Chapter 2 - here it is ... I do not own Greys Anatomy or its characters (I also acknowledge the use of a poem by Ralph Waldo Emerson) Hope you like it
"Derek, look at me please" pleaded Addison
"Addison, I want you to leave right now, sign the papers, get your things and go back to Mark. You deserve each other." He replied angrily.
She handed Derek the papers. "Already done" she said, just as a blue 4WD stopped outside the trailer. "See you round Derek" she mumbled as she walked out to the car with her bags, Mark greeted her with a passionate kiss, which made Derek reach. Thank God he thought.
When they had left, Derek instinctively reached for the phone and dialled the number he knew too well …
"Meredith, its me"
"Derek what do you want"
"Where do I start, I want to kill my ex-wife's lover and my best friend, who seem to be one in the same, I want to start my life over, But mainly I just want you really …"
"Ex-wife?" she questioned him
"That's right, I finally made the right decision, she told me that she had always known that I loved you, she made my life hell and had Mark waiting for her when I was broken. I'm broke without you Mer."
Meredith couldn't speak so many thoughts were running through her mind. She loved Derek, Derek loved her …
"Mer…?" "Ill come to you" she replied as she hung up the phone. After that she was in a fluster, should I wear the black lacy ones or the plain red ones? My track pants or my summer dress … who cares. She jumped in the car and sped down the road and made her way to Derek's. 4 minutes, record pace she thought. Derek was waiting for her at the driveway.
"Oh Mer, I love you" he said just before grabbing at her waist and pulling her in for an passion-filled kiss. They struggled into the trailer and Derek threw her onto the bed, pulled off her track pants, revealing her black lacy undies "Very nice" he sniggered Good choice Mer thought to herself…
They lay in bed panting, Derek struggling for breath, "that … was … wow" he said between breaths. They lay there in silence, to Meredith it seemed like an eternity
"Izzie, how are you feeling?" asked Alex
"Well, I feel like my perfectly good heart has been ripped out of my chest and someone is poking it with thousands of tiny needles. I feel sad, I feel angry, I feel tortured, but at the same I feel so numb, void. What am I going to do Alex, I loved Denny, we were going to get married, have passionate sex and have little Izzie and Denny babies, we were going to grow old together, watching the sunrise from our home overlooking a beautiful lake, a white picked fence lining the street to keep our dog in, we were going to sit by the lake watching our kids splash and play in the water, finally I was going to live … But now I feel lifeless."
Alex played with his fingers; he knew that Izzie loved Denny more than she could ever love him. "Izz, you can still have that, not with Denny, but he'd have wanted you to have all those things and more. Hell, when you met Denny I was jealous, I wanted to punch his throat in, I yelled and screamed from the rooftop, I love you but I had to let you go. As much as I didn't show it, I wanted you to have all that, even if it wasn't with me."
They sat there in silence for hours, not awkwardly, just naturally.
"You know," Izzie broke the silence "there's this poem I really love, she got it out of her draw … read it!" she told Alex
To laugh often and much;
to win the respect of intelligent people
and the affection of children;
to earn the appreciation of honest critics
and endure the betrayal of false friends;
to appreciate beauty,
to find the best in others;
to leave the world a bit better,
whether by a healthy child, a garden patch
or a redeemed social condition;
to know even one life has breathed
easier because you have lived.
This is to have succeeded.
"Denny had it all Izz! He laughed with you, he was respected, and he found the best in you. What more could a guy want, he had the beautiful, smart intelligent girl that I took for granted."
Hope you enjoyed - please submit reviews, will update very soon ... next chapter skips a few months. Ella