Hi again! My second story, oneshot. Story about Krad's feelings, non-yaoi, Krad's POV.
I do not own DNAngel, but I own this story and those feelings.
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It's not unusual for me to have feelings like hatred and arrogance – but where do they come from? Why do I feel like this? And do I have real friends? Or am I just exploitatior?
These so called 'friends' I have, they don't stay by my side when they should and they won't leave me alone when they should. They don't understand me! Or am I the one who doesn't understand them? HOW SHOULD I KNOW!?
And they always judge my doings, like 'Why did you kick him? You're so violent!' And then they claim that I'm the one who judges their doings. I just don't get them!
These 'friends' tell me things what I said long time ago and when I don't remember them, they say that I'm only pretending even if I really didn't remember!
They won't take anything seriously. They just try to change the subject or laugh at me. Why this happens to me?
When I say something's their fault, they tell me it was my fault. MY FAULT? Every single time I say so, the say it is my fault. They don't even think that it could be their fault why I do something! Well, sometimes it really is my fault. But not always!
Am I the misunderstood one or are they the ones I don't understand? Or do I even understand myself? Do I even understand why I love torturing others? Why does it feel good? It's wrong, it should be this way… It's just so wrong for me to feel this way… Am I jealous to others? Is that why I hate them? Maybe it would be good if I wasn't there… Better without me…
Somebody…please…help me…
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or exploitationer, I dunno
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Well, those thougths are mine very own thoughts today. Maybe I won't go to school next week. Just maybe.