys? What was the problem here? Yes, well Shinn and Rey had been discovered, fine, Shinn was embarrassed and didn't want the rumor that he was gay to spread through the entire ship, but why couldn't he just say so then? Or was he that kind of person who couldn't even say the words when he was mad? And what about Rey? This could not have been just a fling or a one time situation... Heine was good at reading people and situations, and that kiss, those hot fingers before... those were not just driven by horniness, no, that was love... So why was it so damn hard to talk about?!
"I'm sorry Shinn..." Lunamaria suddenly said, then quickly added. "You two Rey... if I had been more careful... I shouldn't have barged in like that without checking what was going on in there"
"No you shouldn't have!" came Shinn's hard voice but Rey only smiled and Heine could see the blond man softly grabbing Shinn's hand under the table.
"It's okay, really, Lunamaria, Heine..." the blond, so much more mature man said and met both their pair of eyes. "we should have been more careful as well, not only you are to blame for this, right Shinn?"
The dark haired boy didn't answer to this, only gripped Rey's hand hard back and Heine somehow felt all warm inside. These two... Rey had been hiding this relationship as well as he could, but not for his own sake or reputation, but because of Shinn's fright of being discovered. Now, when Shinn felt the most vulnerable, Rey was still right there beside him, even though he must be just as vulnerable on the inside as his lover was.
After another moment of weird silence, Heine decided to find out who's phone this really was, since the conversation really did not show any signs of progressing. So he opened it but before being able to look at anything else than the background, which was a picture of a flower, fruity enough, the phone itself started buzzing, making him so surprised he dropped it on the floor, the buzzing stopping abruptly.
"What was that?" Lunamaria asked in surprise at the bumping noise when the phone hit the floor. Even the blushing Shinn now looked up, like a curious child at the dinner-table.
"I was gonna look at the phone..." Heine admitted and looked in under the table to search for the small black thing. "...but when I opened it it started ringing and I was so surprised I dropped it..."
"You're so clumsy Heine" Lunamaria giggled and Heine smiled, even making Shinn look a little more at ease. But since he couldn't see the phone, Heine had to crawl down on the floor and look under all the chairs, hearing how both Luna and Shinn laughed at him.
"What?" he chuckled back as he bumped his head slightly in the table leg. "Should I just leave it here on the floor when I don't even know who's phone it is?"
"Well, if you'll die when fetching it..." Rey smirked and looked down at him. "Then I'd prefer you just left it, Heine-sempai.."
As Heine eventually had stopped laughing and found the phone under his own chair, he cursed a little as he realized he had missed the call and that the caller was from a hidden number. What was so good with hidden numbers anyway? Yeah you couldn't be traced and all, but if someone missed a call from you, they could never call you back or know who it really was that was calling. 'Well' he thought and flipped the phone open once more. 'At least the person owning this can't say I was snooping since I didn't even answer the call...'
***
"Damn..." Miriellia wined and threw her phone down at the empty bed next to the one occupied by Kira's cold, lifeless body. "...you sure that's his number Deakka? He isn't answering, I've called him like a thousand times..."
"Yeah I'm... I'm sure..." Deakka answered, all taken by the scene in front of him, holding that cold hand gently, feeling as if though he could break apart any minute. If Athrun got the notion of this, he would die inside... Even though Deakka had not known Kira that well, seeing the boy like this was almost more heartbreaking than he could have imagined, it had even made Yzak stop to stare from the door, it was not until now, about fifteen minutes later that he had taken some steps closer.
"M-maybe Athrun is just busy right now..?" the white haired one almost whispered, now looking away from the pale boy on the bed to be able to look at the girl he hated more than any girl on the planet. "Don't worry, he'll pick up soon, Miri..."
For Yzak this was something so different he didn't even know how to handle himself and when that girl looked up at him he knew he could not hate her anymore. Tears were striping her cheeks and her hands trembled as she reached for the phone again. She was trying so hard, even though she knew that no matter how much she tried, the boy on the bed would not wake up... she was trying to be able to tell the most important person in Kira's life, that Kira was... gone. She was trying to be stronger than what she was, and that feeling Yzak could relate to.
