(spookysister7, thanks. Glad you enjoy the Sam/Martouf interaction.

Unicorn682006, thanks. Glad you enjoyed it.)

Part 15, Memories

-Selmak-

Martouf looks very hurt, and I feel horrible. Jacob approaches his daughter, along with Jack, who unfortunately for Martouf, saw it all.

"I wish to be alone," Sam says quietly. She's also hurting.

"I'm here if you need," Jacob assures. He lets her go. Jack says nothing. He already backed off when he saw Jacob approaching. I guess he felt it was more of a father/daughter moment.

Kilso just moves on to Daniel. Since he's not blended, his memory will be easier to get back. Daniel looks a bit concerned as he sits on the bed, looking to the direction Sam left.

"Close your eyes and relax," Kilso orders.

As Daniel does this, both Jack and Anise move closer to him.

Jacob looks to Martouf, who is now intently staring at the floor, except Malek is the one in control now. They leave, probably after estimating how much time they needed not to run into Sam. Jacob turns back to Daniel when we hear Kilso ask him how he feels. Daniel touches his temples. "The inside of my head itches."

"That will disappear in a few seconds."

Daniel nods, then looks to Jack. "Hi Jack."

Jack smiles. "It's good to have you back."

"This is..." He shakes his head. "Wow. It's strange." He looks to Teal'c. "Teal'c, hi. I remember you now." He grins, then looks to Kilso. "It's like Sam said, the details are fuzzy, but when I concentrate on something, they start returning." He looks out the hallway, now looking more concerned. "Is Sam going to be all right? Shouldn't someone talk to her?"

"She wanted to be alone," Jacob answers as he steps closer. "How close was she with Martouf?"

Daniel suddenly looks a bit uncomfortable, probably because her dad is the one doing the asking. "I don't know exactly how long they were involved, but it was pretty serious. He built her a house, and I got the impression Martouf hoped to be moving in soon."

"He might as well have," 'Anise' adds.

Everyone looks to her, and I feel bad because I think we all forgot about her.

She blushes slightly, seeming to realize that, but continues. "They were dedicated to each other. They shared everything. He spent most of his nights with..." She pauses and looks to Jacob. "..at the house."

Jacob quickly eradicates what she was going to say from his mind.

"He even started working on the soil in case she wanted to farm," she continues.

"Sounds a little controlling," Jack remarks.

Well, that's Malek for you. When his mind is set to a goal, he can get a bit dominating until he reaches that goal.

"I'm sure he would have backed off if she wanted him to," Jacob responds, which is true.

'Anise' is frowning. "I thought the relationship would last."

"Well, it ended instead," Jack says.

I understand why Jack feels the way he does, but I wish he were a little more sensitive when it came to the Tok'ra. I wonder if he even realizes that there is a reason most Tok'ra only deal with the Tau'ri once.

He's comfortable saying what he feels, Jacob thinks.

Yeah. He's lucky the Tok'ra don't return the favor.

Jacob looks to Daniel. "Is there anything else I should know?"

"No...not that I know." Daniel blushes. "I kind of got involved with...someone else, so I wasn't really paying that much attention."

Jacob nods and walks away. So does Anise.

"I guess you'll be needing to go back and talk to her," Jack says.

"Not really."

Jack probably doesn't realize they can still be heard. Anise seems to be purposely staying just within earshot. Jacob is busy, not paying attention, but I am. "Isn't that a bit rude?" Jack asks.

"It wasn't a local."

"What then...? Freya?"

"Yes."

"That's...isn't that a little...odd? I mean...with Freya liking... Then the symbiote..."

There is something I'm not getting. Freya liked someone?

"It wasn't until you just pointed that out...thanks."

Daniel and Freya were together? That's not going to be good. Jacob heads out. Aw.

-Daniel-

Jack leaves soon after Jacob does, leaving me alone with Freya and...whoever the symbiote is. Okay, so I fell in love with two people. One who liked Jack before this, and another who might normally be male. "Were you listening?" I ask when Jack leaves.

"Yes."

Though...Anise liked me before, and whoever it is liked me after the memory lost. Maybe it is Anise. "Some people would consider that to be rude."

"Some would consider the conversation to be rude."

I grin. "True."

She gives Freya control. "Is this the end?"

"I don't know." For all I know she can get her memory back and decide she likes Jack again.

She smiles. "No girlfriends or wives?"

"No... Not currently."

She kisses me.

I smile then kiss her this time. "You should probably rest before you get your memory back."

"Oh, probably." He frowns slightly. "Before this I was reading about the Tok'ra. It's interesting to read about your own people before you remember being one of them. Some of the traditions are strange. I also read about the funeral they had for us when they thought we were dead." She grins. "It was interesting."

That's just a tad bit morbid. "You read about your own funeral. Wait...they had a funeral for the Tok'ra?" I hadn't realize how much they gave up on us.

"Yes, and for Samantha."

I frown. "So...the Tok'ra had a funeral for everyone but me."

She frowns. "I guess they did."

"That's a little insulting."

"You aren't a Tok'ra, and I know Samantha isn't, but I guess she used to be. I didn't really fully understand that part."

I decide not to explain it to her. She'll remember when she gets her memories back.

"Kela'an has been helping me find all the information we need. He and Drack have been very helpful."

"That's nice of them."

She nods. "I'll go read some more about the Tok'ra."

"You do that." I watch as she leaves, then go to find Jack. At least that was the plan, but I find myself at Sam's quarters. "Hi."

She looks up. "Hi Daniel."

"Am I disturbing?"

"You can come in."

I come in and sit down. "Have you figured out which symbiote is which?"

She smiles. "No. I haven't thought about that."

"How's 'Carter?'"

