Yeah, so it has been a long time…. But I'm back.

And I've also updated my other story, Singing her last song. And don't be put off by whether you think the story is Brathan or Brucas, because I haven't decided yet, and you could be the person to persuade me on way or the other…. But if you want to do that you'll have to read and review!

So back to this story, this chapter is going to be Haley's diary.

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2/12/05

Dear Diary,

We've just arrived at the cabin thingy that Brooke rented for us. I guess it's quite nice, in any case it has a tv, something Brooke was overjoyed to see. It has a proper bathroom as well, so I guess I'll be alright. Tomorrow we're going shopping for food and stuff, and Brooke has told me we're going to get a scary movie.

And Brooke knows oh so well how I don't like scary movies. Our argument went something like this

Me: Brooke, you know I hate those kinds of movie, and you're making me watch it when we're in the middle of nowhere in a wooden cabin!

Brooke: Sweetie, if you're worried that you won't be able to relate to the movie as it's set in some big city somewhere, I'll get one about a small wooden cabin in the middle of the woods. That'll do nicely don't you think?

Me: No, that's not what I mean Brooke and you know it.

Brooke: (Pulling her mp3 headphones out of her ears which I KNOW are not switched on) Sorry baby, I can't hear you, what did you say?

Me: (steam now coming out of my ears) I don't want to watch a horror movie.

Brooke: IT'S SNOWING!

And that was the end of it. Brooke raced outside to see the snow and then proceeded to bounce to her car and go get the shopping. I was on cleaning duty. Not that Brooke ever does it.

3/12/05

Brooke managed to get the film yesterday, but she wanted to wait til today to watch it for some reason. So for the whole of today it has been sat on the top of the tv, staring at me and laughing evilly every time I walk past it. God I hope that we can finish this film quick

Wow. So there had kind of been a change of events around here. Me and Brooke were watching the film; okay, she was watching and I was hiding behind a pillow, when these two figures appeared at the door.

It was actually the scariest moment of my life. But it turned out that the two of them are total hotties (oh god, that sentence makes me sound like Brooke!).

So the first guy who came in was sort of the sulky type, the captain of the basketball team like the one we have back at home. I could see Brooke's eyes widen when she got a glance of him, and I could also see her mentally undress him. He made no secret of the fact that he was doing the exact same thing to her.

The second guy who entered was also gorgeous, and more my type. I could imagine the rippling muscles under his coat, but I could also tell just from looking at him that he liked books, just like me. He gave me a sweet smile, and I could see that turn into a smirk as soon as he saw Brooke and her arguing.

It turned out it was his birthday. SO, very politely I said "Happy Birthday". Only to be told off by Brooke.

Then there was the deal of whether they could stay with us. It turned out that Luke made Brooke scream, something that Brooke was very very annoyed about – she prides herself of being afraid of nothing. But when she passed over to me to make the decision, I didn't know what to do.

If I stood up for Brooke, she'd be very happy yet the boys would leave.

If I stood up for Luke, she'd hate me forever yet I'd be able to get to know Luke and Nathan.

If I said I hadn't heard anything as my pillows were covering my ears and eyes, then it would be cheating and we'd have got disqualified anyway aka mad Brookie.

SO I stood up for Luke.

I went to bed after Brooke, as she'd stormed off. She was still bitter, and went to sleep straight away, yet I just couldn't stop thinking about Luke. He was perfect. He'd had his arm round me when we were watching the film and it was just perfect.

Everything seemed to be going right after… Jonathan.

A bit later I heard Brooke head out to eh bathroom. She tried not to make a noise but then fell over all the clothes he left on the floor. She's gone to the bathroom right now and that's why I'm catching up writing this.

Wait a minute… I can hear voices. Brooke and … Luke. The bathroom is right next door so I can hear everything they're saying. Oh no. No. I can't believe what I'm hearing. Listen to this.

Brooke: How did you know? I mean… no I wasn't… I don't cheat!

Luke: In answer to your first question, we obviously have a lot more in common than you first thought, and anyway, everyone agreed and voted against you.

Brooke: Just 'cos you're gorgeous, Mister, does NOT mean you can worm your way around every girl that you meet, especially not me!"

Oh no, Brooke has just told him he's gorgeous. I've never ever known a guy to be able to resist Brooke. Is she really going to take away the only guy she'd liked in ages?

Luke: You think I'm gorgeous Miss Brooke?

And here it went. Brooke has never meant to hurt me, but she doesn't know the countless times I've liked a guy and he turns out to like her more than me.

Brooke: NO! I mean… well yeah… I DIN'T MEAN TO SAY THAT!

Luke: Don't worry about it, Brooke, I think you're gorgeous too.

Oh god. Silence. They're kissing. I can tell. It's like I can just feel it. My heart, starting to tear at the seams which have only just managed to heal.

Brooke: I can't believe I just did that… to Haley… after everything she said… after everything she's been through… I'm such a bitch… how could I do that? The first person she finds… after so long… and I do this. Oh god. Please Lucas, swear to me, you will never tell ANYONE, and I mean ANYONE, about what just happened, ok?