He softly walked over to the bedside where she was sitting, seating himself next to her, not caring if she looked with that weird expression at him. What else could he do? As he looked over at the young man on the opposite bed the only thing he could think of was Nicol, Rusty... Miguel and every one else who had died during the war... Kira was one of the most brilliant fighters out there, he had really fought for not only his own life, but for the life of his friends... just like all other young people joining the forces. And still... Kira had died like this? Not fighting but.. just... gone out like the light of a candle. His stomach turned with fear as he thought about it and he knew both Deakka and Miriellia were scared as well. If Kira, the most brilliant of all young fighters, had just stopped living, then there was really no guarantee of who would live or die...
He softly placed a warm arm around Miriellia's shoulder, feeling how she tensed before relaxing and burying her damp cheeks in his shoulder while he softly stroke her back. She needed comfort, and he knew it didn't matter from who it was given. He knew that feeling, and he could see it in her eyes...
He thought of Athrun... about the day Nicol had died... they had fought so hard and Yzak had blamed it all on Athrun in the end... if Deakka had not run after him there he did not know what he would have done. But Athrun... he had always been so close to Nicol, Nicol had always been there to comfort him so Yzak and Deakka had not thought about the fact that they had actually left Athrun all alone by the lockers... When they had returned three hours later, Athrun had still been sitting there, surrounded by the piano sheets belonging to the younger boy, holding Nicol's uniform in his arms...
At that time there had been no anger left in him. Yzak had realized in that moment that if Athrun did not get comfort in this, he would break down. Both Deakka and Yzak had comforted him then and there. That was exactly what he needed to do for this girl now, no matter how much he hated her...
"Don't worry..." he said again, looking back at Deakka who already was a pale as his tanned skin would allow him to become. "Both of you, we'll reach Athrun soon enough... you'll see..."
***
The day passed slowly and Heine found himself falling asleep more than once on a bench or by the table. Every time he saw Lunamaria she giggled and acted all normal even though he saw in her eyes how embarrassed she was over what they had discovered earlier. And when he saw the boys, he just smiled, making Shinn blush like a tomato each and every time. Other than that he had nothing to smile about...
Athrun had not been around at all that day, not since they parted at least. He had so much to do and so many things and people to speak to... it made Heine proud, to see his "little brother" run around, everyone loving him an laughing with him. He was happy he had come here, it wasn't as if though he would have had more fun up in space and this way he could spend some time with Athrun too, at least in the evenings but... There was something about that boy that made Heine want to run and hide. Athrun was sad, more san now than during the war and that intense sadness scared him... What could he do? What could he ever do to help this boy smile for real again..?
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Heine looked down at his pocket, the smartest reaction to a ringing phone ever, staring at it until he realized it was the phone he had found at the table that morning. He quickly pulled it out of his pocket, realizing it had been ringing about twenty times but he had moved around so much he hadn't even noticed its buzzing. He flipped it open without hesitation this time, thinking that if this "unknown" caller had the stamina to call and call over and over again it had to be something really important.
"Yeah...?" he said, feeling fairly stupid, especially since he had somehow started believing this was a girl's cellphone. Imagen the callers surprise if they were expecting a young girl to answer and they got a man's voice instead.
"Hello?" came a confused voice from the other line, sounding, from that small word, as if though the persons entire world was crashing down, the person sobbing as if she had been crying for hours.
"Who is this..?" Heine asked and turned away from the balcony, where he had been standing looking down at Athrun for the last hour. "Are you okay..?"
"This is Miriellia..." the crying woman answered and he could hear she sat down by the words. "Who...? This is not... your phone, right..?"
"No, this is Heine, I found the phone under a table..." he answered, still eager to understand what the hell was going on.
"Do you know Athrun?" a voice suddenly asked and this was man, which made Heine slightly confused. Apparently this Miriellia girl was not alone, and immediately thousand questions entered his mind but he could do nothing but answer yes to that question, which made the man on the other line sigh in something sounding like relief. "Please, give him the phone... I-... talk-.. h-..m-..."
"Eh?" Heine looked at the phone then put it back to his ear. "Sorry, can you repeat that? The line is bad... hello?"
