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Ch.2 – Signs
Why does everything always have to point to Lucas?? Is this suppose to be a sign? One that I am missing, telling me that I am meant to be with him? I can't be with him, simply because I can't be hurt again. He has hurt me twice, which is a pretty good pattern, so he will do it again. Right? Why does love have to be this complicated?!?!?!
I look up to the sky to search for answers. I am not that big on religion, but maybe I can find the answers to all my problems in the clouds. But just my luck, the sky is as empty as my heart feels. Maybe this is my sign… I hate that sign!
You know, I don't even know why I am here at the beach. This beach has so many memories of Lucas and me. Late night walks, the start of our friendship after the Felix mistake, the beginning of our non-exclusive relationship, what was I thinking there… Non-exclusive?? I guess that was me being scared, again!! Then there was the time Lucas pronounced to me and the whole lifeguard team for that matter that he was the guy for me! That was one of the proudest moments in my life! What I wouldn't give for him to say that to me again! This time I would do things different! I would run up into his arms and tell him that he is the guy for me and that I love him with my whole heart and that I would never leave him again! But I guess this is just wishful thinking on my part, because he told me a couple of months ago that he was wrong and that he wasn't the guy for me. What do you say to the guy that holds your heart when he says he's not the one for you? When he told me those words, it was in that moment that my life was shattered. It was in that moment that I knew that he was the one for me. I that very moment, I knew that nothing was ever going to be the same. So I guess this beach is another sign, a sign that still points me back to that blonde hair, blued eyed boy that holds my heart.
I began walking back to Rachel's house, the person I used to despise, but now we are pretty good friends. She has helped me through a lot these past few months. She also has tried to convince me to fight for Lucas, to tell him exactly how I feel. Which I thought was kind of strange coming from the girl that tried to steal him away from me when she first came here.
She told me that when Lucas and her went on the "date" for the Fantasy Boy Draft, that all he talked about that night was me. She also told me that he said that I was the one. She asked him why he thought that and he replied by saying he felt it. Then he quoted one of his famous sayings, something along the lines of the heart has reasons that reason cannot know. Then she told me that she made him shoot the basketball blind folded and if it went in, that it was destiny that he and I would be together. What do you know, the damn ball goes in!! I guess right there is another sign! But so much for destiny right?
As I am walking, I find myself passing an all too familiar place, his favorite place, the Rivercourt. I walk up to the bench and look around, this was his world and I was suppose to be the biggest part of that world. I guess I'll never be apart of that world thanks to me and my insecurities.
He got his start on the Ravens basketball team here on this court by beating Nathan Scott at one on one. This is the place where Lucas became who he is today, the guy all the girls wanted, they guy I wanted more than life. This was just the beginning of my journey with Lucas. Perhaps another sign that points me in his direction.
I love this place; this place holds a special meaning to me. Lucas is that special meaning. So many great memories, so many great times spent here. This is where his heart is, so therefore this is where my heart belongs.
Signs, so many signs. I can't shake the fact that my head is in the wrong place and the right place is where my heart is, with him. The boy that can make me whole again. So I am going to follow my heart and these signs that keep leading me to him.