To: mamaluvsham
From: carlottasway
Sam, where are you? You haven't talked to me in almost a month! I miss you!! You never answer your phone when I call and you won't text me back. I'm sorry. For everything I said and everything I did. I just want you to talk to me again. I don't care what we talk about. I just need you. Your Mom said you grabbed some stuff and went to stay with Melanie but never said when you were coming back. We graduated last week. I was sure you would be there. We worked so hard for this day. I needed to share it with you. Please, why won't you talk to me? We're still best friends, right?
Luv U, Carls
To: carlottasway
From: mamaluvsham
Carly. Chill. BFF, ok? I had to get away for a while and Mel let me stay with her. She dragged me to some special retreat with this "save the world" group she's with. You know, she never told me we were gonna live 3rd world style… *grumble* No phones. No internet. All we did was get up at dawn, learn farming and building skills, get taught on how to teach, do courses in engine repairs and mechanics, irrigation, medicine basics, stuff they want us to teach people in Africa. I'm sorry we haven't talked. But, really, there isn't any point beating a dead horse by talking. I said all that I had to say, cupcake. I moved forward. It's up to you now. Have you even told Spencer?
Love and Kisses, Sam.
To: mamaluvsham
From: carlottasway
I miss you soooooo much, Sammy!!! I wish I could hear your voice again. Nothing feels the same without you around. I miss your eyes, I miss your touch. I know what you want me to do. It's so hard, though. I keep trying to tell Spencer, but I don't want him to think I'm weird. Freddie knows something's up. I just need more time.
What's this thing you and Melanie are doing? It sounds interesting. I can't picture you doing all that work… Tell me more about it. I want to hear about your life. I need you in my life.
BFF, Carls
To: carlottasway
From: mamaluvsham
It's something Mel has been planning for the past two years. I can't believe she talked me into going with her… This group is called Hand To Hand and they want to spend a decade in remote parts of Africa helping to develop local villages and teach skills. It's pretty neat work. We've learned a lot in the past month. It's great to be back to civilization, though. I luv hot showers and fast food!!! I have sooo much to catch up on with emails and texts. There's nothing like this in Africa. It'll be like being cut off from the world, swallowed up. For ten years!!! Can you imagine that? Wow.
I'll always be a part of your life, Carls. Even if we aren't together. You will always be in my heart. Life is like diet food without you. You can eat it, but the taste really sux! All I ever wanted you to be is honest with yourself. You'll be miserable if you aren't. There's a freighter leaving on the 15th from Seattle for the west coast of Africa. The entire group is leaving on it. Mel and I are driving back to Seattle to say goodbye to Mom. Then, we'll be at Terminal 18 at the Port of Seattle. The ship is leaving at 8PM if you want to say goodbye. Gotta run. There's so much we gotta do and then it's a two day drive home. We'll have about enough time to visit Mom before we gotta get to the docks.
Hugs, Kisses and Love Forever and Ever, your Sam.