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Everything I've done,
I've done for you.
I move the stars for no one.

You've run so long.
You've run so far.
Your eyes can be so cruel,
Just as I can be so cruel,
-Within You, David Bowie

In Spite Of It All

Within you

When Shuichi woke up in the morning realised there was someone else in the bed. He tried to detangle himself, but it would be impossible without waking up the other person. He decided to wait a bit longer. While he was lying in his bed, he tried to remember what happened the night before. Damn, you were wasted last night, he thought to himself.

"Mmm…"

Good, he's awake, Shuichi thought.

"Sorry to whoever I'm sleeping on," Shuichi heard the voice coming from on top of him. He rolled over only to see Kazuya. It wasn't exactly who he was expecting.

"Uh, it's okay." It was most defiantly okay. Crap! Stop thinking, Shuichi berated himself. Despite Shuichi wanting to stay there all day, he really thought it wasn't a good idea. But, alas, Kazuya was back asleep. Crap.

When Kazuya finally woke up, he noticed Shuichi was gone. He wasn't just out of the bed; he wasn't even in the hotel room. Bummer. Kazuya was looking forward to seeing Shuichi, or rather the look on his face when he woke up. He questioned his brother as to Shuichi's whereabouts. Apparently he was out getting an apartment. They would all be moving to the apartment tomorrow night.

About an hour later Shuichi arrived at the hotel room. He quickly changed his clothes and they all agreed to go out for lunch and shopping.

"Where are we going for lunch?" Shuichi asked.

"MISTER DONUTS!" replied Ryuichi enthusiastically.

The trio decided to walk since the hotel they were staying was only 10 blocks away from a Mister Donuts. It seemed pointless to hail a taxi.

"Ugh, that took a lot longer than I thought it would," said Kazuya. "Sorry guys."

"You get to pay for us now," said Ryuichi innocently.

"No!"

"Please," Ryuichi begged. As if on queue he and Shuichi dad their best puppy dog faces. This was more than Kazuya was prepared to handle, so he paid. That didn't stop him form complaining though.

"One thing I don't understand is, how two incredibly wealthy ROCK STARS cannot pay ￥1000 for lunch. That's what I don't get," Kazuya said sarcastically.

"I left my wallet at home. And besides, you're my brother. Do you know how many times I've done this for you?" Ryuichi replied with a mouthful of donut.

"I just thought since it'd be nice to have you pay for lunch today since I paid for dinner last night," Shuichi reasoned.

"Point taken."

"Where do you guys want to go shopping first?" Shuichi asked.

"TOKYO DISNEY LAND!" replied Ryuichi, of course.

"No," both Shuichi and Kazuya said in unison. They each had their own reasons for the answer they gave. Kazuya had no intention of paying and the last time Shuichi was at Disney Land he was with Yuki.

"How about Virgin Records then?"

"Done."

Shuichi looked at some records he really liked and then some that he didn't. He actually only looked at them because Kazuya told him he listened to crappy music. After an hour or so they gave up the music store because Shuichi wanted to leave and was complaining non-stop. Ryuichi ended up buying an Orange Range CD when no one was looking. Hey, everyone has their guilty pleasures, right? thought Ryuichi. I bet even Shuichi does. HAH! Yeah, right. Shuichi busting out to Utada Hikaru? That'll be the day.

The day had finally come for Shuichi to move into his apartment. He wasn't too sure why the Sakano twins were coming with him, but since he had a couple of weeks off of work, it didn't hurt to have company. Plus, it was better to have one of the gorgeous Sakano brothers to wake up to than to have K shooting him point blank every morning.

It wasn't his fault Yuki kept him up all night long. Yuki… not someone Shuichi was particularly comfortable with thinking about right now. He decided to put on his favourite movie to help get these thoughts aside.

"Hey guys, wanna watch a movie?" Shuichi asked his guests. He just assumed they were guests because they actually had a house to go back to. But it somehow seemed appropriate that they were coming to stay for a while. This whole situation with Yuki was odd. And there they were again; thoughts of Yuki. Surely the movie would take his mind off things.

"Yeah sure, let me get my coat we can catch a taxi up to the theatre," Ryuichi said from the couch.

"No, I was wondering if we could stay here and watch the movie."

"Oh, okay. I'll go get a couple of blankets and pillows. You can get popcorn!" Ryuichi was very enthusiastic about this idea. "Put extra butter on it!"

As he skipped off to find some blankets amongst the mess of stuff they stole form the hotel, Shuichi ran to the kitchen. He didn't really want popcorn so he only made one bag. He turned around to grab some pocky form the table (he hadn't bothered to put much in the cupboards yet) and he found Kazuya right in his face. He didn't mind the concept of it, but he hadn't been expecting this and yelped like a little girl. After making sure what little dignity he had left was in tact he asked, "What gives?"

