I've had a bad few days, but hope you like this chapter, I've learned I don't really like my own writing, it's kind of like listening to yourself on an answering machine.

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I am sitting on top of a very hot Sara who just said I was the sexiest woman god ever created. I think I may be having sensory overload. I need answers not to be turned on more by her purring in my ear. Ok, I must get some distance so I can keep my head on straight, even though I love this lightheaded feeling I'm getting from being so close to her. I lift myself up and plop over on the love seat beside her, but grab a hold of her hand, I still want to feel the warmth of her on me, even if it is something as simple as holding her hand.

"Sara, we need to talk. And I know you're not one for really talking, but I want you to tell me what's going on."

She gets this cute little smile on her face… I think the alcohol is doing us wonders, any other time she'd probably jump me and tell me to stay out of her head.

"Sure, let's talk, but what do you say we have those last shots first?"

I nod and we take the shot glasses in our hands and down them, and have a sip of our chaser.

"Ok, Cat, what do you want to know?"

I would have to say we are both getting drunk, with my luck neither one of us will remember what the hell happened come tomorrow. Oh, well, might as well jump right in.

"You said you said my name when we were first kissing because you smelt my perfume, right?

"Ya."

"Ok so was it just a weird coincidence that you were attracted to someone that looked like me"

Oh, man, Cat has this cute mother look in her eyes, like please tell me the truth and you'll be rewarded. I am just going to have to tell her everything, I hope she can handle it.

"You sure you want to know the truth? The consequences to the truth could be disastrous."

What on earth could Sara mean by that, guess there's only one way to find out… "Yes, I'm sure."

"Well Cath, it's this simple, I get so frustrated with all the fighting that we do that, when we finish a case together I want to screw someone that looks just like you. I want to make them scream. If I could have you, if I could take you, if I could make you scream out in a fit of passion, instead of in anger, I'd take you. But, I can't have you so, I get the closest thing I can, someone who looks like you. They never compare to you, they have no self esteem, they don't push back like imagine you would, they just go with me, let me fuck them, they try to get me off, but they aren't you, so it just doesn't work. "

Catherine Willows keep your cool, don't let her see how much her words just affected you, those words did just come out of her mouth right? Yes, they did, ok she's waiting for me to say something. You're the one who asked the question, you had to know that might be one of her answers.

"How long have you felt this way Sara?"

"A long time, I can't honestly remember when I started going out and screwing people after we had cases together. Now it's my turn to ask you a question."

She looks at me to see if I'll let her ask and I just nod my head.

Alright Sara, you just spilled your messed up sex life with her, now you have to find out what she was doing here, why she came here and why she kissed you back to begin with.

"Why, Ms.Willows are you here?"

I take a big sip of my drink, god I need another shot. I look over to the bar and the tender see's me and shakes his head. I might as well answer. She was extremely honest with me and if I hadn't already had 3 shots I might have been more surprised.

"I came here for the same reason as you. This was the first time, when I asked you out for a drink after shift, the truth is I didn't just want to have a drink with you, I want you the same way you want me. I want you to fuck me and help me forget everything around me. I'm tired of the same old shit all the time. I like fighting with you, I enjoy getting under your skin, I like knowing I can have some kind, any kind of affect on you."

The next thing I know Sara has me on my back pushing her lips hard against mine. I love the feel of her lips on me… did I just say love? Concentrate Catherine the woman is kissing you… ooo and touching you in some great spots. And just like before she just stops, oh she is not stopping now. I open my eyes and go to grab her when I see her looking at the tender sitting down more drinks and am brought back to reality. Why the hell does this keep happening!

"Hey Sara, why don't we say screw the drinks and you come back to my place." I lean in close to her whispering in her ear…" I want to feel your fingers inside of me and I want to know what it's like when you scream my name in passion."

Before I can even blink she has a hold of my wrist pulling me off of the love seat and puts her arm around my waste dragging me to the door. Once we get outside she takes me over to her car and slams me up against it and starts kissing me again, her hands are tangled in my hair and she's pushing her hips into mine driving me insane. I push her away, because I want to get her out of those close, I want to get her home, I want to get inside her as soon as possible. She get's the idea and opens my door letting me get in and goes around and gets in her side and starts the ignition.

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I have a pretty good idea where this is going, but if you want to see something specific let me know and I'll see what I can do. Thanks for reading!

Nic