Saxton opened her eyes only to close them instantly after been assaulted by a white light that seemed to be everywhere. She could have sworn it could have blinded her if she had looked at it any longer.
When she got up the courage to opened her eyes once again she squinted giving her eyes time to adjust to the bright light. What she found through as she fractionally opened her eyes surprised her. A smiling face of a beautiful woman with the deepest eyes was standing before her smiling one of the comforting smiles she had ever seen. Saxton could not help but wonder if she would be able to give Aphrodite a run for her money as she was that beautiful.
"Welcome back child." The woman spoke her voice sounding unnaturally sweet and gentle that made her sound like she was in fact actually taking to a child rather then a grown woman, which for some reason Saxton could not explain sounded almost as familiar to her as she had Adam and Joe.
"Where am I?" Saxton looked around the white room trying to get a feeling about where she was then continued. "Who are you?"
"I am Hestia, I have brought you back to me Saxton to unlock a part of your mind which until recently has been locked from your conscious memories. I believe your subconscious is telling you that you are ready."
"What do you mean?"
"You have been having dreams about people you knew nothing of until recently, have you not? These dreams are not dreams but memories of a time before you were born. What you have seen in these dreams is a life that was sacrificed for the greater good." Hestia placed a hand on Saxton check like a mother would when trying to comfort a child in an attempt to calm Saxton's fears letting her know she was in no danger.
"But, why am I seeing these things. What has this got to do with me?" Saxton felt the fears evaporate for some reason that she could not explain, but rather then easing her nerves but it did the opposite.
"The body that was sacrificed on that day at the racetrack held the soul that you now hold, Saxton."
"Richie Ryan was killed that day. MacLeod killed Richie he didn't kill me."
"Yes as I said the body which held your soul, who was named Richie Ryan was sacrificed that day, but it is his soul that is within you now."
"How is that possible?"
"I believed Richie deserved another chance at life for all he did to help his friends, as well as all the misfortune that accompanied his in his life. I wanted to give him a second chance at life. You were a body that needed a soul so I placed Richie soul within you."
"But, how is that possible?"
"Saxton, I have brought you back here to unlock the memories of Richie. I did not feel you were ready for them until today, when you were able to accept your friend's immortality, whether they be new or old I knew you were ready."
Saxton couldn't believe what she was hearing. How could this gentle person standing before her have possibly done the things she was saying she had done and seen everything she had seen which she shouldn't have seen?
"You're telling me that I'm Richie?"
Hestia smiled again and shook her head. "No my child, what I am saying it that the soul you now hold is the soul that Riche once held. You are two separate people whole held the same soul, you now and Richie when he was alive."
Saxton still didn't understand fully what she was been told but was starting to got the idea of what Hestia was trying to tell her. "So why are you unlocking the memories now?"
"Because you will need them to help you trust of MacLeod grow. MacLeod still blamed himself for Richie's death and he will need your help to lesson his guilt. If you cannot managed to lesson his guilt he will continue to think that he does not deserve to happy. As you can imagine immortals live a long lives, too long of lives to continuously blame yourself for something you had no power over."
"How can I help? I only just meet MacLeod today and I'm not that sure he believes me about knowing what I know from the dreams. If I try and do like you say he will get even more suspicious of me. I'm sorry Hestia but there's nothing I can do and I if there was I don't know if I could."
"You must gain his trust once again, Saxton. You are the only one that can do that. I'm afraid I don't have more time to explain. I must send you back now. The memories of Richie Ryan will resurface moments after you awake, do not fight them, embrace them; they are there to help you when require them. I know you can do this Saxton."
Before Saxton had a chance to reply there was a flash of intense white light, which she once again had to close her eyes to protect then from it.
Her eyes still closed she now realised she was lying down on something comfortable with something draped over her. She opened her eyes slowly and came face to face with a concerned looking Adam.
"How you feeling?"
"Fine I!" she stopped as she had a flash of memory flashed before her eyes, which was quickly followed by memory after memory. The rush of memories caused intense pain to shot through her head. The pain was that intense she didn't think she would be able to survive the experience. Bringing both her hands to her temple and crushed her eyes shoot trying to make the pain subside, she watched continues memories of Richie's life fly before he closed eyes.
The pain got that much for her that she moaned in pain, which only caused Adam to become even more concerned. He placed a hand on her shoulder and another under her chin lifting her face up so he could look at her properly although the years of Medical Training seemed no good at that moment as he seemed to have forgotten how to put it into practise.
"Sax, are you ok?" Adam's slightly panicked voice broke into her thoughts as the memories started to reseed.
Opening her eyes once again she looked straight into the depths of Adam's eyes as a tear gently made it's way down her check. The depths on concern she saw in Adam's eyes made her gasp with surprise. She remembered the shock of in Samantha's voice when she had mentioned Adam's true name and finally filly understood now why that was such a shock.
Who would ever have believed that this mild mannered, gentle man before her could be Methos?