"Do you want the TV and DVD player set up?" Kazuya asked a little coldly.

"Um, actually could you set up the VCR? There's a specific movie I wanted to watch?"

"And that was?"

"Labyrinth," to this Shuichi got a puzzled look, so he said, "It's an old movie with David Bowie."

"Nice."

After a good half an hour they were all settled in and the movie was on. Jareth had just walked in and was talking to Sarah. Shuichi couldn't help but notice the similarities between their relationship and his own, with Yuki. Jareth was asking for Sarah's free will. Sarah basically told him to stuff it. Jareth, in his own words, tells her that he doesn't care. Throughout the movie, even though Jareth tries to per sway Sarah to love him, even she never will. The ending conversation between the two predominantly reminded him of himself and Yuki. He was trying his best to pay attention, but he was so close to falling asleep.

Jareth: Just let me rule you Sarah and I will be your slave.

Sarah: You have no power over me.

With that Shuichi fell asleep.

"Yuki, why are you always so cruel?" Shuichi whimpered. It always bothered him when he was this mean. He acted like Shuichi didn't mean anything to him.

"I don't like you," Yuki growled.

"Yuki, we've been together for four years now. You can't tell me you don't like me when I've heard you tell me you love me so many times before."

"Well, I can act Shuichi," Yuki said quietly.

"I don't get what…" Shuichi stumbled over his words as he started to realise what Yuki truly meant, "you… m-mean," Shuichi trailed off. It actually clicked in after a few moments. His mind started to reel.

"You can act," Shuichi stated faintly, mostly to himself. "You fucking bastard," he whispered.

"What, does it finally make sense?" Yuki stared at him, smiling slightly.

"I can't believe you!" Shuichi's voice grew louder. "I can't believe that all of this time everything we've done together, has been an act! No one's that good."

"You don't believe me?" Yuki asked cruelly. "You think I've been with you all of this time because I 'love' you? Ha! You know Shuichi, you're pretty funny. I can't believe you fell for it. You want to know the truth? I have been with you all this time because you've been good for publicity."

"You're lying," mumbles Shuichi in disbelief. Tears were now forming in his eyes.

Yuki looked at him. "Want to see? Want to see what I can do?"

Yuki then proceeded to show Shuichi a range of emotions. He went through love, happiness, sadness, depression, joy, confusion, nothingness, tiredness, exasperation, concentration and even hate.

"There, now you get it. I don't love you. I can't believe you thought I did! You were a great means for publicity though. Do you know how many more books I sold after I 'came out of the closet'? At least three times as many as before. It adds a new appeal," Yuki said blatantly, ripping through Shuichi's heart.

"Fine," Shuichi mumbled. Despite the fact that his eyes were glazed with tears, they didn't fall. "Then I'll leave. You don't need me. I don't need you. I can live on my own. I'm sorry I ever thought I loved you."

Shuichi left the room. He grabbed a bag and began to fill it. Once he had most of clothes and a few other belongings he proceeded to leave. He walked through the living room where Yuki sat smoking a cigarette. Yuki looked calm and unconcerned.

Shuichi didn't say anything. He grabbed his coat and put his hand to the door knob. He glanced one last time at Yuki who he had loved to no end. Yuki looked back at Shuichi who was staring at him form the doorway. For a second, Shuichi thought he saw a glimpse of that love that Yuki said didn't exist, in his eyes. It was quickly eclipsed by a cloud of smoke when Yuki exhaled the cigarette smoke form his lungs. Shuichi shook his head and walked out of the door.

Shuichi woke feeling strangely warm and comfortable despite the dream he had. He turned his head slightly and realized he was no longer on the couch. He could feel and see a warm flesh coloured blanket on him. That's when it hit him that Ryuichi and Kazuya had moved him to his bed and then taken the liberty of keeping him company.

Shuichi blushed as he could feel a leg between him own and an arm on his chest. He was defiantly tangled and had no hope of getting up without waking both of them. He decided to snuggle in and just watch them sleep. Being that they were twins he couldn't tell which one was which when they were asleep. With nothing to do but think, Shuichi began to reflect on his dream. It wasn't really a dream, but more of a nightmare or a flashback. One that brought him to his present situation. He hated Yuki for toying with him for the past four years, but he had his suspicions that maybe it was all a lie. He didn't have solid proof, but it was something he saw in his eyes that day that didn't reciprocate in his words. In that case, what to believe? He continued to think until one of the twins woke up. Shuichi still wasn't sure who had woken up, but he was about to find out.

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