To say that Liz hadn't
been shaken by Michelle was a lie. Jim had seen the panic in her
eyes. Not that she was going to admit it.
As they left the bar he
dropped a kiss on to her head, reassuring her he was there.
"Come
on," he said as he led her in to the back. She needed to sit
down he though.
"I can handle a stroppy cow like Michelle
Conner." she said but she let him take her in to the back
room.
"Why can't they just leave us be?" asked Liz as
they got there. "Its Not enough that they ruined our big day is
it." she said as she sit down and put her hand on her stomach.
"shhh, just have a rest." he said to her though he was
thinking it wasn't just them who had wrecked every thing. It had
been her too. She had slept with Vernon when he had been away and no
one had forced her in to that.
"I just want us to get a bit
of peace for the first time in our lives." she sighed. She
wanted to rest. It was all too much.
"We are going to get
there if promise you." he said to her.
"But
what if I have got it wrong." she said to him looking at his
face. "I mean I think this baby is yours. I feel like it is but
what if isn't. What then when he wants legal rights and stuff. I
might never be free of him." she sighed. That was the worse
thing that could happen to them now. "I want it to be our baby."
she said to him.
"You think I don't Liz?" he asked her
as he held her hand; he wanted nothing more than his name to be on
the birth certificate. "If the worse comes to the worse then we
are going to have to fight him. But I swear I am going to do every
thing I can to keep you and our baby. Promise." he said to her.
"Just rest. I am going to make it ok for us some how." he
said.
She nodded, but she felt the tears rush to her eyes.
"Why
are you so loyal to me?"
"Because I have to be
loyal enough for the two of us, so I do." he said as he left the
room. Ouch. She guessed she had been asking for that one.
Going
out in to the bar he saw Frankie there.
"You ok?" she
asked him.
"Ask me when me and Liz get through this."
he said to her. If they did. If they didn't he had nothing left. He
was too old to start again.
Apart from that he didn't want to.
He had his mind set on making it work with Liz.
-
Frankie
didn't believe he hadn't left her. She knew it was mean but she
had been hoping he would so she could try with him but he was so
blinded by his love her.
Looking at him she turned and stormed out
the pub. she just wanted hum so much it winded her up. He deserved
better than what her granted himself.
"Frankie?!" she hard
him call her back. She kept walking, "Frankie stop." Jim said to
her as they got to number eleven "have I done some thing wrong,"
he asked.
"No." She said to him.
"Then why did you just
storm off in there." He asked.
"I didn't." she said to him
trying to hide her heart.
"You did."
"Its hard,
complicated and probably really wrong." She said to him.
"Well
you know what they say. A problem shared is a problem half." He
said to her.
"You really want to know?"
"Yes."
She
looked at him. Well he had been the one who had asked for it.
Lowering her eyes she sighed.
"I'm in – in –" she said
and he nodded. "Love with you and I don't what to do."
-
Not
surprisingly when he got to bed that night Jim was unable to sleep.
He hadn't thought any thing of the flirting between him and
Frankie. He had guessed it was just part of there friendship.
Clearly
she thought it went deeper.
And now he didn't know what he
wanted. Maybe there was a chance he was able to start again even at
is age. He was fifty plus now. When he had been eighteen that had
been an old man! But he didn't feel it. He didn't feel his
age.
But he still didn't want to. Yet now he knew another loved
him it was harder for him to focus on Liz and the baby.
Which was
what he should be doing, if he had any morals. Even if the baby
wasn't his.
Getting back up he went down stairs. He wasn't
going to sleep tonight.
Frankie didn't believe what she
had done putting him in a harder situation than he already had. Jim
had not deserved that.
But he had asked her to tell him what was
eating her away.
She was so stupid.
As she sat up in the
living room she sighed. She had to get some air. Going out in to the
alley way behinds the houses, she wished she hadn't.
Jim had had
the same idea.
"Can't sleep?" she asked gently.
"No."
He sighed.
"I didn't meant to make things harder for you,"
she said.
"I know you didn't thing is, I know there might be a
fresh start for me now, so I do. And I don't know what to do
because of it."
He had always, always thought she was beautiful
from the day they had met but he had always, always loved Liz. What
now? What if the baby was his? Every thing seemed in the baby's DNA
these days.
Going up to him she sighed, and he took her hands.
"You did the right thing telling me so you did," he said and
he kissed her cheek. He had to get back in.
"So what are we
going to do?" she asked.
"If things were different Frankie may
be we could tried it, but as it stands I might be a dad again in a
view months. I have a family ter think of, Liz needs me. I have to
honour the promises I said to her twenty years ago even if I didn't
renew them." He said and she nodded understanding.
"You're a
good man."
"I try."
-
Liz smiled.
"Oh my god."
She said as she put her hand on her womb. She had forgotten how great
if felt when a baby kicked for the first time.
It had been hard
with the twins though. When they had both been kicking. She and Jim
used to joke about how they were already arguing as siblings
did.
"What is it?" he asked.
"Come here," she said as
the baby kicked again.
Taking his hand he put it where the kicks
had been coming from and again it happened. Smiling he bent down and
kissed the bump.
"It's gonna love football, I can tell." He
said as he came up and kissed her on the lips.
In those moments he
forgot what had happened art the wedding. In those moments, he and
Liz were going to be fine.
