Chapter 4: Feelings Remain

A few days passed and Kira's concert in Reefside was coming closer and closer. The two of them hadn't spoken since they first ran into each other at the elevator. It was too painful for the two of them to look at each other. When Conner blamed himself for the accident that killed their son, Kira tried to tell him it wasn't his fault, but he never listened and that's how she lost the man she loved forever.

Kira was sitting on her hotel room bed thinking about what happened two years ago. While she was sitting in the cemetery the other day, she thought about that day at the park when she found Conner holding their lifeless son.

(Flashback)

Kira got out of the car when she saw cops at the spot and got out of her car. "Miss could you step back?" An officer asked.

"What happened?" She asked.

"A couple of teenagers hit a kid. We can't get the father to hand the boy over," he replied.

Kira's heart stopped. She looked over the officer's shoulder and saw Conner. "CONNER! Officer that's my husband! You have to let me pass," she insisted. The officer nodded and let Kira through.

Kira ran as fast as she could over to him. "Conner, what happened?" She asked with tear filled eyes. Conner looked at her he was shaking, but he still had Colin's lifeless body in his arms.

"I just took my eyes off him for a second. Just one second and then I heard the car and Colin screaming. It all happened so fast. It happened so fast," he babbled.

Kira looked at her son and the tears started to fall. "He's gone, he's gone, he's gone," he repeated over and over. Kira started to shake when it hit her. Her son, her baby was dead.

"No…no…NO!" She screamed.

She stood up and watched as they finally pried the boy from Conner's arms. Kira fell to the ground in tears. Conner kneeled beside her and hugged her as they both cried over the loss of their son.

(End Flashback)

Kira opened her eyes when she heard the door open and close. "Hey, Kira," Jeff greeted. Kira smiled.

"Hey, Jeff," she answered.

He sat next to her. "You okay?" He asked. Kira nodded her head slowly.

"Yeah, I'm okay," she replied.

Kira rubbed the back of her neck. "We should get to the stage to practice," she commented. She got up and grabbed her guitar.

In Conner's room, Conner was going to see the practice to see Kira sing like he used to when they were in school and when they were married. Long before the accident, when he and Kira were happy. He pulled on his sneakers and grabbed his leather jacket before he left the room.

When Conner went through the gates, he saw Kira tuning her guitar on the stage. "Freak you out," she told the band. They nodded and they started the music. Conner walked over and sat in one of the chairs in the back and listened to her sing.

"Beautiful," he whispered.

Kira looked out and saw Conner sitting in one of the chairs and felt her heart miss a beat. She pushed it back and she continued to sing. When she looked at Conner, she saw her son. She missed her son she knew that was one thing that was missing in her soul, but she knew that the other half of her soul was sitting in one of the empty chairs. After practicing, Kira got up and walked over to him. "What are you doing here?" She asked.

"I came to talk to you," he replied.

"After you ignored me for the next year in our marriage now you want to talk to me?"

She turned to leave when Conner grabbed her arm. "Kira, wait, please," he insisted. Kira stopped, but she didn't face him. "You still hate me for what happened don't you? How many times do I have to say I'm sorry and that I hate myself for what happened to our son? How much longer are you going to hate me?" He asked. Kira bit her lip and she looked at him.

"You really don't know me at all don't you, Conner? You really have no memory of what I was like while we were married do you?" She asked.

Conner stared at her. "I'm not going to let the pain grip me anymore. I'm going to move on even though it'll kill me in the process, but I will move on," she stated.

"Kira…I let him die and that's when you left me," he insisted.

"No! No that's where you're wrong, Conner. You're dead wrong right there."

Kira turned and left him there to get back to work. "I just came by to say goodbye too. Because I'll be leaving in a few days," he informed. Kira looked back at him and pushed all the heartache away.

"I'll see you when I see you then," she answered.

Jeff saw Kira talking to Conner and walked over to her. "Hey everything okay?" He asked. Kira let out a sigh.

"I don't know, Jeff, I really don't know," she replied.

Conner left and went back to his hotel room to get ready to leave.