"Hello..?" the man on the line asked and even though his voice sounded distant, Heine could hear him slightly better now. "Tell him Deakka wants to speak to him... give-... phone and tell h-..."
"Hello? Deakka..?" But before Heine got any further reply, the line was broken and he looked down at the phone with confused eyes. What the hell was that about? Though, he looked down at Athrun, this would actually give him a reason to interrupt the younger man in his work. He quickly decided that was what he had to do since the people who just called might call again. While running down the stairs towards the workers around the large Gundams, he thought about the name he had just heard. "Deakka" it had to be Deakka Elsman, they had even met...
"Hey, Athrun!" He called and cursed under breath as he realized the man had moved from the spot where he had been standing earlier. Really, was this a unlucky day or what? "Joulant!" He called at the young boy and he came running almost immediately.
"Yes sir?"
"Can you please help me find Athrun? It's important..!"
"Yeah, of course" the dark skinned boy smiled and then called for his friend Vino the help them as well. Not that Heine understood any of this but he had to tell Athrun. He just felt something was going on, for Christ sake, the girl had been crying like crazy in the back as Deakka had been speaking.
***
Deakka sighed and sat back down at the table, gripping the phone hard in his hand. "Now I know how you felt Miri..." he almost whispered as he looked down at her ping cell, wanting to crush it even though he knew he didn't have the strength to do so. Ever since that man had finally picked up Athrun's phone and the call had been broken, they had tried at least twenty times to call again but every time a voice had politely told them that there was something blocking the line and there was no connection.
"Maybe it's to late...?" Yzak said, looking down at the surface of the table, his eyes half giving away the fact that he was about to give up on all this. "Maybe they've already gone into space..."
"What do you mean?" Miriellia said and looked up in shock, clenching her fingers around the bottle she had been holding for an hour now without drinking one drop. "Gone into space...?"
"Last we heard..." Deakka started explaining, sighing while putting the phone on the table for all to look at, some of the other crew members had joined them now, all looking just as close to giving up as Yzak. "...the Minerva was about to prepare for take of into space... and that was a week ago, the could easily be up by now... then there is no way of reaching them if we don't go up ourselves or in six months when they plan to return..."
"No...." Miriellia sobbed and buried her sweet face in her arms. "We have to get a hold on him... what if he doesn't even get to see Kira again and when he finally gets the notion about the fact that he has... has... passed away then he'll already have been buried in the sea...!"
"Please Miri..." Deakka said, pulling his hand over his face, feeling so tired he thought he could pass out right there and sleep for an eternity. "...we will reach him okay? This guy has probably already found him and told him we want to speak to him, okay? There is no need to worry about that he won't find out.... if it's Athrun, I'm sure he'll understand something is going on and contact us in some way..."
"you sure..." the girl wined and Yzak looked up to see her cute eyes look back at Deakka, feeling that pull in his stomach as he lowered his gaze again. How could he be thinking these jealous thoughts in a time like this?
"I'm sure..." Deakka then nodded and Yzak felt himself blush as Deakka's warm fingers curled around his own cold ones in his lap. He looked up at Deakka from under his bangs and saw those deep orbs smile back at him gently, making him grip Deakka's hand tighter. There was no need to be worried about jealousy, Deakka needed him just as much as Yzak needed him. Especially now...
"Cagalli..?" Miriellia suddenly asked and they all looked up to see the blond woman walk passed the room, her body facing Kira's room before she stopped and looked back at them. "Where are you going..?"
"Oh..." the blond one smiled even though they all could see her sorrow in her deep, honey colored orbs, dark rings under her eyes. "I... I need to see Kira..."
"Cagalli... please come have something to eat..." one of the crew members asked but she softly shook her head and gave up that soft smile.
"Not right now" she then answered and nodded at them as in a greeting. "I'll be back in a while... I just... have to see him that's all..."
They all watched the young woman walk away and as she was gone and they heard the door to the infirmary close, Deakka explained to Yzak who Cagalli was and his jaw dropped. They sat there, talking for a little while, almost as if trying to think of something else not to have mental mass breakdown.
