Hey guys!! I am back with a new chapter! This one is much longer! I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it!
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Ch. 5 – First Step
I take the first step up to the porch that I have set foot on so many times before. But this time, I have different feelings than previous times. A scared, nervous, sad feeling has overcome me now. Not the happy, bubbly, positive feeling that I used to have coming to my best friend's house.
I gently knock on the door, something I have never done here before. Normally, I would bounce right on in and run up the stairs to Peyton's room, but this time I have no right to do that. I really have no right to be here because of the way I have treated her. But oh well, I have to try. I stand at the door a few minutes longer and no one answers. I wonder if she is even here. I tug on the door and it is unlocked like normal. You would think that after the crazy, stalker fake brother accident, she would lock her door now. But that is Peyton for ya, she trust everyone! I debate rather or not to walk right on in or wait. So I just walk right on it, I have been waiting too long to make up with my best friend!
I start to walk up the stairs when I hear the typical Peyton music playing. Good she is here I say to my self! I reach the top of the stairs and I stop, taking in a deep breath! I can do this, I have to do this! I inch closer to her bedroom door and I'm finally standing in the door way. I stand there for a few seconds and find Peyton lying on her bed with her head turned the other way. I think back to the time where I remember Lucas and me standing in this exact door way watching her like I am doing now. I look around the room, not much has changed except the closets doors have been painted over. So many great memories happened in this room, I just hope we can make more great memories like that.
I focus my attention back to the curly blonde in front of me. She still doesn't know I am here. I guess she is asleep. I walk around to the other side of the bed, making sure to not to disturb her sleeping. I look a little closer at her face and you can see the tear stains. I wonder if those tears were from me. I sit on the edge of the bed and she starts to stir. I calmly place my hand on her cheek and she smiles in her sleep. I wonder if she can sense I am here or if she knows that is my touch. She probably hasn't had much sleep lately, so I will just wait here until she wakes up. I will wait as long as it takes.
After about an hour of waiting, she finally stirs some more, but this time, her eyes flicker open. She sees me and sits straight up in bed.
"Brooke, what are you doing here? Am I dreaming?" asks Peyton
No, you're not dreaming. I have been here for well over an hour just watching you sleep. I know it sounds kind of stalkerish, but I knew if I left, it would take me a long time to get the courage to come here again. So I stayed until you woke up so I could talk to you.
"Really, I figured you would never step foot in this house again, more less want to talk to me." Said Peyton
Well Peyton, I have done a lot of soul searching and I have come to the conclusion that I was wrong. I was wrong about everything. I should have let you explain things to me instead of slapping you and calling you names. I am so sorry Peyton I never meant to hurt you in any way. All the things I said and did were out of anger and confusion! I should have never let my feelings for a guy come between our friendship. We have been through too much to let that happen. So I guess what I am doing here is trying to ask for forgiveness and to apologize.
"Brooke, I really thought that this was the end for us. But I guess fate has a different say so. I understand that you did not mean anything by your actions or your words. I know what it is like to say things and do things when you are hurting. Remember when my first mom died and I screamed, yelled and broke things? So don't worry about those things. It was just the hurt taking over that soul of yours! As for your feelings for a guy coming between us, that is something that we let both get in the way. But that is in the past, we are in the present now and we still have the future! You're my Brooke and always will be! Of course I forgive you. Come here girly!!" said Peyton
Oh Peyton I had the worst fears of coming here today! I thought for sure you would slam the door in my face and tell me to go to hell! That any chance we had of being best friends again was gone! You do not know how happy I am to hear you say all those things! I have missed you so much P. Sawyer!
"I have missed you too B. Davis, more than you know" replied Peyton
"But before we get all giggly and stuff, there is one more thing I need to tell you" said Peyton
"I want you to know Brooke that Lucas and I are not together, nor are we going to be. I just wanted to get that out in the open, so you don't have to worry about seeing him with me." Replied Peyton
I really appreciate you being honest Peyton, but I have one question. What happened to the feelings towards Lucas you told me about.
"Well Brooke, Luke and I were miserable without you and we realized that we loved you more than we loved each other. So I never did anything about my feelings for him and eventually I found myself wanting you in my life more than Lucas. I wanted my best friend back and I was going to do anything to make that happen." Peyton said
Awe Peyton, I was miserable without you too! I have missed us so much! I was just too stubborn to realize it until today when I was at the beach and the rivercourt!
"Since you figured out you are stubborn, what else did you realize today while you were our pondering your life" asked Peyton
Well, I guess I realized that I can not mess with fate because no matter where I go, I keep thinking of you and Lucas. I am sorry to tell you this Peyton, but I still love him, more probably now than I ever did. He is the one for me you know, Pascal says "The heart has reasons that reason cannot know." I have always known I loved him, but today for some reason, it hit me like a ton of bricks that he is the one. The only guy I ever want to be with. I hope me telling you this Peyton doesn't throw a loop in things between us.
"Oh Brooke, I am so glad that you finally realized that he is the one. Even when I thought I was in love with him, deep down I knew he was meant to be with you! I am so happy for you! Now what are you going to do with these newly found feelings? Asked Peyton
Well I have decided I am going to tell him how I feel and I just hope he feels the same way. I just wanted to try and patch things up with you before I went and opened my heart up to him.
"Well if I know Lucas just right, and I think I do, he is madly insanely still in love with you! I can see it in his eyes every time your name is mentioned! All I have to say Brooke is, go get your man and don't let your fears stand in the way this time!!" replied Peyton
I am not letting anything stand in the way of how I feel anymore! Life is too short Peyton and I am not going to live in fear of the unknown anymore! Thank you so much for understanding!!!
"No problem!! Anything for my B. Davis!! Now go, get out of here and go get your man but call me with the details!" said Peyton
I will, don't worry Peyton!! I turned to head to the door and I turned back and ran up to Peyton to give her the biggest hug ever! I love you P. Sawyer, don't ever forget that!
"I love you too B. Davis! Don't worry I won't ever forget it! Don't you ever forget it either!" replied Peyton
I won't best friend! And with that I ran out the door, down the steps I first took a couple of hours ago to go make that blonde hair, blue eyed boy that I love with all my heart mine again for always and forever!