"Doing something she knows she shouldn't be doing." Her eyes look up as she glares, as if glaring at her own symbiote.

-'Carter'-

I pull back from what I was doing. What? I hear Daniel ask what I'm doing.

Samantha looks to Daniel. "She keeps looking at Jolinar's memories."

"I don't think Jolinar would like that."

I'm trying to figure her out, I say.

You keep getting depressed as you look through, and they aren't your memories..

Nor are they yours, but you get them. You don't even want them. Shouldn't someone try to figure why she did it? Maybe it'll help you.

I don't want you to regret it.

I don't want to regret not helping you while I had the chance. She broke you, and I want to fix it.

She broke me?

Left you hurt, confused, and altered.

Actually, most of the "alterings" have been a good thing, except for the memories.

I just want to help.

I know.

And I love you.

I love you too.

And you are neglecting Daniel.

"Oh!" She looks to Daniel. "Sorry, we started talking and-"

"Don't worry. I've had Freya and 'Anise' do that with me."

Samantha smiles. "'Carter' is trying to help me. She thinks if I know exactly what Jolinar was thinking at the time, it would help."

"Would it?"

"I don't know." Samantha glances down. "I already forgave her a long time ago." She notices Kilso coming in. "Has it been an hour?"

"Yes." He starts scanning her.

I wiggle. His scans make me itchy.

Samantha chuckles and reports this to Kilso.

He smiles lightly. "Sorry, but she'll have to be itchy for a few more seconds." He asks a few questions before deciding it's all going well. "I'll be getting the others to return their memory."

Daniel watches him as he leaves, then looks back to us. "We should be there."

Samantha nods. "Yeah." She gets up and they start heading back to the healing room. They find they are the last to arrive.

Gete grins as he hops on of the beds as he looks to Kilso. "I'm ready."

Aw, he's ready now. He wasn't ready before.

Kilso approaches him. "Are you certain?"

"Yep."

"You may want to-"

"I've gone four months without Aldwin. The next couple days won't be any different."

"Yes, but this time you'll be remembering him."

"Hmph." Gete closes his eyes to assure he is ready.

Kilso glances to the others before he starts working on Gete. In a few seconds Gete looks sadder than he was. He forces a smile. "I told you I'd be fine." He hops off the bed. "Who's next?"

Amb sits down while Freya approaches us. "Uh..." She grins slightly. "I wanted to tell you that you were a great roommate."

Samantha is a bit surprised. Kind of an odd conversation to start. "You were too."

"I've been hearing that we don't get along, so I thought I should tell you before I get my memories back."

Samantha smiles. "I don't think it's that we don't get along, it just...well, I don't think we ever really agree on anything."

"Wouldn't that mean we don't get along?"

"In a way. We just kind of knew each other, occasionally worked together. That was about it."

I notice Martouf approaching one of the bed's now. It's Martouf's turn.

Samantha looks to Martouf. He's going to remember everything.

I wonder if he'll figure out who is who. Maybe he'll figure out who's in his head. I'm curious. After all, whoever it is, we did fall in love with him.

I don't know, but Amb has taken an sudden interest in him.

I focus on Amb and realize the human does seem to be paying more attention to Martouf. Hm.

That's not good. Samantha thinks. It seemed she hoped I was Malek.

You wanted me to be Malek?

No, it's just, you can't be Anise, you don't seem to be Aldwin, and I... She doesn't want me to be Lantash. She doesn't think it out loud, but I realize that is it.

Let's see how Martouf reacts, I think. Martouf's reaction is leaving the room as soon his Kilso allows, much like Samantha did. He didn't even look at us. Well, if I am Lantash, that was very rude of him.

It's not you, it's me. I hurt him, and I'll have hurt you too.

We aren't even sure who I am.

Daniel approaches us. "Sam, are you all right?"

Am I supposed to be calling you Sam?

You can call me Samantha. She looks to Daniel. "Yeah."

No, you're not.

Daniel doesn't look convinced either. "He probably needs time to adjust to the memories."

"Right, like everyone else." Samantha indicates to everyone else, who is still in the room.

"Sorry."

Freya approaches. "Daniel, can we talk?

Oh yeah, Freya. Forgot about her. Does she have her memories back?

I would assume so. Samantha frowns, a little nervous now that she does. What if Freya's perspective of the relationship was completely differently.

It'd be embarrassing if she considered you a friend, and you just made it obvious that you didn't feel the same way.

Thanks, she thinks sarcastically.

-Daniel-

Sam leaves, and Freya pulls me aside. "Um." She looks nervous.

"What is it?"

"Remember when I asked if you were in a relationship, and we thought things could be fine because you weren't?"

Uh oh. "Yes?" This doesn't look like it's leading anywhere good.

"Well, it turns out, I'm kind of in one."

"Oh." I glance away from her. "How long?" I'm curious.

"Three years."

"That's a while." I feel bad now.

"Yeah."

"It's serious then." Not that I want to end the relationship if it's not, but I feel bad that she unknowingly cheated on him with me.

"Yeah. It's another Tok'ra." She pauses. "We're married."

Now I feel worse. "Oh, wow, you're... I have no idea you were married. You could have told me you were married."

She looks down. "Well, I wasn't planning on starting a relationship with you."

"Yeah, but we got along. We were friends. When we first met we talked about our lives. On this last mission, you could have mentioned you had gotten married."

Freya looks back to me. "It wouldn't have made a difference on Neeria. Me telling you before wouldn't have made me remember later."

I shake my head. "Yeah, I know." I turn away, not sure what to do. I can't believe I spent the last several weeks with someone else's wife.

"I should probably go talk to him now."

I nod. "Yeah."

She nods quietly to herself before leaving. I consider asking her who it is, but decide against it. Instead I just watch her leave.

To be continued...