"Should we keep calling..?" Yzak then asked after about half an hour and the others nodded while looking at the now hated phone. It was the only thing they could do. The only thing they could do for both themselves, Kira and Athrun...
***
"Athrun?!" Heine called for about the thousand time as he hurried through the ship. Seriously, he had been looking for the guy for over two hours now, how big could I ship be? Or was he deliberately hiding somewhere to be alone? That would just be mental. Heine shook his head and cursed silently. And it was not as if Athrun could call him if someone gave him the message Heine was looking for him, since Heine was the one with Athrun's phone, and even though Athrun might borrow someone else's phone, they did not have Heine's number and if he knew Athrun right that man did not remember his number by heart... damn.
The phone had not been calling since that time when he picked up and he was starting to get real worried now. Maybe something had happened to the caller? And if it was really Deakka Elsman, then it meant it was one of Athrun's closest friends and this could mean trouble... He knew all to well how close Athrun already was to breaking down from this war... to loose another friend would just be...
"Heine!"
He turned around and sighed in relief as he saw Athrun coming towards him with hurried steps, all flushed from running it seemed. He gave up a smile as his sweet friend hugged him hard, closing his arms around Athrun's back in return, letting go completely of all the worry.
"Youlant told me you were looking for me..." Athrun panted and then looked back at his friend in worry. "he said it was urgent but that was half an hour ago... I couldn't find you..."
"It's okay..." Heine smiled and pulled out a chair for his brother as they reached the tables. "Actually, I think we run passed each other more than once if you were running around as well..."
Athrun chuckled a little and sat down, breathing deeply to try to get back to his normal heart rate. Heine chuckled and sat down to do the same, then felt the phone in his pocket and remembered why he had been running in the first place.
"Oh, here" he aid and pulled it up, placing it between them on the table. "It has been calling about fifty times today... until I picked it up..."
"How was it?" Athrun asked in surprised and opened it, only to see it was an unknown caller.
"At first it was a girl... I don't really remember her name though..." Heine confessed and scratched his neck. "She was crying though and since the line was so bad I couldn't really hear what she was saying, but when I asked her, someone else took the phone, and I think that was an old friend of yours, Deakka Elsman..."
"Deakka?" Athrun repeated, looking back down at the phone again. "Deakka called here...? Why?"
"Well... the line was broken..." Heine sighed and looked at the phone as well. "the only thing he said was that I should tell you he wanted to speak to you, the girl was crying so hard I thought something really bad had happened... and since then the phone has nor rung even once, and when I tried to call that voice said there was no connection..."
Athrun stared down at the phone, it was obvious he was trying to figure out who this woman was and Heine closed his eyes to try to figure out what her name had been. He had thought to much about Deakka he had almost forgotten about the poor girl.
"I think... her name was something like Miriella... Mirellia..." he tried and immediately Athrun looked up with big eyes.
"Miriellia...?"
"Yes, Miriellia, that was her name" Heine smiled, impressed by his own memory but the look on Athrun's face shut him up. He looked totally mortified.
"Kira... something most have happened to him..."
"Kira..? Why is that?"
"Well... Miriellia is on the Archangel... She would not have called me unless something happened to Kira, she doesn't even have my number so Deakka is there to help her get in touch with me..." Athrun explained, not at all sure, not understanding he had guessed the exact truth. "and he wouldn't have called me if it wasn't something I really needed to know..."
"Athrun..." Heine started and sighed. "...I'm sure it is nothing really serious... I mean..."
But the sudden buzzing from the phone scared them both silent immediately, it was almost so that Heine wanted to shit his pants. Athrun stared down at the phone with scared eyes, not wanting to answer now that he knew something bad was going to be spoken to him but Heine grabbed his hand over the table.
"It's going to be okay Athrun..." He said with calmness in his voice. "You can do this... I know you can..."
Athrun nodded and drew a deep breath, pressing Heine's hand hard before putting the phone to his ear, his voice trembling, tears filling his eyes even before he spoke. "yes, this is Athrun..?"
"Athrun..." came the soft reply against his ear. "It's me, Kira... I wanna see you..."
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