Samantha knew that Methos was the oldest living immortal at over five thousand. Five thousands years of the world this man had seen. Civilisations rose and fell while he continued to walk the earth, continued to survive.
Saxton remembered a time Richie and MacLeod had once discussed the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse. She remembered MacLeod telling Richie about Kronos, Caspian, Siles and the man that Methos used to be. About what they used to do for a few millenniums while the known world was still young.
She found it hard to comprehend that the man kneeling before her with such concern in his eyes was over five thousand years old at and at one time been one of the most feared people on the face of the planet. Just the thought of all the different lives he's lived was beyond her comprehension.
She felt Adam's hand move to wipe away the tear that had continued to make it's way down her face while his eyes remained locked to hers. There was something there with the concern, something she couldn't quite make out, something that she could not quite believe was true.
Before realising what was happening Adam closed the distance between them taking her mouth in a gentle kiss, which was full of feeling. Caught in the moment Saxton responded not caring about anything other then the fact that Adam was kissing her.
It ended as soon as it started and Saxton was flooded once again with confusion. She couldn't believe Adam had just kissed her. What could a five thousand year old man possibly ever see in her?
"I sorry!" she said so softly the only reason Adam heard what she had said was the fact that he was still only centimetres away from her face.
"Sax, it's me that should apologise." Adam started, as he pulled further away from her. "I really don't know what came over me!" Adam quickly rose to his feet the reality of what he had just done hitting him full force now. He realised that he had completely mis-read the signals Saxton was sending out.
Before Adam could say anything else in a way of an apology Saxton rose from her seat and headed back into the main room of the bar. Without stopping to tell Samantha she was leaving she headed for the door trying to hold back the tears for as long as she could.
Exiting the bar she was assaulted by the cold winter breeze that was slowly making it's way through the Parisian streets, she pulled her coat closer to her body trying to keep the warmth in her as she started walking.
Now knowing exactly where she wanted to go Saxton turned the away from the bar and started swiftly made her way down the street heading the wrong direction for the hotel but the correct direction for where she needed to go.
What she did not notice in her confused state of mind though was the man hiding in the shadows who started following her from the bar.
Back at the bar Adam exited the office and walked over to where MacLeod, Samantha and Joe were sitting.
Spotting Adam heading their way Samantha rose from her seat. "Is she awake?"
"Yeah. She awake, but she'd gone!"
"Gone? What do you mean gone?" MacLeod shot a look at Adam and his voice clearly showing his annoyance that Adam had just let Saxton walk out of there.
"Just like I said gone! She ran right past you, out the door. God knows where she's gone." Adam's voice rose slightly making it clearly show his sarcasm and annoyance more. That fact made MacLeod wonder if there was something more going on here then just Saxton walking out.
"What did you do, Adam?" MacLeod moved to stand in front of Adam trying to intimidate him, which only made Adam, want to laugh at the irony.
"I haven't done anything, MacLeod. She came round and was fine for about a minute but then it looked like she was getting one major headache that lasted a few minutes. If I didn't know any better I would have sworn she was having a quickening without the lightshow. Once it looked like it was over she just up and left the office and headed out of the bar, and right past you guy may I add."
Samantha could help but be puzzled at what she was hearing. "And you just let her go?"
"What was I meant to do? Hold her down and call for you to come to keep her calm and cause a seen for Joe's customers?"
"No, but you could have stopped her from going out or at the very least you could have gone after her."
"What and have you complaining I didn't come and tell you. I'm going to go see if I can find her." Adam snapped and turned leaving a stunned MacLeod and Samantha to standing at the table while Joe didn't really know what was fully going on.
"Is he always like that?" Samantha couldn't help but ask once Adam was out the door.
"Yeah pretty much! Come on lets go check back at the hotel and see if she went back there to think things over." MacLeod gentle squeezed his once students shoulder trying to reassure her then they both headed to the exit, hoping that they could find Saxton soon.
"So when were you planning on telling her about us?" MacLeod asked as they turned to corner and on the street which headed to the hotel.
"If I was sure that it was you she was seeing in her dreams I was going to explain everything, but if it wasn't then I don't think I would have, until she had died her first death that is."
"Are you going to tell her that she?"
"No Mac. Not that. You know there would be too many complications if I did that." What else could she do? If Saxton found it this hard hearing about immortals, how would she feeling knowing that she was destined to become one if she died a violent death.
"You don't think she'll be able to handle it, do you?" MacLeod asked putting his hand on her arm to stop her walking.
"To be honest I don't know anymore. Before today I would have said yes she'd be able to handle it without a doubt, but now I don't know." It was clear to see the pain and frustration about her friend reaction clearly showing in her eyes but felt at a loss for what to do to comfort her.
"She may still surprise us all Sammy. All we can do is explain things to here and hope she understands." MacLeod pulled his friend into a hug hoping that his words and hug were enough to comfort her.
"Come on we're almost there. Lets hope she came back here." MacLeod broke the hug and started to walk toward the hotel suddenly getting a feeling deep inside that something was wrong.