Luke: Right, ok, I swear to you. But Brooke, didn't you feel what I just felt?

Brooke: What? I didn't feel ANYTHING. In fact, I've already forgotten about it. Just don't ever tell. Anyone.

When Brooke comes back into the room, I pretend to be asleep.

But in fact, I can't stop the tears streaming down my face.

14/12/05

I've hardly forgotten what Brooke did to me. I know she didn't mean it, but I told her I liked him, and she let her flirting go too far. And then the next day, she came back in fuming, and then Luke just 5 minutes later. They were both covered in snow, and I don't know, I could just tell that something had happened between the two of them.

There was a plus side to the weekend though. Brooke had left early in the morning, which was good as I couldn't face talking to her. Nathan came in with a cup of hot chocolate, saw my puffy eyes and immediately asked what was wrong. I don't know why, but I told him everything. Everything I felt about Lucas. And he held me while I cried.

And then told me to get up off the bed and help him make some breakfast. IT was the best time I've had with a guy in a long long time. We goofed around acting like little kids and then had a flour and food fight.

He was what helped me get through that weekend, and it really does hurt to know that I'm never going to se him again.

17/12/05

Oh my god! I met him again. No, not Lucas, Nathan!

He saved me from these horrible boys. Granted, he didn't know it was me but he did say that if he'd known then he'd have killed them.

We went back to my house and we just had fun like we did before. Then we played truth or dare.

The dares were about kissing! And ogh, those kisses were the best I have ever felt in my entire life. There seemed to be fireworks all around us and I know it seems clichéd, but it seemed like we were the only two people left in the world.

It was sad to see him go, and he made me completely forget about Lucas.

When I arrived home tonight I found a couple of surprises waiting for me. The first was that the toaster in the corner was a lot more shiny than it had been in the morning.

The second was when I went to have a bath and I found that my bath bubbles had been replaced by some that were much more expensive than I'd had before.

So either Santa's come early or Brooke's been having some accidents again.

19/12/05

Last night was probably the worst night of my entire life. It's so painful and fresh in my mind that I can't write it down.

Basically what happened was that ……….. Nathantoldmehelovedmeandiranaway.

There. That's all I'm going to say about that part. But it hurts me so much because I've realised that I love him too. I love his smile, his piercing blue eyes, the way he calls me Hales, and basically everything about him.

The worst part though was what happened after I ran from the park.

I didn't know where I was, I'd been running and running and running. The park was now far away, but the memory was still burning through my mind. I was just about to call for help (I'd realised I was in the worst and most seedy part of the city) when I ran into someone.

Someone whose arms stopped me from falling backwards. Someone's arms that I recognised as if I had been in them only yesterday, although it had been years.

Jonathan.

Here's what happened:

Jon: Haley?

Me: Uh…uh… yeah.

Jon: (Hugging me so hard I think I'm going to stop breathing). Oh, it's so good to see you! I've been looking for you for so long, you don't know how hard it was for me when you left me.

Me: Hard for you? You're the one who slept with that girl on the debate team.

Jon: (Looking confused) What?

Me: ( not wanting any funny business form him) You know what I mean. That girl, Jenna her name was. (I started to cry) You were… fucking her on the table. And Brooke came and attacked you. ON my birthday.

Jon: Haley, I am sorry but I have no idea what you are talking about. On your birthday I kept ringing you on your cell phone. I couldn't get there; my grandma had just been taken into hospital with a heart attack, from which she died from later that night.

Me: What?

Jon; That's why you left me? Because that slut Brooke Davis told you I'd been screwing some other girl? I' d never do that to you, Haley James. You were and still are my life. That's why I've been looking for you ever since.

Me: Ever since that night?

Jon: Yeah.

I couldn't believe what he was saying. Brooke wouldn't lie to me, would she? She couldn't do that to me, her best friend?

But there was this niggling thought in the back of my brain which reminded me that she'd taken my phone that night, so she could take care of arrangements. And no-one else had seen what Jon had supposedly done.

And ever since, Brooke has been taking the guys out of my hands. I always thought she didn't mean it… but does she?

For the past however many years, has she just been using me to get a house, money, a cleaner?

Jon: Look Haley, I am so sorry for the pain that Brooke has cause you, and as I was responsible in a way then I am so sorry too. But please, come back to Tree Hill with me, I never hurt you, and I'll protect you for always. Please baby, just come home. Here's my number, if you don't want to tell me now then call me. But I want you to know that now I've found you, I'm going home. I'm leaving at noon tomorrow.

And then he gave me a kiss, one of those kisses that mad me go weak at the knees.

But all I could think about was Nathan, and I how I loved him more. I needed to find him, I needed to find him before ------

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Brooke through down the book. Jonathan, that lying creepy jerk. He'd poisoned poor Haley's mind.

And taken her heart.

But Brooke was going to get it back.

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There you go, I hope you enjoyed and noticed all the links I made with other chapter, like the toaster and the bubble bath.

Now all that's left is for you to review, so